I don't know, probably not. I do feel like an "outsider" a lot, my psychiatrist gave me a diagnosis social anxiety disorder I always tend to feel awkward in a social setting I don't talk in public unless I'm asked a question or addressed directly. If I didn't have the internet I would not communicate these thoughts at all, it seems like there is nobody who even wants to hear these views and ideas "out there" in public. On top of my social anxiety I also have bipolar disorder so if I open my mouth and start trying to explain to people that "All is One" they just chalk it up to a "bipolar episode" and all my thoughts are automatically invalidated as the ravings of a lunatic. So yes I feel very out of place sometimes, but I don't necessarily think this makes me a wanderer. But it's a nice thought to ponder. Sometime when I entertain the idea of being one, I wonder what my planet of origin must be like and how it would feel to return. That part in the Gladiator movie where he has the vision of coming home to his wife and child, running his hand through the wheat with Enyas-"Now we are free" playing in the background.. This is what it must feel like..



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