David Wilcock
08-03-2005, 02:45 PM
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(Bill )Gieskieng
I couldn't find the post that mentioned
a message coming through to an individual
that lying was never acceptable.
But this restriction doesn't seem to fit
the RA philosophy.
DW: The Law of One series does teach that everything is acceptable,
ultimately, at the proper time and place for each entity. There are no
mistakes. There is no failure. All experiences are productive of growth
somehow, no matter how they might look.
It should also be clear that lying is one of those behaviors that naturally
"fall away" as you rise in vibration. We're not asked to or expected to
overcome anything, but we certainly can outgrow things, because we see that
there is a system of impersonal laws (i.e. karma) that will always work the
same way - to restore balance to a given situation. If you lie to others
then the universe will naturally balance your lies with things that will
happen to you that you do not enjoy.
By the time you get to fifth-density, the principle of Spiritual Honor
becomes of extreme importance and focus. The principle of Honor includes
being impeccable with your word. The "Four Agreements," which we have
mentioned here before, is a wonderful guideline for the fifth-density wisdom
teachings: Be Impeccable with Your Word, Don't Take Things Personally, Don't
Make Assumptions and Always Do Your Best.
I have had a rather invigorating realization myself. Most of the clients I
now have on the old wait-list, all of which was gathered prior to October
2004 (which, if I were to complete it at the current maximum frequency of
four a week, would be done in February 2006) were 'impulse buys' from when I
was on Coast last August - a performance that I was subsequently criticized
for as being too self-promoting, causing me to further look at myself, see
things I didn't want to see before, and work to improve them.
A lot of these would-be clients haven't read the website and only have a
small knowledge of what to expect going in. Now that I've taken back control
of activating clients myself and am no longer using administrative support
for this function, if I fail to remind them of their slots, they just don't
call at all. Every time.
I had already done this once before, only to reschedule them all later, but
this weekend something shifted in me and I just stopped activating people. I
did two on Friday but then held back on Sunday, Monday and tonight - and it
is an amazing, bewildering, terrifying but also very liberating process. On
some level I have realized that even though I felt I could handle taking all
the clients without cracking, on another level I had become addicted to it
in a bad way.
Get this. I have always had someone else, right around the corner, who
needed to have my full, undivided attention, and if they ended up feeling
better then I felt better. That's it.
This was fine and good, but in the process I never thought of myself. I
literally felt like I was losing my own identity. I never thought of whether
I felt better or not. I was just worrying about how the clients felt,
whether they were satisfied, et cetera. I was too busy, too stressed out, to
ever really think about things that I enjoyed, things that I wanted, things
that I NEEDED.
As a result the website just sat there gathering cobwebs - but in my own
little world, things were moving so fast that I hardly had the chance to
notice. Then I wondered why I kept getting hit with all this bizarre and
damaging karma, like bouts of poison ivy, crippling backaches, unexpected
injuries, harsh sicknesses, identity theft, exhausting seminar trips and
being overwhelmed with meet-and-greets in the process, betrayals from others
I thought I trusted, et cetera.
For two and a half years now, every other day, my own "mirrors" of myself in
the projected form of my clients keep asking me the same question. Over and
over and over again. I chuckle inside and think, "It's your question, not
mine," and keep totally missing the point. And there's only so many
different ways that you can answer the same question in a reading. In the
intake, I try to find the colorations of personality, the nuances of their
path that make them unique, so that we're not just answering the same
question and that the readings have depth and variance. But honestly, you
have to search for it. You can't just easily find it - you really have to
dig.
That question? Of course... "What is My Purpose?"
Now if EVERYONE in my life, as a mirror of myself (i.e. with the Law of One,
there is no separate self,) is asking me this question, but I'm too damn
busy to ever really ask it myself, then what does that tell you? Obviously I
think I know the answer, I assume I know the answer, but in the meantime I
really don't. I've been living more of what *Cayce's* purpose was all about
and far less of what I'm really here to do THIS TIME. And it hurts. Badly. I
have fully re-invoked the old karma of "death by readings" and it needs to
change. I'm finally starting to really see that now - and everything is
changing, opening up, renewing. For the first time I'm starting to give
myself permission to really BE.
