Wednesday 5/13/09

I've just been through quite the ordeal... and today is the first day I am healthy enough to step back and write about it! I figure something is better than nothing, so let's go with it!

THE 'QUARTERLY ILLNESS' 

I've basically worked 14 hours a day, seven days a week for eleven years to bring you the content on this website. I stopped watching TV in 1991 and rarely even make time to see a movie.

So as I've been telling people, it's no accident that all these wonderful things are happening, and we're having such a phenomenal burst of success on many fronts. Divine Cosmos is a garden, lovingly cultivated 14 hours a day, seven days a week, for eleven years. And all of a sudden we've hit a quantum shift where the fruits of this labor are blooming around us in every direction.

The downside of this insane work ethic has been that approximately every 3 months, I get completely knocked flat with illness. The typical pattern was for it to take two weeks for me to get better. Most of these years I have lived alone, and I end up having to fend for myself through the whole process.

I'm ruggedly individualistic and have been known to turn down good help, feeling it builds character to 'man up' and get through it on my own. I certainly did not do so in this most recent case! Any friend who could stop by with supplies or good wishes was welcomed!

Richard Hoagland's partner Dr. Robin Falkov, a naturopathic doctor, advised me early this year about my ongoing problem. She recommended I start taking two packets of Emergen-C every morning in water (I use the unsweetened variety) as well as some kind of 'superfood' or 'super-green' drink every day -- halfway through the day.

I had been opposed to the idea of daily supplementation. My Montauk witness 'Daniel' was against supplementation for personal reasons -- he felt like he didn't want to become 'dependent' on anything, as it would 'weaken' your body. Robin set me straight on this -- the foods we eat do not have the nutrients we need, so we should give ourselves a little extra help.

I started following her plan in the aftermath of my previous illness, where as I said I drank a powder that had slippery elm bark in it, and the particles got into my tonsils and expanded, causing my left tonsil in particular to swell to a frighteningly large size, causing extreme pain.

Of course, I knew this sickness had some sort of deeper meaning I was supposed to get out of it, and the scariest part was that it had dragged on for four weeks straight, if not more -- carrying me through two different conferences. These should have been happy occasions, and yet in both cases I was in extreme discomfort.

The Law of One series says that "In Forgiveness Lies the Stoppage of the Wheel of Karma," so I did my darnedest to work my forgiveness issues out with everyone I could think of. That was when my health finally started turning around.

I thought I wouldn't have to endure this kind of sickness again, thanks to my supplementation -- but in this case I was wrong. I got hit, and I got hit hard. Thankfully it's subsiding after one week, not four-plus -- and I have not had much in the way of tonsil problems this time either.

THIS ONE HAD THE 'LONG CREEP'

In this case, sore throat symptoms had been going on since the previous Wednesday -- the day after the wonderful breakthrough I announced at the end of the second half of Rayelan's show. I was definitely dealing with some fatigue, but I was fairly functional.

I wrote up the investment opportunity in Convergence Pictures, LLC that Saturday, two hours before going on the air. And when I did the show, I was a little weak, and my throat wasn't great, but I wasn't in desperate straits either.

I had no idea what I was in for. It started later on that same night, and by Sunday it was absolute madness. We're talking total no-holds barred migraine headache, like a spidery set of metallic clamps screwed into your skull.

Severe fever and chills. No matter what you do you can't stay warm -- and then you're burning up. Sweat. Body aches. And barely enough energy to get up and walk around. When you did try, the migraines would flood you into a veritable orgasm of disaster, threatening your whole center of gravity.

I got into the habit of turning myself in bed like a roast chicken, every 15 minutes or so, as the body aches were only worsened by the fact that I was spending about 18 hours a day flat on my back. My main objective was to make sure my hands didn't fall alseep in these various positions.

I did manage to get myself into the tub, where I'd take hot mineral salt baths and those provided me with some relief. I would have to blast my legs with the hair dryer as soon as I got out so I wouldn't go into severe chills. It really was a nightmare... and as of right now I am functional, but all of these symptoms still exist to a lesser extent.

Right now I feel as if a one-inch-tall, three-inch-long horizontal metal panel has been nailed into my skull on the left-hand side. I have junk in my throat that I can't swallow and don't bother to try. My neck hurts, particularly on the left. I still get hints of chills, letting me know that my body temperature is unstable. Knees and joints still let me know they're not going to be happy when I use them. And my ears are still ringing.

AN INTERESTING JUXTAPOSITION

The Universe set me up with a very interesting 'juxtaposition' exercise. The update I posted, announcing an opportunity for people to invest in Convergence Pictures, LLC, was a phenomenal success. I want to thank all of you who stepped up and have offered to get involved -- I sincerely appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.

