arcadia
01-29-2006, 04:18 PM
> --- In asc2k@yahoogroups.com (/group/asc2k/post?postID=orx5td4VORtp93AqlFVulPVekMBv81xrIUeSij Ep_4I2lJzx7mst5hahtcHcI2jsVsKv2n0HWzkYDG6J7O0), "Adam West" <adamwest1@i...> wrote:
> >
> > How do you see a negative greeting, in terms of a psychic attack, in
> > what ever form, perhaps a physical disease or psychotic break, is not
> > an infringement of the third densities free will?
DW: I'm glad to see Tobey participating from an informed perspective on this
topic, as again this is the type of question that requires a deeper knowledge of
how "the game" really works. Thanks... and I appreciate the humility and candor
as well.
By describing my own recent bouts with negative greeting, in a super-intense
form, it probably seems a little disconcerting for those participating here,
particularly the newbies. It becomes very real and visceral, because you are
seeing the super-advanced "post-Ph.D. version" of negative greeting in action -
far greater than what most Law of One seekers will ever have to endure.
I'm no stranger to the level of intensity seen with Billy, Daniele and now the
investor, as I saw my own companion almost killed in 2001 by a car as she was
walking across the street (which was exactly the greeting described as the
ultimate goal of the negatives against Carla back in the day, but did not happen
in her case) and then had a very serious laceration of my own hand on glass six
months later. Had there been any doubt up until then that I was in equal or
greater "greeting mode" as had been occurring during the Law of One contact,
that exhausted it for me. Greetings that were only HYPOTHETICALLY discussed in
the Law of One series were actually HAPPENING to me for real.
This violence did not stop me from completing the writing of Divine Cosmos by
April of 2002 - and a fair portion of it I actually wrote with a toothbrush
wrapped in duct tape and pinched with my thumb against my cast on my right hand
so I could still type, even with immobilized fingers. True! That's how far I
went to see that I was not interrupted, and part of the heritage of those words
you read. Billy and Daniele have been equally brave and unstoppable in their own
ways after they have been set back...
...and just now I got a call from Daniele after one of her classes asking me if
I am doing OK. I told her I was "writing and very happy." This shows how much
harmony there is and how synchronistically it all is working in the timing. Is
that not proof that this is all working out for the higher good?
The days of violence to myself and any of my immediate companions seems long
past, so to answer a private question, no, I do not feel like I am walking
around with a giant bullseye between my shoulders. I still am challenged but in
each and every case, I just hang on, and keep going for two very important Law
of One principles that were quite centrally mentioned in the material which I
will now combine in my own way.
Each of these things were cited as being able to "exponentially" increase your
vibration in a short period of time the more they are pursued, with each
additional seeking adding another power factor to the vibrational increase. No
other practices were said to have this "exponential" value, hence underlining
the importance of these ideas and of the need to integrate them into a yin-yang
unified teaching, as I will now do in my own words:
1. Seek to find the love in the moment. Ask where the love is in the moment.
Also consider that if you can reach one person you have reached All, since there
is only One, and the only person you can truly reach is yourself - you cannot
learn for another, only offer catalyst in some form. Therefore the love in the
moment may well involve taking care of yourself, perhaps for the first time,
defining and enforcing healthy boundaries, and doing things that may not please
the egos of others. If you do not love yourself then your service-to-others
efforts will never make it very far. Each new layer of love you can seek will
EXPONENTIALLY increase the energy available to you.
2. Reflect on every other situation you can think of from your own past that is
related to the issue of the moment, which you are trying to see with love. Each
additional past issue that you can recall that is related to the present issue
will EXPONENTIALLY increase how much energy you can call upon for your own
healing! Think of even five different specific things from your past that are
similar and you're talking an ENORMOUS increase in the positive energy you can
call in to do work for you. It's like a giant cosmic karmic free buffet lunch!
Your Ascension will not be far away if you start reliably knowing your past well
enough to keep cross-referencing it in the present! Dreams are the ultimate way
to keep yourself up to date in this quest.
These two points are PRECISELY why I guide each and every client through a
complete life-review, striving to find the love and understanding for self in
this moment and all other past moments like it, BEFORE we ever actually do the
reading. By so doing, I can take a fairly ordinary person and elevate their
vibration EXPONENTIALLY higher, by Law of One standards, than it had been before
they actually picked up the phone - long enough to pull in a really great
contact. It often becomes the most important moment of their life, so they say
in many cases, for that very reason.