As for these old clients, they don't even know or remember that they sent us
an email and were given a slot, and when they get the reminder email it's
just sort of a nice little enhancement to their life, but my life has been
in shackles as a result of this unrelenting schedule for 2.5 years straight
now. The idea of actually NOT taking clients every other day seems almost
fantastic. I only had considered it as something that MIGHT happen after I
worked through the whole list, come next February. Even then it just seemed
very far off, and with the film impacting, it might be even FARTHER away.
So, actually not following this old schedule is a choice that I am
exercising that I hardly even realized I had available to me. I have felt
like a prisoner. You have no idea how much I have felt like a prisoner.
Neither did I. That's the best sign of it right there - when you yourself
are the one being fooled, all out of a weird sense that your obligation to
others is way more important than your obligation to yourself. Lots of
little obligations add up to a huge, overarching, larger-than life
mega-obligation that just consumes you. And I've felt as if I were drowning.
(Sorry for the dramatic language, but this is the truth, not exaggerated or
sanitized.)
So, I have a small reservoir of gold coins that I am strongly considering
selling so I can totally take this month off, and devote all of my energies
into public projects - finishing the film screenplay (which I was already
supposed to have finished on July 31st but still have a ways to go), getting
the website overhauled and working through the remaining technical hurdles
to fully activate the audio archive - which takes time. As much as I'd like
to believe that I could do all this and still take clients, the reality is
that doing readings takes so much energy that there is very little of me
left to do anything else.
In fact, if I'm going so far as to announce publicly (at least to you guys,
which is public enough) that I might do this, that does essentially mean
that I have decided to do it. Just "buy a month" out of my reserves. The
value-per-dollar-spent ratio is VERY high at the moment since I have so many
urgent deadlines, and the archive can become a superior source of funding
while also helping a lot more people to a far more substantial level than
what I am doing at present.
There's never going to be a better time than right now to take a step like
this. I had a WILD dream this morning about all of this that was cryptic but
seemed to heavily support what I'm doing. It actually went so far as to say
that I could have killed or at least strongly damaged myself from stress if
I didn't do something like this pretty soon. Something "big" might have
happened to me- another car crash, an even more damaging health problem, et
cetera- if I didn't wake up and actually do this by choice. I could
definitely see that.
Just my current schedule of four a week (entirely consisting of people who
had requested prior to when we shut down the wait list last October) is
plenty enough to leave me with very little of my own life energy for myself.
If all I did is try to barely keep up with my email, process the clients at
the frequency that I have been and try to hit one conference date a month,
that is my full energy output, and nothing else ever gets done. Then
everyone wonders why the website just sits there.
So, I think the value of "cashing out" right now is worth it. That way we
will really get the audio archive up much faster so it can start working its
magic, and I will have the first true sabbatical, to be alone at home with
no clients for a whole month, in five years. I'll probably end up doing some
readings that are just for the archive as well, but the important part is
that this will be part and parcel of an overall creative process that is
externally directed.
Just the idea of realizing that I actually DO have a choice, that this
schedule does not need to be the death of me just because we originally told
people that this is when they would have a reading, has been amazing. Are we
lying, or being dishonorable, by doing this? I don't think so. It was a real
problem with my own free will in the first place to try to pin me down, day
after day, for almost a year and a half into the future, as if we knew that
I could handle an output of 4 clients a week and one speaking engagement a
month and no matter what else happened I would still be able to do all of
this.
Now I realize that this was presumptuous. We should have kept people in a
pool and given them ballpark months where they might be activated, but not
actually assigned them slots until we were much closer to the actual time.
That way I haven't signed a marriage contract but just established a
"probability vortex," so to speak.
I don't want the clients to take the fall, but in reality, now that we're
turning so many away anyhow, it really boils down to the luck of the draw
for those who did happen to squeak in before it all collapsed. The
unalterable "rule" that we had was that I HAD to process all these clients,
just because we had assigned them a slot. Yet as I said, very few of them
are even aware that they have it anymore, and it can come and go and they
don't even know about it.
Plus, I did have a rare instance not too long ago (1 month ago) where
someone was unhappy with their results. This is so infrequent that I was
quite surprised, but I knew it was because my energy on the phone was not
relaxed - I was feeling like I had too much to do, too many urgent
deadlines, and that the reading was getting in the way.
This was an unfortunate event. The client wanted a Cayce reading, not a
Wilcock reading, and his main interest was in getting a laundry-list of past
lives. He felt he had been someone important, and that his female
acquaintance was Blavatsky reincarnated, and I tried to warn him that we
don't "do" past lives other than whether or not you are an ET soul, except
in extremely rare instances.
