Seeking the reason for Catalyst

[selketamun]

Hello all,

I would like to say that I find it such a great honor to be able to
share my thoughts with you all and also be able to share in your
thoughts.

My attention has been focused lately on a personal ailment which I
have had since I was very young. Through learning about pre-
incarnated choices, I can accept responsibility for choosing this
ailment which is the catalyst for something. I am at peace with this
decision but I also want to find the reason for choosing said
catalyst.

I read about a Dr. William Baldwin's work in regression therapy,
past life as well as communication with one's Higher Self. Through
these communications, it is possible to remove the ailment providing
that the Higher Self agrees that the Catalyst has achieved its
purpose.

Ra cautioned the use of Hypnosis/Regression Therapy in that only
before the most "sincere request" be made shall this type of therapy
be made. Ra seemed to be speaking mostly in terms of STS/STO in
terms of the Hypnotist when speaking of Regression so there was not
much discussion on the value of this type of therapy.

Has any of you been able to see the truth behind the Catalyst of a
Disease, fulfill the desire of the pre-incarnated choice by yourself
and therefore discard it since it is no longer useful?

Thanking you in advance for your feedback,

Steve

[j_stubler]

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> Steve,

Often times a good clue as to why you have the catalyst that you do is
the nature of the catalyst itself. Think about how your particular
ailment is affecting your life? You may be surpised to find that you
already have the answer within yourself. And remember -- there is
never any judgement --- just learning....

Peace and Light to you.....

[bluephoenix010]

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>
> Ra cautioned the use of Hypnosis/Regression Therapy in that only
> before the most "sincere request" be made shall this type of
therapy
> be made. Ra seemed to be speaking mostly in terms of STS/STO in
> terms of the Hypnotist when speaking of Regression so there was not
> much discussion on the value of this type of therapy.

Ra has also insisted repeatedly that the law of free will be
exercised. My advice to you on this particular subject is to briefly
consider the material but YOUR judgement is the most important.

I have noticed that the most severe catalysts have disappeared only
when a person has found their life path. This is not ALWAYS the case
(as far as I know), but many people destined to be healers, or
working with technologies, or writing books on the power of faith or
other such subjects, have discovered their work through life
threatening, or severely emotionally threatening, catalysts.

I would like to hypothesize that the strength of the catalyst, is the
strength and urgency of the lesson that needs to be learned. No soul
in it's right mind would undergo a particularly painful catalyst
unless there was an equally beneficial lesson to it.

Also, although I'm not sure whether this helps, I believe we are
never given a problem that we cannot handle and defeat. That not only
means that you are capable of healing your catalyst but that you had
and have the emotional strength to handle it for all this time, which
is, in a strange way, a compliment. Maybe?

[* Zia]

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....

My attention has been focused lately on a personal ailment which I
have had since I was very young. Through learning about pre-
incarnated choices, I can accept responsibility for choosing this
ailment which is the catalyst for something. I am at peace with this
decision but I also want to find the reason for choosing said
catalyst.

....

Has any of you been able to see the truth behind the Catalyst of a
Disease, fulfill the desire of the pre-incarnated choice by yourself
and therefore discard it since it is no longer useful?


HI Steve :)

Often the catalyst of dis-ease is simply the 'effects/consequences' of
decisions made and lived in a previous incarnation. Choosing to bring that
forward AS catalyst in this lifetime, and perhaps then complete with it so
that ascension is an option, makes alot of sense to me :)

What I have personally discovered in 'past life regression' is many-fold.
Firstly regression is not an appropriate choice of words to me.... I prefer
simply re-viewing the life experience in which cause of dis-ease occurred in
order to understand why one may still be carrying such a condition. Since
all time is NOW, there is no 'time' really to go back to :) For me, this
makes the 'process' much simpler :)

I will give two examples, for dis-ease/ailment manifests in many ways, cause
sitting in the subconscious mind, and is replayed through our belief systems
within future created events, until cleared. For example, why would a child
come in and perhaps experience a lifetime with asthma? Understanding what
'fear' asthma represents in the belief system often helps easily clear such
a condition.

I worked with a man in Australia that trained in a Tibetan monastery, and
used a very simple technique to link one to a particular experience. In
this method it seems one goes to the 'cause' of loss of the life of the body
in that time. Thus how we left our body behind often shows us what we
feared and DID NOT complete, and what then carries forward in time.

