i'm not worried. what will happen, will happen.
i don't see any sense in preparing beyond what i would normally do annually for fall harvest/winter food storage, and i also live at sea level. lol
if we were "alive" before incarnating and will only return to that state of being after physical death, then i just don't see the point of overly preparing for the physical. it's just more "stuff" to worry about.
if 2012 is supposed to be a time of great spiritual growth, then anything material is on the side. and i feel soul growth can and does take place whether we are incarnated or not.
i for one acknowledge what is happening in the present moment and look forward to the events that will happen from now to the year 2012 and thereafter. i deal with events as they happen... live my life as if nothing will happen. i'm grateful for the experience in it all, regardless.
i might be more in the spirit of 2012 if i had a mayan calendar that i followed which might give me a better sense of the glyphs in relation to synchronicities within my life. this is how it is with astrology with me, following the moon around the signs and feeling the transits. i'd expand that practice to then somehow correlate that to the mayan glyphs - then my daily choices might include seeking connection in some abstract. maybe others do that already.
i got a block because of the whole 'planning my future' not crossing well with 2012.
it does effect my daily choices though. it makes me more determined to work things out. like i was down the other day about something and then saw 20.12. figure i'll be alright and who gives a crap anyway. i can forgive someone if i'm not going to be spending the rest of my life with them. (e.g. 2012 and you're out, buckaroo.)
i don't find we're really preparing for 2012, except that i am starting to meditate and continuing to work on harmonizing my relationships.
i do, however, find that we're re-evaluating our lives these days, and this has led to changes... we are buying land and building an eco-village. we are making great strides to live more lightly on the earth (improving the efficiency of our home and driving less, buying local foods, etc), we're learning skills like permaculture and beekeeping (my husband's new passion, lol), and planning a strawbale house. we want to rely as little as possible on money, and be largely self-sufficient, bartering for much of what we still need (we've chosen a community where we can do this).
one area where i actually have taken 2012 into account is our family planning. we have an 18-month-old daughter and have not decided whether to have a second child. however we have agreed to wait until after 2012 to see what happens and decide then if we will have another. we'd like to adopt our second, so i'll be interested to see how that plays out in the circumstances. i have a feeling the universe will decide for us.
Meaningful in many ways...
what a 'coincidence' i stumbled on this forum, and this thread...
this continues to be an interesting challenge for me. i am an engineer, by education, and was recently a project manager in a large corporation. thus, the daily life was about planning, goals, identifying and managing risk, etc. but, with the engineering background, david's work makes a hell of a lot of sense. over the last 10 years, i absorbed the information of the 'conversations with god' series by neale donald walsch, and see many similiarities and connections.
so, in the vein of believing that you have to plan and manage risks implies that you believe that there is "not enough", and thus must be protected. this goes against spiritually awakening in the cwg work, and also seems to invite the "negative greetings" from david's work. but, what a tough habit to break, being used to planning, and goal setting, and managing resources, and trying to go to a mode of not emphasizing what you believe you do not have enough of.
along with that comes the question presented here. if we wish to ascend in 2012, as i assume most people in this forum are, then why would we want to hang onto these "old-world" paradigms? i was laid off from that large company in 2003, and knew it was coming, and even felt relieved when it did. i knew that i was looking for something more purposeful, more in tune with what my soul was calling out for. i have 'been' with that for over 3 years now, and felt called to start a company that would assist those ready for such insights, those who wish to go from a soul-driven vision to a material reality. the day-to-day challenge, however, is what does that look like, what would i 'do', and who would want to buy it? but, i too know that if i focus on that as an issue, it will be an issue. so, i continue to move based on what i am inspired to capture and disseminate, and believe there is an 'audience' that would appreciate a business/science driven approach to understanding this awakening, and how to participate in it.
