its amazing... i'll sit and wonder what is lacking, what is the road-block. today i read the 3/17 blog titled "it only takes five minutes to predict the end of the world". talk about resonance.
i appreciate david's openness and honesty about his feelings. if i were to describe my "impression" of david, it would be a librarian - a "director of information". like it or not though, david is a leader - he leads by his "example". and, it that sense, we are all "leaders".
getting back to blog itself, the section on relationships really has hit home. i'm happily engaged and have found love. it was through this relationship that i developed the courage to leave corporate america and re-embrace my spirituality. however, lately (past 3-6 months) my fiancee (sp?) has been perpetually stressed out. (note: she is a "dogmatic" baptist, so our "views" essentially differ) i'll admit to being a "perpetrator" during times of my life and in this relationship, but lately our relationship has been "unbalanced" and i'm the "victim". so, as you can imagine, it has been difficult to "progress" in these conditions. i need to reflect more on this "lesson" though...
you'd think i'd feel "sad" when i read this material and the possible implications. however, it was very uplifting and reinforcing. thats what i meant by "its amazing". i felt a strong need to reflect on my "current situation", to find answers, and when i looked, there it was, on the "homepage", in an "obscure place". david's blog addressed items or "questions" for me, specifically leadership and relationships. i already discussed the relationship. for leadership, the message was simple. complete your "inner work" first before you can effectively do "outer work". so, in other words, i have been focusing too much on outer work without having completed my inner work. this is the reason for the difficulties and road-blocks.
so, taking lessons learned in other posts, i need not be "pressured by time" to complete my inner work. i don't need to be "perfect" or "ready" to lead others in the future. get back to "the basics" and "re-discover" love.