This is THE best form of "tuning" that insures that we are both ready for the
contact to come through, even though they often do not do such intensive work on
their own. I have done this for a long time but only now am understanding and
defining how clearly it ties in to the Law of One work. Some part of me
obviously knew. I absolutely refused to take clients who would not do the
intake, and do not believe in doing readings without such a process beforehand,
period. This is also why I almost never wanted to do a "couple" reading. It has
to be one on one.
The interesting thing about Law of One scholarship is how much it reinforces
things that we already knew but never quite put into words, and this is another
classic example. Only now do I fully understand why those "intake questions"
were so darn important. People are amazed by what happens when I guide them
through this process with my own background of knowledge in place. Each time I
do this I also get something out of it myself, and have an ENORMOUS panoply of
confidential case-histories to consider for EVERYTHING that comes my way.
If a person does NOT consider their full history with each new situation, they
run the risk of falling into "True Helplessness" where the same pattern will
repeat itself over and over again. I have seen VERY many cases of this in
action, with almost everyone I know, at various times. And as it said in the Law
of One series, roughly, "in order for a distortion to be alleviated it must
first be accentuated."
So things like Sabrina's car accident, my glass laceration, Daniele's car
accident, Billy's month-long fast in the hospital and the investor's sudden
drama explosion with the possible imminent loss of the mother are all ways in
which there is an ACCENTUATION of the underlying distortions that are already
present, so that they can get finally blown out. There has to be some BIG THING
that finally takes this unconscious material and unearths it for display.
Sure, you can grow at a more relaxed pace, but if you dive in and clearly say to
the universe, "I am ready and willing to go to the front lines of the battle to
enlighten humanity," and then even more importantly FOLLOW THROUGH by actually
DOING something that is really going out there in a big way, at least
potentially if you end up getting your wishes realized, then you have made a
very substantial free-will vote - and not one to ever take blindly. Thankfully,
participating in this forum alone is NOT sufficient to attract what I am talking
about here.
Don't forget the discussion in Book One where Don and Carla and Jim are offered
the possibility of receiving a teaching from Ra in how to perform healing. Don
obviously wanted to do it so he could heal Carla, which of course did not pan
out. She still has substantial health problems. The curriculum is far from a
simple one - but at least we got the information through that sketched out what
would be necessary.
Ra asked them to very carefully consider the ramifications of what they were
asking for before they did it. Once you make a decision to ACCEPT the Ph.D.
program from your Higher Self, YOU CANNOT BACK OUT... and even if you wimp out
later on and decide you'd really rather not do it after all, and just fight and
breed with the other human entities struggling to move out of 2D animal thinking
into ordinary 3D consciousness, you now have the knowledge anyhow, and are FULLY
ACCOUNTABLE for what you know.
This is what I call the Principle of Honor - and "honor" was a word tossed about
quite a bit in the Law of One series that is easily glossed over, since so few
people in today's world actually have any. Before I had a real appreciation for
that word, so it beamed out at me with each repetition, I just glossed over
where Ra said that they had the "HONOR/DUTY" of teaching humanity the Law of
One.
Ra MUST keep doing this until ALL of humanity has Ascended, if not in this cycle
than in ensuing cycles on worlds yet to be inhabited by the 3D remnant of
humanity. Those who did NOT already become Wanderers this time around will have
the "honor/duty" of doing so on the next Earth, most likely. So let's be glad
we're getting it done now!
(That being said the next Earth will probably work a lot better, and faster,
than this one has, since we will have learned from our mistakes. We will
probably get a decent graduation just after the first 25,000-year cycle in this
next case, and what we're working on right now will help make it easier and more
streamlined for the people on this new world. Only the real diehard stragglers
will need two or even three cycles. As a social memory complex we have to think
out all the possibilities now while many of us are still encased in 3D at this
time. Case in point... how do we avoid creating Messianic hero figures who are
worshipped and whose messages then distorted into cults?)
