Hallucinating the "X"

[Makram Abu-Shakra]

for nearly 10 years now, i've had a rather strange but repeating phenomenon.
very often, when i close my eyes, i can see the shape of an "x". i don't need
to be in any inspired or visionary state of mind in order to see it, it simply
appears and sometimes even in my most shallow states.

over the years, i've had various innerscape content and intuition about what
this "x" means. the general gist of it is that it is a symbol of evolution,
that i am in the lower-mid half of the "x" and i am trying to penetrate the
middle in order to reach the upper-mid half which represents a form of
enlightenned state of being. the legs of the "x" represent polarization and my
moving into the selfless middle allows me to elevate into the middle of the
cross which is the portal to the other side.

ever since i started reading the david/ra/quo material, i've been debating
whether this represents 3d-4d harvest. over time, i realized that this was a
simplistic interpretation and i developed the theory that the "x" depicted the
balancing of the negative and positive paths. i've had various dream and vision
content that told me that i was a 5th density wanderer and this made me start
wondering whether or not i was 6th density harvestable and the passing through
the middle of the "x" represented reaching 6th density.

i've spent the last two days in bed trying to fight off a cold, so my
subconscious was quite loud by the time this morning came around. i first
hallucinated a very lovely image (colored mostly in blue) in the style of the
tarot cards, which i've intuited the title to be "the maiden of blue moonlight".
it shows a beautiful and tall maiden with her right arm fully extended to the
right, the palm of her hand facing upwards and in a cusped position, as if she
is holding something invisible and she is making the gesture of an offering.
she was wearing a see-through silk gown (to suggest permeability) and her right
leg was bent to suggest that she could not proceed further along the positive
path because the gesture of offering was hindering her movement.

next, i heard the message that "this comes from ra" (which i am not suggesting
that i am making contact with ra, but this at least meant that i can interpret
it as coming from a higher source). i braced myself for the vision but all i
got was an image of two fans, horizontally situated, each turning in the
opposite direction of the other. then i saw myself as a young child in a
shallow pond holding two balls of light, one in each hand. i was playing with
the two balls of light, and balancing one with the other. i said to the vision:
"is this a 5th density activity?" all of a sudden the "x" came into view with
full force, with sparkling stars bursting all over it like fireworks; never
before have i seen the "x" in such a spectacular state. that's where the
visions ended.

any and all feedback would be greatly appreciated.

much love to everyone,
makram





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[Hegemony@...]

some interesting things about the letter x,

it has many interesting relationships to a mirror. it looks the same inside and
outside a mirror. within are mirroring refelections of ^ and v. x is often used
to describe nothingness yet this nothingness is represented as a symbol with
form. so there's lots of inherently united duality within x. maybe this is just
wholeness to you?

j

-------------- original message ----------------------
from: makram abu-shakra <mabushak@...>
>
> for nearly 10 years now, i've had a rather strange but repeating phenomenon.
> very often, when i close my eyes, i can see the shape of an "x". i don't need
> to be in any inspired or visionary state of mind in order to see it, it simply
> appears and sometimes even in my most shallow states.
>
> over the years, i've had various innerscape content and intuition about what
> this "x" means. the general gist of it is that it is a symbol of evolution,
> that i am in the lower-mid half of the "x" and i am trying to penetrate the
> middle in order to reach the upper-mid half which represents a form of
> enlightenned state of being. the legs of the "x" represent polarization and
my
> moving into the selfless middle allows me to elevate into the middle of the
> cross which is the portal to the other side.
>
> ever since i started reading the david/ra/quo material, i've been debating
> whether this represents 3d-4d harvest. over time, i realized that this was a
> simplistic interpretation and i developed the theory that the "x" depicted the
> balancing of the negative and positive paths. i've had various dream and
vision
> content that told me that i was a 5th density wanderer and this made me start
> wondering whether or not i was 6th density harvestable and the passing through
> the middle of the "x" represented reaching 6th density.
>
> i've spent the last two days in bed trying to fight off a cold, so my
> subconscious was quite loud by the time this morning came around. i first
> hallucinated a very lovely image (colored mostly in blue) in the style of the
> tarot cards, which i've intuited the title to be "the maiden of blue
moonlight".
> it shows a beautiful and tall maiden with her right arm fully extended to the
> right, the palm of her hand facing upwards and in a cusped position, as if she
> is holding something invisible and she is making the gesture of an offering.
> she was wearing a see-through silk gown (to suggest permeability) and her
right
> leg was bent to suggest that she could not proceed further along the positive
> path because the gesture of offering was hindering her movement.
>
> next, i heard the message that "this comes from ra" (which i am not suggesting
> that i am making contact with ra, but this at least meant that i can interpret
> it as coming from a higher source). i braced myself for the vision but all i
> got was an image of two fans, horizontally situated, each turning in the
> opposite direction of the other. then i saw myself as a young child in a
> shallow pond holding two balls of light, one in each hand. i was playing with
> the two balls of light, and balancing one with the other. i said to the
vision:
> "is this a 5th density activity?" all of a sudden the "x" came into view with
> full force, with sparkling stars bursting all over it like fireworks; never
> before have i seen the "x" in such a spectacular state. that's where the
> visions ended.
>
> any and all feedback would be greatly appreciated.
>
> much love to everyone,
> makram
>
>
>
>
>
>
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[darrel clark]

