throughout my own experiences, i've been constantly reminded from within myself that "to forgive" means that i haven't fully arrived yet. only when appreciation and gratitude, combined with celebration for all parts and roles played in a moment, has the fullness of the gift arrived for me.
i was born in '64, and grew up on a farm with a large family. my family watched for ufos all the time--one watches the skies quite a bit when you have crops dependent upon the weather. my dad was gone a great deal trying to better the farmer's plight by by-passing the red tape of a shadow gov't. at nineteen, he'd taken off on a road trip around the usa and was struck by all the hunger in our own country, and it became his mission to try to fix that. so i had a regular diet of illuminati/world bank stories throughout my life. dad constantly reminded us to question everything in the news and in the media--expand out of the box.
as a young adult i chose to delve into it deeper to gain a clearer understanding of it and to do my part. i checked into meetings called freeman education seminars where a plethora of patriotic and alternative material was shared. but i realized that sometimes those who were "fighting the system" were just as frightening (out of their fear) as those they were fighting against. because of that, i chose to not be a part of an organization and to seek my own answers from within.
at the time i was terrified of the shadow activities and my own consciousness and experiences reflected that. i kept being reminded of jesus's statement to "love your enemies," and i knew that didn't mean pasting a plastic smile on my face and telling them i loved them. i sensed i had to have a clarity that dispersed all my fears surrounding them in order to actually do that.
i began to look for the gift to me in all my moments--especially the darkest ones--and, danged, if there wasn't always one or two there for me! initially, i may not have seen it in that particular moment, but i knew that it would eventually arrive--and it always did.
my point--without the dark, we would not experience our light and all the dimensions of love. this is the gifted experience of polarity and relativity evolving to unity. we're all playing roles for one another, as i see it--i've played some dark ones myself--and the best way to diffuse the most evil aspects is to see how they've personally helped me remember who i truly am and what i'm about. darkness is so that light might shine and be noticed.
i've discovered there truly are no enemies to fight...
much love to our beloved united states of america (a tremendous accomplishment) and our world and galactic neighbors...
with love and appreciation,