If you STOP working the advanced Ph.D. course once you ask for it and get
started on it, the catalyst can be devastating enough to directly end your
incarnation. At the very least you could get badly hurt if you've really gone
'full in' and then, through your own neglect, back out. I've seen this in MANY
of my confidential case histories I have interviewed. MANY. And the sad part is
that because of the first distortion (free will,) your Higher Self and its many
assistants CANNOT directly tell you that this is what is happening to you. They
CANNOT. You just wonder why your life has become such an unrelenting nightmare.
Only now, as I am finally ready to REALLY dive in full-blast to a life of
service by moving directly to where the work is, do I have the likely setup
where things are going to be getting a LOT better for me in terms of who I am
and what I can do, day by day, and the level of comfort, support and resources
that will come to me to do it. Being one of two CEOs of Convergence Pictures LLC
should basically keep me free from financial woes so I can focus on what really
matters - being creative in a stress-free environment. And I will simply not be
inviting anyone in who creates drama and stress anymore, period.
If you are still stuck in the "backing away" portion of your Ph.D. contract, as
evidenced by the unrelenting stress and resistance you seem to get, then some
part of you has become completely unwilling to do the painful things that will
be required to get you back on course with what your Higher Self intended for
you to be doing. 99 out of 100 times this involves the dissolving of human bonds
with those who are actively holding you back for their own benefit on some level
- however good-natured they may seem in so many other ways.
This is THE archetypal struggle, THE "gray area" where your knowledge is truly
put to the test, and there are MANY people who are more than ready to be
wide-open portals of negative greeting for you to oblige. It all comes out of
their incessant need to defend themselves and actually create situations that
reinforce their own perception of victimhood, goading you into the very
behaviors they claim to be so opposed to. I just had a hyper-fast short course
in all of this again with a local friend here in LA, not related to the film.
If you want to do the biggest, most influential work, you have to be ready to
step directly into the front lines and commit to it body, mind and spirit. All
or nothing... you decide... or else buckle your seatbelt. The body must be cared
for with diet, exercise, sleep and knowledge of its distortions, the mind must
be kept calm and serene regardless of what happens on the outside, so you never
go "off the cliff" and become a ritually aggressive and / or depressed
victim-oriented person, and the spirit must be addressed like a maiden, where
you ask to know its wishes and then go along with them, "seducing" your Higher
Self to cooperate with you.
The spirit is NOT to be addressed like a whore, where you say, "I want to do /
be / attain (____), and because I am obviously so amazing and spiritual and
gifted, I call this manfiestation into being, so you can help me help the
world." I watched my ex get into this trap as have so many others, and it is
very seductive. It is very hard to learn that you have to listen to whatever
precious advice your Higher Self might have, through dreams, synchs, visions and
otherwise, and actually follow it, even if you hate it on some levels. This is
what the advanced course is all about.
Now let's shift the tone back down into what I had started writing earlier,
before I shifted up the vibe a few notches and inserted all the above content.
This part comes more from my own direct immediate experiences in the present,
and I'll be redoing it on a second pass as it goes along here.
So thank you all for the amazing private letters of support out there - I did
not expect as much. I do apologize for freaking anyone out, and want to remind
you that the average person's negative greetings are nowhere near as intense as
what those working on the film with me are seeing. They had their own recent
versions of what I went through back in 2001 with my companion.
It seems that if you get the "big violent intitiation" and you come out positive
at the end, further initiations of that severity do not occur. You still are
challenged, but the "biggie" is behind you. If I had not been through it myself
I would not be ready for the level of influence I am now stepping into, and I am
certain that the same goes for the other members of our core production team.
Ultimately the greetings are never more than you can handle and use for your own
higher development.
I certainly would not want you to become distrustful of your Higher Self and
feel that horrible things will be "allowed" to happen to you simply because you
are on a spiritual path. Not hardly. I would not be seeing these things
happening around me if I were not strong enough to handle it, and I AM strong
enough. It goes right up to the limit of your tolerance but does not exceed it,
and that is an important point. It is the best and most USEFUL material you can
get at the time.
Once you learn it, then it can fall away, and as you really get hip to the 7D
work, the path gets easier and easier as you have plugged up all the holes and
are no longer leaving yourself "open" to the greetings.
This place of peace and protection is where I hope to go to as we move forward,
and I believe it will happen. Things will still happen around me, I will
probably be heckled and ridiculed by many more people once the film comes out,
since it is already happening and the film will reach people I have not yet
reached... but I am learning to deal effectively enough with these issues that
they do not serve as major distractions.
