what changes are you experiencing in the run-up to 2012?

[mwr1026]

there are tons of references scattered throughout these fora about changes people are experiencing in the run-up to 2012. my intention in starting this thread is to make a space where people can report the whole range of specific personal changes we are individually experiencing.
i'm thinking primarily of individual body, health, and consciousness changes, but maybe there are others i hadn't thought of.

i can start by listing some changes i am experiencing, all since the beginning of this year.



i've always had hay fever between mid-april and mid-june every year, and no hay fever any other time of year. for the first time this summer i started to have low grade sinus allergy problems beginning in mid-august, continuing to the present. it feels a little different than the usual spring hay fever, which was milder this spring than usual. (this is a phenomenon referred to in the link above.)
i have developed a heightened sense of the present moment since about march. the physical world seems more intense than ever before.
my stress level is practically flat-lined. politics, the economy, etc. has no power to stress me out. my stock portfolio is in turmoil and yet i am cool, and steady. i am tracking dw and project camelot and some other sites, but not the least stressed by the dangers and threats i read about in these places. i am developing a perspective that is independent of the illusory data coming in from the outside world. all of this is a huge change for me.
dreams are becoming more vivid, more intense, and generally more obvious in their interpretations. there are periods when dream recall comes in a flood, other times when dreams are almost completely inaccessible. this is changing constantly.
i am intensely aware of the spiritual dimension of everything around me, but not obsessed with it. it's a new way of seeing for me.
i am feeling very impatient for progress in my spiritual development. i would describe it as a voracious hunger for more.
while almost no one i know personally appears to be experiencing this intensity of changes, most people i talk to about such things are interested and open. and no one seems to be put off by any of the "tinfoil hat" stuff that i bring up.

my wife has noticed all these changes. she is less tuned into such things but interested, and becoming more so as she watches the changes in me.

[mwr1026]

oh yes, there's one thing i missed in the note above. my vision seems to be improving. my glasses/contacts seem to be too strong and i am seeing noticeably more clearly without them.

[KassandraLoves]

ditto on the following:

~insatiable spiritual knowledge hunger. im like dang cookie monster or somthing!!!! gimme cookieee!!! nom nom nom!!! 'cept those cookies are chocolate chip knowledge cookes, hahahah....

~ flat-lines stress level indeed! nothing stresses me out! i almost feel like a jerk for not getting all emotional when my friends/family are dealing with tough things....i keep wondering why i wouldn't get upset in that same situation...the only thing that gets me emotional is my spirituality! watching all this crazy stuff happen and feeling my reaction (or non-reaction) to it just compounds my sense of inner-balance.

~vivid dreams to the max! ive been keeping a log for the past 3 weeks and havent gone 1 single day without having a vivid dream. i am getting very specific messages in my dreams and its getting easier to read them. im always having dreams about "someone" showing me things! things like numbers and geometry and planets...ive never dreamt about this stuff before until the past month! especially getting messages coming from a voice other than my own telling me things about myself.

~being more shameless and open abou tmy "against the so called normal grain" views. i.e. tin foil hat stuff. people seem to be more open...either that or i just dont care to see their judgement anymore. its very refreshing to be open! i will tell anyone anything if they ask.

here are some of my own:

~ vitality! im feeling re-vitalized! i am sleeping less hours than normal but feeling like im getting double that! im actually sleeping well for once and and i dont have to drag my butt outta bed, i feel fresh and awake when i roll outta bed! lovin it!!! i havent had coffee for 3 weeks due to this!

~ sudden diet change. very sudden. eating less junk and more "earthly" foods like veggies and fruits! yum! i am also drinking (no exaggeration) at least 3 liters of water a day! i feel better than ever!

~being alone is ok! my husband just got sent to iraq for the 2nd time and the 1st time around i was miserable without him...but my being alone this time around has been a spiritual springboard and catalyst for me to see that its what i needed to begin with. i wish i would have gotten it the first time around. my studies, research, and spiritualy endeavors are keeping me "company."

[333mark333]

- over the last few years i have noticed that empathy is heightened, i really feel for those around me and i will shed a tear for all who are suffering. i am really starting to care about everybody else and their feelings ( even at my expense ).i have a dire need to help people with their emotional issues.
- the biggest change that i have noticed is that i feel like i am separating more from my body ( seems like i am viewing reality through anothers eyes ) its easier for me to detach from this illusion. things do not seem real to me anymore- maybe because they are not!. i feel like i am watching a movie all the time, i love it.
- i am a sponge for knowledge, all i want to do is learn more about consciousness
- i am paying more attention to universal messages. i am noticing subtle things that before i overlooked. i am trying to follow the road signs given and flow like water, i am playing the game.
- i am not as i were a month ago! growing more with each passing day.

love to all
mark b

[KassandraLoves]

- the biggest change that i have noticed is that i feel like i am separating more from my body ( seems like i am viewing reality through anothers eyes ) its easier for me to detach from this illusion. things do not seem real to me anymore- maybe because they are not!. i feel like i am watching a movie all the time, i love it.

- i am not as i were a month ago! growing more with each passing day.

2 really good ones i failed to mention in my own! i even cant get those dang "floaties" out of my eyes! i feel like forgot how to look through my own eyes! hahaha...or maybe because i know that theres more than just physical vision that im having a hard time reverting back to it when i need to...

[astraya]

in the past few weeks, i have had dreams where i feel like myself but i'll look in the mirror and i am someone else. always the same gender (ie: woman). the most memorable was a woman who was amazonian and had what best can be described as cross-cultural features. dark brown hair, eurasian eyes, somewhat wide nose, wide mouth, light brown skin. but in "real" life i am blonde with green eyes and more average in size (ie: 5'6").

[janewentwest]

yes. i feel the same somewhat about the stress free. i just don't stress. when i start to- i know it dosen't matter. because i know that when i think about just me i am going back to something primitive.

i look at the now as now. i am present. and the worrying about the past and future is slowly diminishing with 'it dosen't matter'. "everything matters" and it takes away the pain and stress when thinking of just me. if that makes sense?

most the time i am conscious but not stressed of a very peaceful anticipation. like ariving to pick up my daughter for a long awaited visit.


another great happening is yes my dreams are going back to lucid and spiritual journeys as when i was a child. i woke up in deep thought over this dream i had. it is starting to slip away but i remember a girl and it may have been me, was in trouble, and running from evil (i don't know if that the right word) or people wanting to harm her. she was able to run fast. most of the people wanted to harm her and some were military people. some were helping her. then during most of the dream it was me because my daughter whom is now 12 was with me at times.

eventually, someone helped me through a portal and i was in a place or atmosphere which was all white and full of light. we didn't need to speak but could talk to each other. we didnt have material bodies but were alive. they told me i was safe there and that they couldn't hurt me anymore or anyone in this place. i looked back fearful they would get through the portal. they told me (or gave thought to me) that they could not pass through the portal and that they could destroy all that back there, but would not because there are still some like me that would eventually be able to get through the portal willing to be saved. this place was not like this dimension in the sence i had no fear, stress, guilt, shame or any negativity. it was like it was washed through the portal. i remember i had consciousness of this.

there was also a strange situation (not to go through it all) that my daughter was about 3 again and i was holding her and she spun through sand. she emerged back up but could'nt get all the way out to get breath. so i pulled her out. after that someone pointed out to me there were engravings on the right of her forehead. i can't remember it but it was kind of like xxx and the letter l with a forward slash across it and an e. ok. maybe its from staring at the computer too long but, when my daughter was about three she would blurt out things in excitement like mom, remember when we were together before we were born. everything was together! all the humans, plants and animals. we were not separated. -so i don't know the significance of her in the dream. but there was-and i can't remember it now. but it was an intense dream and i thought of it all day.

i know the dream is kindof choppy but i forgot a lot of it by now. there was some important things that i just can't remember but that other side of the portal was amazingly real and almost seemed familiar. like i knew about it all along.

thanks for listening! love reading from you all.

[mwr1026]

another change that i have been experiencing is this incredible energy that i find difficult to describe.

it is not always perceptible, but quite often, at some point in the day i become aware of what might be best described as singing at the cellular level. sometimes it is more a sense that i am bigger inside than i am outside...that my physical body cannot really contain me. these are definite physical sensations accompanied by excitement and joy that seem to be independent of circumstances. sometimes it's not all that great a day from my external perspective, but that doesn't seem to matter.

there is a definite sense of an elevated level of vibration in this, which i suppose is where the singing sensation comes from. i am aware of this every few days or so, for maybe the past 6 months. i have no clear idea what triggers it, or when it will happen. when it is happening i feel like i could float away, or maybe turn into sparkles of light.

this a pretty big shift for me. never before...

[Alloura]

boy, i can really identify with the "insatiable hunger for spiritual knowledge"!!! i feel like a junkie, searching the net for more knowledge, more insights, more, more, i want more!! everyday at work i vow i will spend more time doing my job and less searching, but it never lets up!! wanting to stay home and re-read all the books that have helped in my awakening (so many books, so little time...)

a tie to mother earth that is so strong you could almost touch it. just going outside and stopping, listening, looking -feeling. trying to send her love and healing. wow - just realized as i was typing this - it's almost like getting ready to leave, like saying good-bye and lingering over the remaining time we have with her...

feeling like i'm sort of split in two - one part is interacting with my family and friends and the other is watching things happen with a sense of detachment. not bad or good detachment, just observing.

as if time has changed somehow. either i am going slower, or time is speeding up. (not quite sure about this one, could be the other way around???)

longing to meditate for long periods of time. have felt this push from my spirit guide for a long time now. just started and not quite sure about how to go about it.

wanting to be of help/service (almost a frantic need to do something), but trying to be in tune to the needs of others first...

thanks for the opportunity to hear what all of you are experiencing!:d

love & light

alloura

[KassandraLoves]

a tie to mother earth that is so strong you could almost touch it. just going outside and stopping, listening, looking -feeling. trying to send her love and healing. wow - just realized as i was typing this - it's almost like getting ready to leave, like saying good-bye and lingering over the remaining time we have with her...


alloura
oh man!!! i forgot to say this one!!!! i literally drive to work every morning and look around and honestly love the trees and the beaty that the earth gives without asking! im smiling so much while im driving and enjoying my environment that people look over n wonder what the heck im so smiley about! hahaha...it awesome! i feel love when i look at the earth for the first time like this ever. i even had a vision of some trees being blasted over and it effected me emotionally. ive been wanting so bad to just get out into a park or just walk outside, i even parked my car in a clearing after work when it was dark out and just stared up at the stars and listen to the wind and the trees!!!

good call alloura! :)

[Metamike]

one of the most generalized changes i can think of is the swing between the feeling of dread/doom and uplifting co-creating. when i do activities that are not uplifting, that lower my vibrations the negative feelings seem to take over. when i am focused on things that lift my vibrations the doom disappears and i soar with creativity and positive outlook for the future.

that really shapes my behavior.

[janewentwest]

in the past few weeks, i have had dreams where i feel like myself but i'll look in the mirror and i am someone else. always the same gender (ie: woman). the most memorable was a woman who was amazonian and had what best can be described as cross-cultural features. dark brown hair, eurasian eyes, somewhat wide nose, wide mouth, light brown skin. but in "real" life i am blonde with green eyes and more average in size (ie: 5'6").

if you read edgar cayce on reincarnation you will know that you are seeing a past life. after reading that i really believe we all have many lives. and after reading a lot of his books, i believe everything he had visioned.

[Spiral of Light]

one of the most generalized changes i can think of is the swing between the feeling of dread/doom and uplifting co-creating. when i do activities that are not uplifting, that lower my vibrations the negative feelings seem to take over. when i am focused on things that lift my vibrations the doom disappears and i soar with creativity and positive outlook for the future.
that really shapes my behavior.

this is exactly what i have been experiencing. i didn't want to mention it here because i thought that maybe it was just me feeling this way... low down and blue -- and anxious...not like my usual self. usually, i am full of energy and good will for all.

the sense of impending doom arrives with physical symptoms like a rapid heart beat. (and, no, i don't have a heart problem.) also have been experiencing elevated blood pressure and some sleepless nights. again, not at all like me....always have had abnormally low blood pressure and slept like a log.

have read that pineal affects blood pressure along with sleep mechanisms. so, the good news might be that as i have been working on activating my third eye/pineal gland i have also been causing some of these other symptoms. maybe i created too much of a good thing. guess i better work on balance, now.:)

i believe you are absolutely right, metamike, when you say that non-uplifting activities lower our vibrations allowing negativity to gain a foot-hold.

also, it may be possible that the solar power surges and universal energies that are ramping up could have a de-stabilizing effect on our over-all outlook and general well-being if we're not careful to keep our focus on that which is positive.

i'm going to start to limit the amount of time i allow myself to surf the alternative news sources. yes, i'm curious...but my overall sense of well-being is more important to me than my curiousity about speculation on what may or may not be coming our way.

just some random thoughts for whatever they're worth...

sharing the love and the light,
nancy

[geoform]

some stuff happening to me. some of it has been present for many years, but things are escalating at an incredible rate:

- being 'led' to material i need to see. eg: an inexplicable 'urge' to go to a bookstore in my lunch break. very confused but almost could not resist the instruction. didn't know what i was 'looking' for but i was in someone's way so i moved, knocked into a shelf and a book literally fell and hit me on the head! i didn't even look at it, just knew i was meant to buy it. it changed my life. i walked on air for days after this!

- 'knowing' things: i get loads of this. i always know when my daughter is phoning me at work, to the extent that i just say "hi" instead of the formal greeting my company expects. when i was going through some family legal stuff, i 'knew' when a letter was on my mat, often hours before i got home to find it there. i know well in advance when animals are going to cross in front of my car. i 'see' them before they appear. having said this, i do not seem to tune into the serious stuff at all. eg: i was oblivious to my daughter crashing her bike and being taken to hospital, or my nan having a fall in the night. what is the use of 'knowing' the small stuff?

- spontaneously overwhelmed by the beauty of things. often to the point of tears eg: a flower bud, a spider's web, clouds.

most recently - altered perception. last week my reality literally 'rolled' like a faulty tv! i saw it and felt it internally - like a massive shift through several scenarios that i couldn't quite grasp as they sped by. when it stopped, everything felt different, though i couldn't say what. things felt 'new' and strange, yet still familiar.
i increasingly feel that i am forever stationary and experience is 'flowing towards' me (this is a strange sensation to have when driving!). i often feel detached - like an observer rather than a participant. calm and unaffected. i feel 'larger' than my physical body. almost constantly now i am aware of high frequency vibrations through my body. lifelong migraines have gone away. i cannot tolerate processed foods. these make me very unwell.

hallucinations - visual, auditory and olfactory.

note: i went to a doctor about some of this a while ago - she is happily convinced all of these are known symptoms of severe mental illness. i refused medication. has anyone else been told they are sick?
(if i am, i am thoroughly enjoying it!)

[mwr1026]

...also, it may be possible that the solar power surges and universal energies that are ramping up could have a de-stabilizing effect on our over-all outlook and general well-being if we're not careful to keep our focus on that which is positive...


my next comment is a little off topic here, since it is about changes in the solar system rather than individual changes, but at the moment, and for some time now, the sun has been in a quiescent phase. it was supposed to start ramping up toward higher levels of activity several months ago on it's predicted trajectory toward very high levels of activity around 2012, but thus far nothing is happening. (their "trend charts" page is good for the big picture and the "cycle solar flux progression" and "cycle sunspot progression" charts really illustrate how the current trendline is going the "wrong" way for their expectations.)
this delay in the cycle appears to be within tolerances for what sun science expects, but if this goes like many other cycles in nature, i wonder if the delay could have a rubber-band effect, making the activity greater and coming on with more rapidity than usual when it finally breaks loose.
that probably would have a very significant effect on how we are all experiencing these shifts.

[FIIISH]

has anyone else been told they are sick?

yes. many metaphysical experiences and abilities are interpreted
by the medical establishment as mental illness.

i think in many cases, both assessments are partially correct.
that has been my personal experience.

[The_Last_Man_50008]

i have psychosis and some woman that my mother knows has been trying to convince me that i am not breaking down but breaking 'through' the illusion
although what i dont understand is why would conditions and illnesses get labelled as mental illnesses if they were something completely different such as a spiritual awakening

[mwr1026]

... (their "trend charts" page is good for the big picture and the "cycle solar flux progression" and "cycle sunspot progression" charts really illustrate how the current trendline is going the "wrong" way for their expectations.)...
oops. i thought i included a link to http://www.solarcycle24.com/ in my last post. that's where the trend charts i referred to are located. it doesn't make much sense without the link.

[Bill]

i had some concerns about changes occurring... in the last month, i have started gaining weight... i actually used to be pretty heavy, then in 2003 i figured out how to lose the weight, and kept it off (i lost over 75 pounds). i started a job in another city back in may, and yet the weight was still reasonable, given the stress of the no money, new job.

but, in the last month, when the stress has been lower, i have gained about 20 pounds, and no real change in my diet. i have also started waking up in the middle of the night (similar to the thread in the other forum...). i have this knowing of major changes coming, and yet, not really being overly concerned about it, more of wondering what might unfold from it.

[mwr1026]

i too have found my stress level is flat-lined. i have a storm of concerns swirling around me all the time, not the least of which is related to my stock portfolio, which has always been a stable part of my financial situation...until the past 2 months. but nothing keeps me awake at night, and while i think often about circumstances and how best to cope with them, i am neither obsessed nor distressed over anything. there are seemingly insurmountable obstacles to overcome, and i am cool with it. this is a huge change for me, which began back in the spring.

[beavei]

so many synchronicities and patterns are happening for myself. but more noticable and increasing in frequency and intensity are

- relationship shifts - it seems like loose ends are being tied up. truths are coming out and repressed emotions are being expressed. some people have stayed and others moved on. many tears have been shed on my behalf too, releasing pent up hurt and truly empathising with people which has opened a whole new door for me.

- moon cycles - these are becoming increasingly strong and the last few new/full moons have been not so pleasurable. this i must say for myself and a few other like minded friends of mine have been experiencing very similar things. i would ask what they would go through and cross reference that with my experiences but, emotions and thoughtforms(usually negative) attached to those emotions seem to climax on these cycles lately. glad i'm just integrating/clearing it out. 14 oct is the next full moon i think, that could be interesting.

- proverbial 'foot up bum' with love - i have felt an urgency to change many things in my life to break free from old patterns. a strong desire to meditate more, acknowledge dreams and act on them, even if i have no clue what i'm doing. its like a gentle shove to be spiritually responsible :-)

- increase frequency in signs and omens - there have been in my life so much more than ever before little road signs. whether they be digits on a clock in a nice array of multiples of 111 or x's, stars or just words that stick out like a sore thumb. just enough to keep you on the edge of sanity. oh if someone could tell me the significance of 8:37 i will be most appreciative :)

- 3am club - waking up at certain point in my sleep cycle. often remembering a dream quite vividly.

they're just a few key things i've noticed personally. just wanted to share them with you all :-)

namaste

ian

[WUGGA1970]

i am relatively new to discovering the 2012 issue. i have always wished for material things, but not so much anymore. if i actually won the lottery i always dreamed of, i would travel around and find people i could help. it would be so fullfilling to secretly help these folks and they would never know who did it.
beleive me, this is a change in me.

[astraya]

in the past few weeks, i have had dreams where i feel like myself but i'll look in the mirror and i am someone else. always the same gender (ie: woman). the most memorable was a woman who was amazonian and had what best can be described as cross-cultural features. dark brown hair, eurasian eyes, somewhat wide nose, wide mouth, light brown skin. but in "real" life i am blonde with green eyes and more average in size (ie: 5'6").

i figured out that this woman is pele. too many synchronicities to mention but today going to read about her in "the legends and myths of hawaii" first published in 1888.

in [specific name] tarot, pele is associated with the tower "the tower equivalent (xii - revolution/revelation - pele) speaks--quite loudly--to me of the fury a woman often feels when she discovers her mate has been unfaithful or has left her in the rubble of the crumbling edifice that was once their home. "
[please email for url]

could obama be her vehicle? :rolleyes:

[we are reminding that this is not a political thread]

[sdchi68]

i am 40yrs old. i had a spiritual awakening in march 2007. my awakening was in the context of being a roman catholic christian. i believe what i believe but i have an incessant need to seek more and more truth. at that time i started to have visions and "breaks" with reality. i believe the "breaks" with reality are really an expansion of my perception of reality. i always believed i have a body and soul but for the first time i became "aware" of both.

i started feeling the presence of kundalini and awareness of my chakras. i experienced feeling this "energy" flowing through me. the energy seems to be "intelligent". the strange part is that i can "control" what it does, where it flows, clockwise, counterclockwise, etc. i can also let it do its own thing. it feels like it is purifying me or doing something beyond my comprehension.

my fear is that the energy could be an evil spirit or demon. i really don't know. i try to discern as much as possible because i believe in angels and demons.

i have learned to enter into altered states of consciousness although it takes hours of meditating and/or praying. i find that i can enter into these altered states more quickly.

i think that mental illness seems to be the confusion a brain has when it starts to perceive reality in a new or different way. when people can't handle or accept this new perception they may go crazy. others that know what they perceive is in fact real are blessed. i think many people will go insane and/or die during this shift into 2012. i don"t wish death or insanity to anyone. i just think that is what could happen to some when they are suddenly faced with a huge change in reality. the ones that understand what is happening will be able to maintain their sanity and integrate the change into their life.

i hope this helps:-)

shawn

[astraya]

[we are reminding that this is not a political thread]

first of all, thanks to the mods for being patient with me again. i realized that the moon is in aquarius so i am elated. i think the 18 cycle is more related to men? because as women we have the internal connection to the moon ie: the uterus/womb and therefore i feel the moon in my gut in this revolutionary time.

but more importantly, regarding



my fear is that the energy could be an evil spirit or demon. i really don't know. i try to discern as much as possible because i believe in angels and demons.

shawn

shawn, i've wondered the same thing but this resonates with me:
"...we as human beings are functioning as the co-creators of [the great spirit's] local aspect, here in our corner of the universe. this local aspect has evil in it, and the evil is humanity's creation, its great sin. humanity is creating evil within the great mind through its ongoing preoccupation with and acceptance of the dark side of human nature. ...the dark side is revealed as simply the other half of the light - one of the selective agents in the evolutionary process, an aspect of experience that tests evolving humanity, fine-tuning the strain, refining the lineage....
through experiencing our darkness, we discover what it is that we are not. and in this way, we also discover what it is that we are."
[please pm astraya for book title]

[ceaseyoxoogurl]

i have developed a heightened sense of the present moment since about march. the physical world seems more intense than ever before.
my stress level is practically flat-lined. politics, the economy, etc. has no power to stress me out. my stock portfolio is in turmoil and yet i am cool, and steady. i am tracking dw and project camelot and some other sites, but not the least stressed by the dangers and threats i read about in these places. i am developing a perspective that is independent of the illusory data coming in from the outside world. all of this is a huge change for me.
dreams are becoming more vivid, more intense, and generally more obvious in their interpretations. there are periods when dream recall comes in a flood, other times when dreams are almost completely inaccessible. this is changing constantly.
i am intensely aware of the spiritual dimension of everything around me, but not obsessed with it. it's a new way of seeing for me.
i am feeling very impatient for progress in my spiritual development. i would describe it as a voracious hunger for more.
while almost no one i know personally appears to be experiencing this intensity of changes, most people i talk to about such things are interested and open. and no one seems to be put off by any of the "tinfoil hat" stuff that i bring up.
[/list]
my wife has noticed all these changes. she is less tuned into such things but interested, and becoming more so as she watches the changes in me.

your list is interesting to me, in which i too feel some of the same things. i feel like everything seems more clear. when i'm in a car, i stare at the sky, and it seems more beautiful, more crisp. reality feels different...like i'm more aware of something.
the worries of the economy, politics, etc...i can feel my anxiety towards it, but i know the opposite of all that anxiety, and i find myself shocked that i'm not more worried or fearful of the future. but, i'm still human and get a little depressed about it sometimes.
i keep trying to remember my dreams, because i recently began to interpret and get positive outcomes of their meanings. lately i have been rolling back to sleep and forgetting what i think were significant dreams. i'm going to try to work on that more and meditate (never successfully did that yet).
one point you said that really struck me was your feeling of impatience. i feel this as my number one confusion in my mind. impatience with how many things are going to go (with my life)...questioning what i want my career to be (very baffled on this one...i believe too much maybe), questioning if it is even worth worrying for if the end is near...(as dramatic as that sounds, surprisingly i have an accepting attitude which is also different).
but i want to know the truth. i want to know that full knowledge.
i also see people more open minded...more accepting of knowledge, and more open to listen. but i would say that is a minority...there are still many sleepers.

anyway, thanks for sharing!! hope i could kindly share my experiences.
i have been really aware of these feelings, and i'm glad others are feeling the same! it reinforces that i am more knowledgeable then ever before, and it's hard to believe...

[Oleander]

i don't actually know if it has anything to do with 2012. i don't even know if i believe anything about the 2012 hype. i keep my mind open to pretty much everything and anything but rarely come to an absolute conclusion.

for several years now i've had a strong feeling that something is protecting me. i don't know why it's happening. it's not just about protecting me but it's also about guiding me. i've been through many experiences in my life time that have been extremely painful. i worked through the pain for a long time, still do. along this journey i've felt something with me somewhere in the background and sometimes right in my face. when i tried to visualize what it was, it was spherical and metalic. i feel totally odd saying this but that's what it was.

i'm not someone who has practiced any type of spiritualality. here again, i don't even know if i believe that there is anything at all out there. the only thing that i do know for sure is that something is around and i don't know why.

[tigermoff]

i am 40yrs old. i had a spiritual awakening in march 2007. my awakening was in the context of being a roman catholic christian. i believe what i believe but i have an incessant need to seek more and more truth. at that time i started to have visions and "breaks" with reality. i believe the "breaks" with reality are really an expansion of my perception of reality. i always believed i have a body and soul but for the first time i became "aware" of both.

i started feeling the presence of kundalini and awareness of my chakras. i experienced feeling this "energy" flowing through me. the energy seems to be "intelligent". the strange part is that i can "control" what it does, where it flows, clockwise, counterclockwise, etc. i can also let it do its own thing. it feels like it is purifying me or doing something beyond my comprehension.

my fear is that the energy could be an evil spirit or demon. i really don't know. i try to discern as much as possible because i believe in angels and demons.

i have learned to enter into altered states of consciousness although it takes hours of meditating and/or praying. i find that i can enter into these altered states more quickly.

i think that mental illness seems to be the confusion a brain has when it starts to perceive reality in a new or different way. when people can't handle or accept this new perception they may go crazy. others that know what they perceive is in fact real are blessed. i think many people will go insane and/or die during this shift into 2012. i don"t wish death or insanity to anyone. i just think that is what could happen to some when they are suddenly faced with a huge change in reality. the ones that understand what is happening will be able to maintain their sanity and integrate the change into their life.

i hope this helps:-)

shawn

i think you are right about the insanity part. when i had my spiritual awakening i realised i had a consciousness i had never noticed before. something showed me what madness was like, maybe to show me that i wasn't going mad.

anyway, when this happened to me i saw my housemate the next day and something had happened to him too. it was like he was having a spiritual emergency. he was acting strange and talking about things which he thought were real, but it was really his imagination. it took a few days to get him back to normal-ish. i still don't think he's ever going to completely normal though.

this has lead me to believe that only the headstrong will be able to contemplate the enormity of what is happening to them and will either get left behind or just go insane.

[KassandraLoves]

i feel like i have been "living above the illusion" if that makes any sense to anyone....

[gemini]

i think you are right about the insanity part. when i had my spiritual awakening i realised i had a consciousness i had never noticed before. something showed me what madness was like, maybe to show me that i wasn't going mad.

anyway, when this happened to me i saw my housemate the next day and something had happened to him too. it was like he was having a spiritual emergency. he was acting strange and talking about things which he thought were real, but it was really his imagination. it took a few days to get him back to normal-ish. i still don't think he's ever going to completely normal though.

this has lead me to believe that only the headstrong will be able to contemplate the enormity of what is happening to them and will either get left behind or just go insane.

i too have had a friend within last-month who became bi-polar

they he said he took acid but days after he was still wasn't right
& still isn't the way he was before

yeah i think alot of people will go crazy or die also

some people will find out that it isnt what they thought it was

or will be shocked to the point of craze

when the view of what you know always know has change :eek:

i had dreams of a light hitting me and everything i seen was different

& my family around me was going thru it also '

but my father just went crazy and couldn't handle it when everything stop and was different to what we know now

[ayadew]

my whole life feels more and more like deja vu, either i'm aware of my future unconsciously or i am going insane. but i'm quite comfortable with it anyhow, i'm content with my life, i feel constantly encouraged (than ever before) to spread love and service to my fellow selves. =)

this is a time of increased spirituality and learning for me, and i can't see it ending any time soon. especially since 2012 is around the corner..

[KassandraLoves]

my whole life feels more and more like deja vu, either i'm aware of my future unconsciously or i am going insane. but i'm quite comfortable with it anyhow, i'm content with my life, i feel constantly encouraged (than ever before) to spread love and service to my fellow selves. =)

this is a time of increased spirituality and learning for me, and i can't see it ending any time soon. especially since 2012 is around the corner..

oh man!!! im gettin hit hard with the deja vu lately too! and i mean something fierce! almost everyday i get deja vu, and lots of days more than once! this has been increasing quickly and it does make ya feel a bit out of sorts....

and same as you, i almost like it. its a weird change, but a change nonetheless...

i am so ready to put my dancing shoes on and cha-cha til the cows come home! im rarin' to go! lets do this!!! :d

[Djonne]

since i was 4, i very very often had déja vu stuff, especially people. i met people for the first time in my life, and many of them gave me the impression that i've already seen them somewhere.

it still happens quite often, i see people and they remind me someone that i never seen in person, or at least, in this life.

[Enivid]

we create our own reality and that means we should be able to create anything anytime? or? well, we can't, maybe some can? (criss angel?)

anyway, i've tried to levitate and move things with my mind and i feel that if i can do that it will blow my mind. i know it is possible in theory but i can't understand it in practice. i can do it in my dreams, but not in the shared reality.

at the same time i know that i would be breaking the free will if i could levitate, i would do it whenever i don't want to walk ;). and that would make people believe in magic on a whole new level. so the reason is pretty clear why i don't have superpowers, its because i would influence people to believe in the supernatural and therefore breaking the free will if i did it where they knew i couldn't use tricks or illusions like criss angel says he does.

i do call myself god and the creator. i see myself as the ultimate being and i love all and everyone, even the most evil you can imagine. i also realise that i have a deeper me, and that me is the one talking to me through methaphors in dreams and symbolic language.

i have been contemplating the personality of this one super being/ultimate creator and his/her personality consists of all personalities that has ever been created. i am that personality, and so are you. we will in the upper densites solve the paradoxes of duality before entering the singularity.

2012 will be a time when all people like us will co-create (if we are affiliated with eachother) a new world on this planet. the perfect world, where all is possible in the name of love.

the work of david wilcock is extremley good and without it we wouldn't be able to create our own reality. its logic that decides what we believe and my logic stops me from taking away other peoples free will. at the same time, when we approach the 8th density all of the universe must become the super being/ultimate creator. at the same time we will be programing this life here and now to get us from here to there. i think that will be pretty fun to program life :). but until then we have 4th and 5th density to pass through and we will have lots of enjoyment in theese densities, and if you thought music, gaming, sex, and any other entertainment was fun here, wait until we reach the next perfect created reality! :d

but is it possible to create it before 2012? the earth itself is a conscius being and maybe she has decided in 2012 to go to the next dimension?

i do believe that if you can be honest with yourself you can understand alot of things, and the most logical point of view is that 2012 is extremley real (who doubts?). and if i where to create my own reality know i would infringe on the free will and free choices of my family, friends and etc.

so, december 21st 2012 is the co-creation date where we from our subjective views co-create a wonderful world. people who don't know about this will probably live life as usual or maybe "die" in tsunamis and etc from polar shifts and then re-live their lifes on another planet in 3rd density while we enjoy earth in 4th density.

oh, how wonderful everything will be :).

and from me to all of you, lots of love and always think positive! you create your reality with each breath, everything will be so amazing just follow love and understanding!

