lets see... how can i help visualize to you what i see inside...
so the symbol for infinity is a figure 8 on it's side. let us center this sideways figure on our heart. this crossing of infinity represents the unified point, where all is one and can easily see that there is no separation. if we now imagine that figure 8 as circular, such as a toroid, we can see that where the lines come to cross actually creates a funnel from both ends. are you still following me? okay, now just as in an electric jacobs latter there is spark or life that "jumps the gap". this may produce images in your mind similar to what a red blood cell looks like. in short, the farther away from the center the spark gets, in either direction, the easier it is to see the separation... or dualistic nature of reality, such that if the root and crown are at the turning point, of our imaginary infinity torus, they can be seen as touching the earth and the sky, and also the greatest identification of separation. to complete this picture, we may look at the solar plexus / throat areas as the first inclination of separation where most likely there is still "connection" or a jump of spark. the sacral / third eye as where separation is felt and contemplated. and the root / crown where separation is completed and in turn, integrated back toward the heart.
in my case, the upper portion of this toroid was wide open, whilst the lower portion was closing fast. in order to find polarization within myself a balance had to be maintained. this meant transferring energy, or attention, from the upper half to the lower half. anyone know what i'm talking about?
p.s. thank you all for taking the time to read about others. it is very loving of you.