i haven't read the law of one lately, but i think i will return to studying them at some point soon. i have read the first two books so far.
i just recalled something whilst pondering the topic of "free will" today, that, interestingly, ra used the term "the distortion of free will".
what does "free will" really mean?
maybe it exists, but perhaps in a distorted way?
i was thinking today about the issues of mental illness and how these might effect free will. for example, when someone has severe clinical depression, caused by a chemical imbalance, which takes away their motivation and makes them feel joyless....they might be an incredibly loving person deep down, but are unable to express it in their daily lives because of the way their brain chemistry makes them feel.
perhaps these things, these illnesses, happen to people not as part of some punishment or as a result of any fault of their own.....perhaps it goes a lot deeper than that. perhaps the reason why these things happen is to allow us to evolve (love) towards a deeper understanding of each other. the people suffering from mental illnesses such as depression must learn to love themselves, and stop blaming themselves/ self-loathing. the people around them who find it difficult to understand people with such conditions must eventually learn to understand and learn not to judge them.
in the ideal world, it would be a simple case of "mind over matter". people who are paralyzed or disabled in any way would be able to walk or be cured through the sheer power of their will and thought. we would all be able to transform our bodies to be whatever we desired. in the same way, illnesses like mental illnesses which are not as obvious as the more external ones, but just as real, would likewise be able to be cured.
it does happen....these kinds of "miracles", from time to time.....however, as a general rule, this is not the nature of the 3d world that we have come to grow and learn in.....and i feel that there must be a reason for this. if all of these types of things came to us so easily before we were evolved enough to handle such capabilities, it might not be a good thing.
so basically, what i am trying to say, is that there is not always a simple answer to cure illnesses such as clinical depression, as those who perhaps don't understand would like to believe.
therefore, to get back to the topic....free will.
if clinical depression and mental illness (which are just as real as any physical illness) affect a person's emotions, etc to such a strong degree, then perhaps they cannot always be in control as those who are quick to judge and condemn might like to believe.
could this possibly be what ra meant, when they referred to free will as "the distortion of free will"?
i am certainly not saying that i think that there is no such thing as free will, as some philosophers believed.
on the contrary, i often find that what feel most right, on many subjects, seems to lie in the middle somewhere.
so maybe, when it comes down to it, all we really need to learn is to just love each other, and ourselves, a little more.