My Journey

[themis]

hi everyone,

i have begun a peculiar journey of late, which apparently has me here, now.
and though i found this meeting place by accident, having had a look around, i must say i am impressed by this boards unique collection of insightful thinkers.
hopefully i am at the right place for me, but if i am not, please excuse my trespass.

my quest began with one simple inquiry, regarding (strangely enough) the federal reserve, and then, my life as i knew it, changed; permanently i believe.
without going into great detail (although i imagine many of you will recognize this list i'm about to write) these people and ideas appeared to me (with google's help):
the illuminati, new world order, david icke, michael tsarion, zeitgeist the movie, the esoteric agenda, reptilians, ufo's, 2012, etc. etc. etc.
those theories initially blew my mind, but as it continued to grow into an extremely tangled web of fact, fiction and supposition, i needed to take a break, i decided that any resolution to these concepts would have to come a different day.

i then transitioned into a different phase, reading books by hp blavatsky, alice bailey, manley p hall and others.
these people seemed to have tapped into the ancient mysteries, and i believe much of their writings are probably close to truth. however, they likely used the tools of the occult to find their knowledge, and such means can be dangerous and possibly tainted in some way. plus the fact that their writings exceeded my level of understanding, and comprehension would require extensive study, of which i have not the patience for.

so then i wandered off in a different direction, reading books by eckhart tolle, adyashanti and others. those books and ideas resonated deeply inside me, so then i slowed down, took a deep breath; and relaxed. i remembered again what i had already known, but had let slip away; the past and future are merely dreams, only the now is real.
tolle's book did give me a better understanding of the ego. is the voice in my head me, or it? one and the same? maybe, but not quite.
my ego is more devious than i am. i am mostly content, it is not. when i answer my own questions, or have a deep thought, did it arise from the deeper me, or the superficial ego?


and so, this journey of mine has been enlightening, but still, is incomplete. at times it seems to have only created more clutter in my mind, taking me further away from the clarity that i seek. i believe that the act of writing my thoughts down on paper (as it were) is helpful to comprehend my progress, if any.
thank you for taking the time to read this, any comments would be welcome.

peace

[larissa]

hi themis, thanks for your post. yes, i'm familiar with all the names you mentioned. i ended up with dw because i liked him the best. and this forum has been a safe place to visit, as well as informative and supportive.

the journey is pretty incredible, and there's a process happening that is underneath, or beyond the mere gathering of information. it's helpful to know what's going on in the world, and amidst all the apparent contradictions there is a theme that is consistent, but whatever is occurring on that inner level of being is what's powerful and relevant to the much needed change in this world.

don't know if i'm making sense, because this "thing" operates on an unconscious level, which frustrates me, but it doesn't matter, because the results are worth it. i find it's a good thing to not question too much, because that inhibits the process. not to abandon discernment, but to let things take their course, because there is something larger than us that is creating on a massive scale.

and it's not like being mind controlled or anything like that, it's being part of who we all are as one, and feelings are the guidance system. i'm learning more and more to trust my gut so to speak, as to what to do and not do. being mind controlled is what i've been all my life as we all have, and the full extent of that conditioning is surfacing more every day with every piece of research i'm guided to.

it's being uncovered in manageable bits, so i'm not overwhelmed, but even so it's pretty horrific and mind boggling. and i thought i know all about this stuff years ago, it took the internet to show me the details. not to mention my own shadow self that's emerging as well, not a pretty picture, but i know it needs to come up so that it can be released.

david is the man with the lamp who is showing the way, it's not recommended to take this journey alone or without guidance, but that is not set in stone. everyone has a choice. and everyone has their own individual requirements within the larger whole. i could ramble on for ages, so i'll stop now, and say welcome and hope you enjoy the forum.

