Mawk
08-28-2002, 12:20 AM
THE LIGHT OF LOVE
As I rode the stream on and on, I could eventually see a huge Light coming.
I knew it was the First Light; the Higher Self Light Matrix of our solar
system. Then the entire solar system appeared in the Light, accompanied by
one of those velvet booms.
I saw that the solar system we live in is our larger, local body. This is
our local body and we are much bigger than we
imagine. I saw that the solar system is our body. I am a part of this, and
the earth is this great created being that we are, and we are the part of it
that knows that it is. But we are only that part of it. We are not
everything, but we are that part of it that knows that it is.
I could see all the energy that this solar system generates, and it is an
incredible light show! I could hear the Music of the Spheres. Our solar
system, as do all celestial bodies, generates a unique matrix of light,
sound and vibratory energies. Advanced civilizations from other star systems
can spot life as we know it in the universe by the vibratory or energy
matrix imprint. It is child's play. The earth's Wonder Child (human
beings) make an abundance of sound right now, like children playing in the
backyard of the universe.
I rode the stream directly into the center of the Light. I felt embraced by
the Light as it took me in with its breath again, followed by another soft
sonic boom.
I was in this great Light of Love with the stream of life flowing through
me. I have to say again, it is the most loving,
non-judgmental Light. It is the ideal parent for this Wonder Child.
"What now?" I wondered.
The Light explained to me that there is no death; we are immortal beings.
We have already been alive forever! I realized that we are part of a
natural living system that recycles itself endlessly. I was never told
that I had to come back. I just knew that I would. It was only natural,
from what I had seen.
I don't know how long I was with the Light, in human time. But there came a
moment when I realized that all my questions had been answered and my return
was near. When I say that all my questions were answered on the other side,
I mean to say just that. All my questions have been answered. Every human
has a different life and set of questions to explore. Some of our questions
are Universal, but each of us is exploring this thing we call Life in our
own unique way. So is every other form of life, from mountains to every
leaf on every tree.
And that is very important to the rest of us in this Universe. Because it
all contributes to the Big Picture, the fullness of Life. We are literally
God exploring God's Self in an infinite Dance of Life. Your uniqueness
enhances all of Life.
HIS RETURN TO EARTH
As I began my return to the life cycle, it never crossed my mind, nor was I
told, that I would return to the same body. It just did not
matter. I had complete trust in the Light and the Life process. As the
stream merged with the great Light, I asked never to forget the revelations
and the feelings of what I had learned on the other side.
There was a "Yes". It felt like a kiss to my soul.
Then I was taken back through the Light into the vibratory realm again. The
whole process reversed, with even more information
being given to me. I came back home, and I was given lessons on the
mechanics of reincarnation. I was given answers to all those little
questions I had: "How does this work? How does that work?" I knew that I
would be reincarnated. The earth is a great processor of energy, and
individual consciousness evolves out of that into each one of us.
I thought of myself as a human for the first time, and I was happy to be
that. From what I have seen, I would be happy to be an atom in this
universe. An atom. So to be the human part of God ... this is the most
fantastic blessing. It is a blessing beyond
our wildest estimation of what blessing can be. For each and every one of
us to be the human part of this experience is awesome, and magnificent.
Each and every one of us, no matter where we are, screwed up or not, is a
blessing to the planet, right where we are.
So I went through the reincarnation process expecting to be a baby
somewhere. But I was given a lesson on how individual identity and
consciousness evolve. So I reincarnated back into this body. I was so
surprised when I opened my eyes. I do not know why, because I understood
it, but it was still such a surprise to be back in this body, back in my
room with someone looking over me crying her eyes out. It was my hospice
caretaker. She had given up an hour and a half after finding me dead. She
was sure I was dead; all the signs of death were there - I was getting
stiff.
We do not know how long I was dead, but we do know that it was an hour and a
half since I was found. She honored my wish to have my newly dead body left
alone for a few hours as much as she could. We had an amplified stethoscope
and many ways of checking out the vital functions of the body to see what
was happening. She can verify that I really was dead. It was not a
near-death experience. I experienced death itself for at least an hour and
a half. She found me dead and checked the stethoscope, blood pressure and
heart rate monitor for an hour and a half. Then I awakened and saw the
light outside. I tried to get up to go to it, but I fell out of the bed.
She heard a loud "clunk", ran in and found me on the floor.
When I recovered, I was very surprised and yet very awed about what had
happened to me. At first all the memory of the trip that I have now was not
there. I kept slipping out of this world and kept asking, "Am I alive?"
This world seemed more like a dream than that one. Within three days, I was
feeling normal again, clearer, yet different than I had ever felt in my
life. My memory of the journey came back later. I could see nothing wrong
with any human being I had ever seen. Before that I was really judgmental.