- enivid

[micjer]

i feel like i have been "living above the illusion" if that makes any sense to anyone....

this makes a lot of sense to me. i look at everything from a different vantage point. the news is different now. the weather changes make sense. the people i meet seem to talk about different things now.

i also have noticed a lot of synchronicities lately, large desire to meditate, large appetite for knowledge, and seeing alot of the 11:11, 9:11 timeframes.

[Lordkas]

i have been experiencing a lot of changes lately. some great and some, odd at best.

the best and most recent was when i was hospitalized for chf back in october. i thought i was gonna die and had resigned myself to that. i am 39. one night a nurse named angie talked to me. we spent an hour talking. i suddenly felt something leave me at that time. all my negativity about things. she helped me realize that i had a purpose here. i asked here about 2012 and her thoughts. she said that it is coming and she was looking forward to it. i asked if she had ever heard of david. she smiled and left it at that. i told her i would like to meditate and she left. later she returned and said that something had changed in me. i told her i am alive, vibrantly alive and that my mind was now really sharp and that i am ready to live. she smiled and gave me a thumbs up.

i take from that night a renewed purpose to learn and tell friends and family (who are not quite ready for my ideals) about what is happening and what is coming.
1. i am far more confident in my abilities both physical and spirtiually.
2. i am much more aware of things happening.
3. i am ready to help again. (for a little while there i wasn't)
4. i filter what the "world" tells me and take away the "real info".
5. i am a kinder person (not unkind before just a lil afraid)
6. i am really trying to get healthy again. (stumble here and there but get back up and do it again)
7 a renewed sense of hope.

that's where i am now adn going forward at a steady pace learning, living and loving.

karl

[transiten]

just came across a swedish website yesterday that seem to resonate with divinecosmos; only that the idea was given there that we're not supposed to know an "exact date" for the change, since that would increase the tendency for us to focus and hope too much on that time and not work as much to change in the now.

more so the change is already happening, and it might just as well be that 2012 will be the time when the change is completed. interesting perspective.

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[GypsyDove]

more so the change is already happening, and it might just as well be that 2012 will be the time when the change is completed. interesting perspective.

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yes, interesting perspective. i like it.

most consistent change for me is being disconnected from daily drama. recently i've found myself exploring how passion fits in this mode.

a new occurrence is seeing myself as the "bad" person doing nasty stuff in my dreams and sometimes experiencing nasty thoughts/ideas that pop up out of nowhere! my approach is to simply accept this non-judgmentally, perhaps as a learning regarding contrast / polarities / duality.

many things posted in this thread i recognize as having occurred during my childhood like feeling bigger than my body, deja vu. these were regular part of my life until i was a young adult. though rare, i enjoy experiencing them happening now.

i am comfortable with whatever happens ... no fear ... lots of curiosity, and thank everyone for sharing their experiences.

[hoppppe]

hi everybody.its so weird,i thought i was the only one going crazy.so its not just me then.everybody is going crazy,cos this is how people i know consider me when i talk about the things ive been starting to experience for the past 2 years now.i started to have flashes,but not really,i mean thoughts came to my mind out of nowhere,thoughts about me or other people i know and events.for example: i was planning a trip with my new car to amsterdam for the holidays.one month before the trip i just had a sort of flash,i dont know what to call it,it just gave me a bad vibe and the feeling that something bad is going to happen to my car.not even a week passed by and i had a really bad accident in the city and had to put the car in the shop for 3 weeks.i took the train to amsterdam.

another thing ive noticed is the fact that if i really want something and i think about it a lot,it comes true,(now dont imagine im thinking about owning a yacht)im talking about tiny day to day things,for example i crave to eat eggplant salad,and the next thing i know i visit a friend and she happens to have it in the fridge,or i think of a person i havent seen in a while and then they call or something

and of course the 11:11,33,44,88 ,and not just on clocks,

oh and i almost forgot the most important part. i dont know if anybody has noticed anything but i tend to heal very very fast.i have a lot of diffrent animals and a reptile.i get skratched and bit almost daily,which i dont mind,i love them,but lately it seems the marks just go away faster,last week i got a pretty bad skratch on my face.i even told my friend that this is "great",now i cant leave the house for a week.by the next evening my face was clear,not even a remote sign of it
what is happening?
thank u

[lb2012]

change is the only constant someone once said...now, then, til and after 2012.

i don't know that i am seeing any changes in myself other than i can see the dark side in people and though it :mad:peeves me terribly that the world is in such a mess, i see how people are programmed through the social system to be as they are....in general.
i believe that 2012 or maybe the years beyond will bring out the best and the worst in people in elevated measures. that's the spiritual awakening perhaps. not everyone will get there and some never will.

just an opinion of course.

what i have noticed is how chance occurrences happen more often. like the other day i actually physically met a mod from this or another of david's forums. it was pretty cool how we could talk about this 2012 stuff.

[East Sun]

there are tons of references scattered throughout these fora about changes people are experiencing in the run-up to 2012. my intention in starting this thread is to make a space where people can report the whole range of specific personal changes we are individually experiencing.
i'm thinking primarily of individual body, health, and consciousness changes, but maybe there are others i hadn't thought of.

i can start by listing some changes i am experiencing, all since the beginning of this year.



i've always had hay fever between mid-april and mid-june every year, and no hay fever any other time of year. for the first time this summer i started to have low grade sinus allergy problems beginning in mid-august, continuing to the present. it feels a little different than the usual spring hay fever, which was milder this spring than usual. (this is a phenomenon referred to in the link above.)
i have developed a heightened sense of the present moment since about march. the physical world seems more intense than ever before.
my stress level is practically flat-lined. politics, the economy, etc. has no power to stress me out. my stock portfolio is in turmoil and yet i am cool, and steady. i am tracking dw and project camelot and some other sites, but not the least stressed by the dangers and threats i read about in these places. i am developing a perspective that is independent of the illusory data coming in from the outside world. all of this is a huge change for me.
dreams are becoming more vivid, more intense, and generally more obvious in their interpretations. there are periods when dream recall comes in a flood, other times when dreams are almost completely inaccessible. this is changing constantly.
i am intensely aware of the spiritual dimension of everything around me, but not obsessed with it. it's a new way of seeing for me.
i am feeling very impatient for progress in my spiritual development. i would describe it as a voracious hunger for more.
while almost no one i know personally appears to be experiencing this intensity of changes, most people i talk to about such things are interested and open. and no one seems to be put off by any of the "tinfoil hat" stuff that i bring up.

my wife has noticed all these changes. she is less tuned into such things but interested, and becoming more so as she watches the changes in me.

i can identify with most of that but wonder if it is part of the process that comes from reading/practicing, meditation, searching spiritually etc.
i did not read all the posts so i might be saying what others have said.
sorry if it is redundant.

[transiten]

does david have another forum????

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[mellisamouse]

i definatly hear ya on the stress flat lining..... i am pretty much being tested to the brink right now, and still manage to have a good feeling in my stomach and a smile on my face.

right now i feel like job in the bible...

i have people slandering me all over the place, am going through attacks by strange people i don't even know (one was a boyfriends ex, only met her twice for 2 seconds until she did a house invasion, broke in and threatened me for an hour and a half in my own bathroom...loooong story) littereally trying to attack me (i was safely locked in my van the second time though thank god)

my ex took away all child support away and even got my income tax returns taken away until i can prove i actually lived in my house for the last few years etc....

for the first time in my life i have zero income... (just temporarily though )

etc, etc, etc, i could go on and on, but basically, the point is, i should be having a total break down, but i feel fine instead....kinda nice that inspite of the storm i can still have my peace of mind. :)

[Moze]

i have been connected to this higher consciousness since i was born. like david and everyone talks about a near death experience will heighten your soul. and when i was born i was chocking on my umbilical cord, my mom had a sea-section. i been in 5 plus near deaths and i'm 24.

dream have have increased to 3-6 i remember every night, and has been going on for months.

a month ago was in a deep meditated state during one of my practices and my third eye opened a red/yellow wavy circle just in front of my face, was able to keep it open for a while than got really tired, after was a loud pop and my four head hurt.

am having more out of body experiences than usually

can since other being around me, than in past years.

chi balls feel a lot stronger and have a blueish tent to them now. finally after 3 years of practice.

there are more, however i just wanted to share my knowledge with everyone. keep following your soul and dreams, don't try to over do it just let it naturally happen you can't lie to your true higher self trust me. it's all about coming together and understand what we really are. finding a meaning and able to love and do what you want, not matter the vision.

[Shovelcut]

this may be my first post but i've been lurking these forums daily for quite some time. i keep seeing people say they have increased empathy, which i'm having too...but no one has said how they are coping with it. it's gotten to the point for me where i can't go shopping at big stores. i literally feel sick the closer i get to those places like walmart or the mall. it was really bad "black friday" and the worst part is my girlfriend is a hair stylist at the walmart here so i have no choice but to go there. and it's not just there, even at home i feel it...not so much but it's there and it's constant.

i've also been having visions, for lack of a better term, mostly just me flying around. there are other things that have happend that i'm not quite comfortable putting out there in the public domain, one on one is fine. i've been told i need professional help but i honestly feel like whatever is happening is a good thing, i know i'm not crazy. :d

but i'm open to suggestions as to how to deal with the extreme load of empathy i've been feeling. it definetly makes it hard to stay positive.

thanks in advance.

[Bill]

shovelcut... interesting name, by the way

well, i am assuming you are saying that you are not receiving postive emotions when you go to malls or the large stores? if i understood that correctly, i think it may be because of a large concentration of folks that have not had the blessing of 'waking up', or just an awareness of what is to be.

as a male, i understand the other issues with having a sudden increase of empathy... but, it does not have to be a 'bad thing', unless, of course, if you view it that way. take it as a great tool that allows you to be aware, be an observer, to the present moment. when you get a feeling of empathy, you may consider not reacting to it, or trying to hide it, but using it as a cue of being aware to something special, and from that perspective, just observe the event unfolding, and be with it. i have found that this is a great way to deal with stress.

when you are in situations where you experience the opposite, perhaps you can also use that as a cue, and in this case, offer up your empathy to the experience, either through a smile, a polite gesture, an offer of help if it appears warranted. consider it your gift, and a possible sense of awareness to the rest of us still hobbiling around in our material-driven life.

[Shovelcut]

well, i am assuming you are saying that you are not receiving postive emotions when you go to malls or the large stores? if i understood that correctly, i think it may be because of a large concentration of folks that have not had the blessing of 'waking up', or just an awareness of what is to be.


i'm sorry, i should have been a little more specific. what i meant was that it's all negative emotions that manifest as physical pain. my body is just physically exhausted from this constant barrage of pain and anxiety. i know it's not mine. i just can't seem to figure out how to stop it long enough to get a good nights sleep.

[grs9769]

during the summer of 2006 i became deathly ill and was hospitalized for a month. i returned home, then 10 days later my significant other passed. he passed on 9/11 at 2:11 am. ever since this day, i've seen 11 almost every time i look at the clock, and in many other places as well. i told my mother about it and she said that my sister has also has been seeing 11 everywhere. i don't even talk to my sister frequently and she lives a few states away! then my mom told me she always sees sequences of numbers like 333, 444, 555, etc! at the time, none of us had a clue what this meant. since this discovery we've been researching it online.

also, i've never been psychic or have noticed any esp in any way, shape, or form for my entire life. more recently, i've been noticing little things. for example, i was driving home one day and envisioned me getting into a car accident.... about 5 to 10 seconds later, i look to my right and noticed a big suv coming right at me, i swirved honked my horn and he turned away. if i hadn't looked when i did, he would have hit me.

so there ya go....that's all i got :)

[coneyisland]

i've always been upset by trees being cut down, but now, i get really enraged when someone cuts down a tree. i live in queens, ny, where there are very few trees to begin with. we need all the oxygen we can get, don't those people know that?

i agree with many here, that my general sense of well-being is enhanced, my quest for the truth of this place and our time here is incredibly strong right now. i was very happy to have found the shift of the ages book, i can tell you that much! what a great thing to stumble upon, i wanted to read and read and read, but alas, i had to go home from work.

time is getting very fast. i see double numbers in clocks like a lot of other people, 11 is a gateway number. i think that's why we've been seeing it a lot.

reiki was a fantastic thing for me to to discover. please look into it, it can really help humanity! it's using the universal life energy to heal people, plants, animals, the planet, and even help get your computer going if it's acting up!

[Ultramind]

hey everyone,

i have been having these strange and somewhat unpleasant physical sensations lately. it feels literally like pins and needles starting on the top of my head and than they usually travel down my neck and onto my shoulders and my upper back just below my neck and between my shoulder blades. this feeling in so intense sometimes that i wish i could just step out of my skin until the felling subsides. i have made a connection between this sensation and my thoughts however, i cannot figure out why. i have noticed that some thoughts trigger these sensations and it seems that they don't have to be related.

for example, sometimes i'll have a thought that will anger me and other times a thought that excites me and i have the same result. sometimes the thought doesn't even stir up any emotion at all and i get the sensation. this is where i am getting confused. i thought at first that maybe this sensation is a sign that my thoughts at the time of conceiving it is important to my spiritual development. but i can't find any relevance to the thoughts and my spiritual growth. for example.

yesterday i was looking for a specific screw driver and upon thinking "where can i find this screwdriver" i got the sensation again. i can't fully explain how i know that it is linked to my thoughts but it is. i can somehow feel the connection. i'll have the thought and boom, there's the sensation.

so than i thought that maybe its not a spiritual manifestation at all and it is just a physical one. i thought that maybe these thoughts triggered my upper body to go flush and perspire, like when you get embarrassed and you can feel every pour of your body excreting sweat. well this doesn't seem to be the case either because last week while i was standing in the luke warm shower, in fact it was fairly moderate in temperature and i thought something that i can't remember now, but i got the pins and needles sensation again. so seeing as how i wasn't sweating due to the water running on me i am back to square one. what is causing this. i can't see it being a physical anomaly as i am positive now that it is linked to my thoughts.

does anyone have any idea's. i would really like to know if this is some kind of spiritual manifestation and if it is than how i can make it work for me instead of against me. i don't mind feeling this discomforting feeling if i know what is causing it and can use this to my advantage. but being totally confused as to what it is really frustrating.:confused::confused::confused:

[Blacksunshine]

ultramind,

i have had alot of physical changes as well. i feel mostly numbness, so it's not needles, it gets "annoying" at times, but i'm also just getting used to it. it's only been recently that the numbness kicks in mostly at times when i'm relaxing (afterwork, sitting down, resting.)

the tree thing is very disturbing. i was watching some history thing last night about when they were starting to really build in the us, and just cut trees down like it was nobodys business. that confussed me becuase is it just something new that we have learned that trees provide o2?? perhaps it is, i kept thinking. i'm glad we have progressed a little bit at least, and i'm very gratful that we have state and national parks that are protected land. but still, i hate to see so much land go. i am very empathetic to that.

i feel that my awareness is heightening, this is something that became very important to me years back, and it's accelerating (much like time) as 2012 draws nearer.

mostly tho, i just wanted to hit up that i have weird physical feelings as well. i have learned to just embrace them, rather then fight them. i think it actually started a few years ago, i tend to have a "daily attack" from about 8 to 10 pm, and if i'm traveling in a car....it's much much worse...i finally peiced it together, that it's the same time, the same thing everynight, but i dont exactally know why it happens of where it's comming from. so perhaps i'll try to raise my awareness to that aspect as well

blessed be.

[FIIISH]

lately, it's been:

daily synchronicities-and lots of it.

apparent timeline convergence-difficult
to explain until you experience it. when it
happens, you will be asking yourself-what just
happened here?

ability to manifest in shorter periods of time
with less effort. this includes things of opposite
polarity and everything in between. finding that
thoughts have to be monitored very carefully to avoid
unwanted experiences. fear and anger are particularly
troublesome when left unchecked.

these are just a few personal examples of the daily tidal
wave of signs and experiences that something very
special indeed is happening...

one more addition would be:

asking self and others: "are we already on the astral
plane?" due to experiences that one normally
associates with dreaming.

[Whateverwillbe]

so much happens i cannot even remember it all, but these things are standing out right now because they are different.

i happened to meet two new guys on an online site, out of dozens, these were the only two i got into communication with. one in az and one in south texas. they were very coincidentally both born on april 17, 1941. then a 3rd one popped up. his birthday is april 16, but different year.

then recently, a man i have seen around, turned up at my door and we spent a pleasant friday evening talking. his birthday is may 4, 1970. the very next day i had an appt with a new counselor, and his birthday is may 7, 1970. first man is 6'5", counselor is 6'4".

i don't know what this might mean, but am paying attention more and more to things that seem coincidental.

[FIIISH]

now experiencing what appears to be telepathy, and apparent
manifestations of thoughts in less than 24 hours.

it would seem this could be a good thing, but right now, this is
very scary stuff for me, folks. :eek:

[Ultramind]

lately i have been able to witness other peoples karma in a very short period of time. today i went to the auction with my grandfather and while we where there he stole a set of sunglasses and a power cord for a radio. i doubt that anyone even noticed that they where missing because they where both so insignificant and worthless. they probably would just end up getting tossed in the garbage or into another box of stuff as a box lot just to get rid of them. my grandfather liked the sun glasses and needed the cord to make a radio work that he had bought the week before at another auction. so even if these items where merged with another box of stuff they wouldn't have gone for more than $2.00 at the very most including whatever else they came with.

while we where at the auction my grandfather bought a really nice mirror in a heavy decorative frame, he was really excited about this item because he only spend $1.00 on it. he also bought some genuine capodimonte flowers in a nice display case for $0.50. we later discovered that these capodimonte items where worth a great deal more than what he spent on them to say the least. so needless to say he was quite proud of himself for getting such a great deal.

at home as we where walking into the house he dropped the display case and shattered the glass in the case and also broke a couple peddles off two of the flowers and chipped one.

after we got into the house he brought the mirror up to the kitchen to show my grandmother. he set it down on the floor against the cupboard and it fell over and the plate glass mirror broke into 4 big pieces. at this point he was pretty upset. as i am standing in the kitchen watching all of this, it hit me. i realized that this was all caused by him stealing the sunglasses and power cord at the auction. as i was processing this important lesson i looked over on the table and noticed a synchronicity, a bill with an account number that stated with 2222 followed by other numbers, but the series of two's stood out like a sore thumb.

i'm not sure if my story belongs in this thread but i would have to say i definitely am noticing more events like this all the time that i was never really open to before. i feel that it is because we are approching 2012 and truths are more readily available to those who have eyes open to see them.

anyways, this seemed like a pretty important lesson for me today and i was really excited to see it happen and i thought i would share my experience with you guys/gals.

love and light to everyone

best regards
ultramind

[Volta1]

i feel like i've been on a path of some sort of spiritual awakening since i was a small child. i couldn't accept my families christian views from either side.jehova witness and catholic.i've been in constant study and search of books and articles and whatever i can get my hands on about et's 2012, other religious beliefs and practices as well as certain discoveries of sience. and yes my attitude towards things and perception of the unvierse is being more and more altered all the time.

most noteably is this: i have always had a facination with martial arts and fighting.i myself am a martial artist and a mma fighter. i no longer have this feeling in me anymore that i want to fight anybody even if it is inside a ring.i have no purpose with it. i did it to excercise out anger and frustrations with things. i don't have it anymore. i'm not sure i was ever really suppost to. i don't know if i can even defend myself if attacked by someone.it's a strange feeling because i grew up around violence and negativity and it feels like it's leaving me.fighting brought me peace and truth and now it feels totally against my nature.it feels like being right handed your whole life and now suddenly my left wants to dominate now.

[mellisamouse]

i have turned into a human barometer...it goes up, i wake up....it goes down, i am exhausted.....the sun wakes me up incredibly, i am a sun addict, i can feel every ray that touches me, as if connecting me right to it.

[DeepBlue]

hi gang,

sorry not been involved latley but i feel its now time well not now time but finally a group that has come to the forefront, that i can talk with & possibly get answers, so here goes.

i am having a lot of wired things happen & have had them from an early age, every time i get closer to researching them the things become stronger and more of a non coincidence, then i leave them alone & the wierdness goes away but i know its always there, i have been looking up at the stars since i was 7, & thats where it started who put them stars there questions questions questions, i have gained on my own answers to things i am now satisfied with but there is things now am seeing & hearing i dont understand, & these i need some help with which are.

if i sit & stair just anywhere i see what looks like a fine rain mist like tiny little particles whizzing around everywhere.

if i look up at the sky i see like white illuminating dots & there all whizzing around every where.

if i stair at people i see a milky glow around them, been seeing that since 7.

when asleep i hear talking when i wake up my girlfriend is asleep & no one is there & i live in a quiet neighbourhood. my girlfriend told me i have been having the most complex conversations at times in my sleep & i had recalled the dream & knew what it was about, but not what i said till my girlfriend told me.

have been laughing out loud in my sleep.

i also hear like really big bangs, which wakes me up petrified i wonder around the house & there is no burglars or anything out of place, this i have noticed is becoming more frequent.

have been hearing like a tone in my ears, had this since i was a kid, but had a hearing test done & past that ok, eye sight is still 20/20 from a recent test, for a medical i had done to be able to work offshore.

i have always been sensetive to people & there energy like when people talk to me its like i hear there voice but feel there intention or feel them for who they really are, this one i cant explain properly so my appologies.

so i had a reading done & the guy picked up on sensetive energy, but he said something i dont understand about am rich in the astral plane, he saw flying through like mountains very fast, i agreed & told him i often dream of flying like superman & doing all the telekenesis stuff & just doing stuff i wish i could do in real life now.

but the other things he didnt know about, he did say about the dots & mist could be seeing energy, but am not sure, but i know i see it & i still see it today.

so gang if you could help me figure this stuff out i would really appreciate it or is my brain just packing up on me, i do feel though its got something to do with 2012, thats the pull feeling am getting.

oh the other thing is shivers i keep getting shivers the more i get into this stuff, my sensetivity or feeling is like its saying its that am on the right track, it feels like a rush down my back & in my brain, i also get this sensation when listening to music from hemi-sync or the monroe institute or various artists of music i like.

so any help really appreciated, because i feel like am being told something or am going through something i do not understand, so to understand it might put my mind at ease.
:(

[FIIISH]

i have turned into a human barometer

i can relate to this.

i also get the impression that my energetic focus is moving
out of my lower chakras into the higher ones.

is anyone else experiencing this?

i think this is ascension-related.

[Love dont hurt]

the time of my life has come.
not understand why mankind lived like chaos is a good life,
i never bought the stress and worries, and learned to shut of my innerself,
now i no i missed the point !
it was my outerself i should have turned of !!!
my inner is free again and iam doing what i can to fill my dreams with light.within the light there is love. within love is god.
god loves light !!! shine as hard as you can, and light up the end of the cirkle.

[.Ace]

for me it's all basically begun with this year. i

i changed the style of my hair dramatically. people were like woah, how does a short haired guy go to a long hair guy in one month, they were really shocked. i was "testing" to see their reactions and i've got to say most of them were not pleasant at first, but they got used to it and accept the new me, even though i'm still the old me;) . i think about their reaction whenever i read a 2012 subject.

i've been have much more vivid and lucid dreams. it's really weird to me because for a long while i barely even remembered my dreams. but ever since this year started i've been having more and more vivid dreams and now it's become a daily thing in my life.

i've noticed myself becoming much more self aware as to what's really going on in the world..on a psychological sense that is.

i've also noticed myself becoming a kinder person.

i've noticed that here in new york there's been 5 months of winter:mad:

that's all i can think of for now :cool:

[DeepBlue]

hi gang,

sorry not been involved latley but i feel its now time well not now time but finally a group that has come to the forefront, that i can talk with & possibly get answers, so here goes.

i am having a lot of wired things happen & have had them from an early age, every time i get closer to researching them the things become stronger and more of a non coincidence, then i leave them alone & the wierdness goes away but i know its always there, i have been looking up at the stars since i was 7, & thats where it started who put them stars there questions questions questions, i have gained on my own answers to things i am now satisfied with but there is things now am seeing & hearing i dont understand, & these i need some help with which are.

if i sit & stair just anywhere i see what looks like a fine rain mist like tiny little particles whizzing around everywhere.

if i look up at the sky i see like white illuminating dots & there all whizzing around every where.

if i stair at people i see a milky glow around them, been seeing that since 7.

when asleep i hear talking when i wake up my girlfriend is asleep & no one is there & i live in a quiet neighbourhood. my girlfriend told me i have been having the most complex conversations at times in my sleep & i had recalled the dream & knew what it was about, but not what i said till my girlfriend told me.

have been laughing out loud in my sleep.

i also hear like really big bangs, which wakes me up petrified i wonder around the house & there is no burglars or anything out of place, this i have noticed is becoming more frequent.

have been hearing like a tone in my ears, had this since i was a kid, but had a hearing test done & past that ok, eye sight is still 20/20 from a recent test, for a medical i had done to be able to work offshore.

i have always been sensetive to people & there energy like when people talk to me its like i hear there voice but feel there intention or feel them for who they really are, this one i cant explain properly so my appologies.

so i had a reading done & the guy picked up on sensetive energy, but he said something i dont understand about am rich in the astral plane, he saw flying through like mountains very fast, i agreed & told him i often dream of flying like superman & doing all the telekenesis stuff & just doing stuff i wish i could do in real life now.

but the other things he didnt know about, he did say about the dots & mist could be seeing energy, but am not sure, but i know i see it & i still see it today.

so gang if you could help me figure this stuff out i would really appreciate it or is my brain just packing up on me, i do feel though its got something to do with 2012, thats the pull feeling am getting.

oh the other thing is shivers i keep getting shivers the more i get into this stuff, my sensetivity or feeling is like its saying its that am on the right track, it feels like a rush down my back & in my brain, i also get this sensation when listening to music from hemi-sync or the monroe institute or various artists of music i like.

so any help really appreciated, because i feel like am being told something or am going through something i do not understand, so to understand it might put my mind at ease. :confused:

[vjvousden]

hi, deep blue. i have heard of these things you speak of so will give you what i think it might be but please, this is only my opinion from my experience and others i've talked to.

the dots and mist whirling around is prana or chi energy. it's there but most people can't see it. you've risen to a level where you can.

the milky glow around people is their aura or energy field. there are actually colors to this but you are at an early stage, it sounds like. all living things will have this glow, even trees and plants.

it does sound like you have a very active astral life, which occurs while you sleep. the loud bang sounds like the beginnings of out of body to me. this could lead you to more lucid "dreams".

i'm wondering from the shivers and sensitivity as well as the energy going up your back to your skull or back down if you are having a kundalini awakening? this is one of the signs. i know of an excellent site of people in various stages of k awakening if you are interested. write me personally, please, if you want the web site. it is a yahoo group.

i'm no expert but didn't want to see your earnest questions go unanswered. not knowing can bring one into fear whereas knowledge and support can help one understand and even welcome these changes. i'm hoping others will have more input.

all the best!
valarie

[hazyjane]

hey deep blue!
it does sound like you're very sensitive to energy. i can tell you more about the loud bangs that you're hearing. it's an uncommon phenomena called "exploding head syndrome" (i kid you not!!) and they don't know what causes it but it's more common in middle aged people.
my brother and i have both experienced it quite a lot. i haven't had it since i was a teen but it would always happen as i was falling asleep (for most people it happens after they've been asleep awhile). we both hear it as an earth-shattering explosion. jarring, to say the least!
i asked my medical qigong teacher about it (because in qigong, you learn about the energy fields quite intimately and in-depth.) and it was his opinion that it was a pranic burst into the head. he wasn't sure what the cause of that would be.
i hope you feel better knowing that you're not the only one who hears loud bangs in your head!

[Free1]

hi- i'm new here. the biggest change for me is seeing colours- splashes of purple and blue that appear out of nowhere- absolutely beautiful

usually when i'm in a naturally high life state. i've posted this info on david icke website and apparently its quite common! it doesn't feel ordinary tho- it feels extraordinary. i love it when it happens. not sure what it is? new energy coming in? beings from another dimension? it never happens when i will it to. :rolleyes:

[weboy78]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hpwcjhvc4_u&feature=related

in 1998 i was given a gift of seeing what people call the violet flame. my image has been studied by experts, its not a glare. a man figure can be seen in the image. this is your father.... yhwh.

stand proud warriors and angels... and never give up! for your father is standing to your right side, right now. turn and say hi from your heart and you will hear him.
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(i'm not the author)

[DeepBlue]

thanks for the info most appreciated, my sensetivity is telling me since i posted that this is all ok & is part of whats coming, i just wanted to learn & understand possibly use these things for the correct purpose rather than ignoring it again, as the more i delve i find the more other things happen, i have also noticed i keep getting signs everywhere even if its just to go to the shop, its like yeah something supposidly my spirit guide who is a nomad according to the reading i had done in 2008, is saying yes were pushing you pushing you to these things like a teacher teaches pupils, & here is something not a coincidence my surname ormand spirt guide is a nomad put the r in nomad what you got!! :d.

still need to get a grip on these dots though, i shall pm you i think.

[AllyKat]

hi everyone..some interesting experiences here...i'm wondering if anyone can relate to what i've been going through.....

i've been practicing kundalini yoga on an almost daily basis for about fifteen months or so and let me tell ya it's been intense!!! i think the biggest change is my heart chakra has opened up tremendously. i have always been a compassionate person to begin with so it just keeps growing which is a wonderful thing. my third eye has also begun to open i can also see chi energy around living things and have a strong intuition although i have issues with listening to it because i still doubt myself too much.

lately i have been waking up feeling pretty good, fairly well rested. i usually do yoga and feel even better after. i go about my day. now i don't have a job right now so i've been feeling liek i have all this wonderful energy and it goes stagnant, turns "sour" if you will, becaus ei'm not using it properly. i am very active, take walks when i can i play piano and guitar, visit friends, i even take time to do healing meditations for individuals and mother earth. so it's not like i'm a couch potato :-) i guess...it's still not enough???

so what ends up happening is around late evening or so sometimes earlier..i go from feeling energized..bursting with love and general goodness...to feeling drained...exhausted..like i need a nap. then my mood changes with it i don't always feel negative just...blah...but sometimes i end up getting really down. i basically get really high naturally then crash and burn.

today was particularly bad because i idid a heart sheild meditation after a physical yoga set and had a beautiful experience where i basically just felt love pouring out of me more intense than usual. my dog came up and licked my face and i just laughed and felt this great love for her...for everything. i still have the feeling to a lesser degree but that was early afternoon now its 6:30 and i keep yawning and feel kinda blah. i need to figure out how to sustain the love and energy i feel during and for a little while after my meditation experiences without the crash and burn. i f anyone has any advice it would be so graciously welcome :-)

[mwr1026]

... i need to figure out how to sustain the love and energy i feel during and for a little while after my meditation experiences without the crash and burn...

perhaps the current lesson for you is in this feeling that you want to avoid. as eckhart tolle says, "what you resist persists."

there hasn't been too much really exotic stuff going on with me lately, but what is drilling into my consciousness is that all i exist for in this life is to experience this right now. "this right now" takes new form moment by moment, and as i learn to relax into it i am discovering that the down time is as important, as vibrant, as enlightening as the brightest moments. without the valleys, the mountaintops would be high elevation plains...flat and eventually boring. this constant variability is the nature of the distortion we call experience. it is the reason that infinite being has diffused itself into a vast array of incarnations: to have distortions; to have variation; to have ups and downs; to experience everything--not just ecstasy, but everything.

