Irony of seeking

[Jason Wharton]

With all the talk about principles and my lofty admonitions and all that, I
would like to state what most likely is obvious to many of you...

Outwardly I put my best foot forward, but inwardly I detect personal
ego-pride and hypocrisy. There is a definite gap between what I aspire to
and the reality of where I am at.

I don't think you are interested in a laundry list of my weaknesses and
imperfections but for the record I am riddled with them. I'm grateful for
them because they definitely help keep me humble.

I long for the day when I actually feel grown-up. So far I have yet to find
a person who claims to feel grown-up.

I'm beginning to believe the real joy of all this is found in the seeking
itself and not what is obtained as the object of seeking.

Kind regards,
Jason Wharton

[Olga]

>I'm beginning to believe the real joy of all this is found in the seeking
>itself and not what is obtained as the object of seeking.
>
>Kind regards,
>Jason Wharton

Yes Jason, you have stumbled on a very old metaphysical adage....

The Joy is IN the Journey

Blessings

Olga


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[Lesley Schultz]

Dear Jason:

--- Jason Wharton <jwharton@... (/group/asc2k/post?postID=25VzxwqVAozYhkZe01fR_NwrLLijcsHq9bjF-8_tL_VIKvlym6l45VnJkcetV6Mef_RWPMdA5fiPJ9XUaZZpqg)> wrote:
> snip> I don't think you are interested in a laundry
list> of my weaknesses and > imperfections but for the
record I am riddled with > them. >snip>

LS: Welcome to the club!!

<snip>I long for the day when I actually feel
grown-up. So > far I have yet to find > a person who
claims to feel grown-up. <snip>

LS: I used to feel bad because it seemed like everyone
around me that was an adult seemed like they were more
"grown up" than me. Then I discovered that nobody
ever feels "grown up", no matter how old they get. I
think this idea of "grown up" is something we picked
up in childhood-- our parents were so tall and smart
and powerful and wonderful. We all wanted to grow up
and be like them, and when we too would know
everything and be perfect [and if it wasn't our
parents that were all that + a bag of chips, it was
probably another adult that we looked up to and put on
a pedestal.]

The truth is that no parent or responsible adult would
ever tell a child that when they reach a mature age
[like maybe 35] that they would know everything and
the struggle to be perfect would end. The ideal of
"grown up" never existed in anyone, anywhere. Kind of
like Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny.

There are also all kinds of notions as to what "grown
up" really means. For some it might be an end to
frivolity and spontaneity in order to devote oneself
to the very serious business of raising children,
supporting a family and keeping a marriage alive. For
others, it means not drinking and partying during the
week so that one can appear at one's job ready to work
and promote a career, and restraining one's impulses.
Duty and Responsibility are often what it means to be
grown up.

I had a reading recently with DW in which Ra said that
I have a problem with being far too serious- there is
little joy or fun in my life. I've heard this before,
not just from Ra or extra-dimensional sources, but
from people who know me and work with me. This is
perfectly true; I hardly know what fun is and joy is
something that rarely comes my way. I still have a
healthy sense of humor, fortunately, but this rarely
surfaces. Why? Duty, Responsibility, Sobriety and
Caution. Although I may not feel like a grown up, I'm
certainly acting like one and it is not a good thing.

Jason, I don't think that human beings were meant to
be grown ups. In 3D we try to be, because we're just
learning the ways of love in a construct or matrix of
a social system. This is like learning to read with
the "Fun with Dick and Jane" series. 'See Spot run.'
'Where is little sister Sally?' 'Look, look there is
Dick with the ball.' In 4D we have to be ready to
handle the Bronte sisters, Hawthorne, Poe and Byron.
In order to do this we have to put aside the 1st grade
reader. 4D is the love density and we're doing the
Romantics, working hard towards the Enlightenment of
5D.

It is what we love that will inform us best in what is
to come. Duty, Responsibility and Sobriety are
designed to separate us from that which we love-- even
when it is a loved person or vocation. Duty,
Responsibility and Sobriety are service-orientated.
Service is more optimal when it is requested. Tell
me, would your wife or your children ask that you put
aside all your dreams and hopes in order to service
them? Of course not. It was father's day yesterday,
and yesterday they told you how wonderful and valuable
you are to them. When they did that, are they
thinking of how you go to work each day to support
them, or dutifully carry out the trash every week, or
mow the lawn? No. They're thinking of the times you
played with them on a rainy day, or the time you gave
your wife a single rose unexpectedly.

Did you do those things out of Duty, Responsibility,
etc.? No. It is your own self that loves them that
was celebrated yesterday. And this part is not grown
up.

Happy Late Father's Day, Dad.

~lesley







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[Jason Wharton]

> It is what we love that will inform us best in what is
> to come. Duty, Responsibility and Sobriety are
> designed to separate us from that which we love-- even
> when it is a loved person or vocation. Duty,
> Responsibility and Sobriety are service-orientated.
> Service is more optimal when it is requested. Tell
> me, would your wife or your children ask that you put
> aside all your dreams and hopes in order to service
> them? Of course not. It was father's day yesterday,
> and yesterday they told you how wonderful and valuable
> you are to them. When they did that, are they
> thinking of how you go to work each day to support
> them, or dutifully carry out the trash every week, or
> mow the lawn? No. They're thinking of the times you
> played with them on a rainy day, or the time you gave
> your wife a single rose unexpectedly.
>
> Did you do those things out of Duty, Responsibility,
> etc.? No. It is your own self that loves them that
> was celebrated yesterday. And this part is not grown
> up.

Thanks for the beautiful remarks.

> Happy Late Father's Day, Dad.

I did have a wonderful Father's Day.
What you have said rings true.

Jason Wharton