In the first example, I wanted to understand WHY I could not seem to get
free from a particular relationship. I immediately re-experienced the
ending of two particular lifetimes. One: I was playing with this man under
a house, could clearly see the beam construction etc, and he 'pretended to
hang me' from the beam.... and actually DID... and I was kicking and
fighting so much he could not get to me to help me... Interestingly his
name in this lifetime translated means, 'the rope'. I was still fighting
the rope around my neck, still kicking and screaming :)

Two: Another time and place, we were climbing up quite a steep hillside,
and a large boulder came tumbling down and landed on me! It was too heavy
to lift. The 'load' was of blame.... and until that was resolved I could not
set myself free from the relationship. Since this lifetime did not have
those elements within it, I could not understand the inability to get free
without seeing the past conditioning and beliefs, that once corrected did
indeed set me free.

The other example was profound. I had chewed my fingernails since a young
child, and had done all sorts of 'things' trying to stop. None were
successful. This was most challenging to see... some part of me did not
want to see the image for awhile... ultimately I was under a trap door under
a table, on board an old galley type ship, and I had lifted the door
slightly as I was a spy. I could see the feet under the table.... I was
discovered, and put to death by being burned like a pig on a poke over a
fire created on the deck of the ship in some way that did not set the ship
on fire! What was significant, was that I had held onto life for so long
over the fire, and the last point of letting go was by my fingernails!!!!
Thus when I felt threatened in some way, bodily, I found 'cause' to chewing
my fingernails. Since not being a spy in this lifetime, I could clear this
condition of dis-ease out of my life and did so :) For me, understanding
the beliefs one has taken on, and often 'vows' that are made across
lifetimes, have a profound effect in future lifetimes until cleared.

Sometimes those we have incarnated with, have entered with a vow to kill us
from another time, and their treatment of us is not so terrific, yet what is
profound is they are usually given an opportunity to SAVE that person's
life, that they came in to kill!!!! It is profound, and that releases the
vow and completes the past with Love :)

Seeing the past can also spontaneously occur when you arrive at the physical
location on earth where you may have passed from your body. You will see
what occurred, and instantly understand what belief is being carried and
played out in this lifetime, awaiting your observation and completion with
that fear based belief. In a fight or flight situation, I would tend to
turn and run, especially if outnumbered. Seeing that, and understanding
that operating in unhealthy relationships, I verbally expressed as a command
to myself 'I turn and stand my ground' and then gave the command of what I
desired to see happen (such as 'Leave now, you are no longer welcome here'.
That is a profound acceptance and change in belief/attitude, that allowed me
to stand in my power, and what was said DID OCCUR!!!! Once demonstrated in
one's life, one is complete.

In your genuine desire to understand CAUSE you WILL draw to you those that
can assist you. In creating that opportunity ensure that there is a strong
foundation of Love and Trust for these understandings to come forward
within.

Ultimately I prefer viewing the Akashic records for one views as a fly on
the wall, rather than re-experiencing the emotional trauma. That is really
something to consider, and can become a catalyst to achieving those
spiritual abilities to be able to access the Akashic Records in
consciousness, individually and on behalf of others. Nothing occurs in a
rush or impatience, and I would personally use such a catalyst as motivation
to achieving greater spiritual abilities while cleansing the subconscious
mind of past fear based beliefs. Motivation becomes quite a key factor
which RA spoke about, and as we get clear, finding a 'new' motivation can
become the challenge :)

Many blessings Steve and may you come to fully understand and release your
past :) Zia

[ethral3]

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>
> Has any of you been able to see the truth behind the Catalyst of a
> Disease, fulfill the desire of the pre-incarnated choice by
yourself
> and therefore discard it since it is no longer useful?
>
> Thanking you in advance for your feedback,
>
> Steve
>

My "Dis -ease", has always been a predominant focus on self worth,
or feeling valueless. This has been a lifetime issue, I'm now 45.
Since childhood I have put myself below everyone else. Never
thinking myself as good as other people. Less intelligent, less
attractive, less useful...etc. It has been cause for a great deal
of frustration. Wanting to move out of it, but continually
sabotaging myself. I didn't think I was "worth it". Lots of
introversion, and punishment of myself.

I have done work on it. Recently on my own I have done some "Child
Within" work. Looking back over this lifetime. This lifetime being
most clear to me, yet it's funny how even looking at this life past
can be really difficult. I was raised by 2 narcissistic parents. It
took me a long time to even acknowledge them as narcissistic. My
nature being always to blame myself. Always to think that people do
the best they can, to forgive them, and to say...."I made it
difficult for them".

You might think.....It's a good thing to forgive that way. And It
is! But you have to see the truth of what you are forgiving. I
forgave them, in away that is unfair to myself.