[mwr1026]

one small thing i have noticed lately is that when i am in bright sunny conditions, and close my eyes, i often see intense blue and violet "ghosts" of the brightest parts of my view just prior to closing my eyes. i have always had these "ghost" images, and they are a natural response of the eye to this situation. however, the "ghost" images have always appeared white or yellowish white in the past. in the past few days, they are sometimes intense blue-violet.

[DeepBlue]

hi all, new one to add, i am getting a pulsating in the left hand side of my head, right at the back lower left hand side i can feel it, as it pulsates i can feel my skin moving out and in repeatedly, its not all the time though, just now & then & is intermitant for about 3-5 minutes, its not painfull feels strange to say but normal & tickles a little bit :confused:

[Morph143]

most of my mood swings stopped.
my life isn't very great, but for some reason i stopped caring.
my sleep pattern has changed. for some reason i get stuck between being awake and truely asleep. my sense of reality fades a little and i feel like i'm floating. also i'm seeing things when i've closed my eyes. usually just random things, faces, scenery etcetera. but i'm very aware of the state i'm in, also i've found that i enjoy nature more, and euphorical happyness takes hold of me from time to time when i stop to look at my surroundings; be it citylife or nature.

[Desertrose]

hi everyone,

a couple of days ago i was putting my 4yr old to bed. i was lying next to him telling him a story in the dark when i noticed a white pencil-like form on the wall. i thought at first my son stuck one of his toys on the wall and i reached for it to remove it except it was just light. there was nothing reflecting light in that direction and i thought it was weird. few seconds later it disappeared then reappeared. i thought my eyes were getting tired and i’m imagining things. so i asked my son if he sees what i see and he said yes.

i still don’t know what it was. it hasn’t appeared since that night but this is not the first time i see light reflecting from no where on the wall. i know for sure i’m not imagining but i wonder what it is that i’m seeing. there is no particular form to that light but when it appears it fades in and out very smoothly.

desertrose

[noel1111]

hi all,

i was wondering if anyone else has noticed this. the past few weeks i have heard birds singing louder and longer. they seem to sing all day and night no matter what the time of day is. my husband then mentioned it to me last night, but i had been thinking of how amazing they've been for a few days now. it was baout 8:00 and we could still hear them clear as day. we have lived in the same apt in new york city for close to 11 years and have never experienced this. its so amazing!

i'm wondering if this has anything to do with the earth changes into 4d? anyone else notice anything like this where they are? :d

[euroe4]

awesome that you mentioned that, i heard a bird singing my name outside my window. i heard it at 6 30 three mornings in a row. the first morning i alone heard it, kinda groggy half forgot about it. the second morning, it was like an hour straight, to where i have to turn and ask my girl if she heard it. she did. we both heard it and smiled - and laughed - the third day. a loud whiste, unmisktakable. "e-ric"

[Blacksunshine]

i have tons of birds that are singing to me all day and night as well. our weather has been really wet....not normal wet, and it's rather cool here, so i have been leaving my windows open, and i just love to wake up to the birds, even tho many times it's only 5am. it's still peaceful. i give the birds my bread tho, they have loved my yard for many years. i cant find the ducks tho. i used to feed a family of ducks. :( i dont knwo where they went

[reckoner]

i was wondering if anyone else has noticed this. the past few weeks i have heard birds singing louder and longer. they seem to sing all day and night no matter what the time of day is.


i noticed this the other night at around 2am est while driving home. i was cruising at about 20-25mph and i could hear several birds loud and clear over the engine and other normal driving sounds. i've also noticed that the birds in my area (central florida) seem to sing louder when the sun is not in the sky. just an observation.

here is my list of changes that may or may not be attributed to ascension but seem to me a bit hard to justify:


for the past two years during the month of august i have experienced two sudden and abrupt changes in lifestyle without any forewarning. these came as drastic changes but ended up being much better in the long run as many things seem to do.
since august of 2008 i have lost a total of 40 pounds due to some extreme lifestyle changes. in april of 2009 i completely stopped consuming red meat, chicken and fish and have greatly reduced my intake of eggs and dairy products. this change came out of nowhere and my body seemed to start 'rejecting' these food/energy sources at around this time. [stomach pain, cramps, diarrhea, etc upon consuming]
since october of 2008 i have gotten into the habit of practicing yoga and meditation on a daily basis. i start my day with a full routine of stretches followed by a meditation session. i may or may not have another session during the day, based on my schedule.
i have increased water intake to nearly 3 liters a day.
i feel a need to manifest my own energy via exercise. i have been cycling up to 100 miles a week. i feel an intense feeling of pleasure/satisfaction/calmness during and after exercising.
my overall sense of well being has increased ten fold. i have gotten many positive compliments from other people stating that i seem to 'glow' and that my overall attitude and spirit seems to have lifted.
i occasionally will experience a 'pins and needles' feeling right under my right shoulder blade. it normally lasts about 40 seconds and will fade away. also, the other night while i was relaxing after exercising, i had a very strange feeling inside my chest, directly to the left of my diaphragm under the rib cage. it felt like a bunch of ropes twisting around and around something, this is very hard to explain for me.
i have been seeing thoughts manifest themselves quite frequently lately. for example while at a friends house, a playlist of music will be playing that i have no knowledge of. i will think of a band or song and it will play next in line, this happens several times a night. also, while working, i have thought of completely random individuals that normally dont enter my mind, and within several minutes that person will come up in conversation without my saying anything to anyone. i have also seen this happen for predicting the outcomes of certain situations and being dead on.
my thirst for knowledge has increased ten fold, i cant keep my eyes out of books.
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thats all i can think of for right now, i would love to hear if anyone has had any similar experiences and can enlighten me on any of these occurrences.

peace and positive energy! :)

reckoner

[Nomadess 2012]

in april of 2009 i completely stopped consuming red meat, chicken and fish and have greatly reduced my intake of eggs and dairy products.

aloha, just a little fyi, make sure you get enough b12. when we stop eating red meat, it takes about 5-7 years for our bodies to become deficient in it.

[reckoner]

aloha, just a little fyi, make sure you get enough b12. when we stop eating red meat, it takes about 5-7 years for our bodies to become deficient in it.

thanks for that heads up!
i'm currently taking a b-complex along with a multivitamin daily.

[Happystrings]

i noticed this the other night at around 2am est while driving home. i was cruising at about 20-25mph and i could hear several birds loud and clear over the engine and other normal driving sounds. i've also noticed that the birds in my area (central florida) seem to sing louder when the sun is not in the sky. just an observation.

boy are the birds in my neighborhood in on this one. loudest little guys! yes, they are singing quiet loudly here in illinois.

[/quote]here is my list of changes that may or may not be attributed to ascension but seem to me a bit hard to justify:


my overall sense of well being has increased ten fold. i have gotten many positive compliments from other people stating that i seem to 'glow' and that my overall attitude and spirit seems to have lifted.[/quote]
me to! in spite of some major life hassels my sense of peace and calm has continued to grow. i have a sense of confidence that all is well and will be well. i know that from the out side looking in my life does not project that. yet from where i am that is precisely how i feel and the feeling has gotten more intense and comfortable in the last three months.

[/quote]i occasionally will experience a 'pins and needles' feeling right under my right shoulder blade. it normally lasts about 40 seconds and will fade away. also, the other night while i was relaxing after exercising, i had a very strange feeling inside my chest, directly to the left of my diaphragm under the rib cage. it felt like a bunch of ropes twisting around and around something, this is very hard to explain for me.[/quote]
i feel a 'buzzing' or vibration in my left side at the oddest times. no cause. nothing in contact with my skin. just a frequent 'buzz' sensation. been happening for the last couple of years. otherwise, i have no health problems.:confused:

[/quote]i have been seeing thoughts manifest themselves quite frequently lately. for example while at a friends house, a playlist of music will be playing that i have no knowledge of. i will think of a band or song and it will play next in line, this happens several times a night. also, while working, i have thought of completely random individuals that normally dont enter my mind, and within several minutes that person will come up in conversation without my saying anything to anyone. i have also seen this happen for predicting the outcomes of certain situations and being dead on.[/quote]
i know what people are going to say. know what is going to happen. and this is a totally new realization/awarenss for me in the last few months.

[/quote]my thirst for knowledge has increased ten fold, i cant keep my eyes out of books. reckoner[/quote]
am reading like a mad woman right now. had not been into my books for a long time and now am going back re-reading everything from "life and teachings of the masters of the far east" to mariann williamson's stuff. am so driven to do this that i frequently read until i fall asleep on the books. :eek:

[annecat]

nomadess 2012 and reckoner,

why do you need take multivitamins when you are a vegetarian, shouldn't you get all the vitamins from the vegetables, fruits, nuts etc ?

my own children have been all their short lives vegetarians, now aged 13 and 15 and half. only during their first years i gave them vitamin d, as we lived back then up in the north, where was not that much sunshine during the dark winters. they have never eaten any multivitamins or b12-products, and they are growing just fine. (no one would guess that they are vegetarians like me.)

we do not make any fuss about being vegetarians, but with "the unfolding changes" i feel the need to upgrade my own diet even more towards vegan one.

when my children were very small and we moved from one continent to another, i used to bless their food with my hands (secretly that no one would know!) as i was worried about their immunity system ability to fight against diseases in totally new environments. it is thoughts that count !

during the past weeks and months i have found myself doing that again, blessing the food with my hands (imagining the crystal structure of water molecules restoring, purifing and energizing the food.)

and i ask for guidance when shopping for food, which vegetables should i buy, which are "fresh", "purest to buy" and so on,
you could take it as a play with one's imagination, but it does no harm.

there have been times, when travelling, that we haven't even had enough money to buy food, during those times we have noticed how "one piece of bread" can literally take you a long way. hope that helps . anne

[reckoner]

why do you need take multivitamins when you are a vegetarian, shouldn't you get all the vitamins from the vegetables, fruits, nuts etc ?

there have been times, when travelling, that we haven't even had enough money to buy food, during those times we have noticed how "one piece of bread" can literally take you a long way.

you are getting a great amount of vitamins and minerals from the vegetarian diet, but i have two reasons why i take a supplement.

the first is i cycle an average of 100 miles a week, in central florida where its about 95-100 degrees daily, so the sweat/hydrate process really drains me of everything.

my second reason is in your reply about one piece of bread going a long way because this is absolutely true. being involved in yoga and meditation i fast occasionally so the vitamins make up for anything i may not get on a day of not eating.

[noel1111]

i have noticed that on some nights i can't fall asleep at all. i actually lay awake all night long because i am having so many thoughts. the problem is i know these thoughts are not mine. it's almost as if i am being bombarded with everyone else's thoughts it feels like hundreds of people are thinking things all at once. i can't decipher or filter what they are because they come so quickly and overlap each other. like im in a crowded room full of people. i actively try to meditate and slow it all down but sometimes i can't tune it out. has anyone had this happen and how do you tune it out so you can sleep? this running on empty stuff has to go....

i have found on these nights when its hard for me to tune it out and sleep when i do finally get to sleep i usually have ufo dreams.

[annecat]

reckoner,

if you drink 3 litres water per day (i know you excercise in the heat)it does really drain you out of vitamins, nutrients and minerals, and you get cramps.
try to drink mostly mineral water (pellegrino or so).

you "schedule" is exhausting, cycling, stretching, yoga...and then meditation.
could you give yourself (at least) one day off in a week, and just "be" without doing anything. let the new found energies, awareness settle down. relax. do not even meditate!.

it is so easy to get addicted with the "glow", the surf of wellbeing and "kundaline" rising in your body, "manifesting energy via excercise".

we are all different, built differently, what works for one doesn't work for another, and different times and so on, but there is a real risk of "burn out" in physical and spiritual sense of that world if you do not loosen up a little.

i write this from my own personal experiences. :)anne

[annecat]

noel1111,

i read some of your previous posts, and i am quite positive that if you youself read them again, you will find "the answers" yourself, why you "hear voices" and why you "cannot fall asleep at all ", or "should you go back to school" and so on.

("even when i meditate i can hear the neigbors, cars".:(.."always surrounded by people"..."daily tasks feel pointless"...mentally challenged mother...)


even the choice of the photo on your profilepage tells the same story -
your are " a fairy" . "the birds are singing louder and longer ", like calling "your soul" to make the change.

but, it is you, who makes the decision, no one else can do it for you.
and when you are ready, determined to make the move (to the countrysite ?), trust that the universe (or higher self, whatever name you use) will arrange everything, a coincidence may come on your way.

the world won't end on 2012, so do not worry, we just experience it differently, so keep on planning your life, and enjoy!

~

(p.s. the ufodream is a way to escape, to leave everything behind. try to visualize yourself going for a swim, diving, cleaning yourself. there is no noises, no people, just you on your own. swim all the way to the other shore where is peaceful, calm, and take yourself for a walk to that magical quiet forest...let your imagination guide you.):) ~anne

[reckoner]

reckoner,

if you drink 3 litres water per day (i know you excercise in the heat)it does really drain you out of vitamins, nutrients and minerals, and you get cramps.
try to drink mostly mineral water (pellegrino or so).

you "schedule" is exhausting, cycling, stretching, yoga...and then meditation.
could you give yourself (at least) one day off in a week, and just "be" without doing anything. let the new found energies, awareness settle down. relax. do not even meditate!.



i am aware of the draining of essential nutrients and loss of water. this is why i am compensating with vitamins, an almost entirely vegatable based diet and drinking 3 liters of water on most days.

pellegrino seems like it would be a bit of overkill dont you think? it would be pricey to keep enough pellegrino on hand to drink 3l a day when i need it. i

on the outside, my 'schedule' may seem exhausting, but i have a lot more down time than you think and my daily activities do not leave me exhausted or tired by any means, either physical, mental, or spiritual.

[noel1111]

thanks for your reply annecat. i think for a long time i have been in need of chages in all forms. i am one of those people where stasis kills me. so im either looking for a new job, a new hobby or a new experience. i keep thinking one day i will find "the fit". i think since i have been on this new path i have been viewing everything quite differently and its exciting, overwhelming and a tad unsettling at times. i will try to relax more and go with the flow. i really appreciate your posts it always makes me feel better to connect with people who understand.

my profile pic is actually a picture an artist drew of me... i sat for the picture years ago before i really got into the new age way of thinking. whats truely amazing is he named the picture "wanderer". that made me chuckle when i went back and looked at it.

:d

[GuideMySpirit]

i remember looking at this topic a while back when i first heard about david's work and watched his very long interview.

i remember seeing all these great posts of the upcoming changes, but never had the motivation to actually make an account and post what i had experienced.

up to this point with all the meditations and reading i've been doing i'm noticing a lot of difference in my everyday life. my awareness has grown dramatically, with seeing more significant signs and numbers such as 333 or 777.

during my meditations my level of consciousness really jumps the bar, and the feeling is quiet amazing when i become thoughtless which i could never do before.

i'm also noticing a lot more changes all around me when i grow and learn more, the people that i begin to be around also raise in their vibrations and consciousness to level with mine.

[Saïd]

i have experienced much re-evaluation over the last few years, and this trend even accelerates, so it seems.

very recently, i have been feeling a massive urge to clear out every nook and cranny (both physical and mental/emotional) and rigorously do away with things that are not important to the highest degree. certainly such cleaning up and looking again into familiar aspects of life is a natural experience of anyone who lives their lives consciously, but it somehow also fits into the overall "run-up to 2012" theme.

other than that, i am often experiencing symptoms of rush, anxiety and sleep disorder. those again could be attributed to a busy life as a self-employed person.

i find it difficult to tell if experiences / symptoms are to be attributed to a "heightened energy influx on earth" or to the personal situation/development.

but then, if our personal development intensifies these very days, that again may be no accident.

[L3dean]

i restarted to have my childhood dream of being overly-large and overly-small at the same time.

and the head-popping thing that suddenly jolts you out of a sound sleep: i think i have finally figured that one out. i had that about 24 years ago, then it stopped for a long time, and started back up about 1-2 years ago: here is my theory- as you lay down to go to sleep, two things happen. 1- you physically start to relax your body’s muscles and so your spine can loosen up and re-align itself : and 2- you switch your hearing from outside sources to inside sources (to hear your dreams). so, my conclusion is that you are hearing your spinal pops overly loud because it resonates through your body, much like hearing something while you are under water in the swimming pool.

i am also aware of a growing dichotomy of tolerance within myself: 1- i am more tolerant of upsetting events and life-redirection situations and adopt an indifferent “it is what it is” attitude and then go on and calmly deal with the changes (which i am beginning to recognize and accept as god’s next assignment for me): and 2- i am less tolerant (not as an anger but more like righteous indignation ?) of spoiled brats (whatever the age) that only want to complain and expect the world to cater to them, because i view that as people that are stuck in negativism and are trying to drag me back into that controlling or negative status quo that i have just escaped from.

oh yeah- and then there is this… – i have noticed that when i take a break from whatever i am “working” on and let my mind coast into neutral blankness - i find that i am unconsciously holding my breath – its kind of like i forget that i still need to keep breathing.

(and in the last month) i have noticed an increase of creative thought becoming a stronger visual/ actual reality… sort of an overlay or double exposure of a photo. for example: i am driving to work and my thoughts wander to my latest project of creativity and i start to see it more clearly than my vision of traffic activity: and yeah- its it kinda scarey, cuz i almost rear-ended another car a couple of times by not paying attention to how fast my car was going and how much pressure i needed to put on the brake, etc.

[schmauve]

oh yes, there's one thing i missed in the note above. my vision seems to be improving. my glasses/contacts seem to be too strong and i am seeing noticeably more clearly without them.

yeah. i noticed the same thing today!!!!

i've been actively focusing on "healing" this body and the mind and spirit that inhabit it. :)

[Aly]

i have been quite settled and enjoying life- with the orbs in the photos and the spontaneous clouds with messages etc. i have also noticed the abilty to manifest is comming thick and fast.
lately though i have been getting seasonal illnesses that i usually dont. i have also been feeling rather stressed. my routine has been comming back on track so i will let you know if things are straightening out.

i have been gaining a little more clarity about where we have come from and why we are here, periodically, but then i stand a little too close to the subject and everything is out of focus again. i find it hard to be consistent with this type of information. maybe i am a little obsessed with this at the moment. this may be the source of my recent illnesses. imbalanced focus on this discordant conundrum!

[hoppppe]

"but then i stand a little too close to the subject and everything is out of focus again. i find it hard to be consistent with this type of information. maybe i am a little obsessed with this at the moment. this may be the source of my recent illnesses. imbalanced focus on this discordant conundrum"

hi guys
i completely agree with u here,the more i learn the less i know it seems.
but im not worried,i learned that things come to me when im ready for them,i cant speed things up(the learning process)things just seem to happen when they are suppose to and they are working in my best interest in the end.thats what ive noticed lately.whenever i stress over a problem it doesnt get fixed apparently.

speaking of eye vision,
ive been wearing glasses since i was 9.i stopped wearing them in highschool,but by the end of my 2nd year of university i was back on the glasses.had trouble reading
last year i had to get a stronger prescription,but it happens that i lose my new glsses after a few months(which by the way were very expensive)
i obviously postpone getting a new pair thinking im gonna eventually get them when i have enaugh cash.
to this day i didnt buy them and i dont think i ever will
my sight seems to be getting better,i can see things i couldnt see before.
i thought its just me going nuts maybe or just a coincidence,but i swear i look at the sky and i can see the hawks up there really really high,everyday i test my vision in diffrent ways and it baffels me,so when i saw this being mentioned here,i just thought im seeing double .ha ha ha
so yeah,big changes
i would have others to talk about but another time,sorry,much too many things

thank u

[Cantheist]

while i was very much stuck on conspiracy mode, i had the idea that by early august 09', america would more or less completely change. i thought that the change would be a collapse of sorts. one economist said that in three months(early august), the dollar would be dead. this agreed with my theory of collapse and chaos, so i thought my hypothesis was being confirmed.

lo and behold, august is about half over and no doom and gloom. what did occur was a change within myself. i was expecting a massive negative event and was instead given a massive positive change in my soul, if you will. i have let go of so much negative baggage, i feel more free than before august.

this is obviously the theme as we reach 2012. instead of major negative occurances, we will experience more and more positive ones. i have no doubt whatsoever that our positive community has a very bright future through 2012 and beyond. i'm extremely optimistic that most of us will have nothing but good things in our lives from here on out. these are the best of times, as long as you find the positivity simmering beneath the surface.

peace and blessings

[Blacksunshine]

oh canthiest, what a wonderful read. i wish you grateness on your journey, continue seeking light, and you will find it. it will come to you, and shadow you....and sharing light is awesome! :d

i have a significant rise in allergies (i wonder if this is pregnancy related, i'll know soon enough) i have always been allergic to metals, and certain pollens...but this year....damn, it's driving me crazy.

i have a friends that makes these amazing necklaces for people they have stones in them (gems, stones, crystals etc) and he wrapps them in copper or silver etc...and i cant wear them. i have to have him make me the necklaces on a long cord so the metal only touches my clothing. i cant even wear a belt...and i have to remove my jewelry during the winter. i have always found this weird, but i read in the ra series that this is quite common for people that hail from another planet...so then i had some answers. but my pollen allergies are worse then ever. i wait for the season to end...and get smacked with another allergy.

my allergies are weird ones too, when it comes to the dust or pollen ones. i dont sneeze or get ichy red eyes, or have a scratchy throat. oh no, what happens to me, is i get "echo head" my voice sounds like it would if i had just come down a mountain, or if i were to talk underwater. it drives me insane...but water calms it, so by the afternoon i dont have echo head anymore. i ahve become so grateful for sneezing (because i rarely sneeze) but it makes the echo go away for a minute. i haven't had allergies for a few days (thank goodness) but fall is right around the corner, lets see what happens. i"m due with my lil scorpio in late oct....we'll find then if it's seasonal, or permanent, or if it's baby.

[Cantheist]

i have noticed that an unseen force(my higher self?) may have been somewhat guiding me up to this point. i cannot really explain it, besides that i feel that perhaps i channel my higher self or another entity without knowing. i may have been externally influenced to become spiritual, then religious, then conspiratorially minded, and now a positive being of the light. it's quite exciting to be immersed in the path i find myself on.

i haven't really experinced any weird physical sensations like what you have endured blacksunshine. except some headaches from time to time and sneezing when i'm not really sick. also, now that i think about it a little, i have noticed some kind of sensations in my chest area. kind of like the butterflies in the stomach feeling, but centered in my chest. i suppose i need to pay better attention to the inside as much as the outside.

peace and blessings

[Cantheist]

with regards to my first post in this thread, i was just wondering if anyone else had experienced an internal change or transformation of sorts earlier this month(august)? it is a little odd looking back because my personality became far more positive than it was the month before(july), yet overall, i feel the same. my outlook is just extremely more optimistic and positive in general. obviously, that is what i'm striving for, but i'm just caught off guard by the burst of progress i made instantly. so please share anything similar you may have went through during the same time period.

peace and blessings

[paintedrealms]

i have seen these changes in my self and others. more people are attracted to me. more people that have had issues and need healing often seek me out. people find it easier to come to me about their problems and tell me i make them feel good. i find they bring theology up with me now a lot to, like i have all the answers but i don't. i help them learn to find them for themselves and give them a lot of references and thats all they want. it seems to me i found my calling is simply to be a healer. i help people find it within to heal themselves and i am more of a guide in that more than anything. i start typing up my papers and i don't seem to even be present as my fingers to all the work. when it is done, i check spelling and more than likely it is correct most of the time. information pops out i was not even aware of. i feel compelled to meet new people and i used to be a loner.

so many changes. oh, and i used to get allergies reral bad in the spring and fall but i haven't had them at all this past year

[Truth180]

has anyone else been feeling joy and then fear seems to seep in at times. i noticed fear only does this if i worry about the future think about how people would react to these changes and myself as the only one that only seems to care in which i know that it is silly to think that.

i appreciate everyone here and happy to find you guys! :)

[DeepBlue]

i have a constant tone in my ears now, hearing test proved hearing is all normal.
still seeing the lightning coloured blue dott's whizzing around in the sky.
i have the trickling sensation in my forehead, which tickles this has been on and off, seems to be happening at certain times, but i noticed mainly when i am in conversation and opening up minds.
feeling wise generally, that am not supposed to be here, i feel i just want to go home, but home is of a place i dont know of but feel it, wierd huh.
still seeing edges of things vibrating like wobbling, and what appears to be objects moving when starring.

i did manage to get a photo of something very odd, if there is a way to share let me know.

if anyone has any understanding of this please let me know, many thanks.

may your light be with you.:)

[grs9769]

deep blue, what are you seeing buzzing around the sky?

i am asking because i see something directly in front of my eyes and it's a little hard to explain. i have a little scarring on my eye and it drives me nuts sometimes... so one day while outside i was trying really hard to focus my sight on the scarring on the surface of my eye...i guess i was bored lol. so after being able to do that i saw something i couldn't explain and i had my eyes checked again and they found nothing to explain this. the doctor looked at me like i was nuts. what i did to see the scarring (sometimes called "floaters") i focused really close to my eye while starring straight up at the blue sky. (can't see them against a cloud) when i did this i saw these "swimmers" (that's what i call them) they looked almost like something under a microscope. they had no color and appeared to be clear or transparent. yet there they were, all buzzing around in circles. all in uniform, all at the same speed. is this what you see or something totally different? does anyone else see these? i may be nuts :)

[Silvanus Sanctus Germanus]

dear members, there is an existing thread talking about what is being observed "buzzing around in the sky", here's the link:

http://divinecosmos.com/forums/showthread.php?t=11340&highlight=lights

take care. sylvain

[Truth180]

deep blue, what are you seeing buzzing around the sky?

i am asking because i see something directly in front of my eyes and it's a little hard to explain. i have a little scarring on my eye and it drives me nuts sometimes... so one day while outside i was trying really hard to focus my sight on the scarring on the surface of my eye...i guess i was bored lol. so after being able to do that i saw something i couldn't explain and i had my eyes checked again and they found nothing to explain this. the doctor looked at me like i was nuts. what i did to see the scarring (sometimes called "floaters") i focused really close to my eye while starring straight up at the blue sky. (can't see them against a cloud) when i did this i saw these "swimmers" (that's what i call them) they looked almost like something under a microscope. they had no color and appeared to be clear or transparent. yet there they were, all buzzing around in circles. all in uniform, all at the same speed. is this what you see or something totally different? does anyone else see these? i may be nuts :)


i see this and mentioned in another thread. they sure are not floaters. "swimmers" is a good name for them and seems that it would be something you would see in the water of a pond swimming around. you are not nuts i see them too. :)

[astralwalk]

im definetley noticing changes lately. overall the biggest change would be i am starting to feel more and more connected and apart of the earth as previously i felt like just an observer. even just a walk in my backyard or around town i feel my sense of oneness is increasing. also dreams are getting very intense with lucid dreams ocurring regularly. peace :)

[Habit4ming]

i have been seeing what many here describe as "swimmers" for quite some time. i also see rows of wavy lines and round shimmering patterns sort of like those "hypnotizing" pics...my instincts tell me the shimmering patterns are the thinning of the veil...not sure what the rows of wavy lines are...
i have had hearing problems for years; my hearing has improved enough that it's noticeable, even to my children. i am older and had recently noticed a deterioration in my vision--i also have a slight improvement in that area.
i've always been very spiritual and quite intuitive so i cannot ascertain if that's expanded or not...
i am so looking forward to the upcoming golden age...

[annecat]

for few days (since the full moon) i have had that "mantra" or little (quite demanding) voice in my head or mind saying

"i need to put my spacesuit on!"

and my nerves feel like burning......(by the way, it seems that i do know what kind of spacesuit it is.):) anyone else hearing the same voice ? ~anne

[Nirvana]

so much of what you all have said seems to be somewhat relevant to me too.

iv changed suddenly in alot of ways. i no longer have problems with telling poeple that i love them. i no longer stress and worry about the future (its weird, but its like i deep down know that everything is gonna be allright)

i have ended my relationship with my girlfreind. it was pretty weird, but everytime we were together, i started thinking negative thoughts.(and i always visioned negative vibrations hitting mine, and it didnt work out) once we let eachother go, i feel waves of warm energy flying around in my body whenever i want too. i think i made the right choice for the both of us by ending it.

the unending thirst for knowledge, paying more attention to other poeple, what they say, what they feel and what they think. the love for our mother earth and especially animals. i have stopped smoking, started eating better, drinking more water, meditating whenever i have the chance etc.

if this is because of my conciousness awakening or just me chancing as some sort of random act, its all good. i like the awakening me alot better than the old one, yet i am the same.

thanks to all of you for your comments on this thread! with poeple like you inhabiting this planet, i know we are headed in the right direction.

keep spreading the love and compassion guise! :d

[NegaNova]

i wasn't sure where to post thisss, but yeah! related to the article that was posted by david on the 11th about the coming changes/possible exposure of the ufo phenomenon.

basically i was awakened like two months ago and talking to my friend zoran whom i also met through this process of awakening (he's very in touch with his higher self) anddd he was telling me like.. today before i even read the article about how he noticed a synchonicity with ufos. basically he noticed that the google image had been changed to a ufo and crop circles, and then that day he noticed a show on tv about the ufo phenomenon. anyways, conversation went on and we were talking about tennis, and how he explained to his dad that he knew that del potro was going to win the final because we are moving into the next cycle and that del potro is the new cycle, while federer was the old.

anyways, that being said, i went to a lecture after school about black holes andd afterwards there was food and drinks, etc. and i was choosing my package for tea, i chose the red package labeled 'awake'

then i read david's latest article and it totally confirmed like the whole thing for me! anyways, i felt like i needed to share that and wasn't sure where to put it. so there lol. i apologize if all these sound far-fetched, but it was meaningful to me as i have been picking up synchonicites constantly for the past week.

[Alliantia]

hi again,

this has been a weird night. i have just been experiencing so much non-stop. i know this is create-your-own-reality time for me. i am doing it. i have manifested one object i think and some money when i really needed it. this is through me not of me however. i am opening up, and experiencing all the things everyone has talked about. i am experiencing more and more very rapidly. i have started channeling my higher self when i don't expect it. in my last post my "fingers were doing the typing." that was true. i found this site through synchronicities that included a night that was very much the next level for me. i know i have guidance through this, but i feel i am channeling out karma while evolving very quickly and it's a poetic dance but the me that doesn't know what's coming wants help. i have also started channeling the dead but only with a select few people. (this is all while awake.)

the same night i did this with the most cogency a few nights ago, i also saw david's face talking to me with some urgency. i'm not sure if i tapped into something that was completely unrelated to me or what - remote viewing or something. but i told my boyfriend at the time, who has been very supportive of this, and he said, well, why don't you contact him. i know that someone he knows is in seattle and could help me a lot. i just want to be able to do this stuff safely and with support.

i am not sure if any of you have had any similar experiences as of late with channeling. it's not just knowledge for me anymore. it's entities. what i am careful of are the ones that are not so pretty. i am thinking maybe this has to do with the free will thing - i have asked a couple of them to heal me (ra being one of them) and immediately it changes to not so pretty stuff). i got myself out this time, but man, i feel like i need some help or at least some advice and i don't know anyone here. i feel like looking up psychic groups or anything won't help. i am getting really intuitive and going with my gut on this one. i'm just not sure where to go next. i feel this in my heart, not like a big heart yearning, just that's where these inclinations are coming from.

if i could not do this and be completely aware (in a state where i feel whole and not in pain) then i would. but talking about this stuff gets me into a trance state, sometimes that i bring other people into, and then i start seeing things and opening up to all this stuff.

if anyone has any comment on this i would gladly appreciate it. it sounds like you all are going through this so gracefully. i know i am too in my own way, but it hurts sometimes and i know i can do this well once i make some connections. i also know i am fully capable of doing this well - with the integrity of solid stance and with supporting arms of friends.

thank you for reading,

know that you are already home and you shall be.