Knowing this warning, he went ahead and had the reading anyway, just hoping
that he might be the exception. He wasn't, and he freaked out and wrote me
one of the nastiest, most insulting and degrading letters I have ever gotten
from a client, ever- and refused to pay for the reading, actually putting a
stop-payment on his credit card (despite making a legally-binding promise
that the rate is non-refundable once the session has begun) and spitefully
mailing me 50 bucks for "wasting my time and his." I have not bothered to
chase him for the remaining 100. The sick energy he projected into that 50
was so strong it almost burned my hand to hold the check long enough to
stuff it into the ATM.
And now it just happened again the other night, in a milder form. (These
latest clients, triggered from my last Coast appearance, just haven't been
the same.) He really just wanted a Cayce health reading with some
incredible, unheard-of natural remedy and a wild past-life fantasy story to
make his life all make sense, as well as some crashingly important Purpose
that he would be told in explicit detail, like Moses getting the stone
tablets from the mount, which would automatically redefine everything about
his relatively sedentary life at home with poor health, so he could just
dive out into the world and start kicking @$$.
He did NOT really want a Wilcock reading, which is actually going to tell
you to get your spiritual stuff together and pull yourself up out of the
funk by your own bootstraps, and that YOU have to choose what you will do
with yourself. You cannot be told.
If you have big-time health problems, you have HARD WORK ahead of you to
eliminate them, including major changes in your diet and your basic attitude
and belief structure. If you're not willing to do those things, you're not
going to hear anything else about some magic pill that you can suck down and
suddenly be Ascended. It just doesn't work that way.
So, since again a client was unsatisfied, for petty reasons, I have not
taken another one since. And believe it or not, this was PRECISELY the 500th
client I have taken - I had done the calculations since I was organizing the
cassette archive. I thought I had done more than that, but I was wrong once
I actually counted the boxes, with 36 tapes to a box and a small allotment
for clients in Japan where I did not keep a copy of the tape.
So the problem was that all of this recent catalyst only made me that much
more dedicated to trying to do the best job for each client that I could,
which only further sucked me into being a reader and not really a public
content developer for the website.
Anyway, that's probably enough for now - I'm outta here!
Peace be with you -
- David
(Bill )Gieskieng
I couldn't find the post that mentioned
a message coming through to an individual
that lying was never acceptable.
But this restriction doesn't seem to fit
the RA philosophy.
DW: The Law of One series does teach that everything is acceptable,
ultimately, at the proper time and place for each entity. There are no
mistakes. There is no failure. All experiences are productive of growth
somehow, no matter how they might look.
It should also be clear that lying is one of those behaviors that naturally
"fall away" as you rise in vibration. We're not asked to or expected to
overcome anything, but we certainly can outgrow things, because we see that
there is a system of impersonal laws (i.e. karma) that will always work the
same way - to restore balance to a given situation. If you lie to others
then the universe will naturally balance your lies with things that will
happen to you that you do not enjoy.
By the time you get to fifth-density, the principle of Spiritual Honor
becomes of extreme importance and focus. The principle of Honor includes
being impeccable with your word. The "Four Agreements," which we have
mentioned here before, is a wonderful guideline for the fifth-density wisdom
teachings: Be Impeccable with Your Word, Don't Take Things Personally, Don't
Make Assumptions and Always Do Your Best.
I have had a rather invigorating realization myself. Most of the clients I
now have on the old wait-list, all of which was gathered prior to October
2004 (which, if I were to complete it at the current maximum frequency of
four a week, would be done in February 2006) were 'impulse buys' from when I
was on Coast last August - a performance that I was subsequently criticized
for as being too self-promoting, causing me to further look at myself, see
things I didn't want to see before, and work to improve them.
A lot of these would-be clients haven't read the website and only have a
small knowledge of what to expect going in. Now that I've taken back control
of activating clients myself and am no longer using administrative support
for this function, if I fail to remind them of their slots, they just don't
call at all. Every time.
I had already done this once before, only to reschedule them all later, but
this weekend something shifted in me and I just stopped activating people. I
did two on Friday but then held back on Sunday, Monday and tonight - and it
is an amazing, bewildering, terrifying but also very liberating process. On
some level I have realized that even though I felt I could handle taking all
the clients without cracking, on another level I had become addicted to it
in a bad way.