I had a locksmith completely read me the riot act for no reason the other day,
after we took in a key that had been improperly duplicated once before, and I
did not respond to the attack. It rolled right off of me within minutes after I
left the shop. I processed it a little more that night, and that was it. So it
CAN happen. In the past, even as recently as a few months ago, I would have had
to process for DAYS to get over some complete stranger opening up on me like
that. No more.
As for our film and its efforts to change consciousness, the investor I
discussed last night has not been personally harmed, and Billy and Daniele are
now rapidly healing back to normal as well. Daniele just landed a fairly
lucrative contract last night to direct a one-man show (in and of itself an
oxymoron) that should not interfere with her duties for CONVERGENCE - and I only
learned of it this morning, AFTER venting.
I should also point out that the investor I mentioned last night, whose mother
appears to have severe systemic cancer tumors throughout the abdominal tract and
has now moved in with the investor causing great tension, may also be a very
involved contributor to the actual content of the film. If this investor's
mother does pass, while it would be tragic it would also give this person great
freedom, financially and temporally, to get deeply involved in the actual
creation of the film, and after speaking with my producer this morning he is in
complete support of this person being involved.
I should also point out clearly, so there is no confusion, that the other
investors do not appear to have endured anywhere near as significant of a
greeting. That probably has to do with the fact that they are not as directly
involved in the creative production and rendering of the film itself, I would
guess.
I took concrete steps today to reignite the harmony between our core team
members on this very real project, and got wonderful results. In the same
breath, my housing situation also seems to have been resolved in a way that does
not jeopardize me financially, and for that I am extremely pleased. CONVERGENCE
is a go, and I am now enroute to a full life in LA!
I had narrowed my apartment range down to two choices, one of which was 1118 9th
St. #7. I LOVED the numerology on that place - the 111, the 8, and the 11-9-7
descending number trio - and I seemed to have synchronicity telling me to pursue
it. My decision was now between that place and one other which I had already
seen and liked, just not QUITE as much as I liked the area where this other
place was.
I was strongly guided this morning to call the guy, who had been elusive
yesterday, within a tiny 10-minute window, and then call my producer directly
thereafter, which I did. When I did call the landlord, there was a horribly
deafening tone coming through the phone that he was apparently aware of, and did
nothing to stop. Whenever I spoke it would rise in pitch. It was like having a
bright light in your face for a police interrogation. I believe he was using
speakerphone, had terrible feedback going on, and totally did not care enough to
actually pick up the phone and relieve me of the pain.
The landlord was extremely hostile towards me and quite bluntly accused me,
without quite saying so in exactly so many words, that everything I was telling
him was obviously a lie and the only thing that would matter one way or the
other was my credit check. Then he didn't even want to SHOW me the place until
Friday, and start running the paperwork and the credit check thereafter... but I
needed to make a decision by tomorrow to get this really working.
Only once I made it clear that I could not wait was he was honest enough to
inform me, without calling it such, that he lied about the time of availability
on the website - the place was NOT yet available and he was not even sure when
the tenant was leaving.
So, I was more than happy to get rid of the deafening squeal in my left ear from
his phone and release 1118 back to the universe. The street looked great, and
the location was quite prime, but if the people are that careless, then it's
STILL not right. Ironically the place I will very possibly end up with tomorrow
is just one number less than being a great synchronistic number, and this fits
in very nicely with the number of my current place in Kentucky, which is one
less than 153 - the magic Christian number regarding the fishes in Jesus' net. I
take this as indicating that, once again, this is a place of preparation and I
will not need to stay there very long- I may end up getting out of the lease
early as circumstances adjust.
So, in short, I was worried last night (quite worried) about ending up homeless
and / or broke, in any of a variety of permutations, but now as a result of our
desire to work together and unify as a team, that threat has been eliminated and
I will most definitely be able to afford this process. So things DO work out in
the end. They DO!
I guess this is a long one... I've deleted other material for a separate post
just so you don't completely drown. I can again just say that if you seek the
love in the moment, for others AND for yourself, and if you then cross-reference
all other similar moments to help guide that process, things can happen very
quickly. You can hammer out your karma enough that there really is not much
struggle. Your life may seem intense to others but it doesn't really bother you
that much. And you find peace and serenity in the midst of continuous change.