[One 66]

themis,

always good to see a new face (in this case, name) in here. i've been on my quest for 9 years this month, and everything you've mentioned was pretty much what i was led too. eventually, it'll all make sense even though it may not in the beginning. everything will tie it self together when it is right for you.

you might want to check out project camelot for some good interviews.

one 66 :cool:

(by the way, d icke - a thumbs up)

[meganarline]

i think most of us here have been on similar journies as yours:). for some it's been a winding road for some a quicker straighter route.


and though i found this meeting place by accident,

i too found this place in a really round about way, but am very happy to be here and don't think it was by any means accidental (after the fact).

i too researched just about anything i could and read anything i could get my hands on in relation to what is really going on in our world. i have also read a gazillion books on spirituality over the years as well.

once i found this place it just clicked with me. i would recommend reading david's books, articles and blogs as well as checking out his recommended reading list.

there is also a massive amount of wonderful insight that has been shared by all of our other selves.

pull up a chair and dig in. i am sure we would all love to hear more of your journey. if it is helpful for you to share, then it is helpful for us to listen.



the journey is pretty incredible, and there's a process happening that is underneath, or beyond the mere gathering of information. it's helpful to know what's going on in the world, and amidst all the apparent contradictions there is a theme that is consistent, but whatever is occurring on that inner level of being is what's powerful and relevant to the much needed change in this world.

larissa, you are making perfect sense and that is soooooo true. thanks,

take care,

megan

[themis]

i apologize for wasting bandwidth with 'my story', as i realize it is selfish and of no particular interest to anyone but myself.

i can now say with certainty that i have fallen into the rabbit hole, i have chosen the red pill.
information is coming at an extremely rapid pace, i feel like a child who is first learning of the world.
though pieces of the puzzle are presenting themselves to me, i realize that there still many 'miles to go before i sleep'.

last night was my first experience of reading the guidances of ra and q'uo; of the 3rd and 4th densities, of the spiritual realm i had long suspected, but could not figure out on my own.
now i need to learn how to integrate this newly found information into my 'real life'.
i still have to eat, work, pay bills, and interact with my fellow humans. however, i feel the need to pursue this journey 'in secret', i can not find the strength to tell others what i am doing. i am fairly certain that if i tell friends and family this tale, i will become subjected to scorn and worries of my 'sanity'.
i have convinced myself that people must find this information on their own, if they are ready, if the calling comes to them. i do not feel compelled to offer this red pill to anyone else, and i prefer to walk this trail alone (or perhaps with you good people).

thanks for reading, i will now continue my studies and hopefully find my purpose in this struggle.

peace

[Berry Chastain]

themis,
i could almost quote your story and call it mine, they are so similar.

i spent many years mired in traditional religeon without finding satisfactory resolution to what i was feeling inside. a few years ago, i started attending a unity church, which seemed to be at first a move in the right direction. at least unity offered more to being than the dogmatic presentations of the established religeons provided.

i was introduced to numerous books, most of those you mentioned and many more. i started searching the internet as you did and discovered all of the coverups, transmissions from various higher level entities, and a host of outlandish doom and gloom predictions surrounding 2012. it was a mish-mash of stuff which i couldn't reconcile. then i discovered one site/book which led me to find another site where the ra material was available. i started reading the law of one and immediately knew that i had discovered something that resonated with my deepest inner being as well as my higher self. i was hooked within the first couple of sessions. then a friend of mine who i was discussing it with, told me about david wilcock, not even mentioning that he was deeply involved with the ra material. wow! i was in "heaven".

i have immersed myself in the shift of the ages book, read his study materials for the loo and am thoroughly enjoying all of this. then i realized that this forum was also on the dc site, so here i am. and as i read the various posts, i realize that i am indeed a novice in a very extensive mass of teachings. i am appreciative to be among all of you in order to further my journey toward higher awareness and continue focusing on service to others.
berry

[Bill]

themis,

you face a similar challenge/joy to most of us... i too went through the same process and experiences. i made the intentional shift to live more in accordance with my higher self, and have been grateful for it. what i have learned, after the fact, is that striving for that experience does not mean ignoring the other 'real' experience of living.

yes, you will still have 'material' experiences to deal with. but, i have now realized that doing so does not mean i have to compromise my desires to live in a higher-level... it is just a different way of looking/being with the everyday experiences. it is quite amazing to be able to take that step back, and observe the drama of everyday life as a game, and the roles that people play. it makes it easier not to get sucked into the drama, if i choose, and to better understand the perspectives of others who play their roles, but can't understand why it is that way.... rather joyous at times..

so, enjoy! even though it may be frustrating at times.