[BridgeBuilder]

and apparently it continues, neganova, as your reply was posted precisely at 11:11 (at least according to what i see, can't remember if this forum customizes the times)...

i don't think the synchronicities you are seeing are unusual or far-fetched at all. i completely believe you. i personally have observed them getting far more intricate and prevalent, and often jointly witnessed too. it's becoming a source of regular entertainment in our lives. it's quite a bit of fun actually, as they are now so obvious, any observer who happens to be present can jointly witness just how remarkable they can be (for example, entire dialogues on tv echoing the conversation in the room, not just a single word like what we used to see).

and i saw the google ufo/crop circle image too. what was up with that? :rolleyes:

in peace,
bridgebuilder

[mod note that the google pic is in the crop circle thread since it displayed a crop circle]

[Matthew Clark]

hi neganova,

interesting post!

i too noticed that google (for some reason) had a crop circle with a ufo above it. it was only there for one day though. perhaps it is some form of subliminal advert to get sheeple ready for an announcement?? :d [see mod's note at the end of bridgebuilder's post]

yesterday we went shopping after spending a lot of time researching on the net. the total? £20.12 i kid you not. earlier this year my partner received a tax re-bate and the amount? £2012 (+ a few pence.)

synchronicity indeed, and, i believe, a meesage to say we are on the right track.

keep them coming i say - the tax re-bates!;)

matt

[BridgeBuilder]

i was just catching up with some things, listening to the "monolith" cd from one of my favorite old metaphysical groups kansas. as i worked, the song "angels have fallen" came on, one that is not very well known at all from that group.

the following lyrics caught my attention in a very moving portion of this song, both lyrically and melodically. immediately i thought of 2012 as it played:

"you better tell all your people to watch for a sign
make them glad they are living in this life and time
the angels have fallen, they've all gone away
it's you that must find them by living each day"

i looked up. the time was 11:11.

maybe we should all watch for a sign? ;)

in peace,
bridgebuilder

[Matthew Clark]

hi all,

sorry to do 2 posts in a row! :rolleyes:

i have just thought of another change that i am experiencing.

bob dean once said that he has a love hate relationship with the human race. i have spent many months working on myself and improving the way i deal with people. i am not for one minute saying i am rude or anything, far from it but in the past i have been a bit on the judgemental side, though only subtly. for instance, in the past if a very fat person walked by (oops sorry - kilo challenged to be p.c) i may say to myself something which i would never say to that person but i would think it.

over the last couple of years, having come to the realisation that thoughts create things, i have worked on myself to see a lovely person and not the "rent a wreck" that person is trapped in. this now comes pretty naturally and i dont have to think about it at all.

since this has happened, i find more and more, i dont relate, or should i say, i find it hard to relate to others. it is a bit difficult to explain exactly what i mean but say for instance someone comes to the door, i let my partner answer it. where we walk the dog, we have come to know a few people who we chat to. more often than not, i find myself consciously wanting to take a different path to avoid people. i have nothing but love for everyone but i really find it strange that i cannot be bothered to intermingle. this scenario also happens say if i am about to go out and one of the neighbours are coming out of their house - i will wait till they have gone before i go out.

i am not saying for a moment that i do not care and dont use every opportunity to spread the word because i do but what i am saying is on a more mundane level, more and more people i come into contact with, cause me to pull away.

i have not done a good job of explaining this but i know what i mean! :confused:

unlike bod deans explanation, i would not say i have a love/hate relationship with the human race, i would say i have a love/cant be bothered relationship with them - at the moment anyway.

or maybe the fact i have 6 fingers on each hand, 4 eyes, plus one in the middle, a golden body along with being 11 foot tall may suggest i am not from this world and my time is done here - who knows! ;)

any ideas?

matt

[annecat]

[quote=matthew clark;..a love hate relationship with the human race. ... if a very fat person walked by (oops .. ).., i find myself consciously wanting to take a different path to avoid people. )

matthew, i might know what you mean.
as there was a time even in my human life :) when i was "kind" but rather
(very) judgemental like "district attorney", wondering how the meat eating had changed the dna of those weight challenged..., always ready to "argue", make my case, with "less spiritual" in order to "change the world", make them see "my truth".

but i got tired, as it is waste of time,
when people have issues, dramas, in their life, karma clearing or whatever, they are not ready to hear, remember or understand "what our lives are really about", or their are simply on a different path (or timeline) to mine.

so i try to leave them alone, hoping that they would leave me alone,
but the stronger you get in your own "faith" the stronger is "the opposite".

i have all my life been frightened of women, as they are so sure of themselves, not insecure as i am, so for example, that one old (english)lady friend of mine, who is "mothering" me, just can't believe that i am not going to listen or argue with her any more, tired of hearing her calling me "stupid" "impossible" "difficult" "fool" "at the bottom of the society", but when leaving she always says, "how lovely it is always to talk to you anne"!.

now, past month, i lock myself in the bathroom, shaking, when she comes banging our doors and windows, calling me !! and i used to be the tough one, one who always speaks out her mind. ~anne

[NegaNova]

haha, i didn't notice the post being 11:11, but that's awesome! haha, also - i forgot to mention. my sister's friend has been having recurring dreams of his sister danica dieing (only he doesn't actually have a sister in this life and she has never told him her name), and i asked a friend of mine who can help what it might mean and if i could connect the two. when i got home the other night, i also asked my dad if he had been dreaming lately and he said he had a dream that uncle wilfred died. i went to check the facebook message regarding my sister's friend and the response was that i death in dreams represents a changing in cycle, ending the old, into a new. again that was confirmed by wilcock on the recent article, and someone else told me lastnight they dreamt they died.

anyways. cool stuff. i'm liking the feel to this forum too. it's nice hearing from all of you! :d

[bill4588]

i'm not sure why but for the past month i've been seeing some weird things. first is that i always see the number 11 or multiples of 11 (22, 33, 44, 55). i'll check the clock and see 9:11, 11:11, 1:11, etc or 2:22, 3:33, 5:55, and i usually see that at least 3 times a day, usually more. the second one is more of a recent development, but i'm not sure if it's real or just my imagination. there have been 3 instances where i would see a colored dot somewhere on my body or someone else's body, but only for a second. the first one was a red dot near my groin, but it was a little to my left. the second was an orange dot near my naval, and the third was a purple dot on my girlfriends forehead. i thought i should look into what i was seeing, and the only thing i could find was the correlation to the chakras. i was pretty shocked to see that every color i saw was exactly the same as the chakra system. pretty weird! especially since i knew nothing of the chakra colors beforehand.

[NegaNova]

i'm not sure why but for the past month i've been seeing some weird things. first is that i always see the number 11 or multiples of 11 (22, 33, 44, 55). i'll check the clock and see 9:11, 11:11, 1:11, etc or 2:22, 3:33, 5:55, and i usually see that at least 3 times a day, usually more. the second one is more of a recent development, but i'm not sure if it's real or just my imagination. there have been 3 instances where i would see a colored dot somewhere on my body or someone else's body, but only for a second. the first one was a red dot near my groin, but it was a little to my left. the second was an orange dot near my naval, and the third was a purple dot on my girlfriends forehead. i thought i should look into what i was seeing, and the only thing i could find was the correlation to the chakras. i was pretty shocked to see that every color i saw was exactly the same as the chakra system. pretty weird! especially since i knew nothing of the chakra colors beforehand.

that's actually really cool. i have a friend who can see people as colour when he closes his eyes, and what you're saying sounds quite similar. however, when i read your post, i'm unsure what the focus on certain energy centers might mean. like, perhaps the colour you are seeing is where their focused chakra is, or it could also mean that's where there might be an energy blockage. i'm sure it will be revealed to you in time though, just trust yourself. cheers to you though for discovering some crazy **** about yourself haha.

[Enkidu]

or is everybody ridiculously excited about the coming months? i have been waiting for this time for nearly a decade now. i can see it, hell, i can almost taste it. the visions have been coming in strong the past month (remember remember the month of november *wink wink*). the writing is all over every wall.

c-span is showing the progress reports (the "audit the fed" bill is blasting through all opposition) people are becoming luminous all around me. soul after soul after soul is lighting up. the awareness and level of change within the masses is so obvious it is nearly blinding at this point.

everywhere i turn i see light and hope. the big changes are coming, they are going to come swift, the fruit is coming to bear and how sweet it will taste!

does anyone else feel this..... just... unprecedented feeling of hope and accomplishment? like all of the work is finally done? the scales have been tipped and now we need only sit back and watch the action complete itself?

never in my life have i been so certain this was real, never before have i been so sure of these truths. my higher self rings with the answer, my ears are tuned to the frequency. so tell me, am i the only one. anyone else playing in the same field i found in my dreams? do you all feel the same?

[dmckenzie]

i'm having dreams in which i am pharmacist :d gradually learning to fly... anyhow it seems the message of the dream is this: "if you struggle it wont work, so just let your feelings guide you" i followed this guidance and when i didn't want to lift up from the ground with so much intention, it worked and i achieved a relatively steady levitation. like there was some very soft material surrounding me and picking me up, but there was no pressure on any of my body parts. controlling the flight was almost easy afterwards, i just had to lean in the direction i wanted to go. i just love flying :) i can hardly wait for 2012! this is just too exciting! :d

[Bill]

way to go enkidu!!

it was nice to see an optimistic, enthusiastic post this morning. i have been focused on staying positive, and enjoying every moment, and wondering when the other shoe would fall, or if anyone would notice when it did.

[meganarline]

i am pumped and excited and can really feel it too. the fear tactics aren't affecting me at all. and from what i can see they aren't affecting other people as much either.

:):d i know there are big changes ahead for me. not sure what they are but i'm ready.

[Enkidu]

you know it is funny you say "if anyone would notice when it did"

i have been studying the ra material since the early 90's and one thing has always remained a mystery to me. when the harvest occurs it talks about the separation of vibrations. it states that it is like oil and water, where there is a clear definition between the elements and where they are going.

i have always pondered if it will be a "rapture" type of situation where the people who are moving into a higher plane just kinda phase out (ala shroud of turin, flash of light, body is gone kinda deal) while those who are going to continue 3d will not even notice. like the memories of those who are gone are wiped from the consciousness. people would just continue life as if those who moved on never even existed, while they lived out their final incarnation on earth (since earth is not supposed to be 3d inhabitable after this)

on the other hand it could be a scenario where everyone's physical bodies transpire and then the sorting is done on the other side with those progressing to a higher vibration getting a "direct ticket" to new life without the forgetting process and those who are to continue 3d catalyst incarnating elsewhere in the universe.

so, i guess i too wonder if anyone will notice at all. if the former is the case, and people will just continue as if we never existed, it makes retaining the detachment much easier. the thought of loved ones wondering where you have gone and trying to continue without you was one of my most difficult final releases, and the thought still springs up every now and then. i am comfortable with the idea, as everything is in its right place regardless, but if they didn't feel the loss of us it would make the whole transition much easier on the heart...

[Golden Mean]

or is everybody ridiculously excited about the coming months? i have been waiting for this time for nearly a decade now. i can see it, hell, i can almost taste it. the visions have been coming in strong the past month (remember remember the month of november *wink wink*). the writing is all over every wall.

c-span is showing the progress reports (the "audit the fed" bill is blasting through all opposition) people are becoming luminous all around me. soul after soul after soul is lighting up. the awareness and level of change within the masses is so obvious it is nearly blinding at this point.

everywhere i turn i see light and hope. the big changes are coming, they are going to come swift, the fruit is coming to bear and how sweet it will taste!

does anyone else feel this..... just... unprecedented feeling of hope and accomplishment? like all of the work is finally done? the scales have been tipped and now we need only sit back and watch the action complete itself?

never in my life have i been so certain this was real, never before have i been so sure of these truths. my higher self rings with the answer, my ears are tuned to the frequency. so tell me, am i the only one. anyone else playing in the same field i found in my dreams? do you all feel the same?

you're not alone... i feel similar to what you describe and my intuition has been on par with david's posts for the past 8 months or so.
however, i do feel that we are "at the end of the marathon" and need to pull out that second, third or fourth wind (so to speak) and push it through to finish strong and pull many more along with us. all of us have a unique role to play in this grand story and exciting climax. stay tuned to your higher self, and then manifest what you know in your heart to be true.

peace, love & light,
~ will

[Bill]

this may seem like a random post...

i have noticed in the last few weeks that the clocks in my house are now getting way out of synch... we have 4 clocks in the kitchen area, and they would typically get off by a minute or so over a 6 month/year timeframe... lately, they have varied by as much as 5-6 minutes out of synch, and i just re-adjusted them about a month ago....

[Nancy]

in the last 18 months my rheumatoid arthritis has gone into remission. by december i expect to be off arthritis medication (or nearly so) for the first time in 20 years.

thirty years of "chronic, profound depression" (per my shrink) has lifted for the longest time in memory.

my dream of singing in public is coming to fruition. i was led thru synchronicity to a university level voice teacher and am achieving a quality and range i didn't know i had.

i am fearless, relaxed and face each day with a new radiance. at 59 i've reached a "wholeness" that 5 years ago i could not have imagined.

"what wonderous love is this, oh my soul, oh my soul"
nancy in oregon

[Matthew Clark]

hi enkidu,

i replied to your post here but for some reason it has ended up on the "have you experienced any new abilities" thread.

here is the link to my reply, it is headed "enkidu".

https://divinecosmos.com/forums/showthread.php?t=9945&page=18

looks like you have got a great response with your infectious enthusiasm - well done.

matt

[Enkidu]

i replied in pm to your message.

when i say the work is done i mean it is done for a certain group, i apologize for not being more clear with my statement but i forget that we aren't all telepaths yet and some underlying meanings are not always picked up.

there is much activity yet to take place, and certainly many people still have things to do, but the great catalyst has been born from the unpotentiated. the tipping point for the final series, the initiation of the final movement, the event horizon, whatever term is wished to be applied. for many the purpose of this visit has been reached. at least that is my feeling on the matter.

continue spiraling

[annecat]

[quote ..i have noticed in the last few weeks that the clocks in my house are now getting way out of synch... , and i just re-adjusted them about a month ago....[/quote]

dear bill, when i read your posts, i could not help myself laughing loud ,:), if you just could know... the watches, especially wristwatches have been my weakest point since being a child, they disappear, or break or get "mad" around me. actually i hate the whole concept of time,
so i am very strict with time, and get most annoyed if anyone is ever late, as i am forced to life in this world with this time....

so, i do not have a wristwatch, and the wallclock in the kitchen has during the past months been really "funny"...sometimes in the evenings it stops 10 to ten and goes backwards few minutes to 12 to 10 pm( and then back again) when i give it a little shake, it starts moving perfectly.

and when i returned from switzerland, november 2001 (met with ets) i was really lost
with time, 5 to 10 minutes ahead ? for example, i could tell whom i am going to meet in which street corner in five minutes, or i could watch tv programms with my children and say "hey, i have seen this show before i know who will win" and my children would look at me and say; "mom, you could not have seen this before, this is live show!".(eventually i got so scared that i will lose my mind, and that is why i have been "hiding " past seven years).

and most stranger things happen if i ever wear a wristwatch, i am like transported to other time. (once, many many years ago, i left my wristwatch by my friend, went to get it from him in his evening workplace, old "festivehouse", where happened to be a meeting of "one hundred and fifty" men in tailcoats, a "secret" men only society, men's choir, of their history of 105 years there had been no women, and i was the first one invited to come in, i was sat on a table on a chair and then they sang me in many different languages...it kind of took me back to the times i had been a "priestess" or so .) ~anne cat

[Truth180]

has anyone been expeirencing alot of dejavu lately. its a wierd feeling and been getting it alot more this these days. its so often now that it seems to be a normal thing now.

do we relive a certain lifetime to learn a lesson that we missed the first time around. i am sure the subject has been brought up before.

[Enkidu]

do we relive a certain lifetime to learn a lesson that we missed the first time around. i am sure the subject has been brought up before.

if we choose to. nothing is mandatory. free will is the law of the universe. we have a general idea of life lessons and what we "hope" to achieve during our stay. whether or not we learn them is not a "pass/fail" scenario. it was just a rough idea. there are many ways to learn lessons, incarnating here is only one of them.

[ReginaldSinevet]

one thing that i've noticed a lot lately is my constant daydream of flying. i sometimes close my eyes and see myself taking off straight in the air and flying off...sort of like in heroes...if anyone watches that show.

my dreams have also become more frequent. i think the reason that is is because i tell myself to remember my dreams as i fall to sleep. i am going to start writing them down to fully grasp the messages, if any, they convey.

[NegaNova]

has anyone been noticing thought manifestation coming into the physical reality occuring a lot faster than usual? the past two weeks have been insanely synchronous for me, and it's been happening among a few of my friends as well.

[meganarline]

has anyone been noticing thought manifestation coming into the physical reality occuring a lot faster than usual?

yes that has definitely been happening, in big ways and small ways. i collect vintage pottery and china and make mosaics from some of them. i was thinking it would be nice to find a piece of capodimonte china from italy because i've seen a friend use the flowers in mosaics and it looks great. well two days later i went to one of the local thrift stores and found a large piece of just such china for $2.00.

just like that.

megan

[Spiral of Light]

has anyone been noticing thought manifestation coming into the physical reality occuring a lot faster than usual? the past two weeks have been insanely synchronous for me, and it's been happening among a few of my friends as well.

absolutely, yes! it has gotten to the point that i hesitate to consciously desire something because it seems that it will somehow appear in my life. (sort of a living example of the old adage, "be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.")

just one example: a casual discussion with my daughter about needing/wanting a storage cabinet for the kitchen, one with a light to spotlight my lovely glass vase, was followed by a phone call from her minutes after leaving my house. on our dark country road, there was a tall, glass front cabinet with a 'free' sign on it. and, yes, it does have a recessed light on the top shelf. it is in beautiful condition and just fits where i needed it to go.

so many other things similar to this have been happening. i am renovating a 200-year old cottage and there are many 'needs' in this lovely little home. the way that furnishings and services keep falling into place is absolutely astonishing to me.

i am still learning how to work with this beautiful energy...being very careful to think positive thoughts and manifest carefully and lovingly.

sharing the love and the light,
nancy

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i used to be able to eat anything i wanted but now if i have the slightest amount of sugar i feel really bad so i totally avoid it. all i desire to eat is fresh vegetables and i make myself green smoothies everyday. my family thinks i've lost my mind because my eating habits have changed so drastically.

there are days when i just want to be alone to contemplate the future and the coming changes. i live in the country around much wildlife and many trees and even when it rains i want to be out with them. something as simple as sitting in the sun makes me happy. and i seem to appreciate life so much more than before.

sometimes when i go to bed my body feels like it's vibrating. at first i thought it was just my imagination but after several nights of this happening i know it's real. my body is changing in ways i cannot even explain and some of it not so pleasant but i feel it is necessary to get to where i'm going.

in the late 80s i was part of christendom and very faithful to it, then one day it no longer served me and i started buying every book i could find about spirituality and the coming earth changes.

in the 90s i was in a survivalist frame of mind and thought about it all the time.

now in 2000 i do not worry about it and know things will work out just the way they are supposed to.

may your will be done.

sandy

[sqri]

good morning, afternoon and evening to all of my brothers and sisters from around the world! i have been experiencing some changes in my life over the past year that have been overwhelmingly positive and i can't help but think that it is my positive frame of mind that is actually creating these changes. it has been gradual and nothing really out of the ordinary. i won't go in to all of those details but i did want to share one experience that i had recently that actually was quite extraordinary. here goes:

i was driving home from work a few days ago when i saw that i had a message on my phone. i listened to it and it was my girlfriend telling me that she, "just got the craziest message ever," and to call her as soon as i could. my first thought was that her crazy ex-boyfriend was calling her again but that just didn't "feel" right. then, seemingly from out of nowhere, i get this strange idea that a famous musician has called her to ask for her support in a concert he is putting on in order to, "raise awareness" about the shady dealings of the music industry. wow! crazy right! well....apparently not. as soon as i get home i get this story from her about how five years ago she met a musician backstage at a wailers concert. (for those of you who don't know who the wailers are, they were bob marley's band in the 70's and 80's.) he was an original member of the band and got her # and several others as well. she then told me that he has collected a lot of #'s over the years and was calling them all to tell everyone that he was organizing a concert to bring "real music" to the masses because he was tired of the shady dealings of record companies. wow!

[billusion]

my partner and i have been going through symptoms and experiences now for a long time. the heavier symptoms started in 2005. we have head stuff where everything around us looks fake or like props on a stage. we have heart sounds that sound like stomach sounds in the heart area followed by gas. we are really sensitive to noise, even birds are too loud. we can see thing more than other people, such as the mind control and mental illness in everyone. it's as though i can see the ego on people's shoulders and i know their ego identification and which downloads or programming they have. automobiles appear to go faster than they used to. we both are completely exhausted most of the time and our minds don't function well anymore. i don't worry or feel sad or angry. i don't think about the past or the future anymore. i don't remember things so well anymore either. these hands as i type appear to be someone else's hands. if i would tell a story about the past it's as though it happened to someone else. i could go on and on. my partner shares all the same symptoms and experiences and we share numerologically reverse birthdays. below i will show you a link that was forwarded to me that shows exactly what our world is like. i don't really believe the terminology octarine but what the lady experiences is exactly what my partner experiences. i just don't know what it is. anyways i'll copy and paste it below. that is our world.

also with the symptoms and experiences we've lost everything including our new age beliefs. my partner and i have been homeless a couple of times and we often don't have money for food to eat as we don't at this moment. the symptoms coincided with our monetary decline and have yet to improve. maybe it's part of losing everything where in the end we lose food also - i don't know.

there has been a few benefits to what we've gone through. we can see more than other people though it makes being around others very uncomfortable because we can see all their issues and can see all their problems. we have children and dogs often pulling to come over and play with us. another benefit is i have lost 70 lbs from not eating also.

we live like hermits because it protects us. our senses are are really really strong now so it makes being around others uncomfortable. also seeing things like we see them makes being around others horrible.

i don't know if i explained it well. my mind doesn't work so well and information comes from elsewhere like i don't need to really think if you understand what i mean. this below best describes our world. i don't agree with the new age terminology but the lady has the same world as we do. we have the gifts she mentions and many other things that i probably forgot to tell you.

thanks for reading!:):

transiting from indigo to octarine/crystal
the unveiling: adult transition from indigo to octarine/crystal

it starts with a vague feeling of something not quite being 'right'. sounds are harsher on the ears, you find yourself avoiding your once-beloved candle shop because the scents are so over powering. the mall, once a wonderful temple of temptations, has become the ninth circle of hell, as have many other public venues. noise and crowds now drive you away, rather than excite and attract you. your ‘been-there, done-that’ passport is completely filled, and nothing really thrills you any more. it’s mindless kiddie stuff now.

certain friendships begin to drift, to dissolve, as your interests change and shift. your home becomes your refuge and sanctuary, and your solitude becomes sacred. you might even end a relationship to achieve this solitude, but you never feel lonely. the tv and radio are off more than they are on, and popular music seems to be vapid and empty to your now extremely sensitive ears. suddenly, you feel no anxiety in telling offensive and obnoxious people where to get off, and meaning it. your moods become the stuff of legend. sounds almost like menopause, but it isn’t. you have bursts of creativity, and bursts of total laziness and disinterest.

for the rest of the message: http://www.sunfell.com/indigo.htm

[11wanderer11]

my partner and i have been going through symptoms and experiences now for a long time. the heavier symptoms started in 2005. .... automobiles appear to go faster than they used to. we both are completely exhausted most of the time and our minds don't function well anymore. i don't worry or feel sad or angry. i don't think about the past or the future anymore. i don't remember things so well anymore either.
there has been a few benefits to what we've gone through. we can see more than other people though it makes being around others very uncomfortable because we can see all their issues and can see all their problems. we have children and dogs often pulling to come over and play with us. another benefit is i have lost 70 lbs from not eating also.

we live like hermits because it protects us. our senses are are really really strong now so it makes being around others uncomfortable. also seeing things like we see them makes being around others horrible.

i don't know if i explained it well. my mind doesn't work so well and information comes from elsewhere like i don't need to really think if you understand what i mean. this below best describes our world. i don't agree with the new age terminology but the lady has the same world as we do. we have the gifts she mentions and many other things that i probably forgot to tell you.

thanks for reading!:):

transiting from indigo to octarine/crystal
the unveiling: adult transition from indigo to octarine/crystal

it starts with a vague feeling of something not quite being 'right'. sounds are harsher on the ears, you find yourself avoiding your once-beloved candle shop because the scents are so over powering. the mall, once a wonderful temple of temptations, has become the ninth circle of hell, as have many other public venues. noise and crowds now drive you away, rather than excite and attract you. your ‘been-there, done-that’ passport is completely filled, and nothing really thrills you any more. it’s mindless kiddie stuff now.

certain friendships begin to drift, to dissolve, as your interests change and shift. your home becomes your refuge and sanctuary, and your solitude becomes sacred. you might even end a relationship to achieve this solitude, but you never feel lonely. the tv and radio are off more than they are on, and popular music seems to be vapid and empty to your now extremely sensitive ears. suddenly, you feel no anxiety in telling offensive and obnoxious people where to get off, and meaning it. your moods become the stuff of legend. sounds almost like menopause, but it isn’t. you have bursts of creativity, and bursts of total laziness and disinterest.

for the rest of the message: http://www.sunfell.com/indigo.htm

yeah, thanks for that website. i've been experiencing many of these types of changes as well. i wondered if anybody else was aware of the difference in driving. i also generally feel the same when it comes to the mind. i kinda feel like i can't do any wrong when i just trust my intuition and pretty much just flow with life's circumstances around me. my body has also been gradually getting lighter, even though the body image has stayed pretty much exactly the same for the last 8 years or so. i'm also a major hermit and feel most comfortable when i'm away from other people, but that's been pretty much my whole life. the last few years i've been experiencing more frequent 'energy bursts' in my body that feel like i'm charging up, and now i'm able to bring them about at will. telepathic abilities are steadily improving too. often times, i say only like half of what i'm thinking subconsciously or something, expecting people to fully understand what i mean or know what i'm thinking. sometimes it works, sometimes not. a lot of times i can finish someone's sentence or pick a word out of their head that eluded them without really knowing what they were going to say.

[11wanderer11]

i almost forgot to mention the tones. a very high pitched ringing/vibration sound that i particularly notice at night time. sounds like it could be a few frequencies blended together. it's not in the ears because it will still be in my head if i seal the ears. it's just like it permeates everything around. i suspect it'd be the energy influx david talks about. another thing is occassionaly i'll have these interesting emotional flashbacks. seemingly random thoughts of childhood memories from 'real life' or dreams that i hadn't ever thought of since will pop up from time to time and remind me of special feelings or awareness that i had experienced. it's hard to describe other than fleeting and surreal.

[billusion]

yeah, thanks for that website. i've been experiencing many of these types of changes as well. i wondered if anybody else was aware of the difference in driving. i also generally feel the same when it comes to the mind. i kinda feel like i can't do any wrong when i just trust my intuition and pretty much just flow with life's circumstances around me. my body has also been gradually getting lighter, even though the body image has stayed pretty much exactly the same for the last 8 years or so. i'm also a major hermit and feel most comfortable when i'm away from other people, but that's been pretty much my whole life. the last few years i've been experiencing more frequent 'energy bursts' in my body that feel like i'm charging up, and now i'm able to bring them about at will. telepathic abilities are steadily improving too. often times, i say only like half of what i'm thinking subconsciously or something, expecting people to fully understand what i mean or know what i'm thinking. sometimes it works, sometimes not. a lot of times i can finish someone's sentence or pick a word out of their head that eluded them without really knowing what they were going to say.

hi 11wanderer,

thanks for describing what is going on with you. i believe there is a "shift" going on and that people are at different waves. i don't like the terminology like indigo and the rest because i figure how do people know that or where did they get the silly terminology. the stuff like the cars going faster than they used to before symptoms is kind of weird. for us the weirdest symptom is how everything around us looks fake. even the people around us with their big egos seem like caricatures or cartoon characters. the last lady we live with i diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder and the two i live with now i diagnosed with ocpd and cyclothymic disorder (mild form of bipolar). i did this with no psychiatric training in dsm categories. as eckhart tolle says the nature of ego = insanity. well we see the mental illness in everyone. we were mentally ill ourselves but now since we have "pulled out of the collective (un)conscious" we see outside the collective. we can also tell if anyone is lying and we can see if they're gonna be ill and what they can do to make their illness better but most times people don't listen.

i kind of believe this illusion is a set storyline with set character roles like in the movie "knowing" and that we have "limited creating" within the storyline. i believed this even before we saw the movie. what is the most weird is how this illusion looks and feels like a dream to us. the biggest issue we have since the symptoms and experiences are the exhaustion we experience with the symptoms, but also communicating with others is almost impossible like we are operating at a different level than others. being around people is horrible because of their egos and it's hard to tune out the things we can see. we're tired of the financial stuff also..we've been homeless a couple times and we have gone hungry more times than i can count on my hands.

what's strange is we also can see how the "puppet masters are pulling people's strings in this illusion. how people have lost their minds and are being manipulated by those behind the curtains. we can see the programming of people..which downloads they received and which mental illness they have. it's so strange.

we ask ourselves what we are doing here anymore? we don't belong here anymore. aliens on a strange planet it feels like. we are just waiting...waiting for what i don't know.

the physical symptoms are an annoyance. especially this loud heart sound we get like stomach noises that come from the heart area and are most of the time followed by gas. i've got so many symptoms i could tell you about but i get tired of talking about them. suffice it to say my partner has the same ones starting exactly on the same day for both of us.

my mind is really horrible now. i don't remember anything and i have difficulty writing or communicating with others. like i said my partner and i don't know what we are doing here anymore. the head stuff is nice because we don't feel fear, sadness, worry or anger anymore. we also aren't manipulated by the sentimental dribble in movies etc.

:)

[billusion]

i almost forgot to mention the tones. a very high pitched ringing/vibration sound that i particularly notice at night time. sounds like it could be a few frequencies blended together. it's not in the ears because it will still be in my head if i seal the ears. it's just like it permeates everything around. i suspect it'd be the energy influx david talks about. another thing is occassionaly i'll have these interesting emotional flashbacks. seemingly random thoughts of childhood memories from 'real life' or dreams that i hadn't ever thought of since will pop up from time to time and remind me of special feelings or awareness that i had experienced. it's hard to describe other than fleeting and surreal.

i've had the ringing often. at one point i discussed with my partner whether we were a psychops operation..whether we had been microchipped. we knew our symptoms aren't medical in nature because of the way that they are so we thought maybe we had been microchipped. we eventually dismissed it because we both come from completely different countries, have completely different body types and grew up in completely different families with obviously different doctors growing up.

since we have numerically reverse birthdays we figured it was something "metaphysical" in nature. i don't dismiss anything but the symptoms we have are kind of kewl and i figure why would tptb microchip people and give them kewl symptoms which give them certain abilities. wouldn't make sense would it?

i wanted to repeat the most amazing thing we see now is the mind control and mental illness of people. the ego is people's biggest enemy and clouds their perceptions of everything. it's horrible being in such a world where people endlessly spew out their belief systems and talk about their pasts and futures. endless ego identification blah blah blah. we just wish sometimes we could shut them all up.:d

thanks again for your posts!

[Nova]

[quote=alloura;39303]boy, i can really identify with the "insatiable hunger for spiritual knowledge"!!! i feel like a junkie, searching the net for more knowledge, more insights, more, more, i want more!!

thank goodness others are having the extreme hunger for spiritual knowledge. my friend who doesn't want to discuss any of this with me said i remind her of joan of arc. she asked me where this drive and passion are coming from and i told her somewhere deep inside me, it seems i have an insatiable quest for knowledge.

i also have been plagued with nasal allergies since august that won't go away. i have many personal issues going on at home but seem to be quite calm and at peace considering everything. i just feel that i have something to do and i don''t know what it is. i'm hanging in there hoping everything will be revealed in due time.