I thought a lot of people were really screwed up, in fact I thought that
everybody was screwed up but me. But I got clear on all that.
About three months later a friend said I should get tested, so I went and
got the scans and so forth. I really felt good, so I was
afraid of getting bad news. I remember the doctor at the clinic looking at
the before and after scans, saying, "Well, there is nothing here now." I
said, "Really, it must be a miracle?" He said "No, these things happen,
they are called spontaneous remission." He acted very unimpressed. But
here was a miracle, and I was impressed, even if no one else was.
LESSONS HE LEARNED
The mystery of life has very little to do with intelligence. The universe is
not an intellectual process at all. The intellect is helpful; it is
brilliant, but right now that is all we process with, instead of our hearts
and the wiser part of ourselves.
The center of the earth is this great transmuter of energy, just as you see
in pictures of our earth's magnetic field. That's our cycle, pulling
reincarnated souls back in and through it again. A sign that you are
reaching human level is that you are beginning to
evolve an individual consciousness.
The animals have a group soul, and they reincarnate in group souls. A deer
is pretty much going to be a deer forever. But just being born a human,
whether deformed or genius, shows that you are on the path to developing an
individual consciousness. That is in itself part of the group consciousness
called humanity.
I saw that races are personality clusters. Nations like France, Germany and
China each have their own personality. Cities have personalities, they are
local group souls that attract certain people. Families have group souls.
Individual identity is evolving like branches of a fractal; the group soul
explores in our individuality. The different questions that each of us has
are very, very important. This is how Godhead is exploring God's Self -
through you. So ask your questions, do your searching. You will find your
Self and you will find God in that Self, because it is only the Self.
More than that, I began to see that each one of us humans are soulmates. We
are part of the same soul fractaling out in many creative directions, but
still the same. Now I look at every human being that I ever see, and I see
a soul mate, my soulmate, the one I have always been looking for. Beyond
that, the greatest soul mate that you will ever have is yourself.
We are each both male and female. We experience this in the womb and we
experience this in reincarnation states. If you are looking for that
ultimate soul mate outside of yourself, you may never find it; it is not
there. Just as God is not "there". God is here. Don't look "out there"
for God. Look here for God. Look through your Self. Start having the
greatest love affair you ever had ... with your Self. You will love
everything out of that.
I had a descent into what you might call Hell, and it was very surprising.
I did not see Satan or evil. My descent into Hell was a
descent into each person's customized human misery, ignorance, and darkness
of not-knowing. It seemed like a miserable eternity. But each of the
millions of souls around me had a little star of light always available.
But no one seemed to pay attention to it. They were so consumed with their
own grief, trauma and misery. But, after what seemed an eternity, I started
calling out to that Light, like a child calling to a parent for help.
Then the Light opened up and formed a tunnel that came right to me an
insulated me from all that fear and pain. That is what Hell
really is. So what we are doing is learning to hold hands, to come
together. The doors of Hell are open now. We are going to link up, hold
hands, and walk out of Hell together. The Light came to me and turned into
a huge golden angel. I said, "Are you the angel of death?" It expressed to
me that it was my oversoul, my Higher Self matrix, a super-ancient part of
ourselves. Then I was taken to the Light.
Soon our science will quantify spirit. Isn't that going to be wonderful?
We are coming up with devices now that are sensitive to
subtle energy or spirit energy. Physicists use these atomic colliders to
smash atoms to see what they are made of. They have got it down to quarks
and charm, and all that. Well, one day they are going to come down to the
little thing that holds it all
together, and they are going to have to call that ... God.
With atomic colliders they are not only seeing what is in here, but they are
creating particles. Thank God most of them are short-lived milliseconds and
nanoseconds. We are just beginning to understand that we are creating too,
as we go along. As I saw forever, I came to a realm in which there is a
point where we pass all knowledge and begin creating the next fractal, the
next level. We have that power to create as we explore. And that is God
expanding itself through us.
Since my return I have experienced the Light spontaneously, and I have
learned how to get to that space almost any time in my meditation. Each one
of you can do this. You do not have to die to do this. It is within your
equipment; you are wired for it already.
The body is the most magnificent Light being there is. The body is a
universe of incredible Light. Spirit is not pushing us to
dissolve this body. That is not what is happening. Stop trying to become
God; God is becoming you. Here.
The mind is like a child running around the universe, demanding this and
thinking it created the world. But I ask the mind: "What did your mother
have to do with this?" That is the next level of spiritual awareness. Oh!
my mother! All of a sudden you give up the ego, because you are not the
only soul in the universe.
One of my questions to the Light was, "What is Heaven?" I was given a tour
of all the heavens that have been created: the Nirvanas, the Happy Hunting
Grounds, all of them. I went through them. These are thought-form
creations that we have created. We don't really go to heaven; we are
reprocessed.