but, i still have similar questions. if i believe i am ascending in 2012, what does that really mean? will i wake up on that day, and not be in my house, perhaps not have all my family with me, or will i not even remember that i had this existence? will my house decide to ascend with me? given these unknowns, i still believe it just makes sense to practice what i feel called to do, and that is recognize the spirit in everything, and treat it with the respect i would wish to receive.
please, let's keep this dialog going.
what i am doing
often throughout the day i am reminded about 2012. because i do not know what exactly will take place then. i concentrate on love. loving my family, loving my life, letting the small annoyances go with love. it is really all i can think to do right now. i do not know what else to do. i do not want to get into fear based thinking. although it does happen. i concentrate on love mainly. i often think about how exactly it will happen, what will it feel like. will my family be ok, will we be alive per say. i do not know. having been psychic and a seer my whole life it stumps me. i do know that when i was a small child i was always attracted to chitzen itza with dreams, and studying it all the time.. when i finally made it there a few years ago and climbed those steps up the pyramid i had a major life shift. like i had been there before. i knew it somehow. will be interesting to say the least to be around in 2012.
How have YOU adjusted to the coming 2012 changes?
i'm having a hard time trying to link together all the information that i read/watch/hear from various sources that i feel are credible, without spending every waking hour in a haze of research frenzy. in a basic list, these information topics seem to encompass four main areas:
1. earth changes (repetitive cycles that have historically occured, or those that are now scientifically documented to be almost certain to occur)
2. human changes (that can be scientifically agreed to be possible - and have been proven or tested - such as dw's explained example in the project camelot interview of light and its effect on dna; the salamanda to frog example; proof of consiousness via human and plant stress reactions, etc)
3. aliens (first world-wide public contact, not just secretive black ops community or individual/personalised contacts)
4. 2012 prophesies (from various cultures, whether ancient or present today)
from my understanding, due to cosmic cyclic events, the 2012 earth changes/catastrophies seem, without any doubt, a coming event that will occur. i'm okay with that part. well, not personally, but historically and scientifically, so i have no unanswered questions relating to that point.
the confusing part is what will happen to me, and mine (in fact all of us), and at what point will 'this' happen to us? am i to understand that the inhabitants on this planet will move to another (4th density) planet prior to the earth changes occuring? and will we even know when we do move to the '2nd earth'? will we wake up one morning with full realisation that we have been moved? or will we be told about this by the aliens? will we have instant 'abilities' (such as telepathy) or will these changes only effect our young children - or just those who will be born in 4d? (i have made many mistakes that i'm not proud of - and i really don't want my close family and friends knowing all my secrets!) other information suggests that we must die to leave 3rd density and enter 4th. i'm not worried about death at all (i know i'm eternal) - but will i die and then be reincarnated to 4th density and have to be born all over again? or will i die for a brief moment and simply 'be' again - as who i am now, 32yrs old - but on a 4d earth to continue my life as it is now, with my family, in this house, in this country, but on a new earth, enlightened?
i don't know if i understand everything i read, but i know this: i would rather die now, unafraid, happy with the life i have lived up to this point, than go through earth changes and the hardships to follow that would surely exist on a devastated planet. and at the same time, i tingle with utter excitement at the opportunity to be in the 4th density world, yet i fear losing the family and security that i have created so far in this full 32 years of my existence. i've met and exceeded so many obstacles/challenges/goals that have enabled me reach this point of happiness with who i am and where i am today - and i don't want to have lived this life only to have to start it all over again!
do i sound like a prime 'service to self' candidate? you're wrong if you think i do. i am a 'normal' human being with the same feelings that i'm sure some of you must have who are on this forum. i consider myself soldily grouped in the 51% 'service to others' category, but i'm afraid of change only because of the uncertainty, and cannot seem to normalise the remainder of my 3 - 4 years leading up to 2012.