'x' means unity,atonement,a lining-up,or tuning;chakras in harmony,etcetera.
the same as '1111' 'below as above' 'the unknown known' 'yin in accord w/
yang' -'x' means 'yoga' -anyway,that's my feedback,or 2cents
-darrel

from: "makram abu-shakra" <mabushak@...>
> for nearly 10 years now, i've had a rather strange but repeating
> phenomenon. very often, when i close my eyes, i can see the shape of an
> "x". makram

[Makram Abu-Shakra]

> j: it has many interesting relationships to a mirror. it looks the same
inside and outside a mirror. within
> are mirroring refelections of ^ and
v. x is often used to describe nothingness yet this nothingness is

> represented as a symbol with form. so there's lots of inherently united
duality within x. maybe this
> is just wholeness to you?

yes, that it means wholeness is definately a possibility, but i've gotten so
much innerscape content depicting travelling through the middle of the cross to
be a big goal of mine, such a message repeating over a span of many years. the
idea that it means a harvest is a long shot, but not entirely so:

when i was in my early 20's i had a recurring dream that i was on a very vast
freeway that held such a large mutliplicity of cars that it suggested the all of
humanity. to our right and to our left were other freeways, equally populated.
i was trying to get from my current freeway to the next, which was a form of
graduation. i tried various times, but the entrance into the next freeway was
extremely rocky and dangerous, and there were many evil people trying to gun me
down, as well as all others who were trying to get to the next level. this
dream is in line with ra's idea that graduation from one density to the next is
difficult: "there is resistance at the edge, shall we say, of each
density." (session 82)

this dream could have denoted harvestability to 4th density, but i have reason
to believe i am originally of the blue density (5d); see my post entitled "tales
of a blue planet".

the vision of the maiden of blue moolight, with its blue imagery and title,
points towards 5th density. the offering which impedes the maiden from further
growth along the positive path is an example of the need to balance compassion
with wisdom. in session 41, ra speaks of their time on venus: "we spent much
time/space, if you will, in fifth-density balancing the intense compassion we
had gained in fourth-density." my specific version of the offering is my music
and other artistic pursuits which have been taking up all my free time lately,
so that i've been running around like a chicken with its head cut off. that is
probably the reason why i fell sick with the flu, so that i was forced to just
lay in bed and do nothing for 48 hours.

cheers,
makram







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[ursula1001]

hi makram,

this symbol could also be the hebrew letter aleph, which looks like
an x.

according to stan tenen, founder of meru foundation, the hebrew
letters are access codes or keys, so to speak, to other dimensions.

i have actually used the symbolism of hebrew letters in my healing
practice and i found that the letter aleph, as well as certain three
letter codes from the 72 names of god, which contain aleph, have
specific resonance in the dna and can be used to heal issues in the
dna under the right circumstances. dna and evolution are inter
related and there may be a connection for you.

ursula

--- in asc2k@yahoogroups.com, makram abu-shakra <mabushak@...> wrote:
>
>
> for nearly 10 years now, i've had a rather strange but repeating
phenomenon. very often, when i close my eyes, i can see the shape of
an "x". i don't need to be in any inspired or visionary state of
mind in order to see it, it simply appears and sometimes even in my
most shallow states.
>
> over the years, i've had various innerscape content and intuition
about what this "x" means.