Deepak Chopra served as a great model of that for me, based on my observations
of him in Puerto Rico in 2004. I hope to be able to get that balanced myself,
and I do believe it is happening.
Peace be with you -
- David
> >
> > How do you see a negative greeting, in terms of a psychic attack, in
> > what ever form, perhaps a physical disease or psychotic break, is not
> > an infringement of the third densities free will?
DW: I'm glad to see Tobey participating from an informed perspective on this
topic, as again this is the type of question that requires a deeper knowledge of
how "the game" really works. Thanks... and I appreciate the humility and candor
as well.
By describing my own recent bouts with negative greeting, in a super-intense
form, it probably seems a little disconcerting for those participating here,
particularly the newbies. It becomes very real and visceral, because you are
seeing the super-advanced "post-Ph.D. version" of negative greeting in action -
far greater than what most Law of One seekers will ever have to endure.
I'm no stranger to the level of intensity seen with Billy, Daniele and now the
investor, as I saw my own companion almost killed in 2001 by a car as she was
walking across the street (which was exactly the greeting described as the
ultimate goal of the negatives against Carla back in the day, but did not happen
in her case) and then had a very serious laceration of my own hand on glass six
months later. Had there been any doubt up until then that I was in equal or
greater "greeting mode" as had been occurring during the Law of One contact,
that exhausted it for me. Greetings that were only HYPOTHETICALLY discussed in
the Law of One series were actually HAPPENING to me for real.
This violence did not stop me from completing the writing of Divine Cosmos by
April of 2002 - and a fair portion of it I actually wrote with a toothbrush
wrapped in duct tape and pinched with my thumb against my cast on my right hand
so I could still type, even with immobilized fingers. True! That's how far I
went to see that I was not interrupted, and part of the heritage of those words
you read. Billy and Daniele have been equally brave and unstoppable in their own
ways after they have been set back...
...and just now I got a call from Daniele after one of her classes asking me if
I am doing OK. I told her I was "writing and very happy." This shows how much
harmony there is and how synchronistically it all is working in the timing. Is
that not proof that this is all working out for the higher good?
The days of violence to myself and any of my immediate companions seems long
past, so to answer a private question, no, I do not feel like I am walking
around with a giant bullseye between my shoulders. I still am challenged but in
each and every case, I just hang on, and keep going for two very important Law
of One principles that were quite centrally mentioned in the material which I
will now combine in my own way.
Each of these things were cited as being able to "exponentially" increase your
vibration in a short period of time the more they are pursued, with each
additional seeking adding another power factor to the vibrational increase. No
other practices were said to have this "exponential" value, hence underlining
the importance of these ideas and of the need to integrate them into a yin-yang
unified teaching, as I will now do in my own words:
1. Seek to find the love in the moment. Ask where the love is in the moment.
Also consider that if you can reach one person you have reached All, since there
is only One, and the only person you can truly reach is yourself - you cannot
learn for another, only offer catalyst in some form. Therefore the love in the
moment may well involve taking care of yourself, perhaps for the first time,
defining and enforcing healthy boundaries, and doing things that may not please
the egos of others. If you do not love yourself then your service-to-others
efforts will never make it very far. Each new layer of love you can seek will
EXPONENTIALLY increase the energy available to you.
2. Reflect on every other situation you can think of from your own past that is
related to the issue of the moment, which you are trying to see with love. Each
additional past issue that you can recall that is related to the present issue
will EXPONENTIALLY increase how much energy you can call upon for your own
healing! Think of even five different specific things from your past that are
similar and you're talking an ENORMOUS increase in the positive energy you can
call in to do work for you. It's like a giant cosmic karmic free buffet lunch!
Your Ascension will not be far away if you start reliably knowing your past well
enough to keep cross-referencing it in the present! Dreams are the ultimate way
to keep yourself up to date in this quest.
These two points are PRECISELY why I guide each and every client through a
complete life-review, striving to find the love and understanding for self in
this moment and all other past moments like it, BEFORE we ever actually do the
reading. By so doing, I can take a fairly ordinary person and elevate their
vibration EXPONENTIALLY higher, by Law of One standards, than it had been before
they actually picked up the phone - long enough to pull in a really great
contact. It often becomes the most important moment of their life, so they say
in many cases, for that very reason.
