Love to the World and her inhabitants
i think that since this thing has occured, there is more expression of love in the home than ever before. not only from ray and i toward pywackett, but also the other cat and two dogs. all are aware of his deteriorating condition and seem to express concern for him.
i have become more aware that all is one. life energy is all, in every instance, a manifestation of the one infinite creator. along with the four leggeds i also have a finned one, a betta fish by the name of rebel iii who is also responsive to love and attention. i realized tonight that love is appreciated and returned by each living entity, whether human, dog, cat, fish, or plant. and i don't doubt for a minute that even the inanimate creation responds to unconditional love as well. gaia, our earth mother does and will continue to react to the emotional vibrations we her inhabitants exibit and send to her through our intentions and actions. and so saying, i send deep and profound love to her as she is now reflecting the negative global traumatic mindset in the quakes and tsunamis in the last 24 hours in samoa and indonesia.
i gather peace and calm and physical relief for those who again have suffered untold loss due to these events and send it on heart empowered pulses of love right now.
so it is, and it is so,
Please pray for my mother
hi everyone -
through the midst of everything else we have been going through that i posted earlier, and the positivity that we have received made a tremendous amount - well im writing to ask for more, to ask for my mother.
whereas im the intellectual cool headed person and stress does not effect me often nor does emotion unless its in the extremes... my mother is the polar opposite. every little thing worries her, and shes not a problem solver in any form or manner, which just adds to her stress.
lately she has been worried because of where we live (we received a letter from the landlord the other day that was to every tenant, and it confirmed everything i had been suspicious of. from fighting to rioting, sorry to be crude but general 'whoring' around, smashing beer bottles at others cars, urinating on others mobile homes, and now we know for certain there is massive drug dealing going on here), she also is stressed over us trying to move. as i mentioned we have to wait just a tiny bit longer to get her credit where it needs to be, and thats not an easy task - however i have told her dont stress about it you just do what i tell you to do, let me handle the rest, but i still think because of the above shes stressing anyways.
well heres the big issue, that those two compound(rw?). she has always had severe health problems in her life, she has always had severe asthma (is on 3 different inhalers), has seizures from time to time, has heartburn alot... i forget the word for it, but in the past, she has twice had to have a surgery in her abdomen region because her intestines were pushing through a hole inside. shes had to have new tissue put over her kidney about ten years ago (and perhaps this has now failed)... but now it seems there are new problems. for the past several years, her legs have always had a tendency to swell up, however these past few months they got so bad water was sweating from her skin, her legs were so ballooned up they were very red in parts.
shes been going to the hospital for several months now for test after test - they keep trying to test her kidneys, and they are concerned for her heart as the legs swelling seems to suggest poor circulation.
lately she has been experiencing shortness of breath even while just sitting in the chair, and she didnt tell my sister or i, but apparently her she has also had the pain shooting from her chest, down her arm, and her jaw. these are classic signs of a heart attack or stroke.
today she went for another check up at our local kaiser permanente, to see about extending her temporary disability, and she confessed to her doctor about this. well her doctor sent her to the nearest large hospital here (henry mayo) to run tests, and so they are doing this and then will be transporting her to the large kaiser we have nearest us which is about an hours drive away, to admit her.
she told me that the tests they have done so far are coming back fine except for the echiocariogram and even though that has problems, they seem to feel the rest of the tests are proving her heart is okay. but they dont want to take any chances.
and neither do i, i dont want to wait to hear anything more before asking for positive healing energy to be sent her way. i know that to know the name of the person you try to send healing energy to makes it stronger, her name is judy young.
i have been telling her the things i have learned about the power of intent, to some degree she believes, but she believes it is jesus/god that is responsible for the healing, so although that belief can help her, she still has that separation going on between her and oneness, and therefore doesnt believe that she personally has the power to make herself be well and heal.
also, at this current stage in our lives, if something were to happen to her, my sister and i would be out on the street with nowhere to go, and thats not why i am upset now about all of this, but i have to recognize it is a genuine fear sitting in the background.
so i am asking for healing energy and positivity to be sent her way, so that not only does she heal but she feels peace and not stress.