[billusion]

[quote=alloura;39303]boy, i can really identify with the "insatiable hunger for spiritual knowledge"!!! i feel like a junkie, searching the net for more knowledge, more insights, more, more, i want more!!

thank goodness others are having the extreme hunger for spiritual knowledge. my friend who doesn't want to discuss any of this with me said i remind her of joan of arc. she asked me where this drive and passion are coming from and i told her somewhere deep inside me, it seems i have an insatiable quest for knowledge.

i also have been plagued with nasal allergies since august that won't go away. i have many personal issues going on at home but seem to be quite calm and at peace considering everything. i just feel that i have something to do and i don''t know what it is. i'm hanging in there hoping everything will be revealed in due time.

you know i've had the opposite with these symptoms and experience. i had an experience a couple years ago where i went through alot of emotional release and one night as i was sobbing in tears i had an epiphany...i realized i know nothing. it made sound so simple but it just hit me. tolle talks about losing everything including your beliefs to get to your pure essence beyond form and mind and boy i understand that. i'd lost everything including my beliefs and there i sat and cried and realized i know nothing and noone really knows anything.

why am i saying this? because i realized all the reading of writings is pointless and meaningless. why? because who wrote the writings? where did that information come from? i realized if noone knows anything then there is nothing to know because there is nothing to learn. so accumulating knowledge was pointless because this knowledge came from whom and from where?

it's like i tell the b'hai lady i live with. she told me that "i needed to make a stand" and have beliefs. i told her you may have your b'hai beliefs but who is correct the b'hai or the christian or the new ager? i told her all three have accumulated spiritual "knowledge" but only one or none have the "truth". my point being that there is nothing to know because there is nothing to learn because you'll never know what the "truth" is.

it's the loss of beliefs that brings you to your true essence which is the no-thing-ness which we all are.

my belief is that we are solely consciousness. it's just my belief and i could be wrong but i've made that analysis based on some experiences i've had. i have this theory we've created this "movie in our one mind" to avoid the nothingness which is everything. that's why the collective ego is insanity. how crazy would you get if you were running away from facing your true self which is nothing by endlessly imprisoning yourself in illusion?

there is nothign to learn because there is nothing to know. illusion is illusion and nothing = nothing.

the biggest deceiver or trickster in this illusion is your mind. it will make you believe anything and everything.

think about that!:)

[11wanderer11]

[quote=nova;51825]

you know i've had the opposite with these symptoms and experience. i had an experience a couple years ago where i went through alot of emotional release and one night as i was sobbing in tears i had an epiphany...i realized i know nothing. it made sound so simple but it just hit me. tolle talks about losing everything including your beliefs to get to your pure essence beyond form and mind and boy i understand that. i'd lost everything including my beliefs and there i sat and cried and realized i know nothing and noone really knows anything.

why am i saying this? because i realized all the reading of writings is pointless and meaningless. why? because who wrote the writings? where did that information come from? i realized if noone knows anything then there is nothing to know because there is nothing to learn. so accumulating knowledge was pointless because this knowledge came from whom and from where?

it's like i tell the b'hai lady i live with. she told me that "i needed to make a stand" and have beliefs. i told her you may have your b'hai beliefs but who is correct the b'hai or the christian or the new ager? i told her all three have accumulated spiritual "knowledge" but only one or none have the "truth". my point being that there is nothing to know because there is nothing to learn because you'll never know what the "truth" is.

it's the loss of beliefs that brings you to your true essence which is the no-thing-ness which we all are.

my belief is that we are solely consciousness. it's just my belief and i could be wrong but i've made that analysis based on some experiences i've had. i have this theory we've created this "movie in our one mind" to avoid the nothingness which is everything. that's why the collective ego is insanity. how crazy would you get if you were running away from facing your true self which is nothing by endlessly imprisoning yourself in illusion?

there is nothign to learn because there is nothing to know. illusion is illusion and nothing = nothing.

the biggest deceiver or trickster in this illusion is your mind. it will make you believe anything and everything.

think about that!:)

i totally understand the concept of what you are saying but i think it might be a little flawed. if you don't fully understand (nobody in this world does) the exact processes of knowledge, then yeah, it may seem like it's just a bunch of people and their opinions, but i suggest to you that writings can indeed be 'inspired' and channeled by divine/higher sources. if there are universal, ultimate truths then those are certainly worth knowing and understanding. the only logical 'belief' to me is one that simply composes everything...all possibilities...infinite...everything and nothing...pretty much the law of one. you say we'll never know what the 'truth' is. i agree...in this lifetime/incarnation in 3d i think it's probably impossible to have fully conscious understanding of complete truth. but once we move on we'll remember what we intentionally forgot to get here. this world is indeed like a game or movie.

[billusion]

[quote=billusion;51828]

i totally understand the concept of what you are saying but i think it might be a little flawed. if you don't fully understand (nobody in this world does) the exact processes of knowledge, then yeah, it may seem like it's just a bunch of people and their opinions, but i suggest to you that writings can indeed be 'inspired' and channeled by divine/higher sources. if there are universal, ultimate truths then those are certainly worth knowing and understanding. the only logical 'belief' to me is one that simply composes everything...all possibilities...infinite...everything and nothing...pretty much the law of one. you say we'll never know what the 'truth' is. i agree...in this lifetime/incarnation in 3d i think it's probably impossible to have fully conscious understanding of complete truth. but once we move on we'll remember what we intentionally forgot to get here. this world is indeed like a game or movie.

hi 11wanderer11,

basically every belief you or i have has been downloaded since we were born. your idea of "3d" or other concepts come from writings. in fact try to name one thing you or i believe that is original.

fact remains we don't know if anyone is channeling anything other than their own minds and we don't know whether there is a divine or higher being. it's all speculation on people's parts.

people's minds will convince them of any "opium" whether it is "bliss" or some other happy ending. like i said before people's minds are their biggest enemy.

everything you have ever learned has been downloaded into you just like a computer. where do these writings come from? where do the beliefs your parents or the schools downloaded into you?

people's minds have been controlled and manipulated from day 1. it's not a question of whether you or i is mind controlled. it's a question of which downloading or programming did we receive.

there is no evidence of anything. there is a 50/50 chance either way.

there are no universal truths because those would also be speculation. in the end none of us know anything. what we have are beliefs but beliefs aren't the "truth".

[MarkM]

the rational intellectual mind is a tool for interfacing with the 3d world. it is often mistaken for the core of beingness, yet it is in reality a tool. well, that's my opinion, and from the point of view of my rational mind i cannot know this for absolute certainty.;)

it's an interesting place to be, being in the state of realization that when considering the mind alone, nothing is known for sure. it can be a little unsettling - i know, i've been there.

there is a property of true knowing, and paradoxically it doesn't arise from the rational, thinking and calculating simian mind. ever have a moment of special, tender and touching communion with a loved one, felt the beauty of a summer day welling up within? i know i've had these moments, i have felt love and beauty. these things arise from the heart center, and when i ask if i know i've felt them, i realize that i'm applying the rational proof-seeking mind to the task.

when i feel a resonance which fills me with joy while reading the ra material or some of the q'uo transcripts for example, it's of little importance to me at that time where this 'channeling' is from. the rational mind left to it's own devices will always be able to offer 'rational' explanations and alternative theories as to what mental, brain centered processes are responsible for the phenomena, and reduce beautiful heart centered experiencing to chemical reactions and bio-physical actions/reactions.

i tend to avoid the term, 'intuitive knowledge' as much as possible, because i tend to equate the concept of knowledge with the needs of the intellect to sort the world into tidy packets of 'knowable' info, proven and peer-reviewable - demonstrable and beyond scientific reproach. intuitive experiencing seems more the ticket! if i feel a rush of love and appreciation, (non intellectual or rational) the question of whether i am self deluded is a moot point. i wouldn't say i know i'm experiencing this, i'd simply say i'm experiencing this. the rationalizing and proof seeking mind doesn't always have to be involved in my experiencing!

the mind which seeks proof and knowledge can run into trouble when it realizes that it indeed knows nothing for certain. this has been the downfall of many who reach this point of 'knowing they know nothing' (:rolleyes:) yet this state of finally realizing the frontiers of limitation of the mind can lead one to the exploration of the heart centered and intuitive medium of experiencing. in fact, one may actually cotton on to the experience that the harmonized interaction between the mind and the heart can open up frontiers of a truer, more direct experiencing of consciousness.

this is a territory which lies beyond mental constructs and sensual interaction with this material world. this hybrid being of mind/intuition can lead to the surmounting of the identification with the illusory world, and actually lead one to directly perceive the conscious framework upon which the material world is hung. hard to try to describe, as words themselves are constructs of the mind! mark

[Bill]

i was talking with a friend the other day, and those were the words that came out of my mouth, in response to her question of how i was doing...

it was a really confusing, trying, humbling month. on the one hand, i keep expecting the 'other shoe to drop' regarding the whole financial situation, disclosure, etc. and waiting for that. on the other hand, that has allowed me to come to terms with the notion of what if they don't happen? what if disclosure does not occur? what if it is not 'real'? what if i am stuck with my debt's forever? the positive note in all of this is that since it has not occurred yet, i really had to deal with those questions. it has allowed me to go through that experience, and move towards being okay with it, and looking at what shadows that has brought up.

not sure, maybe i am rambling here, but that is why october was just really 'weird' for me.

[Matthew Clark]

i was talking with a friend the other day, and those were the words that came out of my mouth, in response to her question of how i was doing...

it was a really confusing, trying, humbling month. on the one hand, i keep expecting the 'other shoe to drop' regarding the whole financial situation, disclosure, etc. and waiting for that. on the other hand, that has allowed me to come to terms with the notion of what if they don't happen? what if disclosure does not occur? what if it is not 'real'? what if i am stuck with my debt's forever? the positive note in all of this is that since it has not occurred yet, i really had to deal with those questions. it has allowed me to go through that experience, and move towards being okay with it, and looking at what shadows that has brought up.

not sure, maybe i am rambling here, but that is why october was just really 'weird' for me.

hi bill,

october was a bit of a weird month for me too. a few trials and tribulations here and there but in amongst it all, precious lessons of learning and growing.

things must be happening because just a few months ago, i would not have even given a thought to half of what i am thinking now.

in some ways, its as if instinct is beginning to kick in that something very big, real and uplifting is just around the corner.

i would say this my friend, hang on in there, keep at it and stay as positive as you can.

the end of this system and the beginning of a new one cannot be that far away now.

as for the rest of your post, i would say this,

when life throws you a lemon, then its time to make lemonade ;)

with love and light,

matt :)

[FIIISH]

often times, i say only like half of what i'm thinking subconsciously or something, expecting people to fully understand what i mean or know what i'm thinking. sometimes it works, sometimes not.

i find myself doing this more and more. speaking seems to be a waste of energy- i would
rather project my thought.

it's helpful to know that others are experiencing this as well.

[evolving]

perhaps this thread could be re-named to

"what changes are you not experiencing?"

[EdwardJS]

perhaps this thread could be re-named to

"what changes are you not experiencing?"

my sentiments exactly: what am i not experiencing?

first, i have experienced a lot of interesting things, such as what david w has.

but since i am now experiencing the catalyst of cancer, the chemo drugs have
taken out my ability to recall any dreams i've had or know if they are to have
any meaning as the ones i did have before.

but fortunately, this catalyst of cancer has manifested itself in me because i would never have otherwise addressed personal issues if it weren't for the cancer. and just as i confessed this to a friend on the phone and had just been at the atm while talking to her on my cell phone, my atm receipt gave me a bank account balance of $1111.11!

while i do not have lucid and great dreams as before, i get strong synchronicities like the above just mentioned. that cell phone call lasted exactly 20:00 minutes, as if to stress a point, i gathered therefrom.

since i am not adept at healing, the traditional 3rd d treatment goes on. i am dealing with issues that i had to. ra was right about anger causing cancer. and i am grateful that this has happened to me because i have experienced miracle after miracle ever since my first diagnosis of cancer on august 1st this year.

i have relied upon faith. it has been miraculous, since others have given good vibes and love toward me, as a reincarnated wanderer like me to also supposed to receive love from others as well as give it! you see, i tell others of my condition, and this gives all people an opportunity to be of service to another suffering person. what an incredible opportunity to serve others - to let them see what they call good in themselves by doing good, wishing you well, in effect acting as a conduit for universal love energy to heal. i don't even worry about cancer, because this has been the best thing that has happened to me, so that i can open my eyes and see many things i never would have considered before.

i am honored to serve others, because as others see me cope with cancer in as dignified and faith-filled manner, it inspires them to see their daily problems as minor compared to mine. what an opportunity to give assistance to others. because of the service given, the 2 tumors in my neck area have shrunk to almost nothing. i have 6 weeks further to go in therapy, taking me to the end of the year, so this part of my service and learning will end.

never for a moment did i fear or consider this to be awful. this was, to me, a fail-safe event that was pre-programmed by me before my reincarnation here, in case i didn't awaken.

ed

[evolving]

never for a moment did i fear or consider this to be awful. this was, to me, a fail-safe event that was pre-programmed by me before my reincarnation here, in case i didn't awaken.

ed

69.15 there are no mistakes, but their are surprises. ~ra

it is pleasing to see you deal with this as one who has learned to deal with catalyst rather than ignore it.

i shall pray to the one creator, as i hope we here in the forum shall unite in prayer, for your miraculous recovery brother. you must do your part too though. work on your chakras, if you aren't and haven't already.

[FooSnik]

being an extremely empathic kid living in nyc is not easy. but i am not happy unless i am being challenged. i have not felt the need to express anything in a long time. but i must describe to you what i have been feeling lately.

the "tension" is palpable. i am not sure if that is the right word. i feel like the dam holding back peoples emotions is spread so thin now. like a water balloon full of too much water. the rubber is getting really thin.

on the nights in the city in which everyone comes out for a block party, like halloween or new years eve, things are starting to get so crazy. more and more wild. just people doing whatever they want. "rules? what are rules?" people are starting to make their own rules now. creativity happening at an alarming rate. the new generation are like kings and queens. each individually.

i think it is important for us to try to guide this raw, unbridled energy in a smart direction. this new crazy energy from this "kingly" youth could so easily erupt into a violent revolution. we must try to make them understand that that is exactly what the elite want them to do. react with violence.

violence will achieve the population control that the elite want but will also give the elite good reason to install more control over the populace and descend us into even deeper negativity.

so i am calling all wanderers now, that understand what i am saying and feeling, to come into a leadership role and guide this new wild energy that is coming into the planet at an accelerated rate, guide it in an "intelligent" direction. take a martin luther king or a gandhi as an example.

just to stand united with the focus not on chaos, war, strife, greed and selfishness. you see, we can have fun creating our wildest dreams so much more in a world in which we are not always focused on our own survival. people have lost sight of this. they think the only way to have fun is through destruction and negativity. not true. there is so much more fun to be had when we live in a world in which we can focus on our dreams and not on our survival. in a world in which we work together and not against each other.

sigh... so hard to explain everything i have been feeling lately.

[noppy]

changes i am experiencing....

it's a kinda weird... but i seem to experience the alice in wonderland syndrome.

that what it is, is what it not is and that what not is, is what it is.


it's like everything is reversed everything i have been taught on this planet.

you don't believe what is out side of you but what is inside of you. you don't think you know it but you feel you know it. you don't live in reality but in imagination. nothing is cause by you but created by you. death doesn't equal non-excistens but transformation. live isn't about teaching but remembering. the universe is not out side of you but inside of you. your live isn't created by destiny but by your choices. 2012 isn't about the end of life but the beginning of an new age in an higher frequent.

now i am aware of it my life isn't the same as it used to be.

[Elysses]

with the nearing of 2012 as the earth begins to cross the galactic median, i'd like to list several changes i've began noticing with my body:

-high pitched ringing noise in my ears. i've heard others say this as well. could it be the new vibrational changes that im possibly hearing? usually when laying in bed at night, the pitch is very noticeable when i focus my attention to it, but it is not annoying.

-sleeping in late everyday. for the past few months, i've been sleeping anywhere past 1-2pm. not that im lazy, i just dont feel the need to get up. strange.

-constantly craving liquid diet. almost everyday i have to make a smoothie in the morning for breakfast. i've also taken a liking to v8 juice.

-avoiding unhealthy foods. i've felt the need to eliminate fast foods and fatty high caloric foods from my diet. i've never tried to eat healthy when younger. but since i've recently finished college im doing everything possible to eat healthy or semi-vegan.

-endless need to research information on the spiritual ascention and all its branches of esoteric philosophies. it all started for me when i found a youtube video on the hexagon on saturn. that led me straight to richard hoagland's work. then nassim haramein, and now david's.

-increased psychic feelings about people. i feel that i can sum up a persons entire personality and intellect before i even begin talking to them. and often when others are talking i feel they are not getting the "whole picture" of what they happen to be discussing with me. it's not that i feel like i know more than them, it is more of a feeling that i think they cannot understand things as quickly or intuitively as me. maybe they are not wanderers.

-solitude. recently i've gotten out of a long relationship with my girlfriend. i felt that she was negative energy in my life i needed to let go of. since then recently, i've found myself alone alot and realized that with quietness and solitude, time seems to fly by so fast. there has been a huge difference in my lifestyle since being single and moving into a new apt. it has really helped me focus more on discovering more esoteric spiritual writings.

-increased dream activity. this is the one that really excited me. david talks incredibly how dreams will increase dealing with ufos or extraterrestrials and the like. i started to receive these very vivid dreams almost every night dealing with flying, levitation, spaceships, weird energy, the future. i can't wait to see what more is in store.

-very little stress. i let events pass through me instead of sticking to me. you could say i am very null to overly displaying emotion or letting events stress me out. it's as if i know there is nothing to worry about and that i've possibly finally realized my duty here as a wanderer.

-synchronicity. are you kidding me? 11:11's and all the whole crew. numbers and "coincidences" galore. it's gotten to the point where i'm not even surprised anymore.

has anyone else had the same symptoms or even all??

[evolving]

good summation of very similar changes i have had as well. i can't sleep in that long though as i have a toddler daughter. i also got out of a terrible relationship and recently have met someone new who appears to me to be very compatible on the vibrational level. my mindful manifestation worked!


with the nearing of 2012 as the earth begins to cross the galactic median, i'd like to list several changes i've began noticing with my body:

-high pitched ringing noise in my ears. i've heard others say this as well. could it be the new vibrational changes that im possily hearing? usually when laying in bed at night, the pitch is very noticeable when i focus my attention to it, but it is not annoying.

-sleeping in late everyday. for the past few months, i've been sleeping anywhere past 1-2pm. not that im lazy, i just dont feel the need to get up. strange.

-constantly craving liquid diet. almost everyday i have to make a smoothie in the morning for breakfast. i've also taken a liking to v8 juice.

-avoiding unhealthy foods. i've felt the need to eliminate fast foods and fatty high caloric foods from my diet. i've never tried to eat healthy when younger. but since i've recently finished college im doing everything possible to eat healthy or semi-vegan.

-endless need to research information on the spiritual ascention and all its branches of esoteric philosophies. it all started for me when i found a youtube video on the hexagon on saturn. that led me straight to richard hoagland's work. then nassim haramein, and now david's.

-increased psychic feelings about people. i feel that i can sum up a persons entire personality and intellect before i even begin talking to them. and often when others are talking i feel they are not getting the "whole picture" of what they happen to be discussing with me. it's not that i feel like i know more than them, it is more of a feeling that i think they cannot understand things as quickly or intuitively as me. maybe they are not wanderers.

-solitude. recently i've gotten out of a long relationship with my girlfriend. i felt that she was negative energy in my life i needed to let go of. since then recently, i've found myself alone alot and realized that with quietness and solitude, time seems to fly by so fast. there has been a huge difference in my lifestyle since being single and moving into a new apt. it has really helped me focus more on discovering more esoteric spiritual writings.

-inceased dream activity. this is the one that really excited me. david talks incredibly how dreams will increase dealing with ufos or extraterrestrials and the like. i started to receive these very vivid dreams almost every night dealing with flying, levitation, spaceships, weird energy, the future. i can't wait to see what more is in store.

-very little stress. i let events pass through me instead of sticking to me. you could say i am very null to overly displaying emotion or letting events stress me out. it's as if i know there is nothing to worry about and that i've possibly finally realized my duty here as a wanderer.

-synchronicity. are you kidding me? 11:11's and all the whole crew. numbers and "coincidences" galore. it's gotten to the point where i'm not even surprised anymore.

has anyone else had the same symptoms or even all??

[911aware]

a lot of those things are similar to what i experience now. the ringing in the ears was so loud one night, it felt like it was vibrating my whole body...very annoying, and didn't get much sleep that night.

i have over the last two years been researching constantly...both me and a friend of mine...what i miss, he doesn't, so we are both pretty thourough.

increased dream activity, yes. avoiding bad foods (hfcs, msg and more organic food. i've always had some sort of sense about people....at a club or something it is like i could pick up the people that didn't come from here or something...wierd..

yes, the hexagon on saturn is definately wierd, and i feel like ive been pretty much full circle with the research now....i have understanding of all the theories and concepts, and am now backing a lot of the stuff up with what the bardo thodal teaches, and researching other religions (now that i can have a more balanced approach to them).



with the nearing of 2012 as the earth begins to cross the galactic median, i'd like to list several changes i've began noticing with my body:

-high pitched ringing noise in my ears.
[b]-sleeping in late everyday. for the past few months, i've been sleeping anywhere past 1-2pm.
-constantly craving liquid diet.
-avoiding unhealthy foods.
-endless need to research information
-increased psychic feelings about people.
-solitude.
-increased dream activity.
-very little stress.
-synchronicity.
has anyone else had the same symptoms or even all??

[NegaNova]

a lot of those things are similar to what i experience now. the ringing in the ears was so loud one night, it felt like it was vibrating my whole body...very annoying, and didn't get much sleep that night.

i have over the last two years been researching constantly...both me and a friend of mine...what i miss, he doesn't, so we are both pretty thourough.

increased dream activity, yes. avoiding bad foods (hfcs, msg and more organic food. i've always had some sort of sense about people....at a club or something it is like i could pick up the people that didn't come from here or something...wierd..

yes, the hexagon on saturn is definately wierd, and i feel like ive been pretty much full circle with the research now....i have understanding of all the theories and concepts, and am now backing a lot of the stuff up with what the bardo thodal teaches, and researching other religions (now that i can have a more balanced approach to them).

agreed. i've been noticing a lot more ringing as well. i remember less than a month ago i was with a friend and we were talking about the ringing.. but we kind of went off track.. and then suddenly i could hear like this... hollow.. almost like a radio transmission in my ear, but it was just static.. i've never experienced anything like this before and i was unsure what it was. it was awesome though haha, after it ended i was just like ,"holy crap whatever that was, thank you so much for that experience that was awesome!"

it is difficult to know what changes are new or not though, as i don't have much contact with people from the very older generations, and my parents think i'm whack lol.

[Alloura]

was just thinking about the changes i've been expeirencing lately - glad to find this thread.

i've had the ringing in my ears for as long as i can remember, tho lately it tends to change pitch and frequency.... i need to pay closer attention to what is going on when the change happens.

the sense of time speeding up, but i seem to be "sloshing thur the mud" to get the simplest things done. just accomplishing the normal routine things seem to take up so much more time. longing to just go sit outside and be near the earth.

lots of syncs with time - 11.11, 3.33.

also, daughter is away at college, but when she is here, we have these incredible,spiritual conversations!! (love them!) seems that things i become aware of while she is away, she brings up as soon as she gets home - having come to the same conclusions. so cool.

dreams lately have had many people visiting that i have not seen in a long time. seems like they are all individuals that i have had a karmic connection to, and whatever needed to be addressed, has been taken care of. sort of like a positive good bye dream. not sure how to take that....

love & light
alloura

[Bill]

the last few days have been hellish... our finances are in the toilet, and getting worse. hard to keep any sense of optimism, but remembering this is an experience i chose to go through..

despite that, i think something big is about to unfold, it just really feels that way... i noticed the sudden increase of ufo sightings everywhere (with the exception of my back yard), the chem trails are looking real erratic lately, and just this morning, a bunch of announcements that make me wonder if they are all connected...

the governor of co announced today that he is not seeking re-election. at the same time, two other senators have indicated the same thing. i also noticed that the japan finance minister resigned as well.... hmmmm...

i have also noticed for the last few months that i have not seen any us federal reserve notes (dollars) newer than 2006...

anyone else notice anything dramatic today?

[L3dean]

i also have had a lot of time syncs... i noticed i got done reading the blogs "disclosure - endgame" at 3:33 am...

and time has begun to destabilize and merge in the now to a certain degree/ kind of like both layers of speed and slowness are overlapping each other in the same moments...

and the constant chaotic stress and tension i have been battling with for over 20 years (to make any headway with everything that needs doing) suddenly disappeared about a month ago, and it kind of feels like i have flipped positions with the world in regard to experiencing aggravation and impatience...

[Shovelcut]

next month it'll be a year since my last post in this thread and i can tell you things have really progressed since then. i wasn't comfortable talking about it back then but i had an abduction experience that totally changed my life. i quit smoking (after 15 years of 2 packs a day), my emphysema has completely gone away which in itself is a miracle, i can't stand eating meat anymore and overall i'm feeling really healthy (physically and mentally). i can deal with my newfound abilities as an empath, and i'm dreaming more now then i can ever remember...and never bad dreams.


and the constant chaotic stress and tension i have been battling with for over 20 years (to make any headway with everything that needs doing) suddenly disappeared about a month ago, and it kind of feels like i have flipped positions with the world in regard to experiencing aggravation and impatience...
i know exactly what you mean, it's like seeing the world with new eyes :)

all in all, i'm really looking forward to 2012...i can't wait to see what happens. good or bad, i'm ready! at least i think i am :d

[transiten]

hello shovelcut!

long time no posting:d mercury retrograde, old friends popping up among other forms of delayed communication!

good to hear some pple are also feeling better and not only confused by all these changes. i've had a true catalyst this december up til now but i feel it will soon be over. i ended up for an acute surgery yesterday and finally got the proper help, the long and winding road to get it has been full of synchronicities; f.i as i called my father from the hospital time was 11.22 and his number was occupied. it turned out he was calling me at home in that exact instance without knowing what i was up for...and now time is 18.11, my birthday:eek:

transiten from lie down and cry to stand up comedy;)

[L3dean]

this is the second time this has happened between me and my son...

he calls me and i barely miss the call before it kicks over to voicemail, so i hang it up and dial his number... and get his voicemail, and then he beeps in, so i hang up from voicemail and try to accept the call - only to find out i disconnected his re-call...

in the meantime... he is doing the exact same thing- only a half step out of phase with my calls...

so then when we finally get each other on the phone - all we can do is laugh for the first 3 or 4 minutes...

just wow...:rolleyes:

[NegaNova]

hahaha, you guys are soo awesome! i've ready felt that 2010 is extremely powerful already! i found december to be quite challenging, and the very beginning of the new year was strange, but now, suddenly i just feel sparks of joy and happiness throughout the day, and i can feel myself just radiating my love for all things to the water that i drink, to the food and rocks that sit in my room, and to like every particle of life around me. in fact, i cannot describe the love i have for all of you in this forum, because there is such a strong sense of companionship and community among all of you, so for that i'm thankful. thank you for being! :)

and yeah, i'm sure you can all feel it too, but there are such high concentrated energies flowing through the planet right now, we could not be born in a more exciting time! i'm grateful for all of you! thank you! we are always together! :d now let's do this **** haha ;)

[Echo]

i also have had a lot of time syncs... i noticed i got done reading the blogs "disclosure - endgame" at 3:33 am...

and time has begun to destabilize and merge in the now to a certain degree/ kind of like both layers of speed and slowness are overlapping each other in the same moments...

and the constant chaotic stress and tension i have been battling with for over 20 years (to make any headway with everything that needs doing) suddenly disappeared about a month ago, and it kind of feels like i have flipped positions with the world in regard to experiencing aggravation and impatience...

time is relative l3dean and now that you realize that, you will lead a different path. positive i'm hoping! :)

love and peace.

[SometimesThere]

the most striking change for me was my dreams - they are more vivid than ever. once i would only dream maybe one time per week, now i'm having dreams every night; sometimes i even have several dreams every night. and in a few of dreams i've been looking up at the sky at night seeing amazing sights - interestingly, i remember having this dream the day before the new year. people (including myself) were gathering at a gate, cheering loudly. then suddenly as the sun was setting, this huge spiral appeared in the sky.

another thing is now i'm getting numbers like 909, 707 and 1111 when i glance down at the time.

and i seem to be more intuitive than ever. it's becoming easier for my to get the gist of what someone may be thinking or feeling.

i also seem to have a ton load of energy, or am really tired. and all my friends have told me that i seemed more happier than ever before.

[abysmaltouch]

this is a great thread- being able to see where we stand as a collective :) thank you

---dreams are becoming extremely detailed- i'm finding that i take joy in healing, meditation, learning of spirit, being of service, prayer--- these are the driving forces in my life

there's an abundance of love
i feel sensitive and believe to have a greater sense/appreciation for beauty and goodness(through nature and people)
-everyone has a heart and the ability to love... i'm beginning to see this
i recognize my faults quicker and with clarity- the will power to change comes with ease
insights regarding emotion seem natural

there's a change among my friends- spiritual journey/soul-remembrance -we connect easier and there's always joy when speaking of things regarding this

---at random times in the day i feel chills up and down my spine and tears begin to form just behind the eyes- recognizing this to be one of the purest feelings i've come to experience... it's like a download of divine love- its amazing

even music sounds different- and i looooove music :p

--there are the time prompts too- 11:11, x:22, x:33, x:44, 5:55,- there's so many! usually specific times are accompanied by a ringing in the ear-
i'm eager for the day to speak with guides at a closer level(seeing)/increase in channeling and in "psychic ability"
it's just a matter of being open to receive right??

i think being one means we can all relate to this- or at the very least agree to say there is great change happening amongst us- you can feel it -and i truly believe this is just the beginning- we're going to experience more!!!

there's so much happening to us that it makes me question if we are currently undergoing the transition from 3d-4d :confused: ???

thanks again

peace & love :d

[evolving]

there's so much happening to us that it makes me question if we are currently undergoing the transition from 3d-4d :confused: ???

we have been in the transition since the 1980's.

