Just thought I'd introduce myself, my name is David and I'm from the outskirts of Philly Pa in the good old united states.
I've always been a spiritual person, not religious but I never really did much to work on my spirituality specifically until about 6 years ago when my father passed away. The night I found out and was loosing my mind trying to get ready to get to California to deal with this I heard my father, clear as day saying "David! I'm OK!" And in that moment I had a vision of me standing next to him and I knew that from his perspective only a moment had passed but from my perspective I had lived my entire lifetime here on earth. When I got to Ca. I began noticing all the synchronicities that were the last 6 months of so of my fathers life. Just little random things that when you look back it painted a picture of someone tying up the loose ends before leaving.
One thing that I had always been good at was lucid dreaming. For a long time I just got a kick out of it and never really thought much of it. I would have such vivid dreams and remember in detail when I woke up what the dreams were about. I learned how to remember and take away some key points right after waking up then later I could use those points to unlock the whole dream. Kind of like the images in the movie Johnny Mnemonic. Now I realize they're messages... Opps... Wasn't paying attention.
After my father died that was the start of me trying to understand my spirituality and draw everything together. Early on I used to beg for more and more information and well I got my wish... And regretted it. I suspect my higher self was sending me a message. If I'm like my higher self, my higher self must be like me and I'm good with giving people enough latitude to get themselves in trouble but not enough to really hurt them. Sometimes you just have to learn on your own. So after three days of reviving massive amounts of information I was just about in the fetal position begging for it to stop. I have to accept that information comes as I can use it. It worked out ok because as soon as I realized that I became surrounded in the most wonderful, beautiful white light I've ever seen and just felt such love and contentment I can only begin to describe it. My parents loved me very much (and still do) but the love I felt that night dwarfed the love my parents gave me. Also, if you didn't know better you'd think I was high or drunk or both by the way I was reacting afterwards. I was just stumbling around, giggling and laughing.
Fast forward a few years and last October when my aunt passed away she came to me and said goodbye. It was her and my grandfather and she came while I was in a lucid dream and immediately after she left I woke up, called my mother who was at the hospital and learned that she had just passed. Not that I had a lot of doubts about death and the afterlife before this; I now have no doubt that death is just an illusion and it is in no way the end of us...
Anyway, onto my question on channeling. There have been times where I will begin talking, usually when I'm explaining something and I will start rattling of information like crazy. It's unusual in a couple of ways. One way it's unique is that I'll stop using words like "Um, well, so, you know, etc". The words will just flow out quickly and very smoothly. The other thing is that I've explained things that I have no idea of how I knew what they were. Years ago I went to school to learn to fix airplanes and I explained, in detail, the workings of a constant speed propeller, the history and design innovations and the specifics of the one in front of me. Part way through an instructor came over and listened and after commented how on how well I knew it. Problem was that I hadn't taken the powerplant class which, among other things, teaches how constant speed propellers work.... To this day I have no idea how I knew all that information.
So, my question. Does it sound like I'm channeling my higher self or some other being and can you go into channeling while fully conscience without any meditation? When this happens there usually is a sense in my mind that I'm in the background and sometimes realizing that has even derailed it a bit - I'll be speaking, realize I'm in the background, refocus in and just stop talking and I'll be standing there thinking "What was I talking about?"... I'll totally loose my pace.
I'm learning a lot and am having the most excellent time with all this. I really can't think of anything more fun, exhilarating, beautiful or entertaining that the life I'm living right now. It's truly awesome and it's great to find a site like David's to learn more.
[moderator: channeling one's own higher self may make for a good forum topic but just a reminder to those responding - no channeled info is permitted on the forum, other than that listed in David's Reading Recommendations.]