My partner Billy, always the skeptic, was veritably ecstatic. The latest news is that our writer can probably start in early June. We do not have a signed contract yet, but hopefully there will be no further glitches as we move towards the realization of this goal.

So for me, I have Billy calling me and emailing me thinking this is the "Best Ever," while my health was the Worst Ever. I literally felt comfortable telling people I again felt "deathly ill." It was just like what happened at the two conferences early this year, all over again.

I again have gone in and done whatever I can do with forgiveness work, and indeed found even more material that I had effectively blocked out, concerning painful experiences in relationships. I must say that it made me appreciate Wanderer Awakening even more, as the story took on a whole different context once these memories freed up -- and listening to it is a very powerful tool for awakening and healing, particularly for sensitive people who keep feeling like they've been taken advantage of.

What I put together in Wanderer Awakening is a path for working your way through the most difficult challenge of all -- Learning to Love Yourself. I discovered many years ago that this is the "Bull's Eye" of all spiritual work, and it is in our relationships that we consistently suffer the most when the self-love reflex isn't strong enough.

Wanderer Awakening is NOT an autobiographical story, per se, though it is based on true events in my own life. I designed it around the consistent themes I heard from the approximate 500 people I did readings for between 1998 and 2005, particularly focusing on how they suffered in relationships.

Each stage of the 'relationship game' is like an archetype, and I wrote a song around each of these phases. That's the deeper, hidden meaning of what we're doing... and I feel it works very well.

Hardly any of you have ordered it yet... maybe you have cold feet, I know I do right now... but that's cool. I certainly do not want to turn this site into a marketing machine, and I'm happy that we get enough orders to keep everything on track.

Guidance has told me this musical adventure will be very popular in the future, and the people who have ordered it have been completely blown away -- far beyond their level of expectations going in. We've actually had several people say it's the best music they've ever heard.

I think that's pushing it, but just the other day my mother was playing it in the car and a friend of hers said, "Wow, who is that? He's a really good singer!" She definitely had a proud moment as she let her friend know it was her own Number One Son.

OK, I basically feel like ass right now, so I will take my leave of you. Time for grapefruit and something to distract myself from my neck, which is now the strongest 'note' in this orchestra of chaos. Again, thank you all for stepping up and supporting us, as it really did make my sickness much more bearable.

I have also decided to start delegating all non-essential tasks to volunteers, so as to further free myself up so I don't keep collapsing from overwork. As time goes on I'm going to loosen more of my control over various things and accept the help that is available!

When I feel better our story will continue...

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I made notes about each song as I listened. My favorites are Moonlight Shines, Save Me from Myself, and Hold On to Your Fever, the last of which I would add (Reflections) parenthetically to the title. You are rockin on these, David! Hold On to Your Fever reminds me of some awesome 1970s rock songs. I like the change-ups in it, as well as in All Alone and Listen to You.

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0 #229 Richard S.A 2009-10-26 22:52

Hi David

A lot of people are getting the fluw now.
it's not rare when they spraying chemtrails in the air happens in holland to.I see them doing it.I was sick for two week.And I'm Still not better.I hope That with you are on the better hand. Take care For Your Self Seeeya

Greetings from The Netherlands Richard S.A

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0 #228 daniel 2009-05-25 10:08

Hi David
I was the same way.Killer sore throat every month.You have to eat yogurt with live bacteria in it.You are sick for so long because a virus get you started and then opportunistic bad bacteria prolong the infection.This drains your immune system. Your whole digestive tract and throat is populated by some kind of bacteria.Eat live yogurt to occupy the space with beneficial bacteria.
To help the immune system, Vitamin C and D,zinc,iodine are essential,espec ially D-3 if you don't get lots of sunlight.I've been through this for 10 years if you want to write me observer2012@gmail.com

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0 #227 daniel 2009-05-25 10:08

Hi David
I was the same way.Killer sore throat every month.You have to eat yogurt with live bacteria in it.You are sick for so long because a virus get you started and then opportunistic bad bacteria prolong the infection.This drains your immune system. Your whole digestive tract and throat is populated by some kind of bacteria.Eat live yogurt to occupy the space with beneficial bacteria.
To help the immune system, Vitamin C and D,zinc,iodine are essential,espec ially D-3 if you don't get lots of sunlight.I've been through this for 10 years if you want to write me observer2012@gmail.com

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0 #226 Feel Better 2009-05-19 13:43

Hope you're feeling better so your story will continue...

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0 #225 Feel Better 2009-05-19 13:43

Hope you're feeling better so your story will continue...

