Personal Psychotic Experience Relating to 2012
i would like to share a personal experience i had concerning a possible shift happening at the end of 2012.
in january of 2007 i was going through a psychotic episode (i have schizophrenia) and while i was surfing the net i came to the website of a local newspaper. you can download a pdf file of the front page of the newspaper there, which i did every day.
this time i noticed that the frontpage solely consisted of gray rectangles, so i downloaded it. when i opened the pdf the date said the end of 2012 and there where only grey rectanlges on the page with at the top as headlines things like: births : 0, deaths : 0, marriages : 0, ... .
i knew about 2012 but wasn't very into it and didn't make the link to a global shift happening as described in the ra material, so i didn't understand what i was seeing at the time.
so, it could be that i was just having a random hallucination or maybe my higher self was trying to tell me something?
my mother was also diagnosed as having schizophrenia, but "others" stated that she was manic depressive. for me it didn't matter - i knew she had problems. she took her "cocktail" of meds and was "ok" and when she didn't that's when the problems occurred. you mentioned that you were having a psychotic "situation" at the time and i was just wondering if you were taking your meds at the time.
i find the mentioning of 0 births, deaths etc. as very interesting.
be well, be love.
i had not been on medication for about 6 months when it happened.
i'm fairly ignorant about computers so this might be a stupid question.
but since you downloaded it, isn't it still on your computer?
if not, and because you weren't on meds; seems like there must've been some kind of dimensional leap forward to the imminent transitional zero point. at the very least,
i think, too, a message from higher self.
Last edited by WeR1; 10-14-2007 at 02:25 PM.
several weeks later i looked for the pdf on my computer but couldn't find it. so it wasn't something that was really published, but something that my mind or spirit made me see.
Internal Eclipse, Zero Point, episodes
i have read and heard from many sources that electrical/electronic devices provide a relatively easy conduit for spiritual communication. light bulbs burning out in a flash just at the moment one is contemplating something or thinking about someone who has passed, computer glitches, etc. i had a tiffany lamp that when purchased could be only turned on/off by plugging it in or unplugging it. initially i'd gone back to the store thinking i'd exchange it for one with a working switch but the display lamp switch didn't work either - stuck and could not be turned. then when i got out of a certain situation - probably a year and a half or two years later, suddenly the switch worked. after a few months in the new environment it could be easily turned and worked as a three way bulb lamp.
you might want to check out the link provided by light eye, relative to 2012
the internal eclipse, just posted on the 15th
Last edited by WeR1; 10-16-2007 at 04:44 AM.
i have a friend who lives in georgia. he was up here visiting for a while and he would say "watch this" and walk up to the tv, which was on, and make the screen go all crazy and then turn off. we laughed and laughed. it wasn't a trick either, he can barely be on computers because they give him severe migranes. strange happenings are abound with this fella
i have type one diabetes. am also somewhat energy sensitive and can sometimes see it. after singing a song very passionately i had made up the day before, which acted like a prayer, early the next morning i had a bad hypo (sort of like a mild panic attack), and just after/ during this hypo i saw energy fields everywhere (but mostly on people and trees.) not colours like you see in an aura photograph, but sort of/ a lot of/ alive colours. fascinating multi shapes, all moving, some slower than others. a really fascinating, alive experience.
normally when i have hypos normally my energy field comes in and i can't devote any energy to seeing aura's.
point i'm trying to make is that even if you are a schizophrenic, and i don't know how that is for you. it is very possible that your higher self would use that kind of catalyst to guide you. all's fair in love and war... right?