maybe this whole thing is all a big joke. this matrix seem to have a lot of fun giving you hope after hope and then just as fast tear you down right afterwards and laugh at you and stomp you while you're down. I really don't care anymore. I don't even want to exist on this earth anymore. this 2012 ascension thing is the one thing keeping me from suicide. I don't know what I would do if nothing happens after 2012, probably add more salt to the wound.