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><span class="451451223-15042002"><font face="Arial" color="#0000ff" size="2">Hi all,</font></span>
><span class="451451223-15042002"><font face="Arial" color="#0000ff" size="2">Saturday and the whole event has been rather interesting. not what I was expecting .perhaps I was expecting everybody to pop into full consciousness. I realized that if we were to do that it would be rather hard to come down from off a high place and live hear once again. I know that after all the excitement I did go through I went through a depression on Sunday that was no fun picnic. you see the more light we incorporate into ourselves the more we are responsible to hold it and protect it and keep it inside us. it fills our atoms in the cells of our bodies replacing all impurities, gunk, karma, call it what you will. as much as we want it to happen suddenly it is a process just as ascension is our ultimate goal from the earth but it is the steps we take to get there. what would happen to us if we did not build those strong sturdy steps somehow managing to gethigherthan we were able to by whatever means well don't you think we would fall? again and again and again. so I believe that we through daily appreciation and meditation, discipline and service we buildour ladders and when our work is complete we shall understand in full consciousness where wehave come from, and how we gothereandwhere we are going. the light comes inside us when we learn to receive and accept its presence. part of the path of our ascension school graduation. </font></span>
><span class="451451223-15042002"><font face="Arial" color="#0000ff" size="2"> on Friday I prepared through stretches of the spine and limbs and meditated by consciously moving energy in and out of me while using the violet transmuting flame to transmute, to disintegrate as much of the raw gunk that had been clogging my bodies and denying me the light.I put it there now it is up to me to get it out.I tried to work through each blockage I came across and worked on creating a flow of energy within the body so that there would be no stagnating of it once the big moment occurred on Sat.. I also worked on expanding the heart energies and consciously going to the heart center to get grounded as I know that when the cells of the body get shook apart for cleansing there creates a great shaking up then there is an imbalance which we must put ourselves back together again. like in the ole humpty dumpy nursery rhyme. On Saturday I meditated for 10 minutes short of 2 hours. started one hour before in which I did the same thing and asked for protection and made affirmations for the protection of the light grid and all the light workers activating it and being a part of it. stopped after an hour and went outside for a while. I felt really out of it. that out of balance feeling I mentioned.I had a few heart palpitations which happens as light adjusts itself in your form and rearranges things.I should have gone to my center but I guess I was all pooped out from meditating and just let it occur on its own gradually. the experience was good. like I said it was not what I had expected. not a big bang. but it was more subtle. the biggest bang I got was the night before meditation. it was going real well as I could feel everything my consciousness was directing. I not just visualized the energy and light but I felt it move through my body and out of it. most the time it did what my consciousness directed it to but I could tell I was not experienced in such things as there were times when it was directed by another source and I watched and felt it do its thing as if I did not understand the flow process which I admit I don't right now. that was Friday night. I slept well that night and went to what is called an etheric retreat and learned about the reasons for some karmic relationships I have and how they will get resolved by certain pains I am going through at present, and Saturday I had to go to clinic and work for 4 hours minimum before the event. I had such a wonderful day. I felt such joy and love and happiness and I kept telling everyone I understand why all these master, Buddha and yogi's have such huge grins on their faces. they cant help it. it's a side effect of God's light within us. as we incorporate it into our beings it give us pure contentment and happiness from inside out.it's theReal thing, and not justputting on a face.that afternoon during the event I was going into my center and I heard a man's voice ( I have been getting clairaudient things happening big time over the past year) and he said to go deeper into my heart center. I tried but I didn't have what it took to go there so I just continued to try. it is not easy or at least I don't think and believe it takes lots of practice to focus your consciousness and draw it down deep into your heart center and actually feel it. I have been able to only fully do it one time. it was back in 1987 when I was praying and crying cause I felt I had no direction in life. I prayed fervently for help. well I got it all right. I followed the purple blobs I see that I guess everybody sees moving as they close their eyes. as my consciousness followed them I felt my consciousness move . it felt like it was between my heart and head