http://www.msnbc.com/news/717299.asp

doesn't surprize me. i always wondered why "cancer" just sprang up
after 1945. i don't know about everyone else, but this seriously adds
to my distrust and distaste for my own countries government (not that
i didn't have qualms before as a pacifist liberal). i'm curious to
how this will spread among american media and into general public
opinion.

on a more personal note, i'm actually kind of glad that i entered
into the spiritual arena so late in life, as short as it's been. i
couldn't image watching the signs of the end times since say 1981!? i
would be so frustrated and anxious by now, more reason for me to
admire those people like don and carla of l/l research. my biggest
concern now is the motivation for monotonous everyday work. i'm good
at what i do, and actually have a decent job, but i'm still obssessed
with reading and researching about the ascension and other spiritual
related links. meditation has strengthened my mind and body, but it
hasn't slowed my curiousity. i wish i could get paid to surf the net
and write or talk about my beliefs and knowledge base. perhaps i
should try to convince an old professor of mine to let me assist in
some "additional curriculum" so that i could at least focus my
desires on educational purposes. sorry to vent.........

though my fiancee doesn't completely agree, i would love to chat with
any san fran natives. can anyone recommend any long books to hold me
over for awhile, i'm tired of straining my eyes over web pages.

pondering my ascension involvement...and peace and love to the
group
colin

p.s. another random thought: how bad is it really if a wanderer
doesn't realize his/her own duty while in 3d form? do they really
have to break the veil of forgetfulness or just be prepared and aware
of the ascension?