Broken Synergy

[Sunny One]

i've been closed, not of choice
but of circumstance, and it grates
me to the core for i refuse to
passively stand by and decompose
into an unproductive hermit.

please bear with me, and strive to
openly contribute your simple truths
and feelings, however weak, in my
absence. you will become enriched
and inspire others by this process.

frustrated,
pat

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[David Wilcock]

from: "sunny one" <sol72us@... (/group/asc2k/post?postid=nyj21f5j7kbddarmlzbfh3f1jjjkmtutd6duww csjxkacyxclujz-wmpr0fpf3odm4ktyps1dgx0kg)>

> i've been closed, not of choice
> but of circumstance, and it grates
> me to the core for i refuse to
> passively stand by and decompose
> into an unproductive hermit.
>
> please bear with me, and strive to
> openly contribute your simple truths
> and feelings, however weak, in my
> absence. you will become enriched
> and inspire others by this process.
>
> frustrated,
> pat

dw: there is a beauty to your words in the honesty of emotion that is
conveyed. this willingness to explore the shadow self is far from
unproductive - it is exactly what will insure that change is coming. the
energies are increasing ever faster, quite documentably so throughout our
entire solar system, and the market analysis data clearly shows that this
has an effect on human consciousness. all of us are being literally
shattered day by day as this energy increases. what we think we could depend
on can disappear in a flash, leaving us reeling in its wake. these changes
are being ordered up by our own higher selves to test our resolve in
advance, so that when others are going through similar situations we will be
very calm and able to help them.

my brother's recent, amazing et contact experience, which hopefully he will
have finished for publication soon, was designed to teach me / us that
ascension is an incremental process, not just an all-at-once
mega-conclusion. in that sense i have now realized that i and many others
have been ascending for years. each time that i got the "ear blast" or a
numerical synchronicity or yet another of hundreds of absolutely clear
future prophecies come true, not to mention all the incredible dreams and
readings, i was actively participating in the ascension! i have suddenly
become much more clear about why my readings had said that "the ascension is
now, in this moment, with every breath that you take."

ascension isn't necessarily a comfortable process as much as it is becoming
comfortable *with* process. there is a serious difference. and it is quite
literally a transformation. it is happening so fast now that by the time the
final moment has arrived, it may well seem a lot less of a "jump" than it
would at present. the shifts that i am experiencing are huge. today i was by
water and saw the most incredible energetics in it, brilliant, dynamic
curling ribbonlike colors of purple and pink that i knew were energetic and
not optical. i don't know exactly what i was seeing, but it was very
beautiful - like the spirit of the water. and it was _within_ the water, not
just on the surface. furthermore, i was only in a light meditative trance.
none of these things were happening before - but i have shed blood every
step of the way. (literally as well as figuratively.)

one can fall into the temptation of thinking that the status quo will keep
lumbering along indefinitely, but the pre-y2k panic and the sept. 11th
socio-economic upheaval both clearly showed us how quickly things could
change. it is better to keep these thoughts in mind than to utterly try to
shut them out, as if / when they come true, we need to not be shaken.
honestly, i think that people who read our website were far less shaken by
9-11 than the average; as you all know, i was able to create a great article
that same day, as i had already expected something like that to happen. same
goes for the inevitable changes in our economy. we're now less than three
weeks away from when japan will stop guaranteeing their bank deposits,
tantamount to an economic collapse. april 1st. however, we may not see
immediate effects from this.

so again, the more honest with ourselves we are, the better. i know that
most new agers want to live a life of blissful contentment, but those with
wisdom can see that what we are getting instead is a whalloping big load of
catalyst to work with - and as soon as we move through one cycle, the next
one comes up. that is why i have stopped trying to "intend" a purely
harmonious set of circumstances and instead seek harmony in the midst of
circumstances. or as dr. mandelker likes to quote an ancient buddhist sage,
"the buddha is a stick for wiping $#!+." this crudely depicts how attaining
buddhahood involves getting your hands very dirty. all of the dissociated
and unwanted parts of ourselves are flying up in our faces.


