time is going to fast, i need to slow it down and get my thoughts
together. i feel like i am missing out on something or that there is
something i am supposed to do and i don't know what it is. i started
by waking up this morning and thinking about my ex girlfriend and how
naive i must be to not even suspect that she had just killed her best
friend and room mate the last time we met. i keep thinking about
calling her to see how she is doing but she is a murderer and as she
was departing i told her i loved her and she said steve i'm just some
girl you f'd and smiled as she left in her room mates car (and
unknowingly my laptop) that day. i thought she was joking and
didn't know what it meant. today i searched the web to find out what
happened to her and her story appeared in the middle of a bunch of
horrible crimes perpetrated by women. the website is in french
http://garscontent.com/511_novembre/7/fdj.htm but all the horrible
crimes against men (and hers which was against another woman) were
all in english. but when i saw the picture of the puzzle in the link
i felt strange because it's the same symbol i use on my own website.
i used babbelfish to translate the whole website into english and
looked around the website but if there was anything i am supposed to
learn from it i am not recognizing it other than the coincidence of
the two puzzles. i noticed. i have a hard time thinking of myself
as the victim in this circumstance, when reading all the accompanying
stories and i feel bad that the thought just being alive and that i
wasn't the one strangled should be enough. i've been asking myself
all morning, is the puzzle i found linking my exgirlfriend's story a
synchronicity or merely a coincidence and does it really matter?
today is wednesday traditionally known as hump day. it's a good day
to start getting over this hump.