As I rode the stream on and on, I could eventually see a huge Light coming.
I knew it was the First Light; the Higher Self Light Matrix of our solar
system. Then the entire solar system appeared in the Light, accompanied by
one of those velvet booms.
I saw that the solar system we live in is our larger, local body. This is
our local body and we are much bigger than we
imagine. I saw that the solar system is our body. I am a part of this, and
the earth is this great created being that we are, and we are the part of it
that knows that it is. But we are only that part of it. We are not
everything, but we are that part of it that knows that it is.
I could see all the energy that this solar system generates, and it is an
incredible light show! I could hear the Music of the Spheres. Our solar
system, as do all celestial bodies, generates a unique matrix of light,
sound and vibratory energies. Advanced civilizations from other star systems
can spot life as we know it in the universe by the vibratory or energy
matrix imprint. It is child's play. The earth's Wonder Child (human
beings) make an abundance of sound right now, like children playing in the
backyard of the universe.
I rode the stream directly into the center of the Light. I felt embraced by
the Light as it took me in with its breath again, followed by another soft
sonic boom.
I was in this great Light of Love with the stream of life flowing through
me. I have to say again, it is the most loving,
non-judgmental Light. It is the ideal parent for this Wonder Child.
"What now?" I wondered.
The Light explained to me that there is no death; we are immortal beings.
We have already been alive forever! I realized that we are part of a
natural living system that recycles itself endlessly. I was never told
that I had to come back. I just knew that I would. It was only natural,
from what I had seen.
I don't know how long I was with the Light, in human time. But there came a
moment when I realized that all my questions had been answered and my return
was near. When I say that all my questions were answered on the other side,
I mean to say just that. All my questions have been answered. Every human
has a different life and set of questions to explore. Some of our questions
are Universal, but each of us is exploring this thing we call Life in our
own unique way. So is every other form of life, from mountains to every
leaf on every tree.
And that is very important to the rest of us in this Universe. Because it
all contributes to the Big Picture, the fullness of Life. We are literally
God exploring God's Self in an infinite Dance of Life. Your uniqueness
enhances all of Life.
HIS RETURN TO EARTH
As I began my return to the life cycle, it never crossed my mind, nor was I
told, that I would return to the same body. It just did not
matter. I had complete trust in the Light and the Life process. As the
stream merged with the great Light, I asked never to forget the revelations
and the feelings of what I had learned on the other side.
There was a "Yes". It felt like a kiss to my soul.
Then I was taken back through the Light into the vibratory realm again. The
whole process reversed, with even more information
being given to me. I came back home, and I was given lessons on the
mechanics of reincarnation. I was given answers to all those little
questions I had: "How does this work? How does that work?" I knew that I
would be reincarnated. The earth is a great processor of energy, and
individual consciousness evolves out of that into each one of us.
I thought of myself as a human for the first time, and I was happy to be
that. From what I have seen, I would be happy to be an atom in this
universe. An atom. So to be the human part of God ... this is the most
fantastic blessing. It is a blessing beyond
our wildest estimation of what blessing can be. For each and every one of
us to be the human part of this experience is awesome, and magnificent.
Each and every one of us, no matter where we are, screwed up or not, is a
blessing to the planet, right where we are.
So I went through the reincarnation process expecting to be a baby
somewhere. But I was given a lesson on how individual identity and
consciousness evolve. So I reincarnated back into this body. I was so
surprised when I opened my eyes. I do not know why, because I understood
it, but it was still such a surprise to be back in this body, back in my
room with someone looking over me crying her eyes out. It was my hospice
caretaker. She had given up an hour and a half after finding me dead. She
was sure I was dead; all the signs of death were there - I was getting
stiff.
We do not know how long I was dead, but we do know that it was an hour and a
half since I was found. She honored my wish to have my newly dead body left
alone for a few hours as much as she could. We had an amplified stethoscope
and many ways of checking out the vital functions of the body to see what
was happening. She can verify that I really was dead. It was not a
near-death experience. I experienced death itself for at least an hour and
a half. She found me dead and checked the stethoscope, blood pressure and
heart rate monitor for an hour and a half. Then I awakened and saw the
light outside. I tried to get up to go to it, but I fell out of the bed.
She heard a loud "clunk", ran in and found me on the floor.
When I recovered, I was very surprised and yet very awed about what had
happened to me. At first all the memory of the trip that I have now was not
there. I kept slipping out of this world and kept asking, "Am I alive?"
This world seemed more like a dream than that one. Within three days, I was
feeling normal again, clearer, yet different than I had ever felt in my
life. My memory of the journey came back later. I could see nothing wrong
with any human being I had ever seen. Before that I was really judgmental.