i'll again print the poem that i wrote late last week, while rehashing some
painful old memories of a person who tried to force me to think like they
do:


savor the awfulness of this moment,
for it has only one place to go.

savor the awfulness of this moment,
as our nature is once to unfold.

your words have a taste, a smell, a touch,
as you lash out in venomous hate.

it hasn't really affected me much,
when i saw you so blind and irate.

i savor the awfulness of the moment,
as you think you're so right and so strong.

these four white walls that enclosed me
won't be around for too long.

for the taste in my mouth is of gravel,
but the love in my heart is what's true.

and the pathways of god i shall travel,
by the line that is crossed but by few.

so i savor the awfulness of the moment,
for the will of the heart is what's right.

and inside i can change what once felt so strange
for i have not yet desired to fight.


peace be with you -

- david

[Jeremy Weiland]

> dw: there is a beauty to your words in the honesty
> of emotion that is conveyed.

many times i find myself very annoyed by what pat
writes, but i think it has something to do with the
raw honesty coming through. no doubt he is reflecting
a part of myself in need of integration.

thank you, pat.

jeremy


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[Sunny One]

jeremy,
your welcome, and i feel your hate.
i'm your polar opposite. i don't want
to be a guru, many times i think gurus
are egocentric know-it-alls.
you analyze so much to a gnats ass,
with endless droning rants that bore me.
who cares, i want to know what you feel,
what you're afraid of. write me some
poetry on how much you hate me,
make it nasty and vile, you will feel
much better. there are so many that
feel the same way, it will affirm them
too.
show me your vulnerability, jeremy.
you can do this. please make it short.

then you can write us about your love,
and you will feel even better.

nothing personal,
pat


--- jeremy weiland <greenlantern113@... (/group/asc2k/post?postid=o0a-k7iixidkkhwthogrmvzwgywsycx9juvx9-vlebdi1g4kntdvn4xflhnotaoye9doakf98hkl-cwf8brt)> wrote:
> > dw: there is a beauty to your words in the honesty
> > of emotion that is conveyed.
>
> many times i find myself very annoyed by what pat
> writes, but i think it has something to do with the
> raw honesty coming through. no doubt he is
> reflecting
> a part of myself in need of integration.
>
> thank you, pat.
>
> jeremy
>
>
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[Jeremy Weiland]

hey pat,

> jeremy,
> your welcome, and i feel your hate.

uh, i don't hate you... i never meant to imply that.
but i know what you mean. the hate we have for
another is also for ourselves. how could you not feel
it?

> i'm your polar opposite. i don't want
> to be a guru, many times i think gurus
> are egocentric know-it-alls.
> you analyze so much to a gnats ass,
> with endless droning rants that bore me.

sorry... i try to put all my droning rants in less
than 30 separate posts a day, at least...

btw, if you've never analyzed a gnat's ass, you're
really missing out. the mystery of the guru... lol

> who cares, i want to know what you feel,
> what you're afraid of. write me some
> poetry on how much you hate me,
> make it nasty and vile, you will feel
> much better. there are so many that
> feel the same way, it will affirm them
> too.

i don't hate you!!!

ok???

i'll send you some poetry i've written one of these
days.

> show me your vulnerability, jeremy.
> you can do this. please make it short.

ok, you want to know what i don't like about what you
write?

it really annoys me that somebody can share themselves
so fully, competely, and honestly, as you do. you
don't hold back, you let me know exactly what your
soul is. i feel your joy and sorrow. we're supposed
to hide ourselves from each other more than that. i'm
not nearly as open. in this way, *you're* the guru...
:-p

on an unrelated note, it also annoys me that you post
to the list like 15 short email poems. why don't you
compile them all together and send them out?

sorry to everybody caught in the middle of this...
please allow me this brief interlude of comforting
negativity... how could i turn pat down :-)

> nothing personal,

give me a break... it's *always* personal... :-) but
that's ok.