This is THE best form of "tuning" that insures that we are both ready for the
contact to come through, even though they often do not do such intensive work on
their own. I have done this for a long time but only now am understanding and
defining how clearly it ties in to the Law of One work. Some part of me
obviously knew. I absolutely refused to take clients who would not do the
intake, and do not believe in doing readings without such a process beforehand,
period. This is also why I almost never wanted to do a "couple" reading. It has
to be one on one.
The interesting thing about Law of One scholarship is how much it reinforces
things that we already knew but never quite put into words, and this is another
classic example. Only now do I fully understand why those "intake questions"
were so darn important. People are amazed by what happens when I guide them
through this process with my own background of knowledge in place. Each time I
do this I also get something out of it myself, and have an ENORMOUS panoply of
confidential case-histories to consider for EVERYTHING that comes my way.
If a person does NOT consider their full history with each new situation, they
run the risk of falling into "True Helplessness" where the same pattern will
repeat itself over and over again. I have seen VERY many cases of this in
action, with almost everyone I know, at various times. And as it said in the Law
of One series, roughly, "in order for a distortion to be alleviated it must
first be accentuated."
So things like Sabrina's car accident, my glass laceration, Daniele's car
accident, Billy's month-long fast in the hospital and the investor's sudden
drama explosion with the possible imminent loss of the mother are all ways in
which there is an ACCENTUATION of the underlying distortions that are already
present, so that they can get finally blown out. There has to be some BIG THING
that finally takes this unconscious material and unearths it for display.
Sure, you can grow at a more relaxed pace, but if you dive in and clearly say to
the universe, "I am ready and willing to go to the front lines of the battle to
enlighten humanity," and then even more importantly FOLLOW THROUGH by actually
DOING something that is really going out there in a big way, at least
potentially if you end up getting your wishes realized, then you have made a
very substantial free-will vote - and not one to ever take blindly. Thankfully,
participating in this forum alone is NOT sufficient to attract what I am talking
about here.
Don't forget the discussion in Book One where Don and Carla and Jim are offered
the possibility of receiving a teaching from Ra in how to perform healing. Don
obviously wanted to do it so he could heal Carla, which of course did not pan
out. She still has substantial health problems. The curriculum is far from a
simple one - but at least we got the information through that sketched out what
would be necessary.
Ra asked them to very carefully consider the ramifications of what they were
asking for before they did it. Once you make a decision to ACCEPT the Ph.D.
program from your Higher Self, YOU CANNOT BACK OUT... and even if you wimp out
later on and decide you'd really rather not do it after all, and just fight and
breed with the other human entities struggling to move out of 2D animal thinking
into ordinary 3D consciousness, you now have the knowledge anyhow, and are FULLY
ACCOUNTABLE for what you know.
This is what I call the Principle of Honor - and "honor" was a word tossed about
quite a bit in the Law of One series that is easily glossed over, since so few
people in today's world actually have any. Before I had a real appreciation for
that word, so it beamed out at me with each repetition, I just glossed over
where Ra said that they had the "HONOR/DUTY" of teaching humanity the Law of
One.
Ra MUST keep doing this until ALL of humanity has Ascended, if not in this cycle
than in ensuing cycles on worlds yet to be inhabited by the 3D remnant of
humanity. Those who did NOT already become Wanderers this time around will have
the "honor/duty" of doing so on the next Earth, most likely. So let's be glad
we're getting it done now!
(That being said the next Earth will probably work a lot better, and faster,
than this one has, since we will have learned from our mistakes. We will
probably get a decent graduation just after the first 25,000-year cycle in this
next case, and what we're working on right now will help make it easier and more
streamlined for the people on this new world. Only the real diehard stragglers
will need two or even three cycles. As a social memory complex we have to think
out all the possibilities now while many of us are still encased in 3D at this
time. Case in point... how do we avoid creating Messianic hero figures who are
worshipped and whose messages then distorted into cults?)
If you STOP working the advanced Ph.D. course once you ask for it and get
started on it, the catalyst can be devastating enough to directly end your
incarnation. At the very least you could get badly hurt if you've really gone
'full in' and then, through your own neglect, back out. I've seen this in MANY
of my confidential case histories I have interviewed. MANY. And the sad part is
that because of the first distortion (free will,) your Higher Self and its many
assistants CANNOT directly tell you that this is what is happening to you. They
CANNOT. You just wonder why your life has become such an unrelenting nightmare.
