first of all, thank you, david, for authentically sharing your self with us. i appreciate your amazing integration of all the various topics from so many different aspects in such a way as to consistently show our inter-connectedness with all that is. i've been all over your website, thoroughly enjoying myself.
the part i appreciate the most is your sharing of your personal stories and insights--i can so relate to most of it. years ago i read a biography on edgar cayce, and i've got a tremendous appreciation for his work and for the human being that he was--i know it's got to be some tremendous-feeling pressure to be the reincarnation of him. and it shows--you expect so much from yourself (as did edgar).
back in the early nineties i took jesus's statement, "judge not, lest you be judged," very much to heart. i saw that everyone around me was a mirror reflecting myself back to me--and i saw that the really irritating ones were just showing me aspects of myself that i was judging as the "wrong way to be." so i tried extremely hard to monitor myself and not be that way--a very hard road, and not very successful, at that.
one day while standing at the sink washing dishes, i found myself once again in the midst of judging some friends of mine, and out of frustration with myself for doing so, i asked god, "why do i keep doing this?"
a warm, tingling sensation came through with the understanding of these words, "penny, how do you expect to love everyone else in this world without condition if you don't first love yourself? love yourself first--and the rest will be easy. i have loved you always, in all ways."
the tears flowed to beat heck after that, increasing with every realization of his/her love for me even in moments when i really thought i'd failed miserably as a human being, even when trying to do my best.
later, the same voice within would tell me, "apologize not for your own, or for another's, existence; for it's out of love we all come, and it's unto love we all return."
it's one thing to tell oneself to love yourself compassionately and unconditionally; it's quite another to actually learn to practice it. it took me a number of years to get here.
with utmost love and appreciation for all that you are, david, and for all our fellow human beings who are all here out of love...