Get this. I have always had someone else, right around the corner, who
needed to have my full, undivided attention, and if they ended up feeling
better then I felt better. That's it.
This was fine and good, but in the process I never thought of myself. I
literally felt like I was losing my own identity. I never thought of whether
I felt better or not. I was just worrying about how the clients felt,
whether they were satisfied, et cetera. I was too busy, too stressed out, to
ever really think about things that I enjoyed, things that I wanted, things
that I NEEDED.
As a result the website just sat there gathering cobwebs - but in my own
little world, things were moving so fast that I hardly had the chance to
notice. Then I wondered why I kept getting hit with all this bizarre and
damaging karma, like bouts of poison ivy, crippling backaches, unexpected
injuries, harsh sicknesses, identity theft, exhausting seminar trips and
being overwhelmed with meet-and-greets in the process, betrayals from others
I thought I trusted, et cetera.
For two and a half years now, every other day, my own "mirrors" of myself in
the projected form of my clients keep asking me the same question. Over and
over and over again. I chuckle inside and think, "It's your question, not
mine," and keep totally missing the point. And there's only so many
different ways that you can answer the same question in a reading. In the
intake, I try to find the colorations of personality, the nuances of their
path that make them unique, so that we're not just answering the same
question and that the readings have depth and variance. But honestly, you
have to search for it. You can't just easily find it - you really have to
dig.
That question? Of course... "What is My Purpose?"
Now if EVERYONE in my life, as a mirror of myself (i.e. with the Law of One,
there is no separate self,) is asking me this question, but I'm too damn
busy to ever really ask it myself, then what does that tell you? Obviously I
think I know the answer, I assume I know the answer, but in the meantime I
really don't. I've been living more of what *Cayce's* purpose was all about
and far less of what I'm really here to do THIS TIME. And it hurts. Badly. I
have fully re-invoked the old karma of "death by readings" and it needs to
change. I'm finally starting to really see that now - and everything is
changing, opening up, renewing. For the first time I'm starting to give
myself permission to really BE.
As for these old clients, they don't even know or remember that they sent us
an email and were given a slot, and when they get the reminder email it's
just sort of a nice little enhancement to their life, but my life has been
in shackles as a result of this unrelenting schedule for 2.5 years straight
now. The idea of actually NOT taking clients every other day seems almost
fantastic. I only had considered it as something that MIGHT happen after I
worked through the whole list, come next February. Even then it just seemed
very far off, and with the film impacting, it might be even FARTHER away.
So, actually not following this old schedule is a choice that I am
exercising that I hardly even realized I had available to me. I have felt
like a prisoner. You have no idea how much I have felt like a prisoner.
Neither did I. That's the best sign of it right there - when you yourself
are the one being fooled, all out of a weird sense that your obligation to
others is way more important than your obligation to yourself. Lots of
little obligations add up to a huge, overarching, larger-than life
mega-obligation that just consumes you. And I've felt as if I were drowning.
(Sorry for the dramatic language, but this is the truth, not exaggerated or
sanitized.)
So, I have a small reservoir of gold coins that I am strongly considering
selling so I can totally take this month off, and devote all of my energies
into public projects - finishing the film screenplay (which I was already
supposed to have finished on July 31st but still have a ways to go), getting
the website overhauled and working through the remaining technical hurdles
to fully activate the audio archive - which takes time. As much as I'd like
to believe that I could do all this and still take clients, the reality is
that doing readings takes so much energy that there is very little of me
left to do anything else.
In fact, if I'm going so far as to announce publicly (at least to you guys,
which is public enough) that I might do this, that does essentially mean
that I have decided to do it. Just "buy a month" out of my reserves. The
value-per-dollar-spent ratio is VERY high at the moment since I have so many
urgent deadlines, and the archive can become a superior source of funding
while also helping a lot more people to a far more substantial level than
what I am doing at present.
There's never going to be a better time than right now to take a step like
this. I had a WILD dream this morning about all of this that was cryptic but
seemed to heavily support what I'm doing. It actually went so far as to say
that I could have killed or at least strongly damaged myself from stress if
I didn't do something like this pretty soon. Something "big" might have
happened to me- another car crash, an even more damaging health problem, et
cetera- if I didn't wake up and actually do this by choice. I could
definitely see that.
Just my current schedule of four a week (entirely consisting of people who
had requested prior to when we shut down the wait list last October) is
plenty enough to leave me with very little of my own life energy for myself.