Only now, as I am finally ready to REALLY dive in full-blast to a life of
service by moving directly to where the work is, do I have the likely setup
where things are going to be getting a LOT better for me in terms of who I am
and what I can do, day by day, and the level of comfort, support and resources
that will come to me to do it. Being one of two CEOs of Convergence Pictures LLC
should basically keep me free from financial woes so I can focus on what really
matters - being creative in a stress-free environment. And I will simply not be
inviting anyone in who creates drama and stress anymore, period.
If you are still stuck in the "backing away" portion of your Ph.D. contract, as
evidenced by the unrelenting stress and resistance you seem to get, then some
part of you has become completely unwilling to do the painful things that will
be required to get you back on course with what your Higher Self intended for
you to be doing. 99 out of 100 times this involves the dissolving of human bonds
with those who are actively holding you back for their own benefit on some level
- however good-natured they may seem in so many other ways.
This is THE archetypal struggle, THE "gray area" where your knowledge is truly
put to the test, and there are MANY people who are more than ready to be
wide-open portals of negative greeting for you to oblige. It all comes out of
their incessant need to defend themselves and actually create situations that
reinforce their own perception of victimhood, goading you into the very
behaviors they claim to be so opposed to. I just had a hyper-fast short course
in all of this again with a local friend here in LA, not related to the film.
If you want to do the biggest, most influential work, you have to be ready to
step directly into the front lines and commit to it body, mind and spirit. All
or nothing... you decide... or else buckle your seatbelt. The body must be cared
for with diet, exercise, sleep and knowledge of its distortions, the mind must
be kept calm and serene regardless of what happens on the outside, so you never
go "off the cliff" and become a ritually aggressive and / or depressed
victim-oriented person, and the spirit must be addressed like a maiden, where
you ask to know its wishes and then go along with them, "seducing" your Higher
Self to cooperate with you.
The spirit is NOT to be addressed like a whore, where you say, "I want to do /
be / attain (____), and because I am obviously so amazing and spiritual and
gifted, I call this manfiestation into being, so you can help me help the
world." I watched my ex get into this trap as have so many others, and it is
very seductive. It is very hard to learn that you have to listen to whatever
precious advice your Higher Self might have, through dreams, synchs, visions and
otherwise, and actually follow it, even if you hate it on some levels. This is
what the advanced course is all about.
Now let's shift the tone back down into what I had started writing earlier,
before I shifted up the vibe a few notches and inserted all the above content.
This part comes more from my own direct immediate experiences in the present,
and I'll be redoing it on a second pass as it goes along here.
So thank you all for the amazing private letters of support out there - I did
not expect as much. I do apologize for freaking anyone out, and want to remind
you that the average person's negative greetings are nowhere near as intense as
what those working on the film with me are seeing. They had their own recent
versions of what I went through back in 2001 with my companion.
It seems that if you get the "big violent intitiation" and you come out positive
at the end, further initiations of that severity do not occur. You still are
challenged, but the "biggie" is behind you. If I had not been through it myself
I would not be ready for the level of influence I am now stepping into, and I am
certain that the same goes for the other members of our core production team.
Ultimately the greetings are never more than you can handle and use for your own
higher development.
I certainly would not want you to become distrustful of your Higher Self and
feel that horrible things will be "allowed" to happen to you simply because you
are on a spiritual path. Not hardly. I would not be seeing these things
happening around me if I were not strong enough to handle it, and I AM strong
enough. It goes right up to the limit of your tolerance but does not exceed it,
and that is an important point. It is the best and most USEFUL material you can
get at the time.
Once you learn it, then it can fall away, and as you really get hip to the 7D
work, the path gets easier and easier as you have plugged up all the holes and
are no longer leaving yourself "open" to the greetings.
This place of peace and protection is where I hope to go to as we move forward,
and I believe it will happen. Things will still happen around me, I will
probably be heckled and ridiculed by many more people once the film comes out,
since it is already happening and the film will reach people I have not yet
reached... but I am learning to deal effectively enough with these issues that
they do not serve as major distractions.