I have also had some therapy. Honestly though, it was very little.
3 months with a therapist, then years in between, before seeking
therapy with another. Each kind of therapy was different. Insurance
approved psychology, Studying in a new age religion (Therapy, but
also education, 3yrs I was there), And about 18months ago
Hypnotherapy.

A total of 3 times I "paid" someone to help me in this way. Also my
awareness of "what" I was looking for was stronger each time I
sought help. But it's been a slow process, over 18yrs, of not quite
knowing what exactly I've been looking for. I knew I had self esteem
issues but finding how to rid myself of them, the foundation of
them, was elusive. I would sabotage the therapy I would receive by
trying to work really hard, to gain something, to please the
therapist. Each time I did gain, And the therapist would be
happy.....but also each time, a feeling that the therapist didn't
really care about me, that they were just doing their job, that I
might waste their time if I didn't give them something. So I still
was putting myself below, giving the therapists authority over me.
I was being a "good girl". Serious confusion for me!

There IS something to money being a corruptor, I do not think asking
for money for a service is wrong! Not at all! But it can be a fine
line that is difficult to discern. So when RA speaks of
that "sincere request", I think I have a really good idea of what he
means. I agree that it is the STS, STO orientation, or the lack of
the therapists having made the choice. Perhaps they make the choice
half the time? Which confirms the need to find a therapist that is
right for you! I think even those who start out really believing
they want to help, to Serve Others, can easily get caught up
unconsciously in the opposite pole. For soooo many 3d reasons.
The "gray areas" are there and as we know, the individual often
cannot see them.

One thing a therapist should never do is give suggestions that
decide something for you. They should guide you to look at things,
but never suggest what you are looking at. Or tell you what it
means. I know it did help me when the hypnotherapist asked
questions that I didn't think to ask myself. That was very
helpful !

On 2 occasions I explored past life. Once in the religion I spoke
of, and once in hypnotherapy. The first time was left unfinished, so
that is why I had to pick it up again the second time. After the
first time It floated around in my head with a confusion attached to
it. 2 problems resulted from it not being handled properly, or left
unfinished. One was that I felt I made it up! That it
was "imagination". Which inhibited my growth for many years after.
Because I couldn't trust any impressions that came to me after.
That mistrust was also connected to my feeling that "I" was below
everyone else. Other people had wonderful memories of past
life's......"not me." Other people had OBE's, or dream guidance, or
other obvious and amazing metaphysical experiences ......"Not me!"
My own "worthlessness" issue. I really wanted those experiences,
but I thought wasn't good enough to have them. At the same time I
kept asking "Why?" "Why wasn't I good enough?" In the end always
agreeing that "I wasn't good enough." "That's 's just the way it
was!"....I told myself.

The first past life regression... I was a samurai warrior. Quite
full of himself. Quite the opposite kind of person I am today. I
was so full of myself that I abused people just because I could.
Because they "Would let me!" They would just lie down and let me
physically abuse them. They would become my victim. I had a
picture of myself in full noble battle armor kicking a peasant as he
lie submissive, in pain. I felt no remorse. But instead disgust,
because the victim would ..."allow this to happen to him".

6 yrs later, I had my second regression with the hypnotherapist. I
picked up the last picture of the samurai standing over a victim.
But the picture in my mind was changed, the rolls are now changed.
In the picture, I am the victim. It is my son who is the samurai.
This is clearly a medifor now. The actual past life incident was no
longer important to see. I had seen it. Now I had to see "more"
than the incident, to learn what I needed to learn. The message
that was being presented to me..... My son, this life time is a
sweet and loving young man. The message was.... "The "soul" is who
the person is. Not how they behave in an incarnation. The soul is
learning, and helping others learn. There is between life agreement
for that purpose." The other message I received was ... Once you
understand how to be a victim, you don't have to be a victim
anymore!" This was very empowering! Very freeing! But I still
hadn't found the foundation of what I was doing. Though I knew I
had learned the lesson of being a victim, and I was able to move out
of that being ness to a degree. I still denied myself my own gifts
in many ways.