If all I did is try to barely keep up with my email, process the clients at
the frequency that I have been and try to hit one conference date a month,
that is my full energy output, and nothing else ever gets done. Then
everyone wonders why the website just sits there.
So, I think the value of "cashing out" right now is worth it. That way we
will really get the audio archive up much faster so it can start working its
magic, and I will have the first true sabbatical, to be alone at home with
no clients for a whole month, in five years. I'll probably end up doing some
readings that are just for the archive as well, but the important part is
that this will be part and parcel of an overall creative process that is
externally directed.
Just the idea of realizing that I actually DO have a choice, that this
schedule does not need to be the death of me just because we originally told
people that this is when they would have a reading, has been amazing. Are we
lying, or being dishonorable, by doing this? I don't think so. It was a real
problem with my own free will in the first place to try to pin me down, day
after day, for almost a year and a half into the future, as if we knew that
I could handle an output of 4 clients a week and one speaking engagement a
month and no matter what else happened I would still be able to do all of
this.
Now I realize that this was presumptuous. We should have kept people in a
pool and given them ballpark months where they might be activated, but not
actually assigned them slots until we were much closer to the actual time.
That way I haven't signed a marriage contract but just established a
"probability vortex," so to speak.
I don't want the clients to take the fall, but in reality, now that we're
turning so many away anyhow, it really boils down to the luck of the draw
for those who did happen to squeak in before it all collapsed. The
unalterable "rule" that we had was that I HAD to process all these clients,
just because we had assigned them a slot. Yet as I said, very few of them
are even aware that they have it anymore, and it can come and go and they
don't even know about it.
Plus, I did have a rare instance not too long ago (1 month ago) where
someone was unhappy with their results. This is so infrequent that I was
quite surprised, but I knew it was because my energy on the phone was not
relaxed - I was feeling like I had too much to do, too many urgent
deadlines, and that the reading was getting in the way.
This was an unfortunate event. The client wanted a Cayce reading, not a
Wilcock reading, and his main interest was in getting a laundry-list of past
lives. He felt he had been someone important, and that his female
acquaintance was Blavatsky reincarnated, and I tried to warn him that we
don't "do" past lives other than whether or not you are an ET soul, except
in extremely rare instances.
Knowing this warning, he went ahead and had the reading anyway, just hoping
that he might be the exception. He wasn't, and he freaked out and wrote me
one of the nastiest, most insulting and degrading letters I have ever gotten
from a client, ever- and refused to pay for the reading, actually putting a
stop-payment on his credit card (despite making a legally-binding promise
that the rate is non-refundable once the session has begun) and spitefully
mailing me 50 bucks for "wasting my time and his." I have not bothered to
chase him for the remaining 100. The sick energy he projected into that 50
was so strong it almost burned my hand to hold the check long enough to
stuff it into the ATM.
And now it just happened again the other night, in a milder form. (These
latest clients, triggered from my last Coast appearance, just haven't been
the same.) He really just wanted a Cayce health reading with some
incredible, unheard-of natural remedy and a wild past-life fantasy story to
make his life all make sense, as well as some crashingly important Purpose
that he would be told in explicit detail, like Moses getting the stone
tablets from the mount, which would automatically redefine everything about
his relatively sedentary life at home with poor health, so he could just
dive out into the world and start kicking @$$.
He did NOT really want a Wilcock reading, which is actually going to tell
you to get your spiritual stuff together and pull yourself up out of the
funk by your own bootstraps, and that YOU have to choose what you will do
with yourself. You cannot be told.
If you have big-time health problems, you have HARD WORK ahead of you to
eliminate them, including major changes in your diet and your basic attitude
and belief structure. If you're not willing to do those things, you're not
going to hear anything else about some magic pill that you can suck down and
suddenly be Ascended. It just doesn't work that way.
So, since again a client was unsatisfied, for petty reasons, I have not
taken another one since. And believe it or not, this was PRECISELY the 500th
client I have taken - I had done the calculations since I was organizing the
cassette archive. I thought I had done more than that, but I was wrong once
I actually counted the boxes, with 36 tapes to a box and a small allotment
for clients in Japan where I did not keep a copy of the tape.
So the problem was that all of this recent catalyst only made me that much
more dedicated to trying to do the best job for each client that I could,
which only further sucked me into being a reader and not really a public
content developer for the website.
Anyway, that's probably enough for now - I'm outta here!
Peace be with you -
- David