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0 #224 Greg West 2009-05-18 04:26

Hope your doing better David!! Getting a little worried. (know I shouldn't) My cure to add to the list is accupressure for the headache. A pressure point in the thick between the thumb and index finger. Use a 1/2 inch wodden dowel(wooden spoon works great) on it. There's one in the hollow on each side of the base of your skull. Use a 3/4 inch dowel(broomstic k) on it. Learned that from an accupuncturist from Israel. For mucous I make a glass of tomato juice with 1 TBLS of apple cider vinegar, 1 TBLS lemon juice, 1 clove fresh garlic(crushed) , cayenne and honey to taste. Works even better than MMS for me! W'er all sending you love too!!

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0 #223 Greg West 2009-05-18 04:26

Hope your doing better David!! Getting a little worried. (know I shouldn't) My cure to add to the list is accupressure for the headache. A pressure point in the thick between the thumb and index finger. Use a 1/2 inch wodden dowel(wooden spoon works great) on it. There's one in the hollow on each side of the base of your skull. Use a 3/4 inch dowel(broomstic k) on it. Learned that from an accupuncturist from Israel. For mucous I make a glass of tomato juice with 1 TBLS of apple cider vinegar, 1 TBLS lemon juice, 1 clove fresh garlic(crushed) , cayenne and honey to taste. Works even better than MMS for me! W'er all sending you love too!!

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0 #222 Chris in the desert 2009-05-18 03:38

As someone with lifelong struggles with serious health problems, my heart goes out to you.

Even Jesus, Buddha, and Shiva took time for rest, and they had times of playful fun. They accepted offers of practical help from those who loved them. They accepted invitations to take time for rest and for fun.

You have people in your life who would feel happy to be of service to you in those ways. It would be fulfilling to them! When you refuse and reject that help, it makes your life harder than it has to be. Not only that, it also blocks the expression of positive kindness that people would like to share their gifts with you - gifts of joy, of positive energy, of compassionate support.

If someone makes you a helpful offer with kindness and generosity of spirit, it's not selfish of you to accept when you can. Actually, it's selfish to push them away... pushing to increase the sense of separation and aloneness that they are trying to overcome through the kind action they'd be happy to do for you.

I recommend that you let someone whose kind nature you trust stay with you for the next few days. Let them take care of you. Let them boil a big pot of water to make steam, and set up a humidifier in your room. Let them run to the store for you. Let them count out whatever vitamin pills and juices and herb teas you choose to take, along with aloe juice, tapioca, saltines, ginger ale, soft boiled eggs or whatever is soothing to your throat. Let them quietly set those things on a tray beside you while you sleep and rest.

If you don't have a video player in your bedroom, let them put one in so you can watch silly videos that make you laugh, and also scenes of the beauty of nature.

Let them sleep on the couch when they don't mind. Let them drive you to whatever traditional or holistic doctors you want to visit. Let them promise to not ask you lots of questions about your work at this time, but just to embody the gratitude and concern that so many have for you. Let them be the hands and feet of God in your life at this time.

I agree with the commenter who mentioned that you've learned the individual activity of Yang, maybe now you have a lesson in this lifetime about the receptiveness, quiet and teamwork of Yin. I recommend that you meditate on the Tao Te Ching and its lessons of accomplishing more by doing less, of only leaping into action when this is the fruit of a calm heart and a still spirit. "We put thirty spokes together and call it a wheel; but it is on the space where there is nothing that the usefulness of the wheel depends. We turn clay to make a vessel; but it is on the space where there is nothing that the usefulness of the vessel depends."

Let yourself have a space and time of rest and self-care.

As the current health crisis passes, let yourself be open to those who'd like to help you with your work; to have a personal life outside of work, and a weekly day or two of rest. People will not think less of you if you would be merely as devoted to your work as the Buddha was!

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0 #221 Chris in the desert 2009-05-18 03:38

As someone with lifelong struggles with serious health problems, my heart goes out to you.

Even Jesus, Buddha, and Shiva took time for rest, and they had times of playful fun. They accepted offers of practical help from those who loved them. They accepted invitations to take time for rest and for fun.

You have people in your life who would feel happy to be of service to you in those ways. It would be fulfilling to them! When you refuse and reject that help, it makes your life harder than it has to be. Not only that, it also blocks the expression of positive kindness that people would like to share their gifts with you - gifts of joy, of positive energy, of compassionate support.

If someone makes you a helpful offer with kindness and generosity of spirit, it's not selfish of you to accept when you can. Actually, it's selfish to push them away... pushing to increase the sense of separation and aloneness that they are trying to overcome through the kind action they'd be happy to do for you.

I recommend that you let someone whose kind nature you trust stay with you for the next few days. Let them take care of you. Let them boil a big pot of water to make steam, and set up a humidifier in your room. Let them run to the store for you. Let them count out whatever vitamin pills and juices and herb teas you choose to take, along with aloe juice, tapioca, saltines, ginger ale, soft boiled eggs or whatever is soothing to your throat. Let them quietly set those things on a tray beside you while you sleep and rest.