[Nina]

--- in asc2k@yahoogroups.com, hegemony@... wrote:
maybe this is just wholeness to you?
> j
dear makram, j, and everyone,
saw that x is st. andrew's cross (he chose this cross to be martyred on
as he deemed himself unworthy to be crucified on same type as christ).
st. andrew is patron saint of scotland. also described as a symbol of
independence.
much about that x in "mysteries of great cross"(cool synchron)...still
reading.
louis wilson's cayce bk "towards a universal pattern of consiousness"
offered st. andrew's cross as an example which emblemizes the union of
the upper and the lower. he shows how we can picture the quinicux in
this 2d form and how if central point is raised to pinnacle(becomes
3d/vertical movement signifies growth, forms a pyramid and symbolizes
transcendental movement in consciousness. this is not unique revelation
rather quickest reference could locate.(his bk is an amazing
resource/not received recognition deserves.)
thank-you for sharing your visions!imagine many of us will be pondering
all the spectacular symbols therein! wholeness/holiness...nina

[Makram Abu-Shakra]

hi folks,

thanx for the refreshing new ideas about the "x" symbol. it shows how effective
it is to form a social memory complex; the fact that i've been sitting with this
"x" for many years now and each one of you succeeded in showing me something
new. i will sit with your ideas and take them into consideration over time.

i would like to mention a dream i had a few weeks ago which i have found
difficulty interpreting but seems profoundly relevant to the idea of evolution
in the 5th density. i would just like to note that since many of us are 5th
density wanderers, that our programmed catalyst will differ at least somewhat
than the norm, and that is why understanding 5th density is not a transient
adventure. speaking for myself, i have definately experienced strange catalyst
in my years...

dream of the shrinking man dressed in a suit:
(i dreamt this one night after experiencing very turbulent emotions throughout
the day. the turbulence was initially a reaction to an event which occurred
that day, but it spiraled out of control over time, so that i felt i was being
jostled about by some internal struggles that were vague and yet intensely
unsettling. by the end of the day, i felt dazed, as if i had lost the ground
beneath my feet, with little clue as to what was going on.)
three men in suits walk into a house made of glass. i hear someone say: "glad
you could get in." (this is a reference to having been harvested, a glass house
means living in a home where the veil has been lifted, i.e. not in 3rd density).
one of the men steps into a puddle of blue water and, very magically, as if out
of a fairy tale, suddenly shrinks in size till he practically disappears.
a female voice then says: "the fluidity of water is absolute blue."
i see a bright blue ray of light shining at us, coming from the blue planet.

the dream suggested that the blue density shrinks one in size. the symbol of
the "x" and my visions of traveling through the middle in order to get to the
other side suggests that the goal at hand is to shrink in size in order to fit
through the tiny portal. in the dream, there are three men involved, but only
one steps into the puddle and shrinks; he is probably the one in the middle.

this is still quite confusing to me and i am not sure if i am getting anywhere
with these ideas; but one thing which comes to mind is that if the evolutionary
process in 5th density is to balance both the positive and negative polarities,
and to embrace the all of creation, then i would imagine that an entity in this
process sheds much which is no longer needed, and in human terms at least, the
ego grows diminutive in size, till it reaches that point of awareness which we
are at essence.

any ideas on this one?

cheers,
makram








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[Ian Beaver]

hi makram,

i saw this and couldnt resist replying, i have also been seeing 'x',
it has replaced my 11:11 experiences. but unlike yourself i have been
seeing it in the literal manifest form though. upon stumbling across
so many meanings, i have become a bit bewildered as to its true
meaning but some commonalities in different explanations lead to a
cross +

i remember reading a book recently by rudolf steiner, he talked about
the + being the higher dimensional forming aspect of i think from
memory the cube/square. was the 5th dimension substructure cubes?,
sorry just going from my hazy memory. i think david had them in his
shift of ages book. maybe you were/are seeing a higher dimensional
principle in your mind's eye? :-))

peace :-)

ian

--- in asc2k@yahoogroups.com, makram abu-shakra <mabushak@...> wrote:
>
>
> for nearly 10 years now, i've had a rather strange but repeating
phenomenon. very often, when i close my eyes, i can see the shape of
an "x". i don't need to be in any inspired or visionary state of mind
in order to see it, it simply appears and sometimes even in my most
shallow states.