[abysmaltouch]

interesting... thank you :)

[jblouir]

hi all,

i am going to be straight forward here, no non-sense, clear as day, right in front of my very own eyes, i can see gray whispy tendrils emanating from my hands. if i go into a deep state of meditation i can see it coming off my entire body. thats it.

i am certain its chi.

i wish i could make this anymore clear than it already sounds, i can literally see it, its not a maybe or a might be, its there, and when i first seen it coming off my body in deep meditation it was a profound feeling. to me this is direct proof of something, i don't know what but its like looking at the hugest diamond in the world but no one else can see it. there must be some way of measuring this, or hell there must be some kind of camera or visual device that could be made to see it.

my purpose for coming here is that i believe i can teach people to see it, i am certain i can, teachings other to see it is the only way i believe i can prove that it exists.

explaining how to do it is quite simple.

you need a dark room, the room needs enough light so that you can make out the light and dark contrast of colours on your bedsheets for example. so for example sit on your bed, but have the hallway light on for example, or even moonlight should be bright enough.

enter into meditation, or calm yourself, anything to bring yourself to a peaceful state, you need to relax. raise your hands up facing each other at about stomach height.

relax your eyes, you want to focus your eyes so that your looking at the space between your hands, dont focus on your hands and dont focus on your bedsheets (might sound a bit odd but you need to somehow focus your eyes to the space inbetween your hands). then just gaze at that space, it could take awhile, it seems to help if you pay attention to your breathing and trying to visualise light moving through your body and hands.

this is what i do anyway, dont force it, just relax and maintaining focus on that space, just kind of "zone out", if you know what i mean, when your mind zones out for a second and your not really thinking of anything, when your eyes just kind of unfocus, thats what you need to try to achieve in a relaxed way.

one you can see it, it will look like little whispy smoke, when you can really see it and feel it, remember that focus you have achieved with your eyes, once you have that focus you should be able to see it emanating off your body, if you close your eyes and meditate bringing in light energy, feel your body filling up and being warmed by the light, you should hopefully be able to lots and lots of it coming off of you.

i really hope someone else can achieve this, let me know if you do or if you have any questions. ( i am sorry this is probably waaaay off topic, but i dont know where else to put it!)

thanks and good luck!

jeremy

[NegaNova]

hi all,

i am going to be straight forward here, no non-sense, clear as day, right in front of my very own eyes, i can see gray whispy tendrils emanating from my hands. if i go into a deep state of meditation i can see it coming off my entire body. thats it.

i am certain its chi.

i wish i could make this anymore clear than it already sounds, i can literally see it, its not a maybe or a might be, its there, and when i first seen it coming off my body in deep meditation it was a profound feeling. to me this is direct proof of something, i don't know what but its like looking at the hugest diamond in the world but no one else can see it. there must be some way of measuring this, or hell there must be some kind of camera or visual device that could be made to see it.

my purpose for coming here is that i believe i can teach people to see it, i am certain i can, teachings other to see it is the only way i believe i can prove that it exists.

explaining how to do it is quite simple.

you need a dark room, the room needs enough light so that you can make out the light and dark contrast of colours on your bedsheets for example. so for example sit on your bed, but have the hallway light on for example, or even moonlight should be bright enough.

enter into meditation, or calm yourself, anything to bring yourself to a peaceful state, you need to relax. raise your hands up facing each other at about stomach height.

relax your eyes, you want to focus your eyes so that your looking at the space between your hands, dont focus on your hands and dont focus on your bedsheets (might sound a bit odd but you need to somehow focus your eyes to the space inbetween your hands). then just gaze at that space, it could take awhile, it seems to help if you pay attention to your breathing and trying to visualise light moving through your body and hands.

this is what i do anyway, dont force it, just relax and maintaining focus on that space, just kind of "zone out", if you know what i mean, when your mind zones out for a second and your not really thinking of anything, when your eyes just kind of unfocus, thats what you need to try to achieve in a relaxed way.

one you can see it, it will look like little whispy smoke, when you can really see it and feel it, remember that focus you have achieved with your eyes, once you have that focus you should be able to see it emanating off your body, if you close your eyes and meditate bringing in light energy, feel your body filling up and being warmed by the light, you should hopefully be able to lots and lots of it coming off of you.

i really hope someone else can achieve this, let me know if you do or if you have any questions. ( i am sorry this is probably waaaay off topic, but i dont know where else to put it!)

thanks and good luck!

jeremy

lol dude that is awesome. i haven't tried your method yet, but i will later tonight and see what happens for me. i have also seen whisps of smoke coming off stones i've meditated with, so i have a feeling i know exactly what you're talking about. i'm so so so glad you've discovered this within yourself! you are a bright shining being haha, thanks for the post! :o

[sailormon]

new here, so this is my first post. i have posted this on another site with some interest which is ok, but i just want this to be out there. i am not into fancy words, just the facts. well before i read any of this stuff, i had a strong desire to set many things right in my life and an urgency to change, but did not know where to start. i confess, i have stood on the outside of humanity my whole life, with an inner awareness so spiritual growth is more natural to me. i also have a life time of being moderately psychic, but did not practice it.

what i would like to know is, has anyone gained tk telekinesis? i have researched it plus looking around and it is not shared by many or none at this point. like the prior post, a life force is used to make this happen as well as some focus and concentration. i know the post prior to this ties into tk very well.

about 6 weeks ago i started meditation plus experimenting with psy wheels. look this up on you tube but be aware they can be staged as well as most use proximal hands to make them turn. this is where i started and then noticed that i would walk away and the wheels would continue to turn. this got into making 4-5 at a time move or dance as i put it. for a while i could not turn this off and it led to bad headaches and lately i can concentrate without the pain starting up. i can when i try get them to move and continue even while i am in another room.

why i am writing this down is because it is scientifically impossible, yet i feel it opens the mind and inner self up much faster and leads hopefully to better things. i find this exciting and not a gimmick nor a toy.

this last it most amazing considering it is so rare. my wife whom could care less about changing and would rather decorate and shop tried this perhaps 5 times and each time did as well as i, including doing it from a distance. this could be working through me, i don't know. but then, her sister came down and the same thing. i placed five wheels set up on a board on her lap and they all took turns taking off as with my wife, interesting. however, both these gals have had ufo/lost time experience plus other experience if that may have an effect. there is more, but enough here to get the idea out there and i would love to share experiences of this with another if there is one.
by the way, i am not a kid, i am 70 and having a great time at this.

[redstar tyner]

hello jeremy: i would like to respond to you seeing chi. i have been able to see the universal matrix (sub atomic) nature of our universe also called sacred geometry greater than one decade. i have studied and analyzed and have even informed few others of this. through my studying the universal matrix, i have increased my abilities and able to apply in practical ways, and i have had 5 incidents of tk past 2 years that were unplanned. the sacred geometry around my personal space can be controlled by my thoughts and intentions. i can see the subatomic nature of living things very easily and of course feel with my senses. i can detect illness with people, and hear people's thoughts at times in their own voice. i am able to heal with my hands, but not as well as i think i should. currently i see four layers of energy surrounding and in front of me, the fourth is a new evolution and i believe it relates to our changing to 4th density beings. i see regular photon bursts aimed at me all day long and i know the burst is meant for me and has a consciousness to it. all sacred geometry/energy has a consciousness and every person has an amount that relates to them in a unique way. those energy emanations coming from your hands also comes from your body and i can see these around people and auras of course. the energy i see is what ra described of as water but substituted the word energy. we are in a sea of energy at all times and this is what i experience at all times. my eyes physically change when i see energy or open eye meditate. i am able to stare for long periods of time without blinking and have trained myself to see beyound this reality. i can see strands of energy that belong to me, in which i can detail. i can also change the rotation of a cluster of atoms by just concentrating either clock wise or counter that's how finite my vision is. i can tell you that a spider web has singular atoms that line up tightly next to each other and that's what's make them so strong. i can see the minute vibrations along a web. for several years i would observe these things, but now i am focusing on the matrix and how it interrelates to me. i am hoping there are others who can describe this as well. i would be very interested in your experiences with this ability. wa-do (thank you) good medicine, redstar

[divine_zigge]

hi all,

i am going to be straight forward here, no non-sense, clear as day, right in front of my very own eyes, i can see gray whispy tendrils emanating from my hands. if i go into a deep state of meditation i can see it coming off my entire body. thats it.

i am certain its chi.


starting in january this year i am able to see a transparent double image of my teeth and hands when i look into the mirror. in a meditative state or not (glasses on or off) but no other part of my body shows signs of this..

do you think this could be a possible imminent eye problem (i do wear glasses) or vibrational chi?

[George the Greek]

hi guys,

it's not like that for me at all. for the last month now i have been feeling incredible amounts of stress, being breathless, my hands are sweaty (all the time - i sleep and i wake up and my hands are wet), i feel like i am being chased, i cannot focus, even the easiest chore seems like moving a mountain and i feel physically cold - shivering (even though it's proper spring time here in athens). i haven't had a dream in months and generally feel lost and constantly in 'panic-attack mode'. i'm struggling with my ma degree and i just don't 'see the light'.

i randomly burst into tears almost every day, for no reason. i should be happy but i am not. i don't know what this is - do you..!?

sorry to complain, the last thing i want is to poison your positivity. i just would like to know if anyone feels the same..?
i was also wondering if how i feel is natural, because all of these changes (regarding 2012, interplanetary climate change etc) are happening in time-space...maybe i am sensitive to those energies....or maybe i am going mental..?

i would also like to say that ever since i started studying david's material and other spiritual material of positive nature, my life has changed for the.........worst, it seems...david's material resonates with me, but my head feels so messed up right now....i still have no clue who i am, where i come from and what i'm supposed to do.
serving others feels right. serving myself stresses me a lot (if that makes any sense).

i've also realised that i cannot talk to anyone about this - not even a 'specialist' - because they will probably think i am crazy (with all due respect). i always post messages like this and then regret it (kind of), but you guys are the only people i can say this to.

why do i feel like i am going to die?
why do i feel so scared?
so stressed that i am out of breath all the time?

i am lost and scared, but not afraid to admit it.

thank you.

my love to you all,

george.

[11wanderer11]

george,
i've recently a read a couple of people's lists of 'ascension symptoms' and i'd say what you're experiencing is all normal. the fear and stress come up because we're being forced to deal with it. to rid it from our system. plus there's just a lot going on now around the world and it's all interacting/reacting at such a high pace. personally i've been recently tossing and turning alot when i sleep, having occasional 'heat-ups' where i feel very hot in a cool controlled environment, and i've also been more susceptible to feeling ill and allergies lately. shift happens.

[Glothr]

hey all, i'm not 100% sure if this has to do with the changes leading to 2012 or not but for the last 6 months to a year i've been getting these short bursts of extreme joy and happiness. it lasts for a few seconds only but it just puts a huge smile on my face and i just feel completely and utterly happy. the times when this happens are seemingly random to me, maybe it isn't, but if i had to guess i would guess that these feelings are when people awaken or realize the truth. that's just my best guess of course, nothing concrete to go on.

[Rich Buckley]

running up to 2012 this is what we've been experiencing:

(a) mystical knowledge acquired through specific pre-dream prayers-of-intent ,
(b) followed by dream-spirit, dream-state revelations of accurate new knowledge of world events, places and things, while dreaming and
(c) then validated (of all things!) by on-line internet research the next morning.

rich

[Banana123]

i've noticed super crazy things flying off of people latley. i've been moving around a lot of blackness in peoples sinuses. (my home being near an airport.) i've noticed people coming in for bodywork because they are completley overwhelmed by the time change,and they are getting loaded up with 20 yrs. worth of exchange in the time of one year. i feel it too. i feel as though i'm working 24/7. i've noticed even laid back people are starting to get the fear because they feel it too. i have great empathy for those with the fear, but it is productive, because it is forcing people to seek inner peace. how is it possible that some are still unaware with all the eaerthquakes we've been having?

[Nomadess 2012]

it's not like that for me at all. for the last month now i have been feeling incredible amounts of stress, being breathless, my hands are sweaty (all the time - i sleep and i wake up and my hands are wet), i feel like i am being chased, i cannot focus, even the easiest chore seems like moving a mountain and i feel physically cold - shivering (even though it's proper spring time here in athens). i haven't had a dream in months and generally feel lost and constantly in 'panic-attack mode'. i'm struggling with my ma degree and i just don't 'see the light'.

i randomly burst into tears almost every day, for no reason. i should be happy but i am not. i don't know what this is - do you..!?

sorry to complain, the last thing i want is to poison your positivity. i just would like to know if anyone feels the same..?
i was also wondering if how i feel is natural, because all of these changes (regarding 2012, interplanetary climate change etc) are happening in time-space...maybe i am sensitive to those energies....or maybe i am going mental..?

i would also like to say that ever since i started studying david's material and other spiritual material of positive nature, my life has changed for the.........worst, it seems...david's material resonates with me, but my head feels so messed up right now....i still have no clue who i am, where i come from and what i'm supposed to do.
serving others feels right. serving myself stresses me a lot (if that makes any sense).

i've also realised that i cannot talk to anyone about this - not even a 'specialist' - because they will probably think i am crazy (with all due respect). i always post messages like this and then regret it (kind of), but you guys are the only people i can say this to.

why do i feel like i am going to die?
why do i feel so scared?
so stressed that i am out of breath all the time?

i am lost and scared, but not afraid to admit it.


hi george,
i know exactly how you feel. in fact, it made me feel better to see that someone else feels this way besides me. i'm generally a happy person ... but there are times, if i am to be completely honest i would say once a day, that i feel like, "what's the point to anything, why am i here? what am i doing here except for just taking up space?" sometimes i feel that all the ascension and spiritual stuff applies to everyone else except for me!!! because i serve no purpose. if i do serve a purpose, i haven't figured out what in the hell it is yet ...
i know that your country is going through some heavy **** right now, right? in being scared and stressed, you are probably absorbing much of the vibe around you. that's really hard, i know, since i am from a town in the us on the east coast, where everyone is stressed out and uptight all the time ... the vibe makes me crazy and when i leave there it feels like i need therapy (though i feel the same way you do about therapy)!!! but when i physically leave the place where that vibe is, i get better (still have those thoughts, but the fearful vibe isn't as bad).
for me, traveling always does it ... i would suggest anything that gets you out of your current routine ... a lot of times when we're stuck in a rut, we don't even realize it until we step outside of it ... does that make sense? take a trip somewhere, even if you don't have much money, just go somewhere different (not trying to say that what works for me would work for everyone) where you don't normally go. those feelings will always come back, i think the important thing is to know that it will pass.
i'm also taking a break from alcohol ... these days it feels like i'm poisoning myself ... i get all depressed and negative, it's just not worth it.
i really hope you feel better. i love athens by the way, was there in 2001 ...

[redstar tyner]

to g. t. g: i hope you feel better as time moves on re: the knowledge of earth changes. i think many people have felt this way and eventually you will be able to wrap your head around these truths that you have been seeking. this is a common feeling and everything you have read is contradictory to the way all have been hypnotized by negative polarities/society. i completed the ra series recently and noted that don elkins had referrenced the secret of ufo's. i found this book (more like a thesis) on the internet and have been enjoying the way don and carla wrote this. (late 70's) lots of ra and other confederation representatives speak. i am blown away by don's amazing gift of insight and so far ahead of his time. i read that he had passed away after the ra series was completed and was sad for me because i would have wanted to meet him. i would suggest you also read this. i find it very helpful and supportive of the ra series with good content to help others comprehend and practice the simple truths the confederation is trying to accomplish. they (aliens) mention repeatedly how simple our lives should/could be. it's also very dated wih verbiage such as ufonauts for aliens, very humerous. good medicine and love/light to you.

redstar

[redstar tyner]

i have experienced new dimensions to my abilities. last week i was driving through a canyon on my way home and the road i travel daily has two lanes. on coming traffic was fast approaching and i was approaching a singular car. it was dark, no moon and i saw a large area that covered the entire two lanes, that was irregulary shaped and i thought it was a large animal crossing the road. we often have wild burros cross and other high desert animals. the outline was 6 feet in height and 8 feet wide approximately and i could see only space through this. i could see infinity. i pulled over to the shoulder thinking that the oncoming vehicle was going to collide with this unknown space. it did not and the black hole or break in the fabric of space/time just disappeared as the car traveled past me. i experienced this event two times in the past two weeks. each time i thought i was going to collide with something, but then this event is a break in our fabric of space/time, at least that's what is being sent to me.

i have also noticed an increase in mental telepathy with co-workers. i can place thoughts in peoples heads much more easily and i am seem to prefer this communication vs. verbal. verbal is so slow and not conceptual enough for me any longer. i can receive as well as send messages quickly.

i feel very blessed to be here at this time and find others experiencing and seeking. i have a history of reincarnations that were filled with such violence and hatred. i can remember many deaths that i caused or many lives when i was killed violently. so in this life, with all the vignettes of my past fresh with me, i knew from early on that i am here to help and support life. this was gifted to me so that i could learn from all those violent mistakes. i can even tell you all, what names i had been and one in paticular had even scared me to this day. i confronted this past person which was difficult. i know this is off topic, but i hope this helps someone in some way. i am grateful to have found the ra series and this site. wa-do (thank you) and good medicine
redstar

[George the Greek]

hi all,

i am going to be straight forward here, no non-sense, clear as day, right in front of my very own eyes, i can see gray whispy tendrils emanating from my hands. if i go into a deep state of meditation i can see it coming off my entire body. thats it.

jeremy

jblouir,

first off, those first two lines made me giggle - that's a good way to put it. ;)
second:
i know exactly how you feel. i can see the same thing!
it's like """"white seaweed at the bottom of the ocean floating according to the currents""""", if that makes any sense to you.
as a matter of fact, since meditation is not working for me, this is the only 'metaphysical symptom' that i've experienced so far (dissapointing, i know).
i am pretty sure it is chi or just 'life energy'.

my question is : what do we do with it? what is its use?

god bless,

george.

[George the Greek]

to g. t. g: i hope you feel better as time moves on re: the knowledge of earth changes.

redstar

redstar,

i'm sorry but i didn't quite get that line. would you care to elaborate?:confused:
i just d/led don & carla's 'secrets of the ufo' and will start reading asap.
thank you brother - love/light 2 u 2:).

[George the Greek]

hi george,
i know exactly how you feel. in fact, it made me feel better to see that someone else feels this way besides me. i'm generally a happy person ... but there are times, if i am to be completely honest i would say once a day, that i feel like, "what's the point to anything, why am i here? what am i doing here except for just taking up space?" sometimes i feel that all the ascension and spiritual stuff applies to everyone else except for me!!! because i serve no purpose. if i do serve a purpose, i haven't figured out what in the hell it is yet ...
i know that your country is going through some heavy **** right now, right? in being scared and stressed, you are probably absorbing much of the vibe around you. that's really hard, i know, since i am from a town in the us on the east coast, where everyone is stressed out and uptight all the time ... the vibe makes me crazy and when i leave there it feels like i need therapy (though i feel the same way you do about therapy)!!! but when i physically leave the place where that vibe is, i get better (still have those thoughts, but the fearful vibe isn't as bad).
for me, traveling always does it ... i would suggest anything that gets you out of your current routine ... a lot of times when we're stuck in a rut, we don't even realize it until we step outside of it ... does that make sense? take a trip somewhere, even if you don't have much money, just go somewhere different (not trying to say that what works for me would work for everyone) where you don't normally go. those feelings will always come back, i think the important thing is to know that it will pass.
i'm also taking a break from alcohol ... these days it feels like i'm poisoning myself ... i get all depressed and negative, it's just not worth it.
i really hope you feel better. i love athens by the way, was there in 2001 ...

nomadess,

i am glad you can relate, because that (automatically) means that so can i. ;)
your words resonate with me as much as david's. what your saying is so true and so profound, i was dumbstruck when i read it.
indeed gr is in a lot of pain right now. i am doing my ma in the uk, so every time i fly over there, i do feel different - more at ease. it makes so much sense!
i would really like to go to stone henge and meditate there for a while, even though i am not good at it (can't get past that accursed 'internal dialogue' - i've had a breakthrough once in my life - i will definately post my story of that, to get everyone's valuable feedback).

thank you sister. :) i do hope you feel better too.

i love the us too even though i've never been there - i would say that you are all more than welcome to visit, but if you guys are as sensitive to all this (stress) energy as i am (which i am sure you all are), i wouldn't recommend it right now :d.
my teacher (who is a light-worker, even though he doesn't realise it) says that even though picasso was a dubious character, he was very clever indeed, because he managed to surround himself with artists, philosophers & poets, that intellectually 'fed' him, for the best part of his life. i want to do the same - spiritually. i want to know everything about our universe.
can't wait to float around in time-space with you guys in a couple of years. i hope all of this is true...

god bless you all,

george.

[TheNow]

hello all!

let's see, i've always felt alienated and confused from the rest of society. this feeling stuck with me until i was browsing a certain anonymous chan website and came across a random thread. in this thread the original poster was inquiring about his personality, and lo and behold it sounded very similar to my own. interested, i proceeded to read all the replies and someone posted that the op was a "wanderer".

the person who responded with this information posted a link to the section about wanderers on the lawofone website. being the investigative and open minded person i am, i followed the link and skipped around in the sea of information in front of me. certain messages in the section really stuck with me so i did some more research on the "google internet machine", which lead me eventually to this website. after watching david's 2012 enigma i really felt sure of something for once in my 20 years of existence.

anyways, as i continue my research on the related subjects, the more connections i make and the clearer the picture becomes to me. as far as changes that i'm experiencing goes, a multitude of them are becoming evident. in broad daylight and especially at night when i go for walks, street lights and cross walk lights have intense auras around them (and recently, a streak of light in the shape of a v are pointing down from them). increasingly, street lights will go off when i walk under them, and i'm seeing some unexplainable ufos in the sky. i'm having increasing deva vus as well, and most of them seem to occur when i'm researching 2012/lawofone material. along with the deja vus, i'm experiencing left ear ringing and sensations/vibrations in different areas of my body. time synchronizations are also occurring more often, as i looked at the clock at 11:11 just a bit ago. my dreams are now involving past friends and family and co-workers and usually have a meaning that i can understand.

i truly feel at peace for once in my life, and most of the people i know notice this as well. my brothers, let us all be an example in our daily life of the power of love and compassion.

in light and love :d

[Nomadess 2012]

it makes me feel so awesome when i make someone feel better!!! your reply made me feel better too!!!

i would say that those feelings i have fluctuate every day ... i can be totally happy and then suddenly i can be the opposite. i try not to have any worry because i think things manifest themselves faster these days ... but sometimes i feel so strongly negative ... but again i tell myself that it will pass. i guess i don't try to fight the feeling anymore but just let it come and know it will pass.

keep in touch okay?

[RAB80]

hey everyone, i wanted to throw something out there that happened to me last night. first of all, i have to say that in david's latest blog entry when he offers up the sort of guideline for discussing things with people in a post disclosure environment, is something i've thought about for ages and ages! i'm surrounded by people who aren't what you would call hardcore believers where the possibility of disclosure is concerned. i've put the "small doses" approach into my personal dealings with people for a couple of years now for just that reason. i give them just enough to make them think and also i've found just enough to make them want to come back when something happens that corroborates things i say.

the interesting event of last night though warrants sharing! i wonder if the rest of you have had similar experiences recently? the people i work with are a pretty open minded group but like most of the general populous, they tend to take the subject of ufo's and aliens etc a bit laughingly. i've known these people for nearly seven years and every time the subject comes up, it sparks about two minutes of actual contemplative discussion followed by another twenty of jabs and dismissive jokes.

now, we've been having a lot of interesting things happen in the world as of late and after reading david's past couple of blogs, i thought i'd try a little experiment. it was inspired by what david said about people being subtly pushed toward a more receptive attitude about et's. so, i thought, if things are starting to progress more and more behind the scenes, will my co-workers attitudes have changed any at all when i just throw a big revelation out in the open?

so, in causal conversation, i brought up the phobos pictures and said that i've seen a bit of chatter going on that the esa may be preparing to officially announce that the moon was a constructed orbiting base of some kind and i mentioned the monolith and the fact that buz aldrin had even talked about it being there. the response i got was nothing short of flabbergasting! one of their responses was "wow....wouldn't that be interesting?" and from there we ended up talking about everything from evolution to the planet that used to be made up of the asteroid belt...i was pleasantly surprised. there wasn't any attempts made to pass it of as bunk, which has *never* happened in that group of people!

that's proof enough to me that we are going through the beginning stages of a real paradigm shift! anyone else seeing this kind of stuff?

[Lightwarrior31]

i have gone through a tremendous amount of changes lately. two nights ago i had my first real "vivid dream", and the only thing i could really recall the next morning was that i pictured myself very vividly in the dream, and i was slumped over. i have always had very bad posture as a teenager (i am 23 now). i am so happy that i remembered that though because i remembered "wow i look really sad all slumped over like that." that was the first real message i have gotten from a dream though that could help me now. which i am so excited about how cool is that???

anyways about this whole insanity thing. who does all of this sound insane to? a medical doctor? yeah probably so. the only reason that it sounds like mental illness to a doctor is because that's how he has been trained to think. to me all the of these changes in peoples reality sounds perfectly normal. this is what happens when you break the paradigm. i think we all come here to see some like minded view points. to our audience all of these changes are perfectly normal. spiritual awakening is anything from normal to a sheep. to a sheep dog (all of us on here) they are normal.

i guess my main point would be that don't get too caught up on the thought of yourself being "mentally ill". i think it brings up unnecessary anxieties, fears et cetera, that are negative emotions that take you farther away from spiritual growth.

hope any of this helps. its just my humble opinion.

[Banana123]

i have gone through a tremendous amount of changes lately. two nights ago i had my first real "vivid dream", and the only thing i could really recall the next morning was that i pictured myself very vividly in the dream, and i was slumped over. i have always had very bad posture as a teenager (i am 23 now). i am so happy that i remembered that though because i remembered "wow i look really sad all slumped over like that." that was the first real message i have gotten from a dream though that could help me now. which i am so excited about how cool is that???

anyways about this whole insanity thing. who does all of this sound insane to? a medical doctor? yeah probably so. the only reason that it sounds like mental illness to a doctor is because that's how he has been trained to think. to me all the of these changes in peoples reality sounds perfectly normal. this is what happens when you break the paradigm. i think we all come here to see some like minded view points. to our audience all of these changes are perfectly normal. spiritual awakening is anything from normal to a sheep. to a sheep dog (all of us on here) they are normal.

i guess my main point would be that don't get too caught up on the thought of yourself being "mentally ill". i think it brings up unnecessary anxieties, fears et cetera, that are negative emotions that take you farther away from spiritual growth.

hope any of this helps. its just my humble opinion.


riddle,me,this?><
if there we're only two people aliue on earth, one insane and one sane, it wouldn't ma tter whose reality was correct. also they would euentually try to mate. i know tha t doesn't haue anything to do with anything, but it needed a punchline.:eek:

[kristi76]

i went through my own experience with panic attacks, general feelings of malaise and very violent vivid, horrible dreams. it passed with time..and i now believe it was a cleansing of some kind. hang in there, it will get better!! love and light..

[Alnakl]

wow, what a roller coaster of a night that was. it felt like i was being bombarded with waves of some sort of energy, they were making my whole body shudder. needless to say i had to keep getting up at regular intervals to try and understand what was going on. - have you guys been tweaking my dna?

[Ens Entium]

hi mwr1026

after reading your post about the changes you've been experiencing and i'm utterly amazed!

i wanted to ask you what you're doing in terms of:

1) whatever you think could be causing those amazing changes.

2) what you do in terms of spiritual development- meditation, visualing, contemplation, etc.

i hope this isn't too much trouble, thanks.

the question also goes out to everyone else on the thread :), what do you think he did??

kyle

[BlueSpiral]

anyone have any physical symptoms of waking up? i'll share mine, at least what i think are symptoms..that is my only conclusion. i'm been on the path most of my life i think but has kicked into high gear the last few years. a couple years ago began an extremely sharp baffling pain that would nearly bring me to my knees. it was basically a muscle spasm in my chest. of course i though i was having a heart attack at first, or something was seriously wrong. mind you, i am in excellent health, a fitness instructor, vegetarian...what the heck could it be? at one point (easter sunday) i checked myself into the er and got hooked up to the machines...whatever, they couldn't explain it. finally it disappeared when i would go into a mediation and it would subside. at times when i believe i'm "taking it to the next level" in terms of awakening, i will feel it again, but nothing like the original pains. i really feel like it was my heart chakra opening...bursting open...anyone else have any crazy mysterious pains? the body is always reflecting the spiritual and emotional body.

[charmainefrost]

.....
, i brought up the phobos pictures and said that i've seen a bit of chatter going on that the esa may be preparing to officially announce that the moon was a constructed orbiting base of some kind and i mentioned the monolith and the fact that buz aldrin had even talked about it being there. the response i got was nothing short of flabbergasting! one of their responses was "wow....wouldn't that be interesting?" and from there we ended up talking about everything from evolution to the planet that used to be made up of the asteroid belt...i was pleasantly surprised. there wasn't any attempts made to pass it of as bunk, which has *never* happened in that group of people!

that's proof enough to me that we are going through the beginning stages of a real paradigm shift! anyone else seeing this kind of stuff?

yep!!!! as more people see these things as being possible (and drop hints), more people who already hold such unexpressed thoughts feel less afraid of disclosing them; more thoughts of this nature get communicated, leading still others (who, perhaps, didn't even bother considering them before) to be open to the possibility. and then, a kind of 100th monkey effect takes place, the "thought form" grows large and energized: when a "critical mass" is open to these possibilities, suddenly a *lot* of people become open and an interest/hunger to know becomes part of mass consciousness.

mass media effect? tv shows such as "v" put forth an "ets are there but they're only malicious, deceitful reptilians-in-human-disguise" message. the several popular stargate shows seemingly offer a more balanced schmorgasbord of et possibilities, plus lots of plausible technologies, references to "ascension" and even suggestions about how ancient myths could relate to ets (go'uld instead of annunaki). and shows such as "fringe" and "lost" bring such concepts as traveling between parallel universes or parallel lives into public awareness. not such a big step to ask "where did the writer get his/her ideas? what if it's not 'just fiction'? could there be some kernels of truth here?"

[BlueSpiral]

george, it sounds like you could be suffering from a combination of symptoms of waking up but also a good bit of anxiety and panic attacks. i would suggest meditation if you don't already do it and focusing as much as you can on the present moment. there is so much uncertainty about the future that i believe a lot of people are feeling temendous anxiety. it sounds like you are in school. why not check out the student counseling center? there is no shame in it. perhaps just talking to someone could help relieve your anxiety. they will not think you're crazy, the worst they would do is offer you some meds, which you don't have to take if you don't want. it will get better, there is nothing to fear. take care, alison

[NHY]

i'm not sure if all of this is related to 2012 but i'll speck my mind anyway.

* for starers, one thing i noticed is that i've had periods where i had a strange feeling that something was either happening or was about to happen that would mean things would never be the same again. this has occurs in my personal life, locally, nationally and internationally, one such period was the last few days of 2004 and early 2005, around the time of the asian tsunami as well as a local incident that i don't wish to discuss. this has come and gone since, i think the most recent was earlier this year.

* i seemed to have a sense of intuition that can be frightfully accurate. i remember last june, i said in my head one thursday ' something is going to happen next week that will shake my world to the core. ' come the following thursday, michael jackson died. that didn't just shake my world, let it be known. it did change me though and i promised to be truer to myself after seeing the outpouring of grief and love for this person. its a contributing factor that led me to eventually leave behind something that wasn't working for me and do something new in terms of college.

* like a few others here, i've had psychical symptoms of a change occurring. that includes pains in the chest, panic attacks, unexplained sweating, dizziness and feeling like i'm about to faint as well as a sudden stinging pain on my left side that causes me to jump when it occurs. don't get my wrong, i can be easily stressed but i never had any of these symptoms in secondary school, only when i was in college did they start and the first panic attack happened during the summer!

* i turned my back on organised religion. i was born and raised a catholic but i questioned the whole point of organised religion even from a young age ( mass was generally boring to me begin with ) and as i got older, the fact that the church had such an iron grip on irish culture in the past disgusts me. don't get me wrong, i believe in god but the catholic religion just doesn't register with me anymore. i'd rather make up my own mind on what i want to believe. after all, a wise man once said that the kingdom of heaven is within.

* back in february this year, i went to what i could best call a prayer group meeting, when it wasn't really that to begin, with but anyways at the start we were all encouraged to close our eyes to invite the holy spirit into the room while the two hosts guided us along by prayer and song, they also share visions that are seen during this part of the session.

anyways, it was rather interesting, i remember feeling goosebumps flow across my body when they was no apparent reason to and as it went on, i could see in my mind, me being engulfed with fire.i was alarmed but i wasn't worried as i knew it wasn't going to harm me. later, one of the hosts spoke of seeing someone engulfed in flames and that it meant that i was very special and that i could expect a miracle to happen in my life in a few months, i was mind blown!

thats all i can think of right now.

love & peace to all

adrian

[Berry Chastain]

i haven't previously posted or monitored this thread before now but in the last month, since ray transitioned, i have experienced tremendous changes in my lifestyle and habits.

first of all, i have found myself becoming more vegetarian in my eating style. i have no desire for beef or pork. i still eat some chicken but not that much and i am eating more fish but again not that much. i have started eating more fruits and vegetables than ever and have even started eating tofu. hmmm. never cared much for that before.
i am making sure it is non- mon-gmo though. no genentically modified anything for me if i can help it.

i have also stopped smoking. never thought it would happen. and i am sleeping differently as well, 3-4 hour periods with brief wakeful period in between.

i suspect that there are others which i haven't become aware of and will note them when they pop up.