I had a locksmith completely read me the riot act for no reason the other day,
after we took in a key that had been improperly duplicated once before, and I
did not respond to the attack. It rolled right off of me within minutes after I
left the shop. I processed it a little more that night, and that was it. So it
CAN happen. In the past, even as recently as a few months ago, I would have had
to process for DAYS to get over some complete stranger opening up on me like
that. No more.
As for our film and its efforts to change consciousness, the investor I
discussed last night has not been personally harmed, and Billy and Daniele are
now rapidly healing back to normal as well. Daniele just landed a fairly
lucrative contract last night to direct a one-man show (in and of itself an
oxymoron) that should not interfere with her duties for CONVERGENCE - and I only
learned of it this morning, AFTER venting.
I should also point out that the investor I mentioned last night, whose mother
appears to have severe systemic cancer tumors throughout the abdominal tract and
has now moved in with the investor causing great tension, may also be a very
involved contributor to the actual content of the film. If this investor's
mother does pass, while it would be tragic it would also give this person great
freedom, financially and temporally, to get deeply involved in the actual
creation of the film, and after speaking with my producer this morning he is in
complete support of this person being involved.
I should also point out clearly, so there is no confusion, that the other
investors do not appear to have endured anywhere near as significant of a
greeting. That probably has to do with the fact that they are not as directly
involved in the creative production and rendering of the film itself, I would
guess.
I took concrete steps today to reignite the harmony between our core team
members on this very real project, and got wonderful results. In the same
breath, my housing situation also seems to have been resolved in a way that does
not jeopardize me financially, and for that I am extremely pleased. CONVERGENCE
is a go, and I am now enroute to a full life in LA!
I had narrowed my apartment range down to two choices, one of which was 1118 9th
St. #7. I LOVED the numerology on that place - the 111, the 8, and the 11-9-7
descending number trio - and I seemed to have synchronicity telling me to pursue
it. My decision was now between that place and one other which I had already
seen and liked, just not QUITE as much as I liked the area where this other
place was.
I was strongly guided this morning to call the guy, who had been elusive
yesterday, within a tiny 10-minute window, and then call my producer directly
thereafter, which I did. When I did call the landlord, there was a horribly
deafening tone coming through the phone that he was apparently aware of, and did
nothing to stop. Whenever I spoke it would rise in pitch. It was like having a
bright light in your face for a police interrogation. I believe he was using
speakerphone, had terrible feedback going on, and totally did not care enough to
actually pick up the phone and relieve me of the pain.
The landlord was extremely hostile towards me and quite bluntly accused me,
without quite saying so in exactly so many words, that everything I was telling
him was obviously a lie and the only thing that would matter one way or the
other was my credit check. Then he didn't even want to SHOW me the place until
Friday, and start running the paperwork and the credit check thereafter... but I
needed to make a decision by tomorrow to get this really working.
Only once I made it clear that I could not wait was he was honest enough to
inform me, without calling it such, that he lied about the time of availability
on the website - the place was NOT yet available and he was not even sure when
the tenant was leaving.
So, I was more than happy to get rid of the deafening squeal in my left ear from
his phone and release 1118 back to the universe. The street looked great, and
the location was quite prime, but if the people are that careless, then it's
STILL not right. Ironically the place I will very possibly end up with tomorrow
is just one number less than being a great synchronistic number, and this fits
in very nicely with the number of my current place in Kentucky, which is one
less than 153 - the magic Christian number regarding the fishes in Jesus' net. I
take this as indicating that, once again, this is a place of preparation and I
will not need to stay there very long- I may end up getting out of the lease
early as circumstances adjust.
So, in short, I was worried last night (quite worried) about ending up homeless
and / or broke, in any of a variety of permutations, but now as a result of our
desire to work together and unify as a team, that threat has been eliminated and
I will most definitely be able to afford this process. So things DO work out in
the end. They DO!
I guess this is a long one... I've deleted other material for a separate post
just so you don't completely drown. I can again just say that if you seek the
love in the moment, for others AND for yourself, and if you then cross-reference
all other similar moments to help guide that process, things can happen very
quickly. You can hammer out your karma enough that there really is not much
struggle. Your life may seem intense to others but it doesn't really bother you
that much. And you find peace and serenity in the midst of continuous change.
Deepak Chopra served as a great model of that for me, based on my observations
of him in Puerto Rico in 2004. I hope to be able to get that balanced myself,
and I do believe it is happening.
Peace be with you -
- David