what's up busy lives of the seeking and suffering and growing members of
asc2k!!!



though these days are magical and are becoming increasingly dreamlike as mama
earth aligns herself with the galactic center and the "striking of the clock
upon the hour" approaches near in time... we are faced with aaalllll of our
mental distortions which have the tendency to weigh down on us and bury our face
in dirt, squeezing our lungs of air, and deviously tie our shoelaces together
when all we wish to do is see, breath and run in the full feeling and vitality
of what it is to love... to really love... our brothers and sisters, our alive
animals, plants and rocks... all imbued with the infinite consciousness of a
creator who loves our pain and our judgment more than do we. we forget, we wail
in sorrow, we become complacent, we wonder if pain this great will be the whole
of our experience and we lose the experience of the magic that is always there.
that which carries us into full blown states of the ecstasy enabled by a love
that feels like it might just burst the tight
containers of who we think we are, burn through our ropes tied so tightly
around our accepting hearts and flood through our minds and our fingers,
connecting us to spirit, and letting us greet all of life on this planet with
the hugest and warmest of embraces. we smile in our minds and on our faces as we
say, "what's up, you over there, you hurt me, no worry, i love you. and you, yes
you, why are you crying? i too, love you. tree and the ground you sprung from,
the leaves you grow and the light you strive for, i love you. faces of the tv,
walkers of the sidewalks, doers of evil, ceo's, governments, personalities... i
love you. all soul searchers, like you and me, i love you. father, creator,
maker of me, of this life... one who is all... i love you." because the ego-self
steps aside and you feel other-selves inside of your own... some more than
others... you know that love is the sharing of your own identity, and you are
glad to do it, letting someone know how much you care for
them, letting someone inside to see what's going on, what is kept alone and
seperated.



those moments, they are real, they are who we are, who we are soon to be. the
self-created obstacles that we never faced before, that we are now required to
understand, forgive and thus move beyond, are only shadows... convincing ones
for sure. illusion nonetheless between us and the truth of our hearts. we are
inhibited by them, we sell ourselves short, trade in our strength and walk down
a road that will not lead us to our identity and give away our true power in so
much as we lose our faith in the certainty that we are so much more than our
problems and catalyst.



to realize this though we need just the tiniest amount of trust, or, faith. but
where, and when? where we need it is in the darkness on this side of the veil.
faith is easy in 4d, 5d and up as i understand. it's easy when we are in love
with the world and ourselves and are glowing with the light of creation. it is a
cinch to know that all is well when, all is well, to our senses. faith needs
exercised not only in the magic of being but here, where everything is backwards
and the confusion and despair is thick, here is our chance, here is our
demonstration of exactly who we are, as creatures of love ineffable. in this
illusion that we call life is our only shot to practice faith.



"these moments upon the mountain tops of your experiences within the
incarnational pattern are precious gold, to be treasured within the memory and
to be brought to remembrance again and again, for faith does not have its place
upon the mountaintop, faith has its place in the valley of the shadow of death,
if we may quote again from your holy works. thusly, one acts as if one has
faith, and in so doing is faithful, for nothing can be understood or known. this
is very important to realize within your illusion."



practice faith, now. and tomorrow and the next, till there are no more days left
here to be faithful. don't be afraid. don't fret, worry or freak out. you're
faith leads you. it is your north star. it leads you back to the only reality
that exists. a reality where god shines on us, no matter our action or lack of
faith. a reality where god shines through us when reached into because we lept
and trudged forward blindly and saw, in faith, that love is all that there is
and it moves through us. bring your faith into your valleys. it needn't be large
load of it, nothing that would take both of your arms and strength away from
your already crushing load. on the contrary, it can be carried in the palm of
your hand because all you need is a little seed of it... a small, mustard seed's
worth. when there is a house on your back and a career, a spouse, a family, and
heavy life questions all packed inside. pull out your seed which weighs one one
millionth of that which is pressing down on your
spine. hold your seed up to the light, give it your attention, give it some
hope... will yourself to believe that all you will ever need is contained within
that seed and then place it within your heart. then, you are connected to what
is real. the house and it's problems do not "go away", what happens is the
creator comes inside and shows you that you can learn, you do learn and you will
learn from all that seems to break and kill.



the consciousness aligned with the one doesn't give you the solution you think
you're looking for to "solve" the paradoxes and challenges. your faith has given
you an an eternal solution to these current problems and all those to come. it
shows you, the struggling, limited, veiled, perishable 3d entity that you are,
how to love your experience. how to accept it, embrace it, and thus, growing,
allowing it to fall away as you stand in the light of who you are.



your faith removes the fear and lets you know of your own power to follow, to
support, to give your life for - who you are. faith opens up your channels,
revealing the face of yourself in love and guilt, judgment, ill intentions and a
host of other distortions, no longer have sway over where your heart is yearning
and dying to move towards. that is, unity, and those you feel it with. your
faith is given to and placed on what the only thing that truly matters in this
universe is.



"thus, we suggest that that which one has faith in is by its nature love, for
any lesser faith shall fail. and when the seeking entity wishes to become one
whose use of will is most pure, one may call upon love itself to teach the
spirit that will and faith may be united, that the being may be polarized
further, crystallized further and take one more dusty step along the long road."



thus, for anyone who loves the idea of faith as i do, i have added about another
45 excerpts (given us from some humble messengers speaking of what one is) to
the "intelligent infinity.doc" in the asc2k files. the new excerpts begin past
the blue line 20 pages in that asks us to "rest and watch the stars".



best of wishes to all in finding your hearts and having the courage to follow
what you find there.



love you all : )
glb





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