Mirth.......

[lindaz]

the word 'mirth' in the subject heading of a post recently brought to mind
a dream that i had several weeks ago. i don't normally record my
dreams, but when i woke up from this one, i wrote it down because the sensations
i had while dreaming it were so visceral, so palpable and so vivid, that
it felt important to scribble down a few words to remember it by.
it wasn't a long dream, but it was rich.....


i was sitting at the edge of a body of water, on some kind of dock
or platform, with my legs stretched out along the

dock and my hand dangling in the water. my sister and some
others were there, standing on the dock, but i was the

only one who was touching the water. the water must have been
very deep, because suddenly a whale came to the

surface of the water, and as it did, it briefly brushed my hand
with its back. my sister warned me not to touch the

whale and to take my hand out of the water. but i told her
that the whale would not mind if i left my hand in the

water and i kept my hand submerged. then another whale surfaced,
this time moving under my hand so that we

touched one another for a bit longer than the first whale and i
had touched. progressively, more and more whales

appeared, each of them taking a turn at surfacing in such a way
that their backs slid under my hand. each time a

whale would surface in this way, our physical contact with one another
was extended for longer and longer stretches

of time.


from the first moment we touched, the whales and i, i began to laugh.
and as my contact with them became longer and longer, as each successive
whale allowed more and more of their long spines to pass beneath my submerged
hand, i began to laugh deeper and deeper, longer and harder, louder and
more freely with every lengthening stroke that passed between us.
by the time one of the whales brought the entire back of her body into
contact with my hand, from her blowhole to the end of her fluke,
i had become ecstatic!! the joy, the bliss, the utter abandon, the
glee, the sweet release of it was indescribable! there was no other
emotion, no other thought, there was nothing else, and there was no room
inside of my being for anything else but this perfect, joyful, blissful
reverie. i was replete. the ecstacy bubbled up from within
me, my laughter saturating me with such deep and boundless pleasure, such
pure and enchanting happiness! it was as if it came from this infinite
wellspring that flowed and gushed all through me as if it would never stop....such
rapturous joy!! words are inadequate to describe how very serene
it was to be laughing so

completely and to be so deeply infused with this upwelling and outpouring
of absolute and abundant felicity.


as i came into greater contact with the whales, and as my state of
consciousnes grew more and more immersed in the sheer delight that was
coursing through my being, my hand and then my arm, went deeper into the
water so that more of my body would come into contact with the bodies of
the whales as they passed beneath me. all the while, i was laughing
deeply and steadily, embodying and sustaining a rhythmically dynamic diaphragmatic
sort of belly laughter that felt as if it would go on forever!


as i was about to let myself fall, splashing into the water amidst
my ecstatic and convulsive laughter, i woke up.




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did a smile cross your face as you read this? did a little giggle
escape from your lips perhaps?


:-d


linda