M.W.
08-09-2005, 01:09 PM
Brain Power AAAGH!
Thanks guys, I'm now convinced that I'm not
all that sub-human.
I admit I was of two minds when I created my
posting lamenting my lack of IQ. True, It was
done partly tongue in cheek, but on the other
hand I am acutely aware of and frustrated by my
intellectual shortcomings ... lacking tools I would
like to have. I think.
I know more about the philosophy of math than
how to utilize it. I think I enjoy classical music
but I can't grasp it more than a few bars at a time.
Listening to music I sometimes feel akin to the
Frankenstein Monster in trying to pluck notes of
music out of the air as if they were butterflies!
The act of composing and holding a composition
In one's mind seems to me to be on par with playing
blindfolded chess against twenty or so visioned
opponents. If I try real hard I can hum twinkle,
twinkle little star.
But then again having talents could be a horrible curse
if I didn't handle the gifts correctly. And knowing my
kinks and flaws of character I have to admit that I'm at
my restricted level for a very good reason. I used to
desire psychic abilities. After coming to an
understanding of the dangers and the need for SERIOUS
discipline to avoid negative intrusion. I thank god that
I was spared the calamity of that booby-trap-laden
ill-advised venture
In some reading I came across an interesting idea to
the effect that it is very misleading trying to identify
the behind-the-scenes accumulated level of a entity's
consciousness by their current incarnational appearance.
That seems to make sense assuming that a soul has a
humble job of learning to accomplish that cannot be
done if he/she brings along her whole stuffed bag of
distracting tricks. So, the slobbering idiot
counting on his fingers may actually be Albert
Einstein back to tidy up a few loose ends.
To supplement my Social Insecurity check I work at
a gas/convenience store. This is in an area of
mixed demography with the majority of the customers
recently arriving from across the border. When I wait
on them I wonder what really lies behind their simple
appearance ... of what grandeur of higher soul
accumulation stands behind each and every one. I
love to look at their little children and catch their
eyes. I give them a smile, and in my heart I warmly
welcome them to this life experience. Sometimes I do
sense a deeper understanding and recognition behind
those beautifully appreciative smiles they offer
in return.
Now this kind of "social" opportunity is new to
me. For 43 years I was a motion picture machine
operator ... a projectionist in movie theatres.
It was neat in that I probably read 5000 books
and viewed 5000 movies ... but NOW I meet
more people in a week than I encountered then
in a year's time back then. for much of my life
I just saw the blank backness of people's heads
when I peered out of my teeny port hole!
I'm off-duty now, but in my heart I'm smiling
warmly at all of you. (I know, all of you are
BIG now, but...)
Bill G aka billybob
Thanks guys, I'm now convinced that I'm not
all that sub-human.
I admit I was of two minds when I created my
posting lamenting my lack of IQ. True, It was
done partly tongue in cheek, but on the other
hand I am acutely aware of and frustrated by my
intellectual shortcomings ... lacking tools I would
like to have. I think.
I know more about the philosophy of math than
how to utilize it. I think I enjoy classical music
but I can't grasp it more than a few bars at a time.
Listening to music I sometimes feel akin to the
Frankenstein Monster in trying to pluck notes of
music out of the air as if they were butterflies!
The act of composing and holding a composition
In one's mind seems to me to be on par with playing
blindfolded chess against twenty or so visioned
opponents. If I try real hard I can hum twinkle,
twinkle little star.
But then again having talents could be a horrible curse
if I didn't handle the gifts correctly. And knowing my
kinks and flaws of character I have to admit that I'm at
my restricted level for a very good reason. I used to
desire psychic abilities. After coming to an
understanding of the dangers and the need for SERIOUS
discipline to avoid negative intrusion. I thank god that
I was spared the calamity of that booby-trap-laden
ill-advised venture
In some reading I came across an interesting idea to
the effect that it is very misleading trying to identify
the behind-the-scenes accumulated level of a entity's
consciousness by their current incarnational appearance.
That seems to make sense assuming that a soul has a
humble job of learning to accomplish that cannot be
done if he/she brings along her whole stuffed bag of
distracting tricks. So, the slobbering idiot
counting on his fingers may actually be Albert
Einstein back to tidy up a few loose ends.
To supplement my Social Insecurity check I work at
a gas/convenience store. This is in an area of
mixed demography with the majority of the customers
recently arriving from across the border. When I wait
on them I wonder what really lies behind their simple
appearance ... of what grandeur of higher soul
accumulation stands behind each and every one. I
love to look at their little children and catch their
eyes. I give them a smile, and in my heart I warmly
welcome them to this life experience. Sometimes I do
sense a deeper understanding and recognition behind
those beautifully appreciative smiles they offer
in return.
Now this kind of "social" opportunity is new to
me. For 43 years I was a motion picture machine
operator ... a projectionist in movie theatres.
It was neat in that I probably read 5000 books
and viewed 5000 movies ... but NOW I meet
more people in a week than I encountered then
in a year's time back then. for much of my life
I just saw the blank backness of people's heads
when I peered out of my teeny port hole!
I'm off-duty now, but in my heart I'm smiling
warmly at all of you. (I know, all of you are
BIG now, but...)
Bill G aka billybob