[Psion 3-K]

it's hard for me to put my finger on what is profoundly different in my life as we move towards 2012. i still hold that date at arms length because i'm not %100 sure what is going to happen. i would certainly love for something major to occur, but the truly astounding things people are expecting seem a bit strange to me. if anything does happen, i'm betting it will happen gradually so as not to throw the frog into the boiling water, so to speak. i know wilcock has a lot of evidence to the contrary, but i still stay neutral on these matters regardless.

one thing i can tell for certain is that i'm focusing on my higher awareness much more than previously. in fact, not a moment goes by when i don't feel a sense of higher energy. i find myself trying to turn any experience into a beneficial one so that my time doesn't end up being wasted. a major part of this is getting to the point where i have absolutely no default emotional reactions which i do not desire.

i've had a good deal of success with this. there are certain things which will really anger me regardless if i chose that reaction. i think this is a result of being affected by the environment i grew up in... the emotional states of others are very easily imprinted into people when they are still infants. since the majority of people do not control their emotions actively and consistently, this is what is also energetically programmed into our youth.

i am attempting and have indeed already succeeded in getting to a point where i choose on the spot how i want to feel. this is a bit of a strange concept to me because by default it is as if people automatically react no matter what they feel like deep down. i'm choosing to refuse to be steered by my emotions and i hope that others will benefit from this in some way. i have to admit that the mind seems as physical as any solid object... it's as if it is an actual, physical machine that only changes with consistent direction over time.

i always get the sense that i've got some technical aspects of the law of attraction incorrect. at the same time i'm consistently seeing things manifest, yet i constantly have a sense that it's just my imagination. it's so difficult for me to see that people are capable of affecting things so directly and literally... whatever the case may be, i know that i'm getting somewhere. i function powerfully off of faith. even if i don't see the results, i have to know they are there. this has never been a problem for me.

perhaps things won't be exactly as i think they will be in my mind. regardless of that, i'm certain that the end results will be for my benefit. i just hate the nagging sense of lacking control on specific levels. actually, it's probably more like a lack of recognition and sensing what i've done and am actively doing. i just wish things were clearer...

[Distortion]

one thing i can tell for certain is that i'm focusing on my higher awareness much more than previously. in fact, not a moment goes by when i don't feel a sense of higher energy. i find myself trying to turn any experience into a beneficial one so that my time doesn't end up being wasted. a major part of this is getting to the point where i have absolutely no default emotional reactions which i do not desire.


totally the same man. it's a sublte change, weeks or months go by and i'll finally find myself realizing "what is going on, where did that week go?" :eek: (david ike knows this!!!) when you describe this "higher energy" i feel ya, there is definately something in me thats experiencing/observing and embracing everything around me.

i find my doubts from all aspects of my percievied illusion, to be dissolving in knowledge more and more. it's like everyday is a little cannoe trip, sometimes i'm drifting and basking in the sun and other days im dodging rocks or the rivers too shallow. sometimes, i even have to portage to get where i'm going. ^_^

theres alot of wanderers reporting these vibrational changes, it's very unique for each soul. describing the sensations is difficult, our language cannot handle the concepts. yes, there are days when we find our impatience and can't find a point to anything, and others where we are literally hugging our patience in joy. it's all part of the process, do not be decieved! there is always great harmony awaiting around every corner.

theres a song by neil young called boxcar, very insightful lyrics. (give a listen too if you want).

i'm just a passenger
on this old freight train
i ride the boxcar
through the night
i doesn't matter
where i might get off
i doesn't matter where i lie.

-neil young

overall, this vibrational change has got us all stirred up. it doesn't matter tho! at the end of the day were all just passengers on a freight train.

peace be with you all, may we all find resonence and harmony in our changing times.
:) :)

[mwr1026]

i started this thread in late september 2008. i've been off the forum quite a bit the past few months and when i popped up to look around the other day i was quite surprised to see how active it is still after all this time.

my initial comments are still pretty accurate for me. i really do seem, with some long running consistency, to be a quite different person than i was 10, or even 5 years ago. meditation is easier, meaning that it seems to go deeper with less effort. my generic level of awareness is more attuned to energy and less sensitive to upset by circumstances. in fact, circumstances are becoming routine for me that would have blown me completely off course in the past. the economic catastrophe and the political and ecological turmoil that are becoming the status quo in our modern world are invading my life in very personal and tangible ways, and yet i am steadier than ever before.

and sometimes, for no apparent reason, there's an indescribable shift. like it's a different world entirely. and in those moments, it's all marvel and wonder.
all of this, of course, is internal. the external world is accessible to it's inhabitants without any notable shift other than that it seems to be going to hell in a hand basket a lot faster and harder than in the past.

so i have a new question, related to the original one. lots of people have recorded their observations in this thread about what has been changing. the changes are all over the map. some of it sounds pretty crazy, both figuratively and literally. so the question is, "so what?" we've talked a lot about what we see going on, but does it mean anything? is all of this evidence of a transformation happening, or are we all just nuts? i know the prevailing mindset of this forum, and of the people who follow it is to go with a transformation in the works. i'm pretty solidly in that camp myself. but i'm shifting away from the need to talk about it much, and toward the need to just be in it. i'm starting to need to just shut up more and allow more. that might be why i've been silent for a while.

[TuxedoCat]

i'm glad this thread was started! i noticed a lot of changes not just in me but other people in the past 9 years. it seems to have accelerated in the last 3. i didn't even know about the 2012 theories or anything until around 2 years ago i think? so i thought i was going schizo or something. i even went to three different mental health facilities to get testing to see if i was okay and they all told me i just had anxiety.
my first "issue" was two weeks before the september 11th attacks i dreamt in vivid lucid detail of two ufo's hitting the twin towers instead of planes, then i flew and ran out into this gigantic field (there's usually a field in my dreams like this, which is one reason why i got into david wilcock because he talks about a consciousness field), where a middle eastern man was standing over a big puddle of oil crying and yelling at me.
i didn't even know who the president was at the time. i just worked all the time at blockbuster video then go home to sleep. never knew about lucid dreaming or meditation or anything so it really surprised me how i sensed something about to happen.
i've met a few people over the past 9 years that whom i have some sort of telepathic bond with. we're all real close yet hardly ever call or hang out with each other yet when we do we find out we have exact same dream visions and picking up on the same vibes and whatnot. like my friend, brother, and i, all had a dream the same night about a glowing purple portal opening up. we all saw a woman taking us to it, however for them they saw an old woman, i saw a younger woman. they didn't go in but i went in and boy it was craaaazy! lol but fun.

[12thUranus]

i'm glad this thread was started! i noticed a lot of changes not just in me but other people in the past 9 years. it seems to have accelerated in the last 3. i didn't even know about the 2012 theories or anything until around 2 years ago i think? so i thought i was going schizo or something. i even went to three different mental health facilities to get testing to see if i was okay and they all told me i just had anxiety.
my first "issue" was two weeks before the september 11th attacks i dreamt in vivid lucid detail of two ufo's hitting the twin towers instead of planes, then i flew and ran out into this gigantic field (there's usually a field in my dreams like this, which is one reason why i got into david wilcock because he talks about a consciousness field), where a middle eastern man was standing over a big puddle of oil crying and yelling at me.
i didn't even know who the president was at the time. i just worked all the time at blockbuster video then go home to sleep. never knew about lucid dreaming or meditation or anything so it really surprised me how i sensed something about to happen.
i've met a few people over the past 9 years that whom i have some sort of telepathic bond with. we're all real close yet hardly ever call or hang out with each other yet when we do we find out we have exact same dream visions and picking up on the same vibes and whatnot. like my friend, brother, and i, all had a dream the same night about a glowing purple portal opening up. we all saw a woman taking us to it, however for them they saw an old woman, i saw a younger woman. they didn't go in but i went in and boy it was craaaazy! lol but fun.

howdy tuxedocat.
well, you've got me on the edge of my seat. i hope you post some current dreams :)

[Psion 3-K]

totally the same man. it's a sublte change, weeks or months go by and i'll finally find myself realizing "what is going on, where did that week go?" :eek: (david ike knows this!!!) when you describe this "higher energy" i feel ya, there is definately something in me thats experiencing/observing and embracing everything around me.


now more than ever i am realizing the extremely finite nature of time. in order to deal with this and a suite of other challanges, i've come up with a variety of techniques. notice that i used the word 'challenge' not 'problem'. once you begin to see things as a test of your advancement and not a brutal struggle, you'll find that things become much saner all around.

first off, i've got to say that i see more and more that i'm a wanderer. i don't really like that term, though. it just seems off to me. whatever the case may be, i've devised (or maybe discovered?) a variety of ways to manage my life directly on an energetic level. to the people who have really meditated heavily on these things, what i'm about to share with you will make a lot of sense. if you are new to this path, you will need some prerequiste self exploration.

in a previous post i explained that i practice what is known as 'psionics'. that's where i get my screen name. a specific on-the-go technique for controlling your own energy and the energy affecting you goes like this. i call this 'psionic wave manipulation'. maybe there's a better name for this, but that's not the point.

what you do is you imagine a wavelength playing out across your vision. imagine it's like one of those data read outs you see on analytical computers in the movies... that's how i imagine it, but it constantly changes. as you first imagine this wave, it will become self sustaining so that you do not have to focus so much on visualizing the wave itself.

once that is done, you begin to think of what you desire to create within your inner reality. as you do this, the wave will begin to change form on its own. you will know instinctively what i'm talking about if you really get into this. granted, you won't see this in you physical vision. it will only display across your mind's eye, but for me this is rather profound. essentially that psionic wave is creative energy in its raw form. instead of just making thought suggestions on how to change, you are making your own creative energy open source to manipulate at will.

this technique is a kind of extension of what you would normally do to change aspects of your inner universe. you may want to try and affect the wave directly by imagining it changing but there's no problem with that. whatever gets you good results is a sign of progress. i get the feeling you can use this to affect the physical world at large too, but this would require a much more profound level of advancement on a planetary scale. once you get into this type of energy work, you may find yourself discovering a variety of other techniques as well.

thanks for the reply, by the way. i appreciate the kind words and i hope that my knowledge helps anyone who is after it!

[Fortyball]

so i have a new question, related to the original one. lots of people have recorded their observations in this thread about what has been changing. the changes are all over the map. some of it sounds pretty crazy, both figuratively and literally. so the question is, "so what?" we've talked a lot about what we see going on, but does it mean anything? is all of this evidence of a transformation happening, or are we all just nuts? i know the prevailing mindset of this forum, and of the people who follow it is to go with a transformation in the works. i'm pretty solidly in that camp myself. but i'm shifting away from the need to talk about it much, and toward the need to just be in it. i'm starting to need to just shut up more and allow more. that might be why i've been silent for a while.

i like this comment. kind of a 'dont tell me, show me' vibe

[Michael]

hello guys,
lately i've been getting some real weird feelings around my body, like a spider web only there is no web or spider lol. just a real weird sensation, people say its the spirit body and i do believe that. but i just need to know how to give in to it peacefully, without freaking out. i also get a wobbly feeling like if i was water..if anyone knows what i mean please help me out...i also see alot of 11:11 12:12 3:33, and all the other time prompts

-peace to all

[Alnakl]

i like this comment. kind of a 'dont tell me, show me' vibe

and that's exactly what i feel right now.

i'm getting a bit weary of cramming knowledge, following threads & synchronicities. - and still i don't know how far down the line i am.

[12thUranus]

catalyst is not an event. catalyst is an exchange between
self and other-self. it does not take place in contemplation/mind. that's the desire we are expressing here. we must expose ourselves to the catalyst of interaction. if we can do that, and vibrate more toward acceptance we become positive. if more toward control, negative.

i believe these statements to be true, yet i don't act accordingly. i must hate my life because i have no intention of letting it go. i fear losing my family, i fear losing my income. i am holding so very tightly to my life and i have no intention of letting go. therefore, i think i may embrace the fear and delve into negative orientation. in my imagining of the worst, i do not imagine my self accepting oppression. in reality i will either fight for control or end up being controlled. that is the reality i see everywhere on earth, in every exchange. control/controlled is explicitly negative sts.

i think what we really want is a cataclysm to push us to the edge. i don't think we want to make the effort ourselves. i can't speak for anyone on that. it's is how i feel though.

all in all, i leaning to the negative. i'm pretty much there already as i see it. but really, i'm just stagnant; completely avoiding catalyst; living in my head.

[Psion 3-K]

and sometimes, for no apparent reason, there's an indescribable shift. like it's a different world entirely. and in those moments, it's all marvel and wonder.
all of this, of course, is internal. the external world is accessible to it's inhabitants without any notable shift other than that it seems to be going to hell in a hand basket a lot faster and harder than in the past.

so i have a new question, related to the original one. lots of people have recorded their observations in this thread about what has been changing. the changes are all over the map. some of it sounds pretty crazy, both figuratively and literally. so the question is, "so what?" we've talked a lot about what we see going on, but does it mean anything? is all of this evidence of a transformation happening, or are we all just nuts? i know the prevailing mindset of this forum, and of the people who follow it is to go with a transformation in the works. i'm pretty solidly in that camp myself. but i'm shifting away from the need to talk about it much, and toward the need to just be in it. i'm starting to need to just shut up more and allow more. that might be why i've been silent for a while.

i've said it before and i'll say it again... i don't care how crazy i may be... what i've come across is just as real as anything else. i may say things that to others seems totally looney, but the world is an illusion. we are beings whom essentially hail from nothing. that's because there is nothing but perception/experience. when you realize this, your life becomes a blank template with which you can create what you desire.

i don't let anyone's ideas of the universe conflict with where i have arrived because if i did, i'm just choosing an alternate path to the same dead end. sure, i could believe that none of this is possible, but if i did i'd only be going down a different path of nothingness. my so called ascension may be the result of a jaded, overactive imagination, but i say it with utmost resolve when i say... i don't care what the world at large believes of any of this. i will have what i'll have in my experience and perception because perception and what i choose to create is the one thing no one can touch that is mine.

life is essentially pointless until a conscious mind comes into play. there's no need for this mass of particles and elements to exist. we do what we want with them and for others whom are outside of my mbs complex to try to dictate what is real and what is not is offensive to me. i won't have it because the only thing i can really have is love and experience. that's it. anyone who ever tries to control others are only wasting their energy because they do not realize that they only have a right to their own creation and not the creations of others. and why should this be any way else?

i know the moments of grand perspective you mentioned. it's awesome and i do a lot to try and make those moment self sustaining. and i will continue to do this as living a life which brings everyone around me and myself joy is the only thing i find worth living for. when those moments come i feel like an actual god of all that i am and it's amazing, like i scoff at the petty notions of power through total control. when you see this, you realize your relationship to everything else and why being harmonious is so much more sensible than starting wars.

i'm a work in progress; just because i say all this doesn't mean i practice it perfectly without fail. the point is that i'm devoting a ton of energy to this endeavor and the pay off is sublime and more than worth it... the fact is that the world is just like the matrix. it's all an illusion, but that in of itself is a gift if you know how to work with it. when you learn the ropes, you will see that there is literally nothing you can't have and the rules are yours to create, to an extent...

[mwr1026]

catalyst is not an event. catalyst is an exchange between self and other-self ... we must expose ourselves to the catalyst of interaction. if we can do that, and vibrate more toward acceptance we become positive. if more toward control, negative...

very well put. this is, in fact, why we are here. why we have experience. why our lives are not just smooth and even and happy and bright. every moment is a decision point either to allow or control.

could i allow the destruction and chaos if bp managed to kill the ocean, and thus the oxygen supply of the earth? for the first time since the cold war, the possibility of the end of humanity feels like more than a concept. what a catalyst! during the cold war, most of us chose control in the form of fear and anxiety. now we choose again.

the practice of allowing is perhaps the biggest change for me.

[mwr1026]

@fortyball
yes, i am realizing that all this phenomena is not the real point. according to l of o and the zen masters and my own experience, it is all about allowing and being. every experience, however mundane, however bizarre, is an opportunity to go deeper into present moment...to choose acceptance of being, or to choose anxiety, fear, and control. we tend to be more stimulated when strangeness happens, but strangeness is not evidence of deeper reality. it is merely strangeness. the obsession with strangeness, or novelty of experience, is actually a symptom of non-acceptance.

[mwr1026]

and that's exactly what i feel right now.

i'm getting a bit weary of cramming knowledge, following threads & synchronicities. - and still i don't know how far down the line i am.


i totally get this. it's what i was getting at in my response to fortyball's comment a few minutes ago. i hadn't worked my way down to this comment yet when i posted it, or i would have covered both in a single comment.

lately i am getting on the forum only about once a week or so, and not spending much time. i think it is because of this growing sense that learning more, experiencing more, and chasing after phenomena is not the real thing. my mundane life is full of real moments to allow and accept and experience fully. and those mundane moments are full and rich and teach me more than the chasing does.

it's really about validation. do i need strange and novel experience to prove something to myself, or can i see the depth and fabric of existence in my own breath and resting.

[12thUranus]

@mwr1026

i'm on the same page, really.

forgive me for bringing this back to an egocentric point. my biggest frustration with all of this is that each catalyst brings me to a negative place. i honestly don't see any exchange in this world as being positive service to others. i don't see harmony produced from any catalyst. i've never seen an exchange that wasn't ultimately self serving.
i understand what it takes to be service to others, but i'm too afraid to do what it takes. i don't want to endure the ridicule, the hardships, or to let go of what feels safe. it's in me, i believe, but i'm too scared to let it go. point blank. experiencing life is just that, experiencing it. so, i'm trying to accept that my life is gonna be "negative"-- which is an oxymoron that sends me spinning in circles.
we are all here to serve ourselves. i'm certain of it.

[Psion 3-K]

@mwr1026

i'm on the same page, really.

forgive me for bringing this back to an egocentric point. my biggest frustration with all of this is that each catalyst brings me to a negative place. i honestly don't see any exchange in this world as being positive service to others. i don't see harmony produced from any catalyst. i've never seen an exchange that wasn't ultimately self serving.
i understand what it takes to be service to others, but i'm too afraid to do what it takes. i don't want to endure the ridicule, the hardships, or to let go of what feels safe. it's in me, i believe, but i'm too scared to let it go. point blank. experiencing life is just that, experiencing it. so, i'm trying to accept that my life is gonna be "negative"-- which is an oxymoron that sends me spinning in circles.
we are all here to serve ourselves. i'm certain of it.

sounds to me like you've simply over thought all of this stuff. perhaps you've gotten a bit too deep into all this higher awareness business. my advice would be simple; just live your life and forget about all the technicalities of ascension. i think we tend to put too much weight on scrutinizing every last detail about what it means to be a master. i simply live... i do the things which raise my energy and when the negative things do come, i deal with it at that time.

perhaps we are only serving ourselves ultimately but the problem you have sounds like you're imagining that you simply can't endure the 'pain' of being selfless. either way, i don't think it matters if you do or you don't. when we all die, i bet we'll learn that a lot of what is talked about around here is just filler and fine points meant to gently guide you. i know suffering for your own advancement sounds difficult, but i say screw it. screw it all in fact. i'll attempt to be a light unto this world, but i'll be damned if i drive myself nuts thinking about some wispy and theoretical needs of my soul for my advancement.

believe me, i've experienced more than a fun house full of warped states of mind to tell you that there's no point in thinking you simply have to meet parameters a, b, and c in order to reach a specific level of advancement. when you finally do go back into spirit form, you'll probably decide that you got somewhere and it didn't include doing anything anyone else told you to do. life is a sandbox and i believe that no matter what you do, progress is made, whether it appears that way or not. granted, that doesn't mean go buck wild. just don't sweat the small stuff.

i hope this helps... i get the feeling you may not find any of this useful, but alas, this is just how i feel. perhaps someone sees what i'm getting at.

[Enivid]

@mwr1026

i'm on the same page, really.

forgive me for bringing this back to an egocentric point. my biggest frustration with all of this is that each catalyst brings me to a negative place. i honestly don't see any exchange in this world as being positive service to others. i don't see harmony produced from any catalyst. i've never seen an exchange that wasn't ultimately self serving.
i understand what it takes to be service to others, but i'm too afraid to do what it takes. i don't want to endure the ridicule, the hardships, or to let go of what feels safe. it's in me, i believe, but i'm too scared to let it go. point blank. experiencing life is just that, experiencing it. so, i'm trying to accept that my life is gonna be "negative"-- which is an oxymoron that sends me spinning in circles.
we are all here to serve ourselves. i'm certain of it.


do as i, learn the weak spots in the system and use smart moves to gather the masses. one thing is a petition for a monetary system where money is created for the equality of all. i don't say that it will cripple all the negative forces, since this new system will be based on what the smart people have been saying for thousands of years.

but in the end we have no money, because we can manifest from mind :).

im serving everyone and myself. i love all, me, you, anyone, even thoose who enslave and exploit others with so much negative consequences.

[mwr1026]

@mwr1026

i'm on the same page, really.

forgive me for bringing this back to an egocentric point. my biggest frustration with all of this is that each catalyst brings me to a negative place. i honestly don't see any exchange in this world as being positive service to others. i don't see harmony produced from any catalyst. i've never seen an exchange that wasn't ultimately self serving.
i understand what it takes to be service to others, but i'm too afraid to do what it takes. i don't want to endure the ridicule, the hardships, or to let go of what feels safe. it's in me, i believe, but i'm too scared to let it go. point blank. experiencing life is just that, experiencing it. so, i'm trying to accept that my life is gonna be "negative"-- which is an oxymoron that sends me spinning in circles.
we are all here to serve ourselves. i'm certain of it.

your post has triggered several thoughtful responses. i have a response as well. i think we tend to be confused by the labels sto and sts. pardon the pun, but we have distorted them. i too have noticed that catalyst has a predisposition to being negative or difficult. but that is because we do not notice the positive catalysts so much. all experience is catalyst, whether positive or negative, pleasant or unpleasant.

the purpose in everything is to generate experience on behalf of the singularity of being of which we are all fragmented manifestations. as temporarily fragmented entities, we capture experience. that's the whole deal.

service to self is actually the loss of connection to the whole. it is manifest as fear, anxiety, obsession with what can possibly go wrong...in short, it is ego. and from it, derive all the evils of the world we know.

on the other hand, service to others is connection to the whole. it is the conscious present focus in what actually is in this present moment in this present place. it is capturing experience first hand as it occurs rather than obsessing over what could happen in the future and what has happened in the past. i am finding that conscious present living overcomes the negative instantly, and puts me in harmony with others. it allows this present moment to be all that is. it overcomes fear and anxiety. i am finding that as i experience anxiety and negatives, they increasingly trigger recognition of the need to pull back into the present moment. i have found that fear, anger, and anxiety cannot persist in present conscious focus. this, i believe, is the gist of service to others. it is not a spreadsheet tally of how many selfless versus selfish deeds you have performed. that takes care of itself as you abide more and more in the present moment. you cannot go there and still base your actions on fear and anger about the future and the past. nearly all the negatives are ego generated constructions. my favorite idea right now is "most of the things i worry about are not happening right now...ever."

[White Lotus]

i have noticed some of these changes in myself... having a desperate longing to live up to the true christ ideal. to become an enlightened being is my dream. i am attempting to attain this by meditation, consciously focusing on the eightfold path of the buddha, and studying the jefferson bible. (thomas jefferson edited the christian bible to reflect only the life and teachings of jesus christ. it is an amazing piece of work. also, it makes no mention of miracles at all!) in my humble opinion, men like buddha and jesus simply fully realized the human potential.

i have also noticed that i have only recently come to grips with the need for the illuminati or nwo or whatever you want to call it. i am no longer angry at what is going on, i simply accept that the existence of such a group has helped me come to an understanding about myself that i don't know if i would have without them. i still don't approve, but i am no longer afraid or enraged, like i was when i first learned of their existence.

[InBetweenPlace]

@mwr and psion - good responses, guys! :)

@12th uranus - as long as you stay in your head, you won't get this at all.

it's about the heart, man! it's about connection, which happens with feelings.

sounds to me like you are deathly afraid of feelings. gotta deal with that, if you'd like to understand what everyone else is talking about.

i had to get over that, too. being in my head was far safer than being in my heart, because my heart continually got beat up. yes, head was safer, but it didn't contribute to the real breakthroughs in my spiritual growth. until i began to understand that i needed to get out of my head, nothing made sense.

here's a suggestion you may or may not take: pretend that your higher self is in the room with you and just talk to him. ask him all these questons you have for us. yes, all of your questions. be honest and lay all of your cards on the table, and don't try to hide anything from him.

if you don't get an answer right away, fine. it may take a few days. but, your higher self will get back to you.

how do you ever expect to find answers, if you don't ask the questions? you can't! you must ask the questions first, in order to get the answers. the quality of your questions determines the quality of your answers - so be specific, be clear, and be honest about waht it is that is tripping you up, what it is you want to know.

this works! if ever you have desired a process that works, this is it! even if you don't feel like it's working, it will. you will find the answers soon after asking the questions, although some answers may need to play out in your life, in order for you to recognize them.

please give it try. hanging out in a forum will be less helpful than simply discussing this with your own higher self.

jc

[12thUranus]

i hope this helps... i get the feeling you may not find any of this useful, but alas, this is just how i feel. perhaps someone sees what i'm getting at.
:):):):)

four isn't enough.
psion, you and i may be kindred. many times i tune out half way through your posts, but i see you in a new light this moment.

i get such a kick out of thinking who each forum member is in society. i doubt anyone would guess correctly who i "am". you and i may be on opposite ends in the social environment, but i think i would enjoy your company.

you made me laugh this time. in a good way. very "useful"

[mwr1026]

... being in my head was far safer than being in my heart, because my heart continually got beat up. yes, head was safer, but it didn't contribute to the real breakthroughs in my spiritual growth. until i began to understand that i needed to get out of my head, nothing made sense...
i know exactly what you mean by this, but my biggest breakthrough came when i pushed through this kind of thinking. i had always believed i couldn't handle the pain. and then i reached a crisis point where i was so miserable from blocking and protecting that i knew i must push through and face it even if it literally killed me. i was pleasantly surprised to find that not only did it not kill me, it was a relief and a joy to let go of the control. in fact, it is not safer. that is a lie of the ego.


...here's a suggestion you may or may not take: pretend that your higher self is in the room with you and just talk to him. ask him all these questons you have for us. yes, all of your questions. be honest and lay all of your cards on the table, and don't try to hide anything from him.

if you don't get an answer right away, fine. it may take a few days. but, your higher self will get back to you...
this is a wonderful piece of advice. i needed the reminder. i especially like the easy going last sentence. our job is being. period. getting it right, doing spiritual practice, working hard to become more spiritual or enlightened, all are figments of the ego's imagination. you can't get it right, and you can't get it wrong. all you can do is be. you can be uptight and anxious over how well you are doing, or not. the singular being who is expressed in all of our fragmentary individualities needs to experience everything. everything! including anxiety and stress. so if you want to make that your contribution, knock yourself out. but you don't have to. as inbetweenplace suggests, it's alright not to get it all right.

[12thUranus]

service to others is connection to the whole. it is the conscious present focus in what actually is in this present moment in this present place."

your premise is well served and extremely important. however, i find it miraculous in its course ;). i think we would be hard pressed to find it in the law of one material. which is the basis of my struggling; not so much living life.

i see complex ideas easily. this is my gift (not seeing auras, or all the metaphysical talents). i can see the many angles of an intricate idea all at once. applying them to a simple reality in an understandable way is my challenge. there is a reality to which this loo must be able to be applied. this is the moment now, but to attribute the outcome to sto is still unrealized. this is the moment now, this moment is important, this moment exists, this moment involves an enormous amount of facets, this moment is part of you and i.

i believe discourse between us will be proven very fruitful. i hope to continue with you. our logic differs dramatically, yet we do have the same goal.



17.30 questioner: if an entity wants to be of service to others rather than service to self while he is in this third density, are there “best ways” of being of service to others, or is any way just as good as any other way?
ra: i am ra. the best way to be of service to others has been explicitly covered in previous material. we will iterate briefly.

the best way of service to others is the constant attempt to seek to share the love of the creator as it is known to the inner self. this involves self knowledge and the ability to open the self to the other-self without hesitation. this involves, shall we say, radiating that which is the essence or the heart of the mind/body/spirit complex.

speaking to the intention of your question, the best way for each seeker in third density to be of service to others is unique to that mind/body/spirit complex. this means that the mind/body/spirit complex must then seek within itself the intelligence of its own discernment as to the way it may best serve other-selves. this will be different for each. there is no best. there is no generalization. nothing is known.

[12thUranus]

i have also noticed that i have only recently come to grips with the need for the illuminati or nwo or whatever you want to call it. i am no longer angry at what is going on, i simply accept that the existence of such a group has helped me come to an understanding about myself that i don't know if i would have without them.

this is great. your realization gives me hope. you can see worth, and that is wonderful.

[12thUranus]

@ inbetweenplace

well, you have greatly reduced me to ignorance. if you would, please read or re-read my posts with the perspective that i am listening and following my higher self :).

i honestly don't know why i presented myself as "deathly afraid of feelings."

was it this?:
i understand what it takes to be service to others, but i'm too afraid to do what it takes. i don't want to endure the ridicule, the hardships, or to let go of what feels safe. it's in me, i believe, but i'm too scared to let it go.

i was expounding on the idea of "what it takes." what it takes is releasing attachment. it takes not looking back. it takes releasing firm grip on anything we think we love.



50.12 questioner: can you expand on the concept which is that it is necessary for an entity, during incarnation in the physical as we know it, to become polarized or interact properly with other entities and why this isn’t possible in between incarnations when the entity is aware of what he wants to do. why must he come into an incarnation and lose conscious memory of what he wants to do and then act in a way in which he hopes to act?
ra: i am ra. let us give the example of the man who sees all the poker hands. he then knows the game. it is but child’s play to gamble, for it is no risk. the other hands are known. the possibilities are known and the hand will be played correctly but with no interest.

in time/space and in the true color green density, the hands of all are open to the eye. the thoughts, the feelings, the troubles, all these may be seen. there is no deception and no desire for deception. thus much may be accomplished in harmony but the mind/body/spirit gains little polarity from this interaction.

let us re-examine this metaphor and multiply it into the longest poker game you can imagine, a lifetime. the cards are love, dislike, limitation, unhappiness, pleasure, etc. they are dealt and re-dealt and re-dealt continuously. you may, during this incarnation begin—and we stress begin—to know your own cards. you may begin to find the love within you. you may begin to balance your pleasure, your limitations, etc. however, your only indication of other-selves’ cards is to look into the eyes.

you cannot remember your hand, their hands, perhaps even the rules of this game. this game can only be won by those who lose their cards in the melting influence of love, can only be won by those who lay their pleasures, their limitations, their all upon the table face up and say inwardly: “all, all of you players, each other-self, whatever your hand, i love you.” this is the game: to know, to accept, to forgive, to balance, and to open the self in love. this cannot be done without the forgetting, for it would carry no weight in the life of the mind/body/spirit being-ness totality.

no one is doing this. not one. in the straight forward sense, this is not happening! i am simply admitting my end of it. i'm not doing it, and i don't see myself doing it. honestly, i've never seen anyone do this. (this is the same idea jesus presented. there is no going back to tell your family. nothing but dropping it all, stepping outside, start walking, and take the hits one by one until you die) anything else is serving your self.