I want to back up to 3 weeks ago when I found the RA material. The
resonation of the material literally "hummed" in me. I ate it up!
The physics parts were a bit more difficult...not that I didn't
believe it, I am just week in education in that area.....lol. I
started reading David Wilcock's life story. I appreciated so much
his honesty, and very human challenges! I read Edgar Cayce's "Story
Of The SOUL", by W.H. Church. I knew what I wanted most in the
world! I wanted to help! But I still kept thinking I wasn't good
enough. I wanted to be a wanderer, but I kept finding ways that I
couldn't be one. Comparing myself to what I was reading about them,
their gifts, and saying....."I don't have those gifts." I'm not
intelligent enough, I don't have dreams, I don't have
guides, ....etc. etc. etc. I continued to read, and the
information continued to vibrate, I to hum with the information. I
talked to myself...."At least I hope I am a 3rd density being who
is ready to move into 4d STO?" "At least I hope if I don't know how
to help, that I have made the choice to help?" "That 4d will teach
me how to help! Am I good enough to have made the choice?"

One night,I went outside .....Looked at the stars, and Asked....."I
want to help?" That same instant the house light went out.

Consistent to my habit.......I interpreted that to mean "NO". I
literally believed I was turned down, in my deep desire to help. I
was despondent for the rest of the night. Then over the next 3days,
I became furious! I became a raging lunatic! It mostly happened in
my head, I couldn't exactly let it out for the people around me. I
didn't want to be taken away by the men in white coats!...lol But
I was shouting at the world, at the sky, at the Universe! ...."WHAT
DO YOU MEAN I"M NOT GOOD ENOUGH?"

I raged like this for 3 days. And it did spill out into the physical
world. I did get angry at friends. I was like a dragon breathing
fire! My anger wanted an answer, because this time I couldn't see a
reason to go on! If I couldn't help! What was there to live for?

Visually, In my mind, I raged! I was beating my fists on a being's
chest. The being had no distingishing features. It was tall and
humanoid, and a gid like pattern over the body, black underneath. in
the way a computer image is generated before the skin is put on, but
I felt it was concious and aware of me and what was happening. It
simply stood while I raged at it, not speeking or fighting back.

At one point dirring the 3rd day, I directed my anger at a friend.
But he didn't give up on me. He wasn't afraid of me, and didn't
belive I ment what I said to him. I had told him about my asking
the Universe if I could help, and the light going out, and my
interpetation. I told him I didn't want to hear nice things about
me anymore and didn't want to be friends with him anymore. I hated
him! I really really was desparate. Instead of turning away from
me, he told me I was wrong, that the light going out ment..."They
Heard You and are working On It!" "How can a light that is already
on ...go on?"

That stopped me dead in my tracks.....

Duh!

Light dawns over marble head!

I Saw The "Light"!..........LOL!

It was "ME"!!!! My very own fault!

I was the one who all this time had been denying
myself "EVERYTHING"! "I" was the one who missintepeted the positive
answer I was given. "I" interpeted the light going out as "NO". ""I
DID IT!"" It was so automatic, so ingraned, I couldn't see what I
was doing! I was my own worst enimy! "I" was the one who told me
I wasn't good enough!

I realised "I" had made the agreement to make myself worthless.

It was karma. I had been extreem, abusive, and controling of other
people (samuri past life). And then, I was extreem in the opposite
direction (victim presant life). This agreement I made in order to
expirence it. But the lesson is now learned!

The "rage" was me breaking down my own prisson! It was Time to stop
doing this to myself! If I am going to "help" ! If I am going to
fulfill my greatest desire! I cannot be a victim anymore!

After, I had calmed down, and was looking at all that had happened
over the previous 3 days. Looking at the battle in my mind...I
asked myself...."Why wasn't it walls?" "Why wasn't it walls of a
prison, I beat my fists against?" Why was it that "being"? I had
an instant overhead view of me and that being. It was several of
those beings. Their hands linked in a circle around me. I was in
the middle of them, raging and fighting. I understood they had been
waiting for me to get to this point in my life lesson. They had
been waiting , prepaird, and there to protect me, and keep me from
hurting myself.

I have never before felt the kind of freedom I feel now. All the
other times, I had a taken small step....I felt elated......but
there is a very huge difference this time! It is as if I am a
different person!

Steve You wrote..."Higher Self agrees that the Catalyst has achieved
its purpose."
This is how it feels to me! I understand in the fullest way I could
understand. Nothing is left out! I learned how to fully forgive,
myself and others. I have this lesson conciously. I can understand
others because of it. It's up to me now. I can do anything I want to
do! I AM everything I need to be!

I know this isn't about a physical ailment. But it was
crippiling. I thought I would add my story to the others amazing
stories, as another illistration. I hope it helps!

Thank you!

Ethral

[j_stubler]

Ethral,

Thank you for that wonderful story!!!! If it helps --- you have
DEFINITELY helped this guy!