If you don't have a video player in your bedroom, let them put one in so you can watch silly videos that make you laugh, and also scenes of the beauty of nature.

Let them sleep on the couch when they don't mind. Let them drive you to whatever traditional or holistic doctors you want to visit. Let them promise to not ask you lots of questions about your work at this time, but just to embody the gratitude and concern that so many have for you. Let them be the hands and feet of God in your life at this time.

I agree with the commenter who mentioned that you've learned the individual activity of Yang, maybe now you have a lesson in this lifetime about the receptiveness, quiet and teamwork of Yin. I recommend that you meditate on the Tao Te Ching and its lessons of accomplishing more by doing less, of only leaping into action when this is the fruit of a calm heart and a still spirit. "We put thirty spokes together and call it a wheel; but it is on the space where there is nothing that the usefulness of the wheel depends. We turn clay to make a vessel; but it is on the space where there is nothing that the usefulness of the vessel depends."

Let yourself have a space and time of rest and self-care.

As the current health crisis passes, let yourself be open to those who'd like to help you with your work; to have a personal life outside of work, and a weekly day or two of rest. People will not think less of you if you would be merely as devoted to your work as the Buddha was!

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0 #220 Robert Butler 2009-05-17 12:18

I had a smart lady tell me once: When you are sick you need 2 weeks of rest or 14 days of relaxation. I'm sure you'll get one or the other. javascript:ac_s milie(':-x')

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0 #219 Robert Butler 2009-05-17 12:18

I had a smart lady tell me once: When you are sick you need 2 weeks of rest or 14 days of relaxation. I'm sure you'll get one or the other. javascript:ac_s milie(':-x')

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0 #218 cora 2009-05-17 10:44

hi David,

Got the feeling you are dealing with neg feelings of others and clearing them out (at the same time ourselves as we all our one), which in my eyes is reflecting what kind of pos feelings and attitudes that other people will put out in the world, this on a more collective scale. seem to see it reflected out in the media. wish you very well......

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0 #217 cora 2009-05-17 10:44

hi David,

Got the feeling you are dealing with neg feelings of others and clearing them out (at the same time ourselves as we all our one), which in my eyes is reflecting what kind of pos feelings and attitudes that other people will put out in the world, this on a more collective scale. seem to see it reflected out in the media. wish you very well......

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0 #216 Steve 2009-05-16 18:16

The love radiating towards your heart must remind you that one always must " Love One Another as One Self " is the commandment to follow so as to maintain stable, perfect, radiant health.

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0 #215 Steve 2009-05-16 18:16

The love radiating towards your heart must remind you that one always must " Love One Another as One Self " is the commandment to follow so as to maintain stable, perfect, radiant health.

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0 #214 Rama Kaur 2009-05-16 13:59

Dear David, hope you're feeling much better now! So many of my friends and family have been suffering with the same symptoms and it's taking awhile to get well. Those of us who used MMS had an easier time of it. Also, I use herbal tinctures that REALLY WORK by Dr. Schultz. Please check him out at www.herbdoc.com. He has a great spray for sore throats called "Throat & Tonsil Spray" that I've found stops infections early, right where they start. (I've used many of his products for years, and because they are so great, I just love to share it with others, no other connection.) I, too, wonder about a possible link between all the heavy chemtrail activity, lab-concocted "swine" flu, and how sick people are feeling with this...seems our immune systems are under assault these days. Hope you're getting all the rest and support you need to get well! Thank you for all your very postitve words of inspiration. Much love to you.

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0 #213 Rama Kaur 2009-05-16 13:59

Dear David, hope you're feeling much better now! So many of my friends and family have been suffering with the same symptoms and it's taking awhile to get well. Those of us who used MMS had an easier time of it. Also, I use herbal tinctures that REALLY WORK by Dr. Schultz. Please check him out at www.herbdoc.com. He has a great spray for sore throats called "Throat & Tonsil Spray" that I've found stops infections early, right where they start. (I've used many of his products for years, and because they are so great, I just love to share it with others, no other connection.) I, too, wonder about a possible link between all the heavy chemtrail activity, lab-concocted "swine" flu, and how sick people are feeling with this...seems our immune systems are under assault these days. Hope you're getting all the rest and support you need to get well! Thank you for all your very postitve words of inspiration. Much love to you.

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0 #212 Wanja, Holland 2009-05-16 03:50

Dear David,
Hope you are feeling better now. Strenth, warmth and light for you.
Best regards, take good care and bless you.

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0 #211 Wanja, Holland 2009-05-16 03:50

Dear David,
Hope you are feeling better now. Strenth, warmth and light for you.
Best regards, take good care and bless you.

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0 #210 Consciousness 2009-05-15 16:10

Namaste David,

Project Camelot Interviewed Jim Humble about MMS, watch it, resonate with it, get it, take it, thank me later.

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