hi guys... i'm new here.
i'm not sure if this is a wise move to write this, but i think it would be ok to share this with you guys, cos i know a lots of you had lots of similar experiences that i am about to mention.
i'm really looking forward to getting to know these kind of people, or anyone who is just discovering those kind of things. so i actually think sharing this actually is a good thing to do. there also might be some who are uncertain of what is happening to them, so i'd be more then happy if this should help them in any way possible.
ok, so give you a quick bio of me, before i get to the point (originally this was suppose to be a very long post, but admins told me to cut it to 1/3, so you can imagine how big it was then :d )
i started reading ufo and esoteric books since i was 7, had a very difficult life (family issues), yet full of valuable experiences. after seriously doubting and disproving it at the same age, i turned away from christianity a few years after, and started to notice lots of unusual stuff such as synchronisities, 11:11 things, and incredibly strong tingling sensation in my back, which i now now is called kundalini, and have it very very often. another important point is that i figured reincarnation and thought of it as my own idea (hehehe), till i finally realized when i was 14 that it already exists i can feel a great harmony around me, and i really feel like i'm guided. at that time i also intuitively developed empathic and bioenergetic abilities. people seem to come to me often to ask me for help, and i seem to be treated as the "know-it-all" person when in a group. when i talk, i seem to get lots of ideas i never really knew before i was asked, so i guess this is kinda like channeling.
ok i know this sounded kinda raw and straight to the point, but again, i had to make it short so i could get to this:
weird thing no. 1 - something in the sky (or in my head)
when i look at the sky, i can see some very interesting things. 3 things:
1. i see some sort of white sparks, and the more i look, the more "dense" they appear.
2. i don't know if this is in my eyes, but i see some sort of tiny transparent circles, moving in the sky. also, there are some transparent things which i can only describe as "earthworms", which contain those circles within them.
3. something that looks like a flame of some sort.. or a smoke, but more like a burning smoke or something like that. it kinda seems like if i focus enough on it seems to bring out some sort of shapes. reminds me kinda of a low framerate cartoon, cos it isn't perfectly smoothly "animated"
here's a drawing...
note that this flame thing is kind 3 dimensional, and it's constantly changing. i would need to make an animation of it do show it perfectly.
all this things, and many more kept on happening til the present day. however, a few years ago i noticed something interesting. (i'm 21 now)
weird thing no. 2 - reality is not what it used to be
so, here comes something thats gonna sound insane.
have you ever been searching for something, checked the same place on and on without finding it, and then suddenly you check again a while later and its there?? happened to me hundreds of times. so i started to believe that there is something involved. this is where things started to become very interesting: i was walking in my town, and suddenly i see a huge building, that wasn't there yesterday, or ever before!!
i was so shocked, that i felt some sort of a waking up sensation, and i knew that i was gonna wake up or something if i don't control myself. and yes, i was awake. it just felt like awaking. so i calmed down, and everything was fine. until the next day the building wasn't there anymore.... well, ok, i started to accept that i didn't see it right, and that i made a mistake.
some time after that, something big happened again. i know this is funny, but i woken up in a different pajama than the one i went to sleep!! i was freaked out! no, i am not crazy, i can assure you that! and then i really realized that something is really happening.
later i was walking with my girlfriend home. it was late night. and it was sunday. once i escorted her home, on my way back i found a giant big hole next to the street, and a bulldozer next it. sunday! middle of the night! and i walked there 1 hour ago, and it wasn't there!! then i called my gf, and told her what i see, and of course she didn't believe me. she said there was no hole when we were walking there. tomorrow i showed it to her, and she was amazed too. she actually remembered that it wasn't there!
those are a few major things that happened considering this disappearing and appearing phenomenon. the more i started to believe in it, the more things i notice. i also started to question everything a lot more. some of them are kinda different to explain and write here like this, but it all comes down to the thing that sometimes i feel like i missed a dimension or something, hehe. things just happen around me without any logical explanations, and then only some realize it.
another thing i can remember, is that when i got out of my house, the moon was on one side, and then when i got to my friend it was on the other! we came back to my house again so i can see it again from that position, and yes, it seems that it really "changed it's position"! btw that time, this friend of mine realized it as well, cos he saw the moon a few minutes before i came, and he said if i didn't tell him, he would never realize it. i can't guarantee for this, as i can't for anything, and i certainly can't prove it, but for all except for this moon thing i'm sure like 99%! i mean, i could always pretend like i didn't see it right, and made a mistake, but no, cos i know there is something happening!
also many people that surround me and with who i interact started to experience those things, especially when i'm close to them, or interacting with them.
my explanation is this: this world is like a dream. in fact, in a way, it is a dream. now, remember when you were dreaming, and a lots of weird things happen and you don't even notice? its because you accept it all without questioning. and once you realize that those things aren't possible, you become lucid dreamer. and this ofcourse is one thing i do very much. i can really control my dreams, sometimes i'm not even participating: it happens like i'm a god there or something, and control the outcome of things. sometimes it's like watching a movie!
btw, i noticed whenever i become lucid, the people there start to look at me very strangely. some of them even run away from me, once i try to explain them that this is not real.
as the time passes by, i notice that i can maintain this lucidity longer and longer. i even did some experiments while in a dream. i tried to slap myself a couple times, and noticed that there's a certain delay in feeling..
so, what do you think? i'm really interested has anybody had any similar experiences??
i apologize for the long post, but i wanted to be as thorough as possible