do i keep paying extra on our mortgage to have it paid off in 8 years, struggling with finances now in order to live affordably when i'm 40? do i keep saving every coin so my daughters bank accounts will grow and earn interest enough to buy their first car at 16? or should i stop saving ridiculously and just live comfortably now, enjoying each day as it comes and goes, maybe even take that family holiday we always wanted - afterall, we may only have a few more years left... day to day choices are getting harder, especially with a partner who does not (care to) understand the coming '2012' times...
if there is anyone out there who can answer some of my many questions and help to calm the itch for answers that i need to ground myself again, your words would be warmly welcomed.
i dont have great advice. but i still felt the need to reply to say "yes" it is really hard sometimes. when dealing with the hardship of the 'not knowing' we can become depressed and we can feel the separation from the divine source to be much greater in these times of wonderment.
we must always remind ourselves that we are here to experience for the infinite creator. so what ever you experience in your thoughts and feelings is of use. keeping the foundation of yourself with the energy of light and love is the key. i understand what you feel when your 'mate' doesnt feel the same pulls as you do when referring to 2012. in my experience, it has became a path that ive traveled solo, but i still enjoy the company of my 'mate'. i dont know if i have a true soul mate on this earth in this life. i feel that the two men i have loved had a purpose for me just as i had a purpose for them. all for experience and learning. i feel that some of the souls on the earth at this time have been waiting a long time to incarnate here for this particular time.
the one thing that has helped me the most is staying active with my earthly life. keeping the bills payed, remain working and ive even started taking classes at age 32. this has helped my brain! i know that sounds strange but my brain enjoys the human life, it enjoys learning. this was a hard decision for me because what i really wanted to do was go by a farm and start homeschooling my children and become a hermit who meditates under the stars all night long
i dont focus on the 4d and 3d negative....its too impossible for my brain to understand. i too totally feel that im in the 51% service to others...but i have the solid feeling that when this transition happens that i will choose to go where ever souls are still needing guidance. so not sure if ill get to the 4d in this round. so knowing that im experiencing my earthly life as i normally would keeps me grounded with the human self. balancing the human self with the curious soul and spirit self can be a hard balance sometimes. if i did hit the lottery or something, i think i would go buy me a farm and just soak up the divine rays. last night i ran across a island called turtle island...and the thought popped in my mind, "i wish everyone that was in the dc forum could move with me to turtle island"-then my 'other' voice was like "do what?"-i get good chuckles out of my inner voices. but i guess the name of the island sounded good to me because a part of me for no reason wanted to move there with like minded people.
some can feel safe by not preparing for 'after' 2012. i can not. i still feel the drive to live as i always have lived, but to put forth more light to others from now on as much as possible. we are human and we get comfort from knowing the bills are payed. its the hardest balance in my life ive ever had to experience but it gets better the more i firmly plant my feet with the divine light, the sol of the earth and the stars. the hardest balance was the time it took for me to research everything i wanted to research. i just wanted to withdrawal from life and not even eat or anything. i swear i could just read and read and read. if i didnt have children, i could see me not remaining so grounded with the human activities. so this is really to each their own in the decisions of what can we each do individually to prepare, and then it becomes what can we do unitedly to prepare.
if 2012 comes around and im still on what i know as earth, i want to start the building of another great pyramid or something:d i really have know idea sometimes why this silly thoughts pop into my mind
the experience is so different for each of us. and our preparation for purification can all be different as well. sorry if i rambled too much, i always do!
peace to all,
boy, do those questions sound familiar. i too struggle with those, and with a huge sense of urgency. i have been without a paycheck for over 4 years now, and the sense of being, and going with the flow is challenging my ability to stay centered and peaceful, especially since i currently do not have the cash to pay this month's mortgage payment. i go through cycles of really worrying about this, to greater cycles of being at peace, and knowing that i set this wheel in motion, and i know it will be as intended.
but, yes, my wife understands my faith, and has faith in me, but i know she can't comprehend what the heck i am thinking. despite that, she continues to show unconditional love. i just wish i had a better understanding of how to help her as well.
if you figure out the 'answers', let us know.