heidh
05-03-2008, 11:10 AM
hello. i'm new to the forum. relatively new to david's work also. just became acquainted in the past month.
was browsing the blogs and found myself attracted to the 4-part blog regarding "the secret". here's a link: http://www.divinecosmos.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=315&itemid=70.
in the latter part, where the author cited talks about having to make peace with money, i subconsciously felt myself "raising my hand", as if to say, "yeah, that's me."
i'm one of those people who has never gained a comfort level with money. i'm in my thirties and still live at home as a result. it's a problem, and one i'd like to remedy, but don't know how. for as long as i can remember, there's been a disconnect for me between money and wealth. wealth i see as one thing that is "true"; money i see as something that is alien and "false". i don't know why that is, and i've yet to successfully reconcile the two.
as an example, many years ago, i recall seeing a psychic for a reading. when i handed her the $20 bill for the reading, she said to me, "you have a problem with this," - "this" meaning the physical exchange of money. i said, "yes." it wasn't that i had a problem with giving her something in exchange for her service. it was with the money itself, which i felt was something alien and not a true measure of value. i've since experienced the same feeling whenever i give or receive money or checks. sometimes i'll let money i receive sit unopened in the envelope for long periods of time, because some part of me feels it's alien and not a real measure of the work i did. when handling money or anything related to it (e.g., paying a bill or invoicing a client), i always emotionally distance myself. i'm fine with bartering goods and services, and i'm fine with wealth. it's just the entity "money" that i've got some deep issue with. in fact, in my prayers, i've sometimes found myself asking, "please free me from the need for money," with the intention behind that of "please show me a way to make my way in the world without having to participate in the monetary system."
when i read this cited in david's blog, like i said, it was like the author was speaking to me. i read on with excitement, hoping that a method for overcoming this issue would be proposed, but i didn't see one. if anybody knows where more information can be found on this topic or on methods of how to "make friends" with money, i'd greatly appreciate the information. i'm a deeply spiritual person, and believe i'm working my purpose by being a singer, songwriter, and help to others however i can, but i also believe the ability to at least be financially independent should be a part of that. certainly, i believe that i should enjoy a measure of wealth equal to the service i render.
thank you.
-h
was browsing the blogs and found myself attracted to the 4-part blog regarding "the secret". here's a link: http://www.divinecosmos.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=315&itemid=70.
in the latter part, where the author cited talks about having to make peace with money, i subconsciously felt myself "raising my hand", as if to say, "yeah, that's me."
i'm one of those people who has never gained a comfort level with money. i'm in my thirties and still live at home as a result. it's a problem, and one i'd like to remedy, but don't know how. for as long as i can remember, there's been a disconnect for me between money and wealth. wealth i see as one thing that is "true"; money i see as something that is alien and "false". i don't know why that is, and i've yet to successfully reconcile the two.
as an example, many years ago, i recall seeing a psychic for a reading. when i handed her the $20 bill for the reading, she said to me, "you have a problem with this," - "this" meaning the physical exchange of money. i said, "yes." it wasn't that i had a problem with giving her something in exchange for her service. it was with the money itself, which i felt was something alien and not a true measure of value. i've since experienced the same feeling whenever i give or receive money or checks. sometimes i'll let money i receive sit unopened in the envelope for long periods of time, because some part of me feels it's alien and not a real measure of the work i did. when handling money or anything related to it (e.g., paying a bill or invoicing a client), i always emotionally distance myself. i'm fine with bartering goods and services, and i'm fine with wealth. it's just the entity "money" that i've got some deep issue with. in fact, in my prayers, i've sometimes found myself asking, "please free me from the need for money," with the intention behind that of "please show me a way to make my way in the world without having to participate in the monetary system."
when i read this cited in david's blog, like i said, it was like the author was speaking to me. i read on with excitement, hoping that a method for overcoming this issue would be proposed, but i didn't see one. if anybody knows where more information can be found on this topic or on methods of how to "make friends" with money, i'd greatly appreciate the information. i'm a deeply spiritual person, and believe i'm working my purpose by being a singer, songwriter, and help to others however i can, but i also believe the ability to at least be financially independent should be a part of that. certainly, i believe that i should enjoy a measure of wealth equal to the service i render.
thank you.
-h