[12thUranus]

do as i, learn the weak spots in the system and use smart moves to gather the masses.


excuse me?? taken in the context of your entire post, this statement seems harmless.

taken alone, and it makes me [feel ill]
sorry.
i would like to hear you clarify and explain.

i get the idea, i think, of the rest of your post. it is what the hippie movement was. the true hippies, not the drug induced, concert consuming, sex crazed, californication consumption of the hippies. (another example of negative consuming positive)

as long as you are loving all, you are doing better than me. i love all when i think about them, but when i engage them, i'm pretty "un loving".

[Psion 3-K]

:):):):)

four isn't enough.
psion, you and i may be kindred. many times i tune out half way through your posts, but i see you in a new light this moment.

i get such a kick out of thinking who each forum member is in society. i doubt anyone would guess correctly who i "am". you and i may be on opposite ends in the social environment, but i think i would enjoy your company.

you made me laugh this time. in a good way. very "useful"

i test waste water so i'm a scientist. i don't actively seek social engagements but i flourish in them when i find them...

believe me, i know many different kinds of being overloaded. being spirituality overloaded is one of the worst kinds of overload. it makes you feel all kinds of crazy. the difference is that when you do get it sorted out, there's always a distinct feel in the aftermath. it's much more positive than anything else, at least in my mind. i came here to check my posts and i saw david's article about the oil spill, something that has had me worried since i learned of it. it sent chills up my spine like nothing else. i don't know what it is, but i totally feel something major coming.

hopefully with our new metaphysical capabilities we will be able to change the condition of the ocean merely by concentrating our will at it. personally i've been feeling weird fluctuations in my reality... yes, something is in the works. and it's good.

i'm glad my previous post was such a delight to you! everything is going to be much better very soon, but only because people like us and anyone else on this level have constantly been saying it despite the condition of the world. if we didn't, i doubt we'd have made it past the year 1976...

ps... later on i'll jump into the rest of this discussion which started after my first reply. right now i'm just doing the direct follow up...

[humbleone]

everyone seems to be going through something similar, yet each one of us has something individually profound for them personally. this post has generated so much information. i too have had so many of the same experiences. the insatiable urge to learn more. when i couldn't find more to read, i reread "the reincarnation of edgar cayce" about a year after the first reading. amazing how i picked up on things i'd forgotten or missed. i'm calm now. i'm drawn to the wind, air, trees, sky. i have no interest really in t.v. anymore. i haven't read all the posts, there are just so many. has anyone mentioned lack of interest in t.v.? i use to love it, now it just seems silly and frivolous. i'd rather be reading and learning. i love alone time and am lucky right now to get a good bit of it. today i told my boyfriend about the law of one for the first time and he's very interested. i myself felt so uplifted afterward. i read parts of ra's material from the reincarnation of edgar cayce, and since then i've felt so good. i feel different. more detached from what's going on around me, yet more in tune. the first time i read wynn free's book, i was into it several chapters when i fell asleep on the couch. i woke later hearing someone say as clear as day "now, now." i later find out ra teaches to be in the "now". to be in the present. i also feel that i was being told it's time to wake up. i believe we're all waking up. i know it's time to go home. i love my family, and i love my boyfriend more than ever. i think he and i have followed each other from other previous lives. so when i go i'm not worried, he and i will be with each other again.

[mwr1026]

...i'm drawn to the wind, air, trees, sky. i have no interest really in t.v. anymore. i haven't read all the posts, there are just so many. has anyone mentioned lack of interest in t.v.? i use to love it, now it just seems silly and frivolous. i'd rather be reading and learning. i love alone time and am lucky right now to get a good bit of it...
i'm definitely lost to electronic media these days. i almost never turn on tv or news, and usually don't listen to radio when driving. but definitely i have lost my interest in tv.

[Psion 3-K]

i'm drawn to the wind, air, trees, sky. i have no interest really in t.v. anymore.

everyone's path is different, i guess. personally i've never been really interested in tv. there have been times when i've kept track of maybe one or two sci-fi shows that i'd watch every friday but i never watch tv every day. i do however play video games and despite the fact that i've been making leaps and bounds in my own personal evolution, i have not yet lost interest in them. i feel like most of what's on tv and the radio is garbage anyways so it doesn't take personal ascension to lose interest in it. shows like the bachelorette especially piss me off with their gross misinterpretations of what love is and the way they turn it into a disgusting ultimate neediness fest... but that's a different story altogether... ugh.

video games are different because many times they have stories that are worthwhile and you're more involved in the action. a few games have such real character interactions that i always find myself taking the good dialogue choices because i don't want to see my guy turning into a monster. furthermore i try to turn the moments when i do play games into a chance to experience different realms. instead of just playing without thinking much about it, i concentrate on my energy centers to see if i can get some degree of a higher experience out of it. surprisingly enough i've found myself more immersed in them. it's like they become a way to explore myself in a specific way. my point is that you can turn anything into a higher learning/evolution experience. you just have to figure out how.

really i hear a lot of people who want to abandon all technology and basically go live in the woods after they reach a certain level but i feel as if this is just a phase. even though i've learned a lot about how to empathize with people and be a positive influence, i still find myself taking pleasure in violent video games. it's all a matter of balance, really. being totally peaceful all the time and floating around in a state of bliss amongst nature is just as one sided and hindering of the experience of being totally entranced by violence and base pleasure. we are here to strike a balance between all realms of human experience without infringing on the wills of others. that's the hardest part and the biggest test, i think.

granted, i'm not saying being peaceful is bad. it just doesn't help to be stuck in one state of mind forever. what i'm getting at here is very specific, though. everyone needs to maintain some level peace all the time. what i speak of is the desire to abandon life and reside in one state of mind all the time. that is something i feel is counterproductive. so from my own experience i can say that the disillusionment with the technological world is temporary. or at least, that's how i wanted it and how i created it for myself. if you feel compelled to move away to a much quieter, natural location there's not problem with that. everyone simply has to decide what will bring them their own advancement.

[clairead]

i had to laugh at this

really i hear a lot of people who want to abandon all technology and basically go live in the woods after they reach a certain level but i feel as if this is just a phase.

because i've been this way my whole life, even before i stumbled upon the 'back to nature movement' when it was new (in the 70s.)

is it a phase? not sure. there are some successful comminutues and individuals who have been doing it since then who would count against it being a phase. i'm just saying!

for some poor sods, clearly it was; they went out there totally unprepared for how it would be and what they would confront in themselves, and couldn't take it and fled back to the city to become yuppies.

the successful ones had more preparation (mental spiritual and practical) and more internal stability, vision, fortitude and grit.

not that i'm biased:d

[mwr1026]

@psion 3-k
the singularity that expresses itself as all of us casts a wide net for experience. it's all good, whether fad, phase, or major shift. :)

[Psion 3-K]

@psion 3-k
the singularity that expresses itself as all of us casts a wide net for experience. it's all good, whether fad, phase, or major shift. :)

this is what i mean. there's no one 'correct' experience in regards to anything.

@clairead

i'm not saying that you're biased or anything. i also agree that technology can be a royal pain. certain things are just a matter of personal choice, though. sometimes i definitely want nothing more than to throw away every last one of my electronic devices, burn down the house and go live in a wooden hut with nature. yet i find that the greater truth is that i simply desire to strike a balance between the synthetic world and the natural world.

some will make the shift permanent. this isn't how i feel though... i hope that whatever anyone chooses that it will do nothing but help them grow, though.

[humbleone]

what i've come to realize about myself is it's not about leaving technology behind. not at all. i've had plenty alone time as of the past few months. i'm turned off by the garbage on t.v. i think. if i can find something good, intelligent and compelling i'm right there! it takes more to get me interested. i've been able to spend enough time without the outside constant barrage of junk to allow myself to look inward, be comfortable with my own thoughts and to learn. get in touch with who i am and my own way of being and learn to accept who i am. my stress level is way down and i don't feel a need to be constantly fed with something. i read a great deal. i can see where the video games can take you to another place. it creates a chance to escape.

blessings.....

[mwr1026]

@humbleone
your comment is similar to where i am at right now. i want more quiet stillness. i crave it. i don't need a fix from anywhere. not tv, not dw blog posts, not this forum, not radio, not music, not social networking not anything. i find what i need in stillness, and sun light, and my bare feet on the ground, and my own breath, and life, and my art. not to say that i have disposed of any of that other stuff. i just don't need it like i used to think i did.

i think for me this is a bigger deal than any metaphysical changes i might have noticed.

[Psion 3-K]

i realized an important thing recently about the task i incarnated here to do and the time in which i began to truly realize it. it was back in 2008 when i really began to apply my psionic ability to the tasks i faced. i had also just opened up my first bank account and was beginning to learn the ins and outs of keeping a checkbook.

my family owns a waste water testing lab and the guy who used to have my job got another one out of the country. when that happened, my father, who founded the lab, needed to find a new lab assistant. i'd always been in and out of the place, doing odd jobs here and there when i was needed the most; i never worked regularly. when the previous assistant left, i was the first one he came to because i've been around the lab my entire life. i'm no stranger to science, especially chemistry as we've had this business for so long, even since before i was born.

at first i was very reluctant to take the job but eventually i did. now here is where the synchronicity comes in and it is all so amazing when i write about it now. at the exact same time i was taking this job, which is all about testing waste water and ensuring that the people we work for are cleaning it properly, i was also quickly coming to realize i had a similar job in a higher dimension. it appears that at the same time i was given the job of testing physical waste that i also began to learn that i had the same one on a higher level! the higher task involved rebalancing the energetic negativity humanity has created due to its inability to see these realms while my physical one is all about physical waste...

the timing was perfect and the payoff of my physical job is what allowed me to buy a car, have a good bit of savings, and prepare for college. my higher dimension job, which i call being an 'agent of energy harmonics', has allowed me to see a whole new world which has enhanced my life in many ways. as i write this post, i get a feeling that this was no coincidence at all. in late 2007 i had a deep intuition as i meditated and i never really forgot about it. something was telling me that everyone on earth has some job in a higher dimension which affects the universe on a macro level, not just the earth.

i repeatedly brushed off this intuition because it came at the same time i was getting off psyche meds, but the idea never left me. i should also note that ra mentioned something in a channeling session about beings whom have the task of programming the necessary biological processes of evolution. i think my job is like this in a certain regard but since the earth is still in a very early stage of its awakening, nobody has duties this important yet. sometime in 08 when my head was clear enough, i stopped dodging the issue and took it seriously at the same time i began testing waste water... now i'm creating my existence with a level of efficiency and accuracy like never before.

like my soul told me, every single human on the planet has a higher dimension job similar to the one i have. these things are what determine the state of much more than just the earth and it is in part because humanity has not showed up its higher work at all in the past 5,000 years that we are so blind.

i thought this would be an interesting thing to share. if this post struck a chord with you, maybe you should meditate on what your higher job could possibly be. i believe it will be part of our evolution as a species to acknowledge this.

also, here's a link to the article where ra mentions the higher level of responsibility...

http://divinecosmos.com/index.php/start-here/articles/47-the-ascension-is-it-real-if-so-am-i-going-to-make-it

"there are all sorts of different job descriptions for entities in higher planes. many of these jobs do revolve around service to those in lower densities, specifically the third. and there are many ways in which that can take place.

there are those entities, for example, who are responsible for configuring the evolution process on a given planetary influence such that the design of the varying insects and animal and bird and fish and humanoid species, etc., do then fall in line with the given materials that are present in that particular planetary influence and with the innate vibrations that are present in that area. this is but one of many jobs that can be accomplished."

i believe that someone like me might be dwelling between densities, so to speak, in order to clean up the energetic background of the earth and make it ready to evolve into a higher density. i'm quoting this article because it is the only place in david's material where 'higher duties' are mentioned and i hope i'm not taking it out of context...

that's all i have to say for now... peace be to everyone, as always!

[Psion 3-K]

in recent years i have experienced a rather peculiar phenomenon when it comes to my sleep needs. it appears that i as i have grown on my path to enlightenment that my sleep schedule has gotten more and more erratic. i do not mean this in a bad way at all; there have been entire nights when i have not slept at all but then have functioned perfectly the next day.

i read from an author i trust very much that the body does not actually need as much sleep as humankind makes it seem. he wrote that it is the spirit that craves to go back into the spiritual realm to refuel, so to speak, so it can continue to deal with the harshness of the world. i was skeptical when i first read it but it appears that this is becoming very true for me.

lately i have been going to bed at around 1:30am but then waking up somewhere between 8 and 9am. but that's only after i have laid in bed for up to 2 hours just processing everything that went on that day. this as well is not an unpleasant process because i do not view my life through the lens of fear. i have probably been averaging somewhere between 5 and 7 hours of sleep for the past several weeks now but i feel absolutely great. this runs counterintuitive to the notion that everyone needs at least 9 hours of sleep.

the explanation i have read for this is that as the soul evolves, it uses its spirit much more efficiently and thus it can dwell in the physical world for longer without tiring. the unawakened individual gets all of the negative aspects of not consistently listening to their soul and thus it needs to reunite with the one for longer periods of time in order to function properly. it does that through sleep.

what is your experience with this? i remember one night i did not sleep at all but just to test myself, i went out for a run first thing in the morning and ran all the way around the block without stopping. i felt like i'd slept just as much as anyone else and was functioning as well as on any other day. i believe that the human soul really desire to be awake as often as possible and perhaps the term 'awakened individual' also implies that people begin to sleep less.

any thoughts or observations on this phenomenon would be great. thanks for reading!

[twentythreedom]

hi everyone...

as in the title, how's everyone feeling with only 2 and a bit years to go? (regardless of what may or may not happen then, the point of this is to ask how you feel now, today)

plur

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[12thUranus]

what is your experience with this? i remember one night i did not sleep at all but just to test myself, i went out for a run first thing in the morning and ran all the way around the block without stopping. i felt like i'd slept just as much as anyone else and was functioning as well as on any other day. i believe that the human soul really desire to be awake as often as possible and perhaps the term 'awakened individual' also implies that people begin to sleep less.

any thoughts or observations on this phenomenon would be great. thanks for reading!


this could be a reason. birthday near 3/23, 6/24, 9/26, 12/24.

http://www.bobmarksastrologer.com/transitspluto18.1.htm

pluto transits in aspect to the natal sun: when transiting pluto makes a stressful aspect to your natal sun (a conjunction, opposition, or square) the first thing you notice is that you feel very drained. i remember when this one first hit me. to be certain that it was pluto, i called someone whom i knew had this transit a few years earlier. “oh yes” she said. “that was the year i thought i was being pursued by demons”! pluto is a slow moving planet, so its effects will last about two years. little things that you would normally ignore will suddenly seem extremely significant and overwhelming. yes, you can feel drained, sometimes very drained. but the worse this gets, the more people around you will say how wonderful you look. that’s pluto. makes you look great on the outside while feeling terrible inside. it’s not called the planet of extremes for nothing. i’ve also noticed that in about a third of the cases, there is an attack of insomnia. pluto doesn’t want to be unconscious and vulnerable. so what do you do when this hits you? take everything with that proverbial grain of salt. just remember that it’s pretty much the same world as before the pluto came around. it’s you that has changed. if anything gets to you, ask yourself if it would have irritated you a few years earlier. if the answer is no, then you know that it is just pluto having some fun. another thing you can do is to fix things up or throw them out. pluto “energy” is great for rehabilitation or elimination. as for the insomnia, as w.c. fields once said, the best thing is to “get plenty of sleep”. the transiting sextile and trine aspects are totally different. they can make you feel energized, stronger, less fearful. like all “good” aspects though, they tend towards laziness. things are going your way, so why push. but this is the best time to make that extra effort because the “good” aspects open doors for you. take advantage of that new found energy. one more thing. resist the sudden urge you may get to dominate others, even if “they are asking for it”. if you are normally passive, pluto can easily bring people into your life who will try to dominate you. or you may suddenly have the desire to be very aggressive. see if you can transmute that into assertiveness instead.

this is relevant to "changes" mods

[Psion 3-K]

@12thuranus

that was a very good reply you just offered. personally i use a lot of planetary energies and aspects in my higher work but i've never really considered the effects of the celestial bodies. i have a few things to relate because it appears that i've subconsciously been taking advantage of the good aspects of pluto. your post seems like a really obvious synchronicity because it describes what i've been doing to direct the flow of my life. the amazing thing is that i have already been giving myself the proof of what your article is saying even before i read it. i've got the perfect story to share...

i'm a pretty avid gamer. the kinds of games i tend to play the most are in the rpg genre. for the past couple years (but not recently) i've been regularly playing a couple of those titles. from 2008-2010, i've put quite a bit of time into gaming; games these days are so dynamic that they do not get old very quickly. in one game, i was at a very high level and was close to beating all the major quests. but when i tried to add some downloadable content to the game, i began to have problems with my saved games. just as i began to realize that i was going to have to spend time troubleshooting the problem, i found myself deleting every last bit of progress i've made in one game for the past 2 years.

in about ten seconds i wiped out like 200 hours worth of combined game time. while that may seem like a lot, games like this have become so complex that you are consistently finding new ways to have fun. also i cannot stand to let my mind wander for any amount of time so sometimes that leads to me doing a specific activity, whether it be gaming or not, for long periods of time. i think this has to do with the way my mind is psionically infused with a current of energy that needs to remain focused or else it causes me a good deal of discomfort...

i took myself totally by surprise when i did this; a couple years ago i would have been very upset. i know it is not something truly important for the fact that it does not progress my physical existence directly, but it serves as a very good buffer for me to channel loose creative energy into. the funny thing is that this was actually the second time i had done this.

the entire reason i did this is simple; although i had a lot of fun playing the game, there was always a very evident, negative thought pattern. sometimes it was very prevalent while at others it was more like a minor side effect. of course, it did not always occur but the fact that it was there at all was a reflection of a general loose energy current within me. specifically, it was a pattern of thoughts which made me feel restless and rushed as i played. in real life, this manifested as impatience or a tendency to snap at people. while this wasn't something that spoiled my personality, it was burdensome.

that is why i deleted those game saves. they were 'energetically tainted' if you will, with a vibration that did not serve me. it is something i would have never considered doing under any other circumstances. despite that, my higher self practically prompted me to do it while a portion of my ego really did not want to. i wanted this to happen because it was in my best interests to eliminate that current of thought energy that did not serve me.

i always look for ways to turn my recreational activity into just that... a recreation of myself. i think this is something very important and it is even very obviously 'hinted' at in the structure of the word itself... re-creation. the reason why fun activity is meant to help you recreate yourself (to some degree) is because positive emotion brings about effective changes in your life... it's a basic fundamental of the law of attraction.

thanks for the reply, 12thuranus! i hope you, as well as others, can take something from my response as well!

[12thUranus]

:) that was great psion. a perfect account of the energy and awareness.

i'm older, of course, and this pluto effect i'm experiencing is a total destruction of personal resources (material and otherwise). its real, but i'm looking ahead to the rebuilding of it all. recreating as you say.




keep your mind/body/spirit open. no boxes. noooo boxes.

[Psion 3-K]

i have an interesting thing to share with everyone… i hope that you all are intrigued by what i am about to post. it is all about the ‘consent of the governed’ but not in terms of our physical government. instead it applies to our ‘spiritual government’… i mean, if there ever was such a thing. i mean that last bit metaphorically.

humans desire oneness and co-creation so this leads to a consensus reality. there will be an organized consensus about reality whether you realize it or not, though. the current one contains directed chaos meant to keep people from themselves; that is why it is hard even for the most enlightened individual to break free of it. the consensus reality functions off of principles described all over the law of one but the focal point of how it operates is within the field of consciousness. it is within that technical manifestation of the loo that true oneness and co-creation can be achieved and experienced. i think it is easy to say that from the way things are now, the foc is impartial to how it functions just as gravity is impartial to the objects it affects.

here i want to make a specific aspect of this communication itself clear before i go on. the way i am writing this post may seem like i am observing people as ‘weak’ but i do not doubt the ability of any soul to break out of the current consensus reality regardless of how bad it is, though. i wanted to make that very clear right about now because it may seem as if i am trying to say that some do not have it in them; this is not the case. everyone can get out. it is only ever been a matter of choice and specifically arranging your life to foster your escape. a lot of what i post contains observations that can be misconstrued; this is all i mean by saying this. with that said, i will move right along…

earth as it is now has a very clean and orderly consensus state of life meant only to prevent oneness, though. this matrix, if you will, will have even the most enlightened soul struggling to get away from the keepers of the negative way of things. in this way, the majority consent of the human race is upheld consciously or unconsciously because in sublime form, becoming unconscious is a conscious choice. this is difficult to describe, but it is based off the understanding that people have the capacity, no matter what life says, to become their true selves. if they do not, they have chosen consciously/unconsciously to do so.

this is a rather grand paradox of coming into being, that a person can make a decision within such a realm of twilight paradox. i want to describe what this chaos reality is doing specifically in the way i’ve thought of it. everything i am sharing with you now occurred to me as i was playing a computer game; sometimes i get a powerful sense of creativity as play pc games. sometimes i find myself coming up with material for the next fiction story i’ll write in my free time, but this time i felt something different.

so what does this negative consensus reality do specifically? it makes it hard for people to come to oneself regardless of their level of evolution. i hope with that single sentence you will see how insidious this is. the chaos reality probably started off as a very weak thing in the beginning but as more and more minds were ensnared, it become ultra self sustaining, each additional mind adding to it more power to imprison people. this is what has hindered a lot of honest and true seekers of truth from finding it. i know of one spiritual author who spent 47 years unable to get the answers because he could not muster a force strong enough to break away from the guardians of this reality.

it takes a significant amount of spirit power to grow in a world locked in a dark consensus reality. this is why some whom seek ‘fail’. it is because they are too caught up with survival and their material selves that a sufficient amount of their energy does not go to finding their truths. it’s as if you are in a room with a very bad mold problem; if you only use a cup of bleach to treat the problem, you will not clean it quickly. in essence, the earth is like that moldy room. in order to get very fast results you have to be armed with many bucketfuls of bleach and a willingness to apply it all. that bucket of bleach is your inner power waiting to be used to cut through the moldy state of earth’s current consensus reality and create a new and healthy one.

there is nothing at all to fear, though. so many people are awakening so rapidly right now that we will have the earth rehabilitated very soon. i have faith in our power to do so… any reality we can imagine can be made manifest. right now we are in a reality we are choosing to move away from. this is very good.

ps: i do not mean to clutter up this thread more than it is with my personal posts. if a mod wishes to put is elsewhere, i understand. the original place was in the run up to 2012 thread.

[DoMiNaNt_HuNtEr]

well summarized. it is difficult to grasp, but i am aware of what you are writing about.

btw, anybody bending spoons? i'm not *sigh*... but my mind is way too distracted now. it will all come when it comes.

[onething]

perhaps you could start with levitating a feather.

psion - yes, i see.

[Psion 3-K]

well summarized. it is difficult to grasp, but i am aware of what you are writing about.

btw, anybody bending spoons? i'm not *sigh*... but my mind is way too distracted now. it will all come when it comes.

that's a mistake, my friend. i want to tell you something from what i have experienced of these kinds of telekinetic miracles... it is a hindrance to devote energy to expecting their sudden arrival.

if there is one thing you should not do, do not get caught up in the flair of learning how to do specific physical miracles. state to yourself the desire to evolve, but never, ever expect to be given a specific new ability of some sort. i wasted a lot of time with this, trying to illicit from myself the ability manifest a similar ability. instead, just last night (and very soon after i stopped expecting a specific ability), i was shown a totally different and new thing i did not perceive of before.

this creative tool is much better than what i was attempting to teach myself originally. it's a tool that is helping me work more effectively to change things in my life for the better. it functions in a way that i never would have conceived of before. what you think you want in terms of miracle ability is most likely not what your soul is going to give you. i can tell you with a good bit of certainty that you will eventually get a new ability, though. just don't think about it too much.

it's a core aspect of the loa, never to expect something specific but be ready to be pleasantly surprised when something even better than what you think you wanted comes to you... that's all i have to say about this. of course, this post is all in terms of metaphysics and not material things.

[12thUranus]

so what does this negative consensus reality do specifically? it makes it hard for people to come to oneself regardless of their level of evolution. i hope with that single sentence you will see how insidious this is. the chaos reality probably started off as a very weak thing in the beginning but as more and more minds were ensnared, it become ultra self sustaining, each additional mind adding to it more power to imprison people. this is what has hindered a lot of honest and true seekers of truth from finding it. i know of one spiritual author who spent 47 years unable to get the answers because he could not muster a force strong enough to break away from the guardians of this reality.


one of two things. either we chose to come here because this is exactly what we wanted. or the "hard"ness is more necessary than the "coming to oneself" in mind, in this incarnation.
the governing reality of spirit is something none of us know. we have glimpses of effects of actions of spirit. this hardly constitutes any knowing by definition. we can only be who we are. we can't be the person we imagine we will be, or dream to be. we are constantly changing, and we can't expect the changes to happen as we will them to happen. look to accept the changing as it comes and be who we are as we are.

[Psion 3-K]

one of two things. either we chose to come here because this is exactly what we wanted. or the "hard"ness is more necessary than the "coming to oneself" in mind, in this incarnation.
the governing reality of spirit is something none of us know. we have glimpses of effects of actions of spirit. this hardly constitutes any knowing by definition. we can only be who we are. we can't be the person we imagine we will be, or dream to be. we are constantly changing, and we can't expect the changes to happen as we will them to happen. look to accept the changing as it comes and be who we are as we are.

i2th, i felt very prompted to reply even though i have a triple load of work to finish right now. no offense, but on some level of my being, i am a little perplexed right now. everything that has happened to me in the past 48 hours extremely contradicts what you said to the point where it is nothing but pure fact that i am in control of what i desire.

i want to help you see something, but you must choose to see it. you do not have to take the attitude of always adapting to ever changing circumstances; that is an attitude of survival, not creation. i totally respect everything you have experienced, but this is my view. adaptation is not the same as creation. it appears that you are still coming from a very 3d sense of things even though you are very close to achieving 4d. please don't take this as some kind of condescending assessment; i am only trying to observe what i see and offer wisdom through what i have experienced.

polarization is a scale, not a light/dark paradigm. indeed, you choose through conscious choice and action how long to dwell in a certain density. by your attitude, it seems like you still see a lot of opportunities to feel joy in 3d so you may be blocking your progress because of that. i really haven't a clue who you are, so realize that my assessment comes through an extremely narrow lens. i only have what you have posted here on dc to go on. so i cannot express enough that the tone of this post is only observational. i have no right to offer any kind of judgments about people i do not know, so these are mere observations.

you can evolve in an instant if you choose to do so. it is not a matter of taking eons to gain knowledge that is already within you to begin with. instead, you are seeking a degree of experience-creating polarization by taking your current attitude. the wisdom for ascension is easily not missing from you at all. it is only that you are choosing to have a specific realm of experience not attainable in higher densities. so take a lot of joy in that, because it is a blessing just like any other density experience. do not get up in thinking that you have to learn wisdom that is already hard coded into your very cell membranes, though. we all know that we hail from a one true source and because of that, there is physically and metaphysically no way possible for him to separate this knowledge from us. it is in our very natures not to 'learn' anything. life is not a school; it is a gymnasium of experience.

so don't feel obligated to 'learn'. you do not have to... and let me ask you this question from the perspective of a 20 year old and don't respond with some kind of past life excuse. tabula rasa is a mechanism to prevent you from using that argument...

how on earth can a 20 year old person 'learn' what some people take 90 years to 'learn'? the question is simple. i did not become distracted in the schoolyard drama thinking there was anything to learn. i merely remembered what i already know. i hope this puts your concerns to rest, but if it doesn't, that is your choice. it is not a lack of wisdom, it is the specifics of choice that creates your awareness.

[onething]

or the "hard"ness is more necessary than the "coming to oneself" in mind, in this incarnation.
the governing reality of spirit is something none of us know.
certainly this is something that michael newton talks about in his books, that much as people cry "why me?" their souls quite often deliberately chose difficulties for the coming lifetime so as to learn certain things from them.

"coming to oneself" is also an achievement, probably one that comes when the entity is ready.

psion:


so don't feel obligated to 'learn'. you do not have to... and let me ask you this question from the perspective of a 20 year old and don't respond with some kind of past life excuse. tabula rasa is a mechanism to prevent you from using that argument...

how on earth can a 20 year old person 'learn' what some people take 90 years to 'learn'? the question is simple. i did not become distracted in the schoolyard drama thinking there was anything to learn. i merely remembered what i already know. i hope this puts your concerns to rest, but if it doesn't, that is your choice. it is not a lack of wisdom, it is the specifics of choice that creates your awareness.

i must disagree with you. it seems you are saying that you are a wise 20 year old not because your soul has learned a lot in other lifetimes, but because you just happened to manage to have a useful attitude. tabula rasa does not mean that the soul has not learned lessons, it just means that one does not remember the specifics of past lives, and especially hideous deeds one may have one. surely someone like mozart had musical experience before he began composing at the age of four. but even things like skills are not as important to soul development as the ongoing character changes that the emotional/spiritual lessons of past lives represent. these would stay with you but you don't know where they came from.

there is surely some reason we go through this painstaking process of learning in what appears to be a high stakes situation while cut off from the umbilical cord of the spirit world.

[thebombsteak]

want to scream from the mounatin tops of something thats been happening to me for a little over a year but afraid i might get locked up in the loony bin!

i was sooooo frustrated with people and the public in general. i was fed up and couldnt stand the thought of people and how everyone just seemed to be a bunch of clueless zombies roaming around. i started to refer to people as cockroaches just scurrying around in the dark! then i asked myself "what is it that you think you know that they don't"? well i didnt have an answer but there was a splinter in my mind and i was determined to get it out. i just didnt know how. i didnt know what it was that i knew was there but i knew i was missing something and it felt like it was right in front of me but i couldnt see it.

so about a year and a half ago a few months before the economic meltdown really picked up speed and i got laid off from the hedgefund i was working at, i came across a youtube video on quantum physics that blew my mind. that led to other quantum physics and quantum mechanics videos that led to more spiritual and esoteric stuff and i couldnt stop consuming the info. i wanted more and more. i wanted to learn more about this new reality i discovered.

- i've since stopped watching the news
- i stopped following politics (which i did religiously for 20 years)
- in the last few weeks my desire and cravings to smoke have faded (although i still do out of habit) and i feel i can finally have great hope kick this filthy disgusting habit just when i was feeling helpless.
- i am more laid back and less streesed out despite my income being 33% of what i used to make.
- i have started a new business that is showing tremendous potential and interest from consumers an selling well in our first store.
- i feel more spiritual and in touch with god than going to church or praying ever did for me, although i still believe jesus is my lord.
- i just feel like a different more in control person all around
- i met the most beautiful hot little babe that loves me and we constantly laugh our asses off when were together.
- im more patient with my son


i can go on and on but i have seen a dramatic change in my life and who i am as person over the last year that just blows my mind to think of the person i used to be and where ive come from..... wish i could explain it better. hope you all can relate...

[12thUranus]

please don't take this as some kind of condescending assessment;

i never do with you, psion. :)


and let me ask you this question from the perspective of a 20 year old and don't respond with some kind of past life excuse

:)

....my post was not one to question our knowledge of the existence of spirit. my purpose was to direct to the awareness of what we are here for. we each have our own, and each existence is tailored specific. this existence is not something to be usurped and surpassed, rather it is something to be enveloped and undertaken.

[onething]

dear bomgsteak!

lovely post! you know, you can see that people are asleep but then again sometimes when you really get a chance to talk to them, you can be quite surprised at what you find where you didn't expect to find it. just sayin'.

sounds to me like you've been born again - for real this time. not some dogma decision, no, but a real burst of inner-outer divine energy connection that brings your soul and brain alive. yes, it does change one's perception, doesn't it?

i call it the holy spirit.


- i met the most beautiful hot little babe that loves me and we constantly ....





laugh our asses off when were together.

whew!