I thought a lot of people were really screwed up, in fact I thought that
everybody was screwed up but me. But I got clear on all that.
About three months later a friend said I should get tested, so I went and
got the scans and so forth. I really felt good, so I was
afraid of getting bad news. I remember the doctor at the clinic looking at
the before and after scans, saying, "Well, there is nothing here now." I
said, "Really, it must be a miracle?" He said "No, these things happen,
they are called spontaneous remission." He acted very unimpressed. But
here was a miracle, and I was impressed, even if no one else was.
LESSONS HE LEARNED
The mystery of life has very little to do with intelligence. The universe is
not an intellectual process at all. The intellect is helpful; it is
brilliant, but right now that is all we process with, instead of our hearts
and the wiser part of ourselves.
The center of the earth is this great transmuter of energy, just as you see
in pictures of our earth's magnetic field. That's our cycle, pulling
reincarnated souls back in and through it again. A sign that you are
reaching human level is that you are beginning to
evolve an individual consciousness.
The animals have a group soul, and they reincarnate in group souls. A deer
is pretty much going to be a deer forever. But just being born a human,
whether deformed or genius, shows that you are on the path to developing an
individual consciousness. That is in itself part of the group consciousness
called humanity.
I saw that races are personality clusters. Nations like France, Germany and
China each have their own personality. Cities have personalities, they are
local group souls that attract certain people. Families have group souls.
Individual identity is evolving like branches of a fractal; the group soul
explores in our individuality. The different questions that each of us has
are very, very important. This is how Godhead is exploring God's Self -
through you. So ask your questions, do your searching. You will find your
Self and you will find God in that Self, because it is only the Self.
More than that, I began to see that each one of us humans are soulmates. We
are part of the same soul fractaling out in many creative directions, but
still the same. Now I look at every human being that I ever see, and I see
a soul mate, my soulmate, the one I have always been looking for. Beyond
that, the greatest soul mate that you will ever have is yourself.
We are each both male and female. We experience this in the womb and we
experience this in reincarnation states. If you are looking for that
ultimate soul mate outside of yourself, you may never find it; it is not
there. Just as God is not "there". God is here. Don't look "out there"
for God. Look here for God. Look through your Self. Start having the
greatest love affair you ever had ... with your Self. You will love
everything out of that.
I had a descent into what you might call Hell, and it was very surprising.
I did not see Satan or evil. My descent into Hell was a
descent into each person's customized human misery, ignorance, and darkness
of not-knowing. It seemed like a miserable eternity. But each of the
millions of souls around me had a little star of light always available.
But no one seemed to pay attention to it. They were so consumed with their
own grief, trauma and misery. But, after what seemed an eternity, I started
calling out to that Light, like a child calling to a parent for help.
Then the Light opened up and formed a tunnel that came right to me an
insulated me from all that fear and pain. That is what Hell
really is. So what we are doing is learning to hold hands, to come
together. The doors of Hell are open now. We are going to link up, hold
hands, and walk out of Hell together. The Light came to me and turned into
a huge golden angel. I said, "Are you the angel of death?" It expressed to
me that it was my oversoul, my Higher Self matrix, a super-ancient part of
ourselves. Then I was taken to the Light.
Soon our science will quantify spirit. Isn't that going to be wonderful?
We are coming up with devices now that are sensitive to
subtle energy or spirit energy. Physicists use these atomic colliders to
smash atoms to see what they are made of. They have got it down to quarks
and charm, and all that. Well, one day they are going to come down to the
little thing that holds it all
together, and they are going to have to call that ... God.
With atomic colliders they are not only seeing what is in here, but they are
creating particles. Thank God most of them are short-lived milliseconds and
nanoseconds. We are just beginning to understand that we are creating too,
as we go along. As I saw forever, I came to a realm in which there is a
point where we pass all knowledge and begin creating the next fractal, the
next level. We have that power to create as we explore. And that is God
expanding itself through us.
Since my return I have experienced the Light spontaneously, and I have
learned how to get to that space almost any time in my meditation. Each one
of you can do this. You do not have to die to do this. It is within your
equipment; you are wired for it already.
The body is the most magnificent Light being there is. The body is a
universe of incredible Light. Spirit is not pushing us to
dissolve this body. That is not what is happening. Stop trying to become
God; God is becoming you. Here.
The mind is like a child running around the universe, demanding this and
thinking it created the world. But I ask the mind: "What did your mother
have to do with this?" That is the next level of spiritual awareness. Oh!
my mother! All of a sudden you give up the ego, because you are not the
only soul in the universe.
One of my questions to the Light was, "What is Heaven?" I was given a tour
of all the heavens that have been created: the Nirvanas, the Happy Hunting
Grounds, all of them. I went through them. These are thought-form
creations that we have created. We don't really go to heaven; we are
reprocessed.