i guess i have chosen to post this in the loo forum because it deals with balancing polarity.
i have found myself feeling resentment, disgust, antipathy, and anger about all the bruhaha going on the last 12 days regarding michael jackson's death!
i realize that i am being very judgemental about this whole thing, but i cannot personally sympathise with all the emotional outpouring that is going on. yes, there were many recordings which he did in his early career which i enjoyed and appreciate. but i cannot find it in my deep emotional self to grieve over the loss of this person. any more than i grieve over the loss of elvis presley, who didn't even draw this much attention, or president john kennedy which caused me a whole lot more grief than this passing on. why is this death so extremely important that the estimated "billion" viewers worlwide are fixed on the passing of this one individual?
that having been said, i realized tonight that i have some internal healing to do. as i said above i have been judgemental over this life. i must realize that regardless of how his life affected me, it affected multitudes of others, perhaps in a positive way, (though i doubt that the video thriller was a very edifying effort!) i have not viewed it but the clips are as repulsive as the movie texas chain saw massacre. perhaps i am not looking at it in a metaphysical way???, as some have suggested! i will not comment on those suggestions.
sorry! i still find myself thinking that this spirit has a lot of karmic soul searching to do while he is in the in between stages. i don't know if the child molestation charges were fact. i sort of doubt it. he was a child himself, mentally. i don't think that he ever progressed above his early teens mentally although i believe that he was a savant, a genius and a reincarnated soul with exceptional talent. i can imagine that he was seeking companionship with those of his own spiritual age, in a very innocent way, like a youngster enjoys a pajama party. so i refuse to believe that this person was harming children, just enjoying the sense of being in the "present" that children naturally express. so that is not the problem with my balancing.
what i have determined is that i must find acceptance of his beingness regardless of how he presented himself to the world. i don't have to accept his style, or his lifestyle, or his behavior. i find i must only view him as a manifestation of the creator who is a very different manifestation from the rest of us. when i look at his life, what do i see which is a mirror reflection of my self. after all, we are all fractal parts of the whole. what is it in me which causes me the emotions which i am feeling regarding this manifestation of rejection when the whole world is expressing the emotion of love and ultimate affection? am i off track or is this some sort of undesired influence?
i will deal with my own inner emotions and feeling, but i anticipate that this is not the end of the jackson episode.