but I knew it was in the heart chakra . it felt like I was in suspended animation I believe it is called. my consciousness was taken away from my surroundings and body and I was out in space looking at an orb or planet without the sun on it like it was night. I watched it turn and as it did rays of sunlight shown over the horizon.light came out from behind the planet as itturned</font></span><span class="451451223-15042002"><font face="Arial" color="#0000ff" size="2">and one by one sent rays of light high into the air. as each ray sprung out I felt such incredible EXTREME joy. more than I could ever feel in 5 life times all rolled up into one. this would happen as each ray of light showed and flashed up as the planet turned in my direction. it was so incredibly beautiful, the intense love that was divine in nature as no love on earth could compare . I knew that if I continued my body would die as it could not take such intenseness. I knew that I would leave my physical body, so I got scared.how could anyone survive such a thing especially the physical bodyand fear set in.I did not want to leave my son. he was only 4 yrs old and I needed to stay to raise him. he needed me. the split second I felt fear was when the planet stopped revolving and I become instantly aware of being in my body again. I was so amazed of such powerful LOVE and beauty that God had. I wondered what that was about and why that had happened to me. normally I would question myself as to whether or not this was real and all that stuff but my father left me with his love. my whole chest was vibrating and I still felt much of that divine love and joy in my heart area. most incredible. I have had a few visions and even obe's but nothing has compared to that one time when </font></span>
><span class="451451223-15042002"><font face="Arial" color="#0000ff" size="2">God showed my he was my father and I was his child and that he loved me. I was literally beaming with light for days. the feeling in my chest lasted exactly 3 days. I remember telling my mom about the experience and the only thing I could possibly relate it to was a physical orgasm but in the heart and many times more powerful and its love power lasted 3 days in my heart. an orgasm of the heart chakra is what I call it as it was an expansion of the concentrated/conscious energies in the heart center that caused the plumes to open. I know they are not all openand till this day I have not had the opportunity to repeat this. I feel it was a dispensation from God in a moment of need. after that my whole life changed. I kept getting coincidences as Troy talked about. I would see lighthouses everywhere and a feeling that went with it was I was being drawn like an obsession to them and didn't know why. all I knewwas that I had to find out. I saw an article in Life magazine about restoration of lighthouses and I actually went to the peninsula to visit one and talked to some people about that. nothing came of it so my son and I went home empty handed not knowing what that was all about. days later I saw an advertisement of a spiritual study group local to my area call the ------------- 'Lighthouse' study group. I called the lady up to find out where they were going to hold it and I had an immediate repore with this woman. in knew this must be it and where I was being lead. For the next ten years I bought books, tapes videos while going to my group meeting where for the first time I had learned how to invoke the light and call it forth. The first meeting I saw a picture of mother Mary and it was intensely playing upon my consciousness and I knew this was where I was to stay for a long time. I since left the group and have gone on my own to do my own work but I have always held the teachings in most high reverence. I felt I had graduated and moved onto other things and I was suppose to do it alone this time till God and my higher self and Guides tell me about my next adventure. So I guess the reason for going into this is to say that you don't have to have experiences like this as they don't always happen yet there are subtle changes or changes that happen even drastically that we may not be aware of and it doesn't make them any less important. they are all important toward building those sturdy steps of our ladder that we climb to our ascension. May God be at your doorstep and you invite him in and care for him, give him clothing, nourishment, and a good peaceful sleep for rejuvenation sweet. </font></span>
><span class="451451223-15042002"><font face="Arial" color="#0000ff" size="2">Love , light, and happiness,</font></span>
><span class="451451223-15042002"><font face="Arial" color="#0000ff" size="2">Melanie Joy</font></span></font>
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From: chamil1950 [mailto:Chamil1950@aol.com]
Sent: Sunday, April 14, 2002 8:02 PM
To: asc2k@yahoogroups.com
Subject: [asc2k] Just Curious
</font><tt>Hello group,
I was wondering if anyone has any good experiences from the Saturday
activation? I managed to get in about a good ten minutes of prayer
before it rained out my parade :) But I felt good about the time I
did spend. And there was some visualization in mind's eye of the
grid. Nothing spectacular, but positive all the same. Chris
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