take care,

jeremy

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[zhing311]

this is cool, i like it when people air their dirty laundry in
public. flame wars are pretty entertaining, but this is really a
minor scirmish, so i hope no one gets upset. i was pretty surprised
to see the sunny one dis jeremy to his face like that, and then send
like 15 emails at once, that was pretty funny.

the sand has been sifted,
the world has been gifted,
the veil has been lifted,
too bad you missed it,
suckers, just kidding :)



--- in asc2k@y..., jeremy weiland <greenlantern113@y...> wrote:
> hey pat,
>
> > jeremy,
> > your welcome, and i feel your hate.
>
> uh, i don't hate you... i never meant to imply that.
> but i know what you mean. the hate we have for
> another is also for ourselves. how could you not feel
> it?
>

[Sunny One]

damn jeremy,
you denied me your hate and brevity.
that really makes me feel like @#$%!
but you did respond, and that earns
you my respect, regardless.
snoopy loves you,
pat
--- jeremy weiland <greenlantern113@... (/group/asc2k/post?postid=qlkv1yeudnnxzoduryhvlizu7ov2p4zpfisv12 gpzbhgtli5a-9gy393opsif6ecm6m4bzb-p3ouxsezpz3d9cca)> wrote:
> hey pat,
>
> > jeremy,
> > your welcome, and i feel your hate.
>
> uh, i don't hate you... i never meant to imply that.
>
> but i know what you mean. the hate we have for
> another is also for ourselves. how could you not
> feel
> it?
>
> > i'm your polar opposite. i don't want
> > to be a guru, many times i think gurus
> > are egocentric know-it-alls.
> > you analyze so much to a gnats ass,
> > with endless droning rants that bore me.
>
> sorry... i try to put all my droning rants in less
> than 30 separate posts a day, at least...
>
> btw, if you've never analyzed a gnat's ass, you're
> really missing out. the mystery of the guru... lol
>
> > who cares, i want to know what you feel,
> > what you're afraid of. write me some
> > poetry on how much you hate me,
> > make it nasty and vile, you will feel
> > much better. there are so many that
> > feel the same way, it will affirm them
> > too.
>
> i don't hate you!!!
>
> ok???
>
> i'll send you some poetry i've written one of these
> days.
>
> > show me your vulnerability, jeremy.
> > you can do this. please make it short.
>
> ok, you want to know what i don't like about what
> you
> write?
>
> it really annoys me that somebody can share
> themselves
> so fully, competely, and honestly, as you do. you
> don't hold back, you let me know exactly what your
> soul is. i feel your joy and sorrow. we're
> supposed
> to hide ourselves from each other more than that.
> i'm
> not nearly as open. in this way, *you're* the
> guru...
> :-p
>
> on an unrelated note, it also annoys me that you
> post
> to the list like 15 short email poems. why don't
> you
> compile them all together and send them out?
>
> sorry to everybody caught in the middle of this...
> please allow me this brief interlude of comforting
> negativity... how could i turn pat down :-)
>
> > nothing personal,
>
> give me a break... it's *always* personal... :-)
> but
> that's ok.
>
> take care,
>
> jeremy
>
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>


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[jha_amin]

--- in asc2k@y..., "zhing311" <zhing311@y...> wrote:

lol....you sto full of love folks can really tear each other up
politely. j, you know better than to get drawn into something like
this. btw...the oppostie of love is not hate, it is fear.

[David Wilcock]

from: "jha_amin" <frm@... (/group/asc2k/post?postid=zbkbgss08jgvlq5lvb93s2x0_i2knq_l_28sjy 8bwdvk50ri8er8mei3s380tc96twh-cyl-gq)>

> lol....you sto full of love folks can really tear each other up
> politely. j, you know better than to get drawn into something like
> this. btw...the oppostie of love is not hate, it is fear.

dw: word...

peace be with you -

- david

[Jeremy Weiland]

> politely. j, you know better than to get drawn into
> something like
> this